kelly's diary

Hello Miss sweet Kelly! Thanks for stopping by my diary to say hello! It's been a crazy year to say the least, but I must say looks like your back on track and going at it girl! YEAH!! I'm so very happy for you! And loose jeans to prove how hard you have been working out, awesome job!! WAY TO GO! keep up this great work and I have no doubt you'll be buying new jeans really soon. I want to do the same myself, let's see if we can't get there together! YEAH!! Go weight, GO....................... Hope your day off is a good one!! Take care and stay strong!
Kim
 
Hello! Thanks for stopping by my diary! I was posting up a storm last night. I try my best to reply to everybody who comes by and supports me. I'm sure you know how it is!! This forum in the best.

Glad to hear your jeans are getting loose on you! Mine are too, and although I hate pulling my pants up, it sure does feel good.

Hope you have a wonderful day!
 
Hey happychubbette,

You have awaken the busybody in me... lol

You mentioned your ex is from KL... I am so so curious.. is your ex a Malay?
 
It is a struggle to work my way to the gym in the morning although I have been doing it. It just takes time - to wake up and have coffee, get washed and dressed. I know that once I am walking to the gym I will start to enjoy doing it. It just takes time to "arrive" at the activity. I need to take my time and get there when I'm good and ready.

My legs were very tired yesterday after 45 minutes of cardio on the bike and treadmill (split between the two).

I didn't have a single bite of candy this halloween.
 
you did better than i did.
I ate tons and tons of candy! it was evil! :O
And I hear you about the morning thing gym sessions etc. Its so darned easy to talk yourself out of them as well, but you just have to put your foot down and make yourself do it.

Chin up though, you are doing well :)
 
I have been getting discouraged by negative thoughts like, "I'll never lose weight" (not true); "nothing's changing" (it has) and this one, the biggie, "OH NOOOO...I HAVE TO GO TO THE GYM" when wtf I KNOW I love to exercise and work out. And I am learning to "forgive myself" for taking an extra day off.

Sometimes it feels like a bigger job to train the mind. But I tell myself its a smaller and ultimately less stressful job to stay positive. I guess I get the opportunity to train my mind EACH day, and I should expect that Each day I'm going to have to confront my mind.

As for not losing weight, I have permanently lost weight since I weighed 220. Last year's efforts began at 200 lbs, this year I got started at 195. My efforts wax and wain (?) over time - during the times I think I can do it and during the the times when I just don't seem to care, but I think over the years I am slowly going down. Maybe next time I won't let myself go over 190.

My food choices were poor this weekend (pyrogies and nachos with cheese and salsa and no veggies) but I did not stuff myself.

I need to get highlights in my hair, then I'll feel better about my appearance, though its hard to justify spending the extra money when Christmas is coming up.

So
 
Kelly, you are giving yourself a Christmas gift of self love, embrace it and enjoy those highlights. Part of making all of those permanent positive changes in your life, is not only saying you deserve it, but actually BELIEVING you deserve it! I think you are doing great! Michelle
 
Here's my take on it:

I understand the duality of your mindset. Best to lean as much as possible to the optimistic voice in your head (LOL).

Life is short and time flies. When you diet, it becomes long and grueling (LOL) This is great! Makes you enjoy every moment and appreciate life to the fullest. I say, you can live life to the fullest and still accrue daily caloric deficits. I stand by that! :D

Enjoy your workouts--enjoy your sore body. You're earning the body you deserve :)
 
Its been ten days since my last post (confessional!). I am finding it hard to keep counting calories and got discouraged when the scale went up instead of down. I have put the scale away and am just trying to give it my all at exercise (and rest up when I get tired). I don't know.

My jeans are still loser than they used to be and I have to wear a belt when I go out because they sag in the crotch and are actually sliding down my hips. So with this discovery I pulled out the skinny jeans (if you can call size 15 skinny!) and I got them on and done up but they are too snug to wear yet, but I'm getting there. So that's good news. I just find it hard not to feel like its all gone to crap when I stop tracking my food intake. I have had Tim Hortons bagels and have cooked some sumptuous vegetarian meals. Tonight as it happens I'm baking a decadent applesauce cake with pecans, dates and raisins which I will share with my neighbour. (Dare I admit to the caramel frosting I plan to make tomorrow?)

I have written on my whiteboard my latest motivating slogan, "The more muscular you are, the more fat you burn". So I'm focussing on building muscle and letting the weight fall where it may as I live my life.
 
Hi Kelly, Sorry I haven't stopped in much lately. I know how frustrating looking at the scale can be, mine doesn't tell me things I like either lately.

But, like you, I keep doing my work outs, and the looseness in the pants is a good feeling isn't it?

Keep the fire burning!
 
Hi Kelly, so great to see you around here still :party:

You know how to BAKE ?? :svengo: Man, that would be the end of me. lol Holy your cake sounds good. I think your method is perfectly alright. We are all so unique and have different lifestyles so we absolutely need to tailor things to what suits us.

Are you still liking it where you live? I always picture you walking along the ocean and living in your town in the middle of a forest. Do you still have that older gentleman friend. He sounded so nice, I wanted to visit with him too !!
 
Hey Kelly, it is all about finding and doing what works for you:)!We need to visit sometime soon.I too have been curious about Micheal:)! P.S Your cake sounds delicious!
 
Hey Kelly!! I know I've been MIA for awhile, but I'm hoping to be back on here more often now as I had a LOT of things going on in 2008 that kept me from the puter!

I think your doing a great job girlfriend! Look your baggy pants are showing you that. In my Opinion, it's better to lose inches than weight. The scale is a big fat liar anyways, and well the way clothes start getting smaller and smaller is the true testament anyways. I learned that the hard way a year ago when I started losing a butt load of inches, but my scale rarely budged.

I finally came to grips that being a smaller person portion wise, was much, much better than looking small on the scale. I rarely hear anyone ask me, Kim, wow your looking 150 pounds today. Usually, they will just say now, "Kim, wow are you getting smaller"?? every time I see you, you look like your getting smaller. So squash the scale and go by your gut feeling and by the way your clothes are fitting, it will make you a much happier person trust me, I know!!!

Your cake sounds so yummy!!! I LOVE to bake myself, so I'm right in there with you sister! Luckily, I've learned some new alternatives to some of my recipes that have made them more healthier for me, and that has helped. I love substitutes.

Are you still riding your bike?? Or walking on the beach much??? How are you feeling these days??

I hope your day today is a good one, enjoy it!!
Chow
Kim
 
Thank you everybody for the posts and encouragement. I'm sitting here feeling defeated EVEN THOUGH yesterday this lady I clean for told me I looked "skinnier every time she sees me" and TODAY on a walk my legs took me up two hills much easier than before and I wasn't even out of breath at the top. It must be my bedtime. I hear people say here that its really a mental game. I'm going to bed.
 
Yes, I am still friends with Michael. Sometimes he drives me crazy he is so eager, just so involved with life and everything, its work keeping up to him. But yes we are still friends and he is very good to me.
 
You've been on here since Jan 2007 Kelly, have you actually lost weight other than 3lb and just not updated the ticker? or are you struggling and needing a hand?

I believe it would be terrible if you were struggling and needing a hand and not asking for it, considering all you do to help out everyone else with the peppy comments.
 
Yah, I 2nd what Wishes says. I'm here for you also, as is everyone, I'm sure. Feeling defeated sucks. What are your goals?
 
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