Lilly's journey...this time it will happen!

lovelylilly

lovelylilly

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O.K, I am new here and starting a diary because it was the only thing that worked last time. About two years ago I was in exactly the same position, I lost 15kg that time (about 30pounds) and looked absolutely fantastic. I don't know how I let myself gain all that weight back, and it really depresses me that I did...BUT I am going to do something about it, and this time, it will stay off!

I have been on a 'diet' journey for the last couple of months but find I will be great during the week, then a pig in the weekends...so nothing lost...no shock there. Last time I lost a huge amount of weight I exercised religiously, even in the weekends, and I was really determined. My aim is to find that determination again, I have just got to comfortable, but looking at photos of is horrible right now, that double chin is coming back....eeek.

My biggest challenge is not snacking...so day one, boxing day....I can do it! And this time it WILL stay off!
 
Right as of today I am 84kg...(185lb) and want to be 70kg (154lb) I am tall about 5ft 7, so that is a good weight for me. Last time I got down to 69kg and that was great....today has been good so far, have had my three glasses of water so far, and my cereal, it is 11..00 am here in N.Z, so must make a healthy lunch choice! I am a maid of honor on January the 17th so it would be great if I could lose 5kg by then....
 
Personal Challenge

This whole dieting thing is so much a personal challenge for me. In every other area of my life I strive for the best, and meet all challenges, I have always been an overachiever.

Last time I lost a lot of weight I used this determination to my benefit....it only took a couple of months and I had lost the 15kg (about 30lb I think)....however after I lost the weight the challenge was gone...hence the need to set challenges.

This time round I am not so worried about how long it takes (however 3 months would be good) but I want it to be a matter of sticking to the challenges I set. Last time it was not so much about what I ate, but more about the exercise...I am confident I can get back into the exercise...however I have to get motivated...maybe setting a personal challenge will help because I LOVE shopping....hee hee.

Yesterday was not too bad: I had special k for breakfast, a slice of home made pizza for lunch, 3 high fibre crackers with cucumber, and lamb shank, home made wedges and vegetables for tea. I did snack (unhealthy a little) and had an ice cream for dessert, my big thing is watching portions.

My personal challenge:

drink at least 8 glasses of water a day: 1 point
Exercise light : 1 point
Exercise intense : 2 points
Eat healthy snacks: 1
Eat healthy meals: 1 point
No take out: 1 point

Earn 40 points and get to buy 1 new item of clothing :)

O.K it won't happen overnight...but it will happen, and this time it will stay off!
 
why do I do it?

I just don't understand when I have all the tools at my disposal...I have good awareness of healthy food, and an excellent knowledge of fitness, I still jeopardise my chances of making positive change by gorging myself. I had been doing really well today, until I had a cookie, then another cookie, then another, until I had had at least 8 cookies. It seems I can not stop at one, I am compulsive, I eat when I'm bored, tired, when I'm watching T.V, when I'm stressed. Food is a comfort and a reward.

I have to get over this if I am going to make a change for good...I have to be able to resist temptation.

On a brighter note I finally got off my bum and exercised using my stepper, elliptical, bike and skipping rope for about 35 minutes...boy it feels good once I get going, it is just the getting going that is the problem!
 
the day today...

well it had its ups and downs but I ended up eating about 1800 cals...way too much but other than my cookie let down today all my other meals were good...AND it is a Saturday and we didn't get takeout....GREAT!

Point summary today:
My personal challenge:

drink at least 8 glasses of water a day: 1 point
Exercise intense : 2 points
Eat healthy snacks: 0 :(
Eat healthy meals: 1 point :)
No take out: 1 point

Total today:5 (not too bad....my biggest challenge is always going to be those snacks!)
Feeling good after my workout, I don't know why I have been putting it off!:hurray:
 
I LOVE your personal point system! What a great way to reward yourself! :hurray:

As for the cookie(s), don't let it get ya down... you got a little exercise in so you're off to a great start! Tomorrow is a new day... a chance to do even better! :seeya:
 
my morning so far...

Well I am sitting her sweating like a pig from my workout and wondering how I ever let myself get so unfit.

I had special k for breakfast.

My exercise routine looks like this at the moment:

3 songs on my stepper

3 songs on my bike

3 songs on my elliptical

1 song with my skipping rope

This works out to be anything between 30 - 40min as some songs are only 3 min and some are as long as 5 min. I ditch my watch as I find it more achievable to tell myself I have to stick with it for 3 songs than 10 -12 min :)

As I improve I will throw in some weights and increase the skipping. I tend to skip between machines, sort of like a circuit. It amazes me now to think that I used to skip for 30 min non stop...can't imagine that at the moment 4min is enough to have my legs aching and me huffing and puffing.

My downfall has always been stepping up the intensity of my exercise sessions too quickly and then losing interest...so even though I was tempted to do a couple of reps with my skipping rope I stuck to my plan to just do one for now.

I am feeling positive today...it helps that I am on holiday for 5 more weeks (summer hols here) so I don't have the stress of work at the moment. Makes this the perfect time to make a change.
 
Nice job so far today! :hurray:
NOW... today if you hear those cookies (or any other tempting food) calling your name, tell yourself that if you REALLY want them tomorrow, you'll eat them then but, under no circumstances, are you going to eat them today. Remind yourself that they're not going anywhere; they'll still be there tomorrow... You might be surprised how long you can go leaving those cookies in the cupboard!

Hope you have a fabulous and productive day! :seeya:
 
today...

well today has gone really well. I have eaten 1400cal, and no unhealthy snacks at all...very proud! Exercise was great, feeling loads more positive now. My calorie aim is 1500cal and thanks to fitday tracking this is easy.

Point summary today:
My personal challenge:

drink at least 8 glasses of water a day: 1 point :)
Exercise intense : 2 points :)
Eat healthy snacks: 1 :)
Eat healthy meals: 1 point :)
No take out: 1 point :)

Total today: 6

Total overall so far: 11

I know I can do this!

I have decided to make weigh in days Wednesday and Sundays...not expecting huge losses, but I know I will lose and am after steady weight loss that I can keep off long term!
 
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Hello from SuzyQ

Hi Lilly!
I'm new here as you know. I admire that you have created a system that works for you.

You go girl!! :cheers2:

Suzy : )
 
today so far...

thanks Suzy..

Today has been good so far. Fitted in a 40 min workout this morning and managed to include some weights into that. Had a good breakfast and lunch...now it is 3.45 and I am hungry...I have fought off thoughts of unhealthy quick fix snacks and am off to fix some apple and carrot slices to put pay to the hunger pangs until dinner.
 
Thanks for posting in my diary Trusylver, it is great to get supportive comments.

Well today I ended up eating 1700 cals. not too bad, all cals were good 'healthy' options so I'm not too worried about going over. My mistake today was eating a few too many rice crackers and then realising the amount I ate were worth over 200cal...talk about wasted cals.

I have had many hunger pangs today...not real hunger, just that need for a quick snack..I often get these pangs when cooking dinner, and this happened tonight...instead of reaching for something in a packet in the cupboard I ignored these pangs and drank a couple of glasses of water instead.

I am also learning about feeling full...what I do is when I have eaten a meal, instead of letting my brain recognise that I am full, I will eat something else, or go back to seconds. I sat and waited for about 10 min after dinner tonight, until my brain realised no I was not hungry any longer and allowed me to feel full :)
My personal points summary:

drink at least 8 glasses of water a day: 1 point :)
Exercise intense : 2 points... great work out today :)
Eat healthy snacks: 1 :)
Eat healthy meals: 1 point :)
No take out: 1 point :)

Total today 6
Overall total now: 17

So far, so good. I have myself booked in for a haircut tomorrow...nothing like a haircut to help you make that change. Am cutting my long curly hair short! Can't wait!
 
Hey thanks Rosa...

I am very proud of myself for resisting ice cream last night. It took all my willpower after dinner....hee hee it was like my stomach was having a war with my brain, trying to validate why I should have the ice cream. Hubby even offered me one and I said no. Will go to the supermarket today to grab some more fruit so I don't end up snacking on rice crackers again...must make those calories count!

Have started the day with Special K and will fit my exercise in this afternoon.

What amazes me is that I have listened to many diet experts and read many books and in all of them they talk about that concept of letting yourself feel full, and having that wait time. I have never achieved that feeling without actually getting to the point that I feel uncomfortable and sick. Last night was a real break through. I am also starting to eat slower....that is helping heaps!
 
Today...Day 5

Well today went well again. I didn't really get any snacking pangs today and ended up eating 1417cal today so within my 1500cal limit. All food eaten was good and didn't even get tempted by ice cream tonight...:willy_nilly:

Exercised for 40 min...that consisted of elliptical, bike, stepper with weights instead of bands, skipping and my swiss ball for 5 min at the end.

I am pretty happy with how things are going so far, will weigh in tomorrow and see how I am going...

Point summary today:
My personal challenge:

drink at least 8 glasses of water a day: 1 point
Exercise intense : 2 points
Eat healthy snacks: 1
Eat healthy meals: 1 point
No take out: 1 point

6 again today...overall total so far:23

I want to go and buy some new shoes tomorrow, so that I can start jogging/walking some days instead of the machines as it gets a little monotonous. My current shoes are worn out and I end up having sore shins if I walk for any length of time in them.

Tomorrow for my exercise I am going to aim to do about 20 min on a programme on my stationery bike, as it simulates going up hills etc and will be good to challenge myself as I do find it very hard. Also I am a little sore from skipping....even 4 minutes of the skipping kills me at the moment...very sad.

Am filling in my fit day food log religiously as well and that is really helping.
 
weigh in day 6...

Well I'm kind of disappointed as I hopped on the scales this morning and have not lost a thing...it is only day 6 today, so possibly too early to weigh...also I had Christmas between weighing myself initially and today, so perhaps I was heavier than I thought.

Now previously this would have got me down, and maybe I would have thought stuff it and walked off to the cupboard to snack...NOT this time, I will do this, it will take time, but it is a lifestyle change not a fad diet where I will lose quickly.

I am off downstairs now before I have breakfast to do my programme on the bike...
 
Well feel great now....it may have only been 20 minutes but the bike really killed me. I put it on on of the hill programmes and tried to maintain my intensity at all levels.....did pretty well too, huffed, puffed and sweated...gotta be good for yah!


So no weight lost....no big deal, it will eventually start coming off, and I do have to accept that for three days over christmas I basically ate all day, sweets, cheeses, pate, crackers, ham, and the list goes on...so probably can not expect results straight away after only 5 days being good.

I just want most of this weight gone by my 33rd birthday on March 31, I think that is totally achievable. I have 14kg to lose (about 30lbs) if 10kg of that was gone by my birthday I'd be happy.

I do think I need to work on my dinner portions, I am inclined to put as much for me on my plate as I do my hubby...will have to work on that one...small steps:coolgleamA:
 
day 6...

Well we went for a day trip to the beach today....so I did have special K for breakfast, but ended up not having lunch. Did get takeout tonight and I had a fish burger and chips...total cals eaten 1540cal...quite amazing to see how many calories fast food has! I did have an ice cream in a cone today, it was just so darn hot!

I am really sore from my workout this morning, so must have done some good.

So my points system looks like this:
drink at least 8 glasses of water a day: 0 point (was slack with the water today and paid for it with a terrible headache)
Exercise intense : 2 points
Eat healthy snacks: 0 (ice cream not so healthy :( )
Eat healthy meals: 0 point
No take out: 0 point

Oops not a great day points wise....2 today so total so far is 23.

I am a very impatient person, and after losing no weight today those thoughts of...is it really worth it? I'll never get there!...have started to sneak in...however I am trying really hard to push these thoughts to the side and keep on trucking :)
 
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