Hello to all who read this. This journal is for my own personal sanity and my battle with weight. Anyone who has a similar struggle is welcome to read this, I don't know how much support can be gained, but feel free to browse through. More importantly, anyone who has struggled or continues to struggle with their weight who can lend me support, please feel free to comment and such.
Well lets get on with it then. I'm a 23 year old young woman who is studying the arts and animation in Philadelphia. I am 5'7 and currently weigh 232.1 lbs., my highest weight. I have always struggled with over eating and lack of excersize my entire life so I don't blame this on anyone but myself.. granted my parents could have helped me with portion control when I was a child, but they did what they thought was best back then. I have tried many diets and excersize programs and me, not the programs fall short. I'm highly motivated at the begenning of each plan, but as time goes on it gets more and more difficult. I have always done these things alone, because no one else in my family is overweight, one of my two sisters is a size 2, the other is a size 10, i am a size 22.. so I've always felt.. well I've always felt large.
I think I've come to a point in my life where I'm just SICK and TIRED of being sad and upset that I can't fit into whatever outfit whoever is wearing, and I also need to take care of my health. Heart disease and cancer runs in my family, and I'm really not giving myself much of a chance living this way.
Well knowing all that mostly everything else is great in my life. I have a wonderful boyfriend who loves me for who I am, and might I add he's quite a catch and he wants to marry me, my schooling is going well, I have an internship set up in the fall and I'm sure that will go well too. My family loves me and there really isn't much stress in my life.. the only problem is my weight. I want to get it under control now because I have so many plans and I want to do so much and my weight is holding me back from everything. Myself and my boyfriend are both artists and I'd like to travel and see different art, I want to go to someplace warm and sit on the beach and not feel like.. a beached whale. I want to sit out on the patio in shorts and a tank top drinking wine and not feel like.. I have to cover my arms and thighs because they're too fat. I want to wear a strapless wedding dress on my wedding day, I want to feel feminine and sexy.. I want to be able to throw on jeans and a T-shirt and look great instead of overcompensating with dresses and make-up to take the attention off of mysize and put it on my face.
I want a lot of things out of life, and I think I deserve them, but first things first, I have to lose this weight.. at this point it's the only thing that's in my way.. so wish me luck and welcome to my long, long.. long journey.
I just returned from the doctor and the good news is I didn't gain any weight, like I thought I did. That's actually excellent news for me, I usually put on a pound or so every month, but I still weigh the same thing. When I got home I really wanted to make myself french toast, bacon and eggs, but I didn't. I stood there and I told myself I wouldn't do that, so I fixed myself a bowl of oatmeal and i sliced an apple and washed it down with a bottle of water. In a few hours I'm going to fix myself a healthy snack, probably a little fruit salad and of course more water.
When I've lost weight in the past, I always drank a ludicrous amount of water, it was distracting really. I'd be in class chugging and chugging and have to getup and go to the rest room at least 5 times. ..But now I need to motivate myself to go to the gym located in my apartment complex, and hop on the treadmill and walk for 40 minutes. I used to do that every other day and I really did see a difference. I can do it.. I have to right? Right.
(okay, i typed all of that last Monday on a different website, but then I remembered this website specifically for weight loss
)
Since then I've felt a lot better and a lot more motivated, although it has only been a week and a half, I have lost 6 lbs, I'm now currently 226.6 lbs., I need to update my ticker. I had my first appointment at the fitness center and I'm really excited about working out there. Monday I have to go in at 8:30 in the morning and they're going to show me how to use all the machines and what weight machines I should be using. I'm dreading the eliptical, that thing really kicks my butt.
Today I went to the small gym at my apartment complex and worked out harder than I have in a really long time! I spent a total of fifty minutes on the treadmil and walked 3.2 miles. I started my warmup at 3 and in about 2 minutes raised it to 4.5 and set at 2 incline, i did that for about five minutes and went up to 5.4 and boy did i sweat. I had great music on though, i actually ajusted the speed to the music so that I could stay on beat and it really helped push me and push the time by. After about 10 minutes though, i got pretty tired and had to lower it back to 4.5.. i did that back and forth for a while and i increased the incline to 9 and speed to 4 and finished up. I was sweating soooo much.
Wow i'm sorry this post is extremely too long.. i guess i'll end it here, to all who read all of this.. thank you! and um.. and yeah
Well lets get on with it then. I'm a 23 year old young woman who is studying the arts and animation in Philadelphia. I am 5'7 and currently weigh 232.1 lbs., my highest weight. I have always struggled with over eating and lack of excersize my entire life so I don't blame this on anyone but myself.. granted my parents could have helped me with portion control when I was a child, but they did what they thought was best back then. I have tried many diets and excersize programs and me, not the programs fall short. I'm highly motivated at the begenning of each plan, but as time goes on it gets more and more difficult. I have always done these things alone, because no one else in my family is overweight, one of my two sisters is a size 2, the other is a size 10, i am a size 22.. so I've always felt.. well I've always felt large.
I think I've come to a point in my life where I'm just SICK and TIRED of being sad and upset that I can't fit into whatever outfit whoever is wearing, and I also need to take care of my health. Heart disease and cancer runs in my family, and I'm really not giving myself much of a chance living this way.
Well knowing all that mostly everything else is great in my life. I have a wonderful boyfriend who loves me for who I am, and might I add he's quite a catch and he wants to marry me, my schooling is going well, I have an internship set up in the fall and I'm sure that will go well too. My family loves me and there really isn't much stress in my life.. the only problem is my weight. I want to get it under control now because I have so many plans and I want to do so much and my weight is holding me back from everything. Myself and my boyfriend are both artists and I'd like to travel and see different art, I want to go to someplace warm and sit on the beach and not feel like.. a beached whale. I want to sit out on the patio in shorts and a tank top drinking wine and not feel like.. I have to cover my arms and thighs because they're too fat. I want to wear a strapless wedding dress on my wedding day, I want to feel feminine and sexy.. I want to be able to throw on jeans and a T-shirt and look great instead of overcompensating with dresses and make-up to take the attention off of mysize and put it on my face.
I want a lot of things out of life, and I think I deserve them, but first things first, I have to lose this weight.. at this point it's the only thing that's in my way.. so wish me luck and welcome to my long, long.. long journey.
I just returned from the doctor and the good news is I didn't gain any weight, like I thought I did. That's actually excellent news for me, I usually put on a pound or so every month, but I still weigh the same thing. When I got home I really wanted to make myself french toast, bacon and eggs, but I didn't. I stood there and I told myself I wouldn't do that, so I fixed myself a bowl of oatmeal and i sliced an apple and washed it down with a bottle of water. In a few hours I'm going to fix myself a healthy snack, probably a little fruit salad and of course more water.
When I've lost weight in the past, I always drank a ludicrous amount of water, it was distracting really. I'd be in class chugging and chugging and have to getup and go to the rest room at least 5 times. ..But now I need to motivate myself to go to the gym located in my apartment complex, and hop on the treadmill and walk for 40 minutes. I used to do that every other day and I really did see a difference. I can do it.. I have to right? Right.
(okay, i typed all of that last Monday on a different website, but then I remembered this website specifically for weight loss
)Since then I've felt a lot better and a lot more motivated, although it has only been a week and a half, I have lost 6 lbs, I'm now currently 226.6 lbs., I need to update my ticker
. I had my first appointment at the fitness center and I'm really excited about working out there. Monday I have to go in at 8:30 in the morning and they're going to show me how to use all the machines and what weight machines I should be using. I'm dreading the eliptical, that thing really kicks my butt.Today I went to the small gym at my apartment complex and worked out harder than I have in a really long time! I spent a total of fifty minutes on the treadmil and walked 3.2 miles. I started my warmup at 3 and in about 2 minutes raised it to 4.5 and set at 2 incline, i did that for about five minutes and went up to 5.4 and boy did i sweat. I had great music on though, i actually ajusted the speed to the music so that I could stay on beat and it really helped push me and push the time by. After about 10 minutes though, i got pretty tired and had to lower it back to 4.5.. i did that back and forth for a while and i increased the incline to 9 and speed to 4 and finished up. I was sweating soooo much.
Wow i'm sorry this post is extremely too long.. i guess i'll end it here, to all who read all of this.. thank you! and um.. and yeah