Lena's corner

I've been thinking about your coworker and your dad. I actually think its a good sign if you're aware of it and you're able to avoid giving into those self-destructive instincts. Its pretty clear that they've been there all your life and those outside influences are going to stop, but your ability to deal with them is definitely improving which is pretty awesome.
 
cinderelly said:
hey you - im sorry abt your stupid co-worker...I hate it when people put words into my mouth...Bitch slapping session indeed...it also totally sucks that your gym closes down...So girl Im gonna see alot of Ellipticla action right ??? Hee hee hee
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yes you are, starting from today afternoon :D
be_gone_soon said:
Hey girl! Hope things go better for you today. No dealings with the co worker! Sorry about your gym. Guess you'll have to do something at Home?
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yes i'm getting some rest from all of the people who annoy me :)
Cannon 2006 said:
I've been thinking about your coworker and your dad. I actually think its a good sign if you're aware of it and you're able to avoid giving into those self-destructive instincts. Its pretty clear that they've been there all your life and those outside influences are going to stop, but your ability to deal with them is definitely improving which is pretty awesome.
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i think you're right. i didn't think of it this way, but you are right. i didn't even realize that i am dealing with it. thank you cannon you really gave something to think about :)
 
well my weekend was relatively relaxing,even though i did lot of reading...i still need to finish that book so i can write a review for philosophy journal.

i did pretty good on eating but snacked a lot during the afternoon yesterday and today. now i did snack on healthy food but it still felt like overeating. i just can't seem to have enough of nectarines and fruit yogurts. i also had chocolate whole wheat bar (it has only 80 cal) and its practically all fiber.

felici told me to write about my anger and i will. you don't have to read it if you don't feel like it. its just me venting...again... lol

*venting started*
i think i really need a holiday. i really feel stressed out. and mostly because of money. i have some bills and credits top pay this month which will take me to minus in my balance, and i still have to go to bf's for holiday, buy stuff for budapest, buy large suitcase and still have cash when i do go to budapest in beginning of september. my pay check arrives somewhere between 1oth and 15th of the month. i really hate it when i have money problems. i immediately have trouble sleeping. and i don't like to borrow from anyone, it only makes me be more in debt. a guess things will work it selves out by october but i'm still worried.

and i am worried about things at work also. one project that i wrote passed and it earned the faculty some cash flow for certain things, which i was very proud off. i didn't get a pad on the back or anything, but i was happy. i also prepared another one...but that one did fall through...now they're looking for the guilty party. i know they won't fire me or anything but still it makes me feel uncomfortable even though i know i did everything the best i could. so that is another thing that is bothering me.
there are also other things that concern me when it comes to work. i have to translate about 20 pages for the dean, i have to write a project i don't have much info about, i have to prepare all the documents so they're all in 'plain sight when i leave and on top of that i have an enormous reader for my masters that i have to learn until september. and i have to find time to exercise, eat healthy, enjoy myself, get some rest and have fun. can someone please invent a 30hour day?
i don't talk about these everyday stuff that bother me to anyone. i always feel like i'm boring people. i8 do love my job and all but i just feel like things are slipping out of my hands and out of my control. i guess they will resolve themselves.
i think i really need a holiday.

*venting over*
for now :)
 
:hug2: :hug2: :hug2: I need a 30 hour day too dear!!! Ya know I get in my funks as youa ll know too well and obviously with beign a single mom the 2 biggest things are time and money - I just have to honestly believe and oput in faith that all will balance out and work out nad be ok - it is all I can do...Im sorry your stressed out and things are bothering you - try to take it one day and one thing at a tiem that is how I manage my stress and I have ALOT of it - ha ha ha:hug2: :hug2: :hug2:
 
:eek: That was worth venting!!

I have been looking for that 30 hour day and will let you know the minute I find out how to get it!

Reading does seem to bring out the snacker in me. I try to convert it to low calorie drinks, teas, coffees... and healthy snacks. :)

I guess if you feel they're still too many calories, you could try instead to eat some kinds of salad vegetables that you actually like eating. Veges usually give you lots of chewing satisfaction and the calories are amazingly low in many of them. Snow peas, carrots and celery are my own personal favourites for instant snacks. But you probably already knew that! :D
 
cinderelly said:
:hug2: :hug2: :hug2: I need a 30 hour day too dear!!! Ya know I get in my funks as youa ll know too well and obviously with beign a single mom the 2 biggest things are time and money - I just have to honestly believe and oput in faith that all will balance out and work out nad be ok - it is all I can do...Im sorry your stressed out and things are bothering you - try to take it one day and one thing at a tiem that is how I manage my stress and I have ALOT of it - ha ha ha:hug2: :hug2: :hug2:
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hehe i just wrote sth similar to you in your diary :D great minds think alike
felici said:
:eek: That was worth venting!!

I have been looking for that 30 hour day and will let you know the minute I find out how to get it!

Reading does seem to bring out the snacker in me. I try to convert it to low calorie drinks, teas, coffees... and healthy snacks. :)

I guess if you feel they're still too many calories, you could try instead to eat some kinds of salad vegetables that you actually like eating. Veges usually give you lots of chewing satisfaction and the calories are amazingly low in many of them. Snow peas, carrots and celery are my own personal favourites for instant snacks. But you probably already knew that! :D
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haha lol yes i knew. i snack on tomatoes and cucumber. but these days i just can't seem to stop eating nectarines. well i'm craving pineapple and water melon too. well at least its fruit lol

i also forgot to brag. my bf got a job interview tomorrow with a computer form, one of biggest in Bosnia for a job so keep your fingers crossed that it all goes well. it would be great because he would finally be legally working, his pay wouldn't be much, but when i come back from budapest he will be able to find a job here easier. so far he's been working as a waiter and has finished high school for fixing computers, and just loves computers.
 
ok i have a question...i saw oat flakes in the store. i wanted to buy it but i really have no idea how its prepared (it says nothing on how to prepare). anyone can help??? do i have to cook that? can i just eat that with lets say yogurt?
 
lena410 said:
2 minutes later she's telling everyone there, in front of me, that i told her her legs look really fat and that she shouldn't wear the skirt. now that pissed me off and i snapped telling her not to put words in my mouth and that she can understand whatever she wishes, but i know what i said. she just shut up. man she pisses me off....
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What a BUMMER, man that is annoying! It is so hard to have problems with a co-worker--my office manager is a great person but she is super anal and a control freak. From what you know of me you can guess that I wouldn't be too pleased on being nitpicked all the time, although I DO want her to make sure I'm doing something correctly. Otherwise, there's only a few times where I feel she was being unreasonable. Also she's sometimes too loud and annoying and she doesn't listen when I'm telling her something important sometimes, then eavesdrops on other things she should keep out of. Ok I'm done!

lena410 said:
she's incredibly insecure and thinks that being skinny is something that will make her happy. what she doesn't get is how come i'm not obsessing about it, and she is in lots of ways jealous of me...if i say i went out on the weekend she will say well i went out too...its like she's paranoid that i actually talk down to her or something. i really don't get it.
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Very insecure people are hard to get--I know when I'm going through a phase of insecurity I start behaving in ways I don't even understand. But it sure is annoying when someone else is acting all weird! Good for you for being laid back about your weight loss!!! :D

lena410 said:
no she's like that only with me. bottom line is she's jealous. bosses usually yell at her and praise my work, dean wants me in his office when his secretary's sick or something and that used to be her. i have better pay then her because i have higher education, i always laugh with people and she's always wining...etc etc.

and don't worry friends are welcome foes get bitchslapped :D pull up a chair and have a cocktail :D
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Well it's sad, she needs to get more education! The School House of Bitchslaps! LOL!! Cocktail, indeed! *snorts* Have some wine--maybe some botrytis infected Riesling, yummy yum!
 
lena410 said:
and i have to find time to exercise, eat healthy, enjoy myself, get some rest and have fun. can someone please invent a 30hour day?
i don't talk about these everyday stuff that bother me to anyone. i always feel like i'm boring people. i8 do love my job and all but i just feel like things are slipping out of my hands and out of my control. i guess they will resolve themselves.
i think i really need a holiday.
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Yes, take a holiday, Lena! Be sure and drink some champagne to celebrate it, too! :hug2:
 
AHHH a Holiday, YES you need to take one and soon!! I'm sorry about the money issues, it's very very hard to deal with stuff when that gets in the way. My prayers are with you on finding money and maybe a promotion!! Don't stress okay, it will happen!! Eat that fruit girlfriend, it's good for you!!
~~BIG HUGS~
Kim
 
if only promotions were given where i work :)
i'll be going on vacation in few weeks, maybe 2 or 3. lets hope 2 weeks :)

so i'm feeling good. stuff bothering me still, but i really can't influence it much so i'm going with the flow.

today's food:
breakfast: kellogs special k with low fat yogurt
snack: misura choco and fruit bar
lunch: ground chicken meat pitas (2) and leek and 1 zucchini sauted with 2 tomatoes
snack: nectarines
dinner: tomato, cucumber, pepper salad, 30 grams of cheese
 
Lena your food choices sound wonderful today!! Keep your chin up sweetheart, I'm hear to listen if you need an ear!! Damn those jobs that don't give promotions. Maybe, just maybe somebody else out there will see your talents and offer you something better!! Keep a positive mind and don't let stress bog you down. I'm happy to see your taking some time off soon. I can't wait until it gets here for you!! Enjoy your day!
Kim
 
The interview for your boyfriend sounded really interesting. I will keep my fingers crossed for him too. That could make such a difference for your both.

Oat flakes. It's hard to be sure what that actually means. Are they toasted and crispy like corn flakes? Or are they just soft rolled oats, that you would boil in some water to make porridge/oatmeal?
 
Hey Lena, your diary is never boring. Congrats on your bf's new job interview. The pay might not be much, but it definitely sounds like it'll open doors. Don't feel bad about snacking on fruit. I'm really trying to get myself in that habit.
 
Miss Ladybug said:
Lena your food choices sound wonderful today!! Keep your chin up sweetheart, I'm hear to listen if you need an ear!! Damn those jobs that don't give promotions. Maybe, just maybe somebody else out there will see your talents and offer you something better!! Keep a positive mind and don't let stress bog you down. I'm happy to see your taking some time off soon. I can't wait until it gets here for you!! Enjoy your day!
Kim
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well that's not just the problem of the firm. i'm working at a faculty in a position that was actually made up so they could hire me lol so i really can't get promoted unless i overthrow my boss, and i really don't wanna do her job hehe. another way for me to move forward is to become more scientifically involved and maybe get a position one day in teaching at the faculty, but that is not so easy. i am going for my masters degree but i still don't know if i'll go for PhD.
i can't wait for time off too. it will be in august just don't know the exact date...the boss is the one doing the schedules.

felici said:
The interview for your boyfriend sounded really interesting. I will keep my fingers crossed for him too. That could make such a difference for your both.

Oat flakes. It's hard to be sure what that actually means. Are they toasted and crispy like corn flakes? Or are they just soft rolled oats, that you would boil in some water to make porridge/oatmeal?
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thanx felici...i think its the other ones, they're not crispy at all, and they're soft. so that has to be cooked? how?

Cannon 2006 said:
Hey Lena, your diary is never boring. Congrats on your bf's new job interview. The pay might not be much, but it definitely sounds like it'll open doors. Don't feel bad about snacking on fruit. I'm really trying to get myself in that habit.
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geesh thanx cannon :D
well the good news is THE BOYFRIEND GOT THE JOB :D:D I'm so proud of him and happy for him. he is now the manager and in charge of a computer service and sales store.

also i did my elliptical routine yesterday. i also did series of weight lifting and lunges, crunches, sit-ups etc for about 30 minutes. in the end i was sweating so much hehe. and then did 15 minutes of delightful streching and calming my heart rate down :)
i have to say for now i'm enjoying that elliptical...i try to do it in intervals, 3 minutes slower, 1 minute fast. also my speed increased big time. only few months ago my average speed on the elliptical was 11.1 mile per hour, now its 13 miles per hour, and the faster pace is somewhere around 15 miles per hour. on saturday my time was 17minutes and 35 seconds. yesterday i did 5 miles in 16 minutes and 50 seconds :D

ok my food for today:

breakfast: kellogs special k with low fat yogurt, 1 small apple
snack: misura chocolate and fruit bar
lunch: probably leek or whole grain rice (yesterday i ended having just the zucchini) and turkey breast fillet with cucumber-yogurt salad
snack: fruit
dinner: tomato, cucumber, onnion, pepper salad with some chicken breast ham and cottage cheese.
 
Yay Lena you've gone and inspiration-ed me up again! You have a habit of doing that! :p

WELL DONE BOYFRIEND!! Hope it all goes smoothly for you!
 
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