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One slumber party if you can swing it - won't cause a massive wagon derailment -just gete right back on - or take advantage of the hotel gym or pool if there is one..

Just keep focused on what you're doing and do the best you can - you can get to under 250 by the time school starts up again.. postive attitude missy...
 
Hm, so some good news today! I have 19 more pounds to go before I hit 100 pounds, and I can see it now, and that just makes me want to work harder to get to it.
 
Oh, thanks, I really needed a pick me up like somebody checking in on me.

Something really horrible happened to me on Friday when I went to Dollywood after visiting my brother and his family in North Carolina, and I just don't want very many people to know about it. I'm really rather ashamed of it...everyone who reads this is pretty bright, I'm sure you can figure out what happened.
 
slap me in the face and call me CLUELESS. if you want to talk or anything just PM me. I'm worried about you now.
 
...well, my mom and I went to the gym this evening.

And it is safe to say that although I'm a good sixty or so pounds heavier than my mother, I am in much, much, better shape. :) She might be able to wear cuter clothes, but I can go longer on the elliptical.
 
Yeah, I know! But I can't wait until I can wear the kind of clothes that I love and look like the person I am instead of just settling when it comes to clothes.
 
So, it's been almost a week since the Dollywood Incident. I'm trying to get past it and use it as inspiration to stay on the saddle and keep on improving. 81 pounds, 3 pant sizes, about 4 shirt sizes...I'm down from a 2X t-shirt to a large t-shirt. That's great, but I have a lot further to go, I think. In a year and a half from now, I want to be under 200 pounds, and I think that's a pretty reasonable and a doable goal as long as I keep my eye on the prize.
 
Set your eye on the prize, and never give up. Thats the only way you will get there. Believe you can succeed- and you will. I believe in you!
 
Thanks, Brandi! You really know how to get me to keep on track.

I had a really great weigh in this morning! I hope that I can keep up the momentum I have right now, and sometime return to Dollywood to fix the Incident.
 
congrats on the great weigh in! "I think I can, I think I can, I think I can" thats what should be going through your head right now.
 
I still haven't gotten a job, but if I don't get hired within a week, there will be no sense in me to keep applying to places because there is only a month and a half before I go back to school. However, yesterday I got some really good news about a grant I needed to cover the rest of my costs...and now I'm going to pretty much get an entire loan they made me take out back. I thought about canceling it, but after having a talk with my mother, I think I'm going to put most of it in a savings account and let it sit there so I can eventually get a car. I was so stressed out about not having enough money to go back to school- and now I've got too much! It's funny how things always work out...whatever god or being who's in charge of all of us definitely intervened here.
 
I'm all about people building resumes - you'll appreciate it when the time comes when you're graduating.. If you can't get a paying job - what about a volunteer position somewhere... volunteering impresses a lot of recruiters because it shows that you're not the sit on your butt type of person and is getting out there and doing something of value with your time... volunteermatch.com (or is it org - I can't recal now) is a great source for opportunities in your area..
 
I'm glad you have more then enough money to go back to school. Thats awesome! I just realized that I have no IDEA how I am going to pay my bill. Its my last year though, so I won't have to worry about it for too much longer.
 
Aren't you lucky! I'm excited about going back...I've gotten rid of the bad friends I had before and I get to start over!

I'm thinking about starting a blog that is centered around weight loss and healthy eating for college students- specifically, ones that live in dorms or those that live in their own apartments. I think doing something like this could not only help a lot of my peers, but it could help myself keep on pushing myself. Cause you know- if you talk the talk, you need to walk the walk.
 
I've hit a major plateau, I think, and I believe that it's because I can't get rid of my fat girl mentality and seeing myself as "the fat girl." I've got to find myself a new identity and see myself as myself rather than a certain stereotype or as how others see me. I know that there is much more to me than my weight, but for the longest time I've seen myself as the fat girl, and I don't want to be her anymore. I just want to be me. So, today, I'm going to make a list of things that I am that have nothing to do with my weight.

I am:

-A Marshall University student
-A daughter, a sister, a friend, an aunt, a granddaughter
-independent
-determined
-smart
-funny (well, at least I think so)
-considerate
-kind
-loyal
-a registered independent
-sarcastic
-open-minded
-strong (well, mentally, not so sure about physically yet)
-hard-working
-respectful
-well dressed
-a member of the National Society of Collegiate Scholars


And now I've hit a road block with this. My self-esteem is better than what it used to be, but it's not as high as it should be. I guess it goes without saying that I don't really love myself on the outside or inside, and I should love myself no matter what, because, hey, there's people out there that do love me.
 
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