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SlytherinQueen

SlytherinQueen

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Hey guys! Welcome to my ~diary~ of sorts. I'm going to keep track of all my food and exercise here. I do keep track daily on a whiteboard but this way I'll have something to look back on and its also a place where people can offer advice and comments. :)

As for the title, my friend and I are planning to roadtrip to LA this summer (she's never been) and I want to be looking good.

My goal weight is 105-110ish, I'm only 5' tall, and I've been at 116 before and I could have definitely stood to lose a few more pounds so I think that is a reasonable goal.

As stated before I've completed a weight loss journey before and got myself down to about where I wanted to be, but then got a boyfriend and ballooned up. Then came the dreaded freshman 15 when I left for college and that in addition to getting a new boyfriend really sent me soaring. So here I am battling my way back down.

My SW: 200 lbs (I couldn't believe it when I saw it on the scale, I broke down) was June 2010
My CW: 177.8 lbs as of Sept 15th 2010
My 1st GW: 150 lbs
My 2nd GW: 125 lbs
My 3rd (final GW): 105-110 lbs

I'm really hoping to reach that goal, or at least my 2nd GW by next summer or ideally spring break time.

I am going to post food and exercise here. I'm shooting for 1,000-1,200 cals a day. I know that might seem extreme to some, but in the times that I've dieted I've found this a good balance for me between weight loss and satisfaction. I've consulted with physicians (including my father who is an MD) and the conclusion is that my metabolism is on the very slow side. Haha. I mean its not ridiculously slow, but slow enough that combined with my height it takes a pretty big calorie reduction to start making a difference. Eventually my maintaining cals will be 1,500-1,700. I've been eating low cals all summer and I feel good. I finally feel as though I'm not all consumed with food and what food I do it is healthy and satisfying. So I'm at least glad that I've made that progress.

So here goes my first entry:

Wednesday Sept 15, 2010
Food
Breakfast - ZonePerfect Protein Bar - 180 cals
Lunch - Parmesan Chicken Lean Pocket - 290 cals
Snack - Kix Cereal (small handful) ~ 50 cals
Dinner - Lean Cuisine Pepperoni Pizza - 350 cals
Dessert - Warm Delights Chocolate Molten Cake - 150 cals
Total 1020 cals

Exercise
Step it Up -High level cardio step class- 55 mins
AbSolutions -concentrated ab/lower back class- 15 mins
Walking on the track - 3 mi- 55 mins
Total~ 2 hrs of exercise

That's really what a typical day for me looks like now. If you had told me 6 weeks ago that i would be doing 2 hrs of exercise a day, I wouldn't have believed you. I've always had a really hard time exercising. But my best friend and I are doing this together which makes it so much easier.

This forum has been such an inspiration to me, and I'm glad I can actually finally contribute to it. I hope eventually I can become an inspiration to others! :)
 
Alright just coming here to vent.

I've been really dieting for the last 3 weeks, with a few days of mistakes, but the last week and a half I've been really good. I've gotten at least 1 hr and a half of exercise every day and have never eaten over 1200 cals. I haven't lost any weight since Sunday. In fact, I've gained .4 lbs. So What the heck is going on? I'm trying to eat healthy foods, no junk, get a variety of exercise (I do a different class every night and then walk for about an hour) and I'm trying to get good sleep. I drink lots of water, NO SODA and take my vitamins. The only thing I can think of is to eat more fruits/veggies, but I feel like it shouldn't be holding me back THAT much.

It just seems so disheartening when everyone on here is doing so well and I'm busting my ass and getting nowhere. :(

So far today I've had a Protein Bar - 200 cals and 20 g protein and lots of water. I'm not sure what I'm going to do for lunch. I don't have a lot of time as I got done with classes at 3ish and then drive home and then have to leave for my exercise class around 4:30.

I was eating around 800-900 cals but I decided that wasn't really that healthy so I'm trying to up my cals a little bit. But I feel like that's making it worse, so maybe I'll go back down? Ugh I just don't know what to do.

Also I think I'm going to start posting a quote of the day. Does this sound like a good idea to anyone?
 
Thursday Sept 16, 2010

Food
Breakfast: Protein Bar - 200 cals
Lunch: Smart Ones 3 three cheese macaroine - 300 cals
Snack: Kix Cereal ~ 100 cals
Dinner: Grilled Chicken Breast with Trader Joe's 21 seasoning salute ~ 200 cals
Dessert: Cantaloupe with Lite Coolwhip -105 cals
Total: 905 cals

Exercise
None today. Have a big test on Monday to study for plus I was just so exhausted today from all the working out I've done. I haven't had a break in a week so I think today was justified!

So I ate lower cals, but also didn't exercise. I'm really not hungry at all, everything I ate was delicious and satisfying! :)
 
Quote of the Day
"You may have to fight a battle more than once to win it." -Margaret Thatcher

Sorry I didn't get around to doing my diary last night, my school offered a free concert, so of course I went. It was a blast! Plus I basically danced and sweat for 2+ hours. Bonus cardio! :)

In addition, I GOT A GOWEAR FIT! :) :) I'm so excited! This way I'll know exactly, or at least to a more exact estimate, of what my body is burning calorie wise and I can set myself on track to lose the weight. I've heard lots of good things, and some bad things, about this. But the bad things were mostly device related, not really about its ability to help weight loss. So I'll let you know how it works. I'm so excited to start using it, it's charging up right now.

ALSO tomorrow is weigh in day and I'm kind of dreading it. I weigh myself throughout the week for "unofficial" weigh ins and my weight has been fluctuating pretty bad this week, but never really for a greater loss, so I'm just hoping the numbers don't disappoint me.

Now for yesterday's log:

Friday September 17,2010
Food
Breakfast: Zone Perfect Protein Bar - 190 cals
Snack: Cantaloupe with Cool Whip - 110 cals
Lunch: Turkey Sandwich - 195 cals
Snack: Half a string Cheese - 30 cals
Dinner: Lean Cuisine Cheese Pizza - 340 cals
Dessert: Warm Delights Chocolate Molten Cake - 150 cals
Snack: (I was over at my friend's watching a movie) Handful of Honeycomb cereal ~ 50 cals
Total: 1065

Exercise
Did this great walk around the lake trail by my place. It's a 3 mi walk and it took about 50-55 mins. So right on track with the walks I usually do!
Concert - 2 hrs of dancing/cardio and it was SUPER hot so lots of sweat
Total: 55 mins of "real" exercise, ~120 mins of bonus cardio haha.

I think once my GoWear Fit is being used, I'll end up trying to burn more because I don't want to lower my cals at all. If anything I'll eat more when I see that the burn is high on the days I do a lot.
 
Quote of the Day
“Never, never, never, never give up.”
— Winston Churchill

Again, sorry I'm updating the next day (haha not that anybody's reading) just got busy last night. Plus I now log my food on the BodyMedia dashboard so it's not as if I will forget what I ate/did.

I'm contemplating just not doing the diary anymore and just using the GoWear Fit/BodyMedia site. I mean if I'm not getting feed back on here, then there's really no difference and I'd prefer not to have to log everything twice for nothing. :shrug:

Anyway, like I said yesterday, my weigh in was today. I was really nervous but I ended up at 176.2! That puts me at OVER 2 pounds for the week, and over 10 lbs since I got serious/starting posting on the forum. Here's to many more pounds lost!

Saturday September 18th, 2010
Food
Breakfast: ZonePerfect Peanut Butter Cookie Dough Bar - 190 cals
Lunch: Lean Cuisine Swedish Meatballs - 290 cals
Dinner: SmartOnes 3 cheese macaroni - 300 cals
Dessert: Breyer's Vanilla Fudge Brownie Sandwich - 160 cals
Total: 940 cals

Exercise
2 circuits around the lake/6 mi/ ~ 1 hr 30 mins (GoWear had this burning almost 1,000 cals. There is lots of incline variation though so I think this makes sense.)
1 dance on the Pussycat Dolls workout DVD ~ 15 mins
Abs (crunches, sit-n-twist) ~ 10 mins
Total ~ 1 hr 55 mins

I have to spend the rest of the day studying for my organic chemistry test. :( Blah. That means I won't have a lot of time for activity, so I really hope I can MAKE time to go do something. I get antsy now if I don't exercise, haha.
 
Hello! I'm in my last semester of grad school and am taking two classes, finishing up one from last year, and working full-time.... it's tough fitting exercise in with studying, isn't it?? I am looking forward to getting to the point where I need to exercise or I get antsy, like you do... sounds like you've done well with that. Don't get discouraged, you've already lost a lot of weight, I think it's natural to hit a plateau after a good stretch of weight loss. Keep it up and I'm sure things will turn around soon!
 
SO I haven't updated in a couple of days, sorry about that. I don't think I'm going to post my food log on here anymore because I already have it logged into my GoWear Fit media log.

However I am really down in the dumps again. According the calories burned/calorie intake that my GoWear has calculated I should be down ~2 lbs already this week. Now it claims to be over 90% accurate, but I was planning on assuming like 90% accuracy or whatever because I don't expect my weight loss to match up perfectly with the monitor. However I weighed myself this morning and I'm only down .2 lbs, which I don't even really count because it could be natural fluctuation. This seems ridiculous. Its what I've been saying all along. For the amount of exercise I'm doing vs the calories I'm consuming 1 lb a week just doesn't seem right. That means that the GoWear isn't even calculating with 50% accuracy because then I would be at about a pound.

What the heck is going on here? I don't eat high sodium foods, that is monitored by my GoWear as well so I can go in and see how much sodium I've had. I eat a pretty balanced diet of carbs/proteins/fats. I eat about 1,000 calories a day and I burn 2000+ cals every day. I drink lots of water, I don't drink soda or anything but water. I'm just feeling really hopeless. I understand sometimes it can take a little while for weight loss to get revved up but I've been working so hard for the last month with VERY few bad days and NONE in the last 2-3 weeks. Its just really discouraging because its the first time in a long time I'm sticking to the program and being healthy and its not getting my anywhere.

I really just want to give up. :(
 
Don't give up! Have you noticed changes in how your clothes fit or anything? Sometimes that's a better way to tell than the scale (scales are evil, all of 'em!) You've done so well already, keep your head up.
 
Thanks so much Laura, I really appreciate the encouragement. Sorry I haven't been updating, just been super busy with school and all!

I think the worst part was that I was NOT noticing a change in my clothes either, so it wasn't just a number on the scale that was putting me off. And tbh, I don't really care about the scale, but for right now that, in addition to my clothing, is really the measurement I'm using to judge my success.

Finally this week seemed to be good news. Lost almost 3 lbs and clothes are ever so slightly inching towards loose. Still can't comfortably fit into the pant size smaller (you would think after 12 lbs I would?), but weirdly enough can fit into one 2 sizes smaller that I wore a couple years ago. :shrug: Anyway, I'm feeling a bit better because of that, and also that I'm really upping my exercise.

I've been trying to focus more on running/walking than the exercise classes because I feel I get a better cardio workout from that. I'm actually amazed by how much I've been able to run in the last week or so, it would have never happened even 1 month ago. I can run 1 mile consecutively and I've run over 3 miles total (intermingled with power walking) in a little over an hour. So total I did 5 miles, averaging a 13 min mile (this is with the walking figured in). Really been pushing myself and it feels great! :)

I hope to keep coming back with good news, although today I binged a bit. Had Panda Express, but I couldn't help myself as I'd just got my copy of The Greatest Show On Earth signed by Richard Dawkins himself. I got so excited I had to celebrate, and then I saw my favorite restaurant right outside the bookstore, what could I do?

But it was really the only meal I ate so it's not so bad, haha. It was probably about a ~1500 cal meal (which is more than my usual daily total!) so I probably had about ~1700 cals today. So even though I binged bad, it wasn't a totally awful day.
 
Hey! Dont give up on this journal yet! Sometimes it takes a while for people to see your new blog and start commenting :) I think you're doing great and dont let yourself get down about the few weeks without much loss (but kudos to you for the last 3lbs!)

I dont know how true this is, but i did a weight loss diet with mum once and it said to have a high calorie day once a week, just to mix it up with your metabolism. This, of course, doesnt mean stuffing your face with a deep fried family meal deal... but just eat more than usual one day a week, they said it should up your energy too. It worked for me when i tried it back then, and reckon i might do the same this time round. I guess the trick is to not go overboard...

Just thought if you've had low cals every day for a while now and a varying your exercise this might be worth a shot.

Anyway keep up the blogs, keep working hard, im sure the results will come in good time :)

xx
 
I've been hearing that you should have a high calorie day every now and then, too. You gotta keep your body guessing, otherwise if it's expecting less, it'll burn less. Good job with all of the running! I started out running about a mile earlier this summer and now I'm up to about 4 and a half (if I'm moving slowly enough, haha). It's a great feeling, isn't it??
 
So I've fallen way off the wagon. I'm really embarrassed to be back here saying that I couldn't stick it out. It was just a bunch of things after another, thanksgiving, finals, Christmas, a cruise and then..here I am basically 20 lbs back up. :( I just want to cry. I don't know how I let this happen, I was doing so well, better than ever before on my own. I was RUNNING every night, I've never done that before.

SO anyway, here I am, back again. This week has been ok, but the last two days I've buckled down hard and I'm going to continue to do so. I really want to lose a lot of weight fast now, even though I know that might not happen. I have plans for this summer (no longer LA, but just important that I am in shape) that really will be so much more fun if I am shape. So, I want to be down a significant weight by then. I am just so disgusted because it was a reasonable goal before I screwed everything up.

SO I guess I'm just looking for support, and I really just need to keep myself accountable. It's happening, I am going to get healthy and fit. I have one year of undergrad left and I want to feel good and look hot. :)

Food Diary
Breakfast: n/a (woke up too late)
Lunch: Bagel w/ Cream Cheese & Cantaloupe w/ Lite Whipped Topping
Snack: Hundred Calorie Pack brownies
Dinner: Weight Watchers 3 Cheese Mac
Snack: Hundred Calorie pack pretzels
No Soda: [x] Indeed :)

So - a lot of carbs today, need to work on that. Carbs are my problem. But I gotta eat what works at this point and keeps me honest. So ... the ww mac and cheese is my addiction haha, i love it.

No exercise today(lots of work to do), but I cleaned my apt so i did do some moving around and my body fit has me burning about 2088 cals.

So there's my catharsis confession. Feel free to rip me apart for falling apart, haha.
 
Continuing my spiral into self loathing, the last two days I've eaten out. The boyfriend and I didn't feel like cooking and I'm sick so we just took the easy way out.

I seriously hate myself. I just don't know why I keep doing this. I'm addicted to food. I am bigger than when I started posting here last time. I just need to be locked up and forced to quit. I am at the end of my rope.

:(
 
Hey.
I missed your blog first time round as I was in the middle of my falling off the wagon!!
We've all done it.
I started at 220, got down to the 190s and came back recently up at 210 again.

And I've also eaten out on monday, had a takeaway tuesday and I'm about to eat leftover takeaway!!

Don't beat yourself up about it please :)

No one here is going to look down on you for putting on a few pounds.

REading back over your last posts before you left you obviously weren't in the right place to lose weight at that time.
You put way too much pressure on yourself!
Relax with it a little, don't be so strict at first on your calories, and only exercise a little until you get back into it more.

Hope you find it better this time round, and come post in my diary to remind me you're here and I'll keep coming back to see how you're doing :)
 
Hey RedPiggy, thanks for the support, it really means a lot! :) I will definitely stop by your diary soon!

I feel like having worked that hard only to throw it all away just needs to motivate me to make this a more permanent change. I had another good day today, so that at least feels good!

I think my biggest problem is letting go of the ~idea~ of delicious food. Like everything sounds so good and once I get it in my head that I want something I can't let it go, but even once I have it, its not really worth it. So I need to focus on how food makes me ACTUALLY feel instead of imagining how it will feel/taste. I'm really ready to get back on track! I think I'm going to go ahead and keep posting quotes and stuff, because the more stuff I do and the more occupied I keep myself, the better off I will be. :)
 
SlytherinQueen said:
I think my biggest problem is letting go of the ~idea~ of delicious food. Like everything sounds so good and once I get it in my head that I want something I can't let it go, but even once I have it, its not really worth it. So I need to focus on how food makes me ACTUALLY feel instead of imagining how it will feel/taste. I'm really ready to get back on track! I think I'm going to go ahead and keep posting quotes and stuff, because the more stuff I do and the more occupied I keep myself, the better off I will be. :)
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Uggh, I know this feeling... HOWEVER, there are a TON of ways to take healthy foods and turn them into the foods you don't think you can let go of.
Make a whole healthy cookbook(I'm not a fan of cooking, so I find the really easy recipes, lol!) and pick one every few days.
Also, in one of your first posts you wrote that you didn't eat over 1200 cals per day. That could actually be one of the problems(I found this out the hard way :rolleyes: ). There are a few calculators out there that will tell ya what ya should eat in order to lose x amount of weight in x amount of time... I'll bet its a lot higher than 1200. I started doing that, and then when I hit plateaus I went UP to about 1890 per day, and started losing more weight, yayy! lol. hard to think of more as better in this case :rolleyes: Keep on keepin' on, make small goals instead of big ones, and ALWAYS feel free to vent and complain about whatever it is that makes ya feel bad/angry/sad, etc. Good luck :)
 
hi there, i weigh the same as you and get simular problems. sometimes tho what you do one week effects you 2weeks down the line. well thats how it seems to work with me anyway. stick at it babe and i'm loving the quotes =)

Laura
 
hi slytherinqueen, just wanted to chime in.

when you do this, keep in mind this is something you plan on doing for the rest of your life. its not a quick fix, of a fast track about it. it'll come down nice and slowly remember one pound a week is still 52 lbs a year! so don't let the scale fool you. i say focus more on fitness goals, and let the fat loss be a byproduct of that. meaning if you set a fitness goal for your self, like running a 5k, then when you get that goal, get it with in a certain time. and so forth. the training you go through for that will adjust your body accordingly, which losing weight is one of the changes that take place from running. also, don't over train!! if you take in 1200-1500 cals, and you burn 1000-1500 during a workout session, and then you probably burn another 1500 from your bmr, you are -1500 cals day! so you know what happen when you are excessive burning more than you take in? everything you take in will be stored as fat EVERYTHING. especially in the winter months if you live in a cold climate. if you're going to do 1.5-2 hour workouts perhaps you should increase your calories more.
 
Thanks for all the replies guys, I really appreciate it!

Jess- I have done A LOT of dieting in the past, well I guess not dieting per se, but I've struggled with my weight for my whole life and have made several attempts for it to be a permanent fix. I found that eating over 1,500 cals a day I was just never losing weight. I talked to my Dr. (granted not a nutritionist) and even had my thyroid checked when I was younger, and the conclusion is that I just have a super slow metabolism. It really sucks, but I'm trying to learn to live with it. I do think I need to keep in mind though when I'm going to be working out that I definitely at least need to have a few extra hundred calories to sustain myself.

Cheeki - Good to know I'm not alone here! Haha. And I feel the same way, often times it takes a couple of weeks for my work to show up. I think that's another part of my problem is that I get discouraged too fast. I want the results of my good days to show up right away, and when they don't I have bad days and then I never see the hard work come to fruition. So I know how frustrating that can be, guess we'll just have to tough it out!

Kureransu - Hey thanks for stopping by! I'm really not looking for a quick fix, I really want to be healthy and happy for the rest of my life. Funnily enough I did plan to run in a 5k in the fall, but my plans fell through and so I lost that goal. I wasn't trying to over-train, but as I mentioned to Jess, I've found that I seem to have an extraordinarily slow metabolism and so I was really trying to rev it up by doing some intense work outs. I realize that I should probably increase my intake on days I'm going to be doing a lot, but right now I am going to focus more on getting my diet under control.

So anyway, I've come to the conclusion that I have trouble doing anything moderately. Either I have very low cals or very high cals for the day. Idk, I know its bad, but once I let myself go a little, then I have trouble reigning it in!
I am frustrated because I thought the changes I made before were lifestyle changes, and while it was happening I couldn't imagine going back to "the old me" but here I am in almost the same position. :\ Oh well, just gotta get back up on the horse I suppose.

Right now I am going to focus a lot more on diet because that's really where my weakness is. I am trying to eat healthier foods and cut out a lot of snacking, and if I do snack trying to have something more wholesome like nuts or fruit or veggie straws as opposed to more processed snacks.
Quick question, once I start to amp up my exercise again does it matter why type of food I eat to recoup my losses so to speak. Like should be eating more protein on the days I work out, or does it not matter, its just getting a few more calories in general?

Anyway, I really appreciate all the feedback. Had another good day today, so hopefully I can keep them coming! Thanks everyone! :)
 
Well actually, zig zaggin your calories is meant to be good for weightloss.
Instead of saying, right I'm have exactly 1200 calories a day, think of it more as 8400 for a week.
If one day you only manage 800 calories, (not brilliant but you'll see what I mean) make it up over the next day or two by having 1300 one day and 1500 the next, then maybe a 1200 day, then a 1000, then a 1400 etc.
There is advice about it online.

As long as in the long run you're not on a massive defecit/surplus of calories, you should still lose weight at a healthy pace.

Also, I've heard protein after a workout is really good for muscle repair, so if you eat normally, then have a protein rich extra snack/small meal after your exercise that should be good :)
 
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