Kez tries again!!!

kezzypear

kezzypear

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Hey everyone, remember me?!?!

Here is a new journal for a new year and (another) new start.

I have not been on here for about a month, and can admit that my committment to my lifestyle change started to slip rather before that!! I struggled over Christmas (by which I mean I ate whatever the hell I wanted to :( ) and for a while before that as well!!

I have to admit I had to drag myself kicking and screaming back onto this forum today, been rather in denial this past month. BUT I know I have to. I have had a glitch in my new lifestyle, that is all, and now I am back :) The idea that I may undo all the hard work I have done over the past 4 months is far more scary than going to the shops and buying a load of fruit and veg!!!

I know I have not undone all that hard work yet, coz my jeans that were tight at the beginning of Sept are still rather loose, but rather less loose than they were at beginning of December!! I am rather too scared to weigh myself yet, I'm gonna be impressively healthy the next couple of weeks THEN weigh myself.

Anyway. I have to go, it is 9.45am here and I have to go shopping (I'm gonna plan my meals for the next few days first so I won't buy too much) then I have a paper to finish for uni that must be done today aaaargh!!!

Lastly I want to thank you for all the support you gave me last time. I know I will need it again, and I will do my best to do the same for all of you. One of my main feelings when I started to feel my lifestyle change slipping away from me was guilt, I felt that I was letting you all down, like you had somehow wasted all the words of encouragment you gave! I want to prove to myself that they were not wasted this time.

I CAN DO THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lots of forum love

Kez
 
Not as bad as it could have been

So, I have just weighed myself. I wasn't planning to til I'd been eating really healthily and exercising for a week or so, but I got scared and caved! My weight is 153 pounds. Which means in a month or so of being naughty and slipping back to my old ways I have put on about 6 pounds. Which is bad but no where near as bad as it could have been! And not as bad as I lay awake last night and convinced myself it was :(

My original goal when I first changed my lifestyle was to get down to 125 pounds by the beginning of March, which is when I have a big ball for uni, and wanted to look STUNNING, and show off my new, finished figure! I have just worked out that if I lose 3 pounds I week I can still do that, flippin eck! Although I know that 3 pounds a week is an unrealistic goal to aim for for more than a couple of weeks, but even when it drops to 1-2 pounds lost per week again, I should still be well on my way by the ball. I'm gonna take pics of myself at the ball and post them for y'all, wherever I am at on my ticker by then!

I have already bought a dress actually. I know it may have been a bad idea but it is drop dead gorgeous and was in the sale and I really, REALLY couldn't resist! It is slightly tight around my middle at the mo, but not very. I am hoping I will have to have it taken in, seeing as it is a bit too long and I will have to have it shortened anyway.

BUT I am rambling rather! Gotta get going and plan my food for today, which I will post in about 5 minutes :)
 
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Food/exercise plan for 06/01/06

Breakfast
Big bowl cornflakes and milk 300

Lunch
Tin soup 160
Apple and banana 170

Dinner
Pitta pizza 416
Chick pea and tomato salad 110

Plus
As much water, herbal tea and black coffee as I want

Total calorie intake = 1156

Exercise
Walk 30 mins Burns 140 cals
 
Thanks Wishes! Good idea :)

And finally before I go this morning I want to repost my "reasons why" from my old thread, to motivate myself on my new thread.


ONE
To improve my health. I have a family history of dodgy hearts and high blood pressure, so I really shouldn't strain mine!!!


TWO
Being overweight is a slippery slope.
I was on my way towards obese and I hadn't even realised it. I need to sort it now before its too late, coz every time i diet and fail, I end up slightly heavier!

THREE
'It's in my genes'
Often used as a reason/excuse by the overweight (INCLUDING ME!!!!) And its very true.

I was always the skinny girl in our family, before I came to uni. All my female relatives are overweight, apart form one auntie who used to be anorexic. All other aunties, both grandmothers (one now deceased) my sister and my mum are/were all obese. My mum has been around 300 pounds my whole life, and always blamed it on having four kids, and various psychological issues from her childhood. (I, for the record, have neither of those excuses!!) She has tried EVERY diet under the sun including (from the top of my head) Atkins (twice) weight watchers, slim fast, long-haul fasting (terrible I know) CABBAGE SOUP+god knows what else. And, the simple, effective "eat less, exercise more", to no avail.

BUT she is FINALLY loosing weight, through the cambridge diet, a very low calorie, shake based jobbie. I'm not a fan of that kind of diet in theory, but I have seen her drop from 300 pounds to 180 in less than 6 months. It may not be, strictly speaking, the ideal way to lose weight. But ITS WORKING!!! And its the only thing that ever has. And the long term results will be a much better quality of health than she had before.

I saw her after a long absence recently, and almost didn't recognise her. It was WIERD, almost spooky, to see my 'fat' mum only slightly bigger than me!! But the important point in all this rambling is- if she can do it, ANYONE can!!! (including me!!!!!!!!!!!!!) I don't have to succumb to the genes that plague the rest of my family!!

FOUR
CONFIDENCE!!!!! I want to see photos of myself and go "wow, I look GOOD!" I want to walk down the road next to my friends, without feeling like 'the chubby one'. I want to sleep with my bf without worrying about my wobbly bits!! I want to be able to stand and pose for a photo, without holding something in front of myself, hiding behind someone, or at least sucking my tummy in as much as I can!!

FIVE
On a more vain and practical note, I will be able to enjoy shopping again!! I used to LOVE a day at the mall, but it became a trial, with me desperately trying not to look in mirrors, and trying to squeeze myself into clothes a size too small coz I couldn't bear to accept that I had put on EVEN MORE weight!!!
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Sound like good motives.

I do debate the one about being in the genes.
I mean is it really genetic? or is it just that our fat mothers teach us to eat the wrong foods at the wrong times because they dont know the correct ones? a Learned habit?
My mother is fat, shes fat because she eats the wrong foods and eats to much of them, i know that im fat because of the same reasons. I still eat all the wrong foods, but now i do it in moderation, i have had to learn how to eat properly, and im teaching my children the correct way.
They also learned my bad habits and now its up to me to teach them good ones :)
 
Hi kezzypear
Nice to see you again. Nice to catch you at the beginning of a diary. I hope you have lots of fun along the way. :)
 
Hey Kez,
Welcome back to the world of posting! Good for you for regaining control before you hit 10, 15 or 20 pounds up!!
 
Wlcome back KEZZ and your plan looks great! You can do it
you already have a good start! Have a gr8 day/night,Tammy:)
 
Hey everyone, thanks for all the encouragement already, you guys are all so great!!!

So, journal for yesterday:

Dinner
Baked pot with beans and chick pea salad 581

Snack
Coffee 7
Snickers bar 273

Tea
Chicken sarnies 305
dairylea dunkers 128
Cookie 200ish

Total calorie intake = 1494

Exercise
Gym 45 mins -375
Walk 30 mins -125

Total calorie expenditure = 2500

Calorie deficit = 1494-2500 = 1006

Verdict
Totals look good, but there were too many high cal/salt on-the-go snacks, mainly coz was at work, which is a tiring, depressing job surrounded by food!! Oh well, at least I only work 1 shift a week nowadays, and I did get some exercise in!!
 
wishes said:
I do debate the one about being in the genes.
I mean is it really genetic? or is it just that our fat mothers teach us to eat the wrong foods at the wrong times because they dont know the correct ones? a Learned habit?
My mother is fat, shes fat because she eats the wrong foods and eats to much of them, i know that im fat because of the same reasons. I still eat all the wrong foods, but now i do it in moderation, i have had to learn how to eat properly, and im teaching my children the correct way.
They also learned my bad habits and now its up to me to teach them good ones :)
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I think in a lot of cases you are right. However, my siblings and I were brought up eating VERY healthily. I remember going to a birthday party when I was about 7 and being offered some Pepsi, and I had to ask what it was! I remember being told I wasn't allowed to leave the table before I ate my apple, and I sat there for an hour and a half!

I am not convinced there is a 'fat gene', but I think some people definately have a heritable tendency to put on weight, just as some seem to be able to eat vast amounts of junk and move precious little yet stay skinny. I am not saying it is an excuse, or even a full explanation, but I think in some cases it is a contributing factor. :)
 
Wow I think if possible these diary pages move even faster than they used to!

Journal for today

Breakfast
Crumpet and jam 140
Cornflakes, fruit and milk 354
Coffee 14

Lunch
Roast pepper with prawns and cottage cheese 242

Dinner
Baked pot with beans and salad 441
Highlights cookie 70
Lo cal hot choc 40

Total calorie intake = 1301

Calorie deficit = -699 calories

Verdict
Food v good but no exercise!! Gym tomorrow-pinky swear!!

:)
 
Crumpet, Im thinking is a bisquit or cookie or cracker of sorts.

Roast pepper with prawns and cottage cheese; I just imagine a big tub of cottage cheese with shrimp and peppers in it lol. Im sure it's much better than what Im thinking of... I so need to get to other countries.

Baked pot..... short for baked potato????????
 
Crumpets, like soft cookies with lots of little holes in. You toast them, and only 90 cals mmm!!!

Cut a big pepper in half and grill it, mix up some prawns with a little bit of cottage cheese (better for you than mayo ;) ) and a squeeze of lemon juice and some pepper to season and stuff it in the pepper halves!

And pot does = potato :)
 
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