Lea Jnice's Diary

I just want to say...

You look amazing! You really seem focused and motivated. and you ravi is gorgeous.

BTW, ignore mine... there's a story...
 
reluctantcabbie said:
I just want to say...

You look amazing! You really seem focused and motivated. and you ravi is gorgeous.

BTW, ignore mine... there's a story...
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: ) Thanks hun! I am just trying to take it day by day even though there are some days that I just feel like a fat blob, but then again I look at my starting photos and I start to feel a little better. Good Luck on your journey as well!
 
Who can fit into her prom gown. That would be me!

OMG. I rarely post more than one diary entry a night, but I have too! I called hubby but he could careless. I was sitting in my room thinking I wonder if I should try on my prom dress. Every so after I try it on. It wont zip and I put it down and say in ten lbs I will try again. Tonight I put it on..and it zipped. I had a major breakdown. I cried for like 15 minutes. It just felt so good. Even though I know that I felt huge that night. I have been trying to fit into it since 2006. Tonight I did it and it feels damn good! I have a logn way to go but I am just so proud of myself and thats proof that I am getting there slowly,but surely!
 
Weighed in a 194 today. Which has been the lowest since 2005..Geeze this seems to be taking forever though. I am proud of myself, but I wish it would come off faster. I still have around 9 weeks until my vegas trip. I don't know how much I will lose until then. If I could lose 15 lbs I would be happy. I know I am buring more than I am eating, but the scale remains close to the same. I know I am gaining muscle, but I have that scale mentality. Sigh. I have been craving a brownie so bad lately. I have a box in my cabinet but have yet to make them. Which is good. I have been to the gym like 24 times this month so far. I haven't had fastfood of any kind in a month which I am proud of because I was eating it like a couple times a month before even if it was just an english muffin.

Its snowing and sleeting out. I hate winter. I can't wait until I can go to a park,go on a bike ride or do anything besides being stuck in a gym day after day.

Hubbys mad because my new lifestyle change seems to consume me or so he says. I do think of food,weightloss, and working out alot. But its my life. Its not a diet. This is who I am now. I don't think people like to hear that I can't go binge drinking or eat bar food. I just feel kind of sluggish today....maybe its the weather....
 
Why is it that the person we most want to share our success, wants, needs desires, etc. with does not always get what we are doing when we are trying to improve ourselves?

My wife has gone from encourging at first, to becoming irritated with me when I focus to much on what I'm doing, to (I think), grudging acceptance that this is the way I'm going to be. For my part, I choose not to mention it much at home, because talking about weight loss, food, exercise doesn't always seem to make people happy...

This is why I come here. I have an online group of friends who I can talk to until I'm blue in the face about what I'm doing, and everyone is happy about it.
 
reluctantcabbie said:
Why is it that the person we most want to share our success, wants, needs desires, etc. with does not always get what we are doing when we are trying to improve ourselves?

My wife has gone from encourging at first, to becoming irritated with me when I focus to much on what I'm doing, to (I think), grudging acceptance that this is the way I'm going to be. For my part, I choose not to mention it much at home, because talking about weight loss, food, exercise doesn't always seem to make people happy...

This is why I come here. I have an online group of friends who I can talk to until I'm blue in the face about what I'm doing, and everyone is happy about it.
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I don't know either but it sucks. I dont get why people can't just be like yeah I am proud of you and your hardwork.... Loosing weight is like a drug addict stopping drugs. I was addicted to food. It has been really hard for me.... I didnt realize it but I did. I seriously can put junk food to my mouth and feel a tingling like a drug. Im not even kidding. Its like the same calm as smoking a cigar for me.For him he has always been skinny. He says he has always had a gut. He's full of crap. I have seen photos and have been with him since age 14. I have been the fat kid my whole life. He has gained about 60 lbs since we started dating. He is really great at eating healthy but if I asked him to go to the gym with me he gets so rude to me. Says all I care about is loosing weight. I go everyday and he says I care more about myself than him which is so not the truth. He says he wants to help motivate me but right now he sucks at it. He hates that I blog all the time. I think he is jealous. I dont really know why. I want us to be a hot healthy couple and do this together. No matter what he chooses I am losing this weight with or without him....." Busts out into song"..... with or without you.........U2 haha I am the oldest 21 yr old ever.....

On a lighter note I say 193 on my scale this morning......:coolgleamA:

Just saying.
 
LeaJnice said:
OMG. I rarely post more than one diary entry a night, but I have too! I called hubby but he could careless. I was sitting in my room thinking I wonder if I should try on my prom dress. Every so after I try it on. It wont zip and I put it down and say in ten lbs I will try again. Tonight I put it on..and it zipped. I had a major breakdown. I cried for like 15 minutes. It just felt so good. Even though I know that I felt huge that night. I have been trying to fit into it since 2006. Tonight I did it and it feels damn good! I have a logn way to go but I am just so proud of myself and thats proof that I am getting there slowly,but surely!
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Wow nice job! And it even looks loose too! And no fast food in a month? That's awesome. I'm still attempting that one but I've only had fast food once in the last two weeks so I'm tryin. But you're DOING so I better stop makin excuses, lol.
 
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reluctantcabbie said:
Why is it that the person we most want to share our success, wants, needs desires, etc. with does not always get what we are doing when we are trying to improve ourselves?

My wife has gone from encourging at first, to becoming irritated with me when I focus to much on what I'm doing, to (I think), grudging acceptance that this is the way I'm going to be. For my part, I choose not to mention it much at home, because talking about weight loss, food, exercise doesn't always seem to make people happy...

This is why I come here. I have an online group of friends who I can talk to until I'm blue in the face about what I'm doing, and everyone is happy about it.
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AMEN to that! I've never had a place to talk about this before now. And I've learned a LONG time ago people can be mean so I shut up about it. My hubby doesn't seem to care either way as long as I feed him but I don't talk to him much other than to tell him when I've hit a marker on weight loss. When I really drastically lose some weight I guess we'll see how he feels then.
 
douknowjello said:
AMEN to that! I've never had a place to talk about this before now. And I've learned a LONG time ago people can be mean so I shut up about it. My hubby doesn't seem to care either way as long as I feed him but I don't talk to him much other than to tell him when I've hit a marker on weight loss. When I really drastically lose some weight I guess we'll see how he feels then.
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Yeah I love this forum. Everyone was the same goal and we lift each other up and give each other a smack in the back of the head when needed.

We rock.

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lol i would wait till i hit my goal weight... and then have it altered^^ and have a fun night with the boyfriend/husband ^_~ haha im horrible!
 
AngelicaHope said:
lol i would wait till i hit my goal weight... and then have it altered^^ and have a fun night with the boyfriend/husband ^_~ haha im horrible!
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Thats alot of layers. He might get lost underneath it...... ; ) Plus it would be funny to get it altered. It would be 1/2 less of a dress. I could make two dresses with it!
 
On another note if you do ever want to get rid of the dress but don't want to alter it you could incorporate it into a quilt. I know it sounds lame but when I lost 80lbs (before I gained it all back) I gave a ton of my clothes to a neighbor. Well apparently all my clothes were in lavenders and blues and went together beautifully and that's what she did, cut them up and made a quilt. At first I was kinda upset since some of the dresses I really loved but after seeing the quilt I was like wow.
 
hehe... all my clothes are mostly like reds and pinks and blues..... i cannot wait to hit a weight where my clothes are too big for me =D a quilt would be a great idea... or maybe recontructing them into new more fashionable items =D recycling is great!
 
douknowjello said:
On another note if you do ever want to get rid of the dress but don't want to alter it you could incorporate it into a quilt. I know it sounds lame but when I lost 80lbs (before I gained it all back) I gave a ton of my clothes to a neighbor. Well apparently all my clothes were in lavenders and blues and went together beautifully and that's what she did, cut them up and made a quilt. At first I was kinda upset since some of the dresses I really loved but after seeing the quilt I was like wow.
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Thats a really neat idea. You should take a photo of it and show us!
 
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