I joined a week ago, and finally am getting into the ins and outs of this site and how it works!
I weighed myself for the first time in I don't know how long, and topped out at 227. I hope to get to 150, but every little bit is an accomplishment, right? So let's start small, with a November goal loss of 10-12 pounds. I could be putting it a little high, but considering this is my first month, I thought it to be appropriate.
So how do I know this time will be different? I mean, I have tried and tried to lose weight, lost about 20 pounds at a time, then gained it all back. After a lot of soul searching, I realized that my weight is actually very convenient. I've always blamed my weight for other problems in my life, when the truth was that I never wanted to face the real cause of my problems. My weight has actually protected me from getting too close to people, and makes me less likely to be taken advantage of, as I have been in the past.
Then a couple of things happened. The first, you guessed it, someone came along that I actually wanted to get close to! I mean to tell you, I put him through some rough times, and through it all, he got to know the person beneath the weight. Many times, I would try to push him away, but he always stood firm. And in doing this, he forced me to re-evaluate myself and how I perceived others. He made me realize that there are people out there that are worth taking the chance for.
The second thing... you know how you watch news anchors long enough, and you notice changes about them. Weight gain or loss, graying hairs, etc. Over the last year... maybe even the last six months... one particular anchor woman has changed considerably, to the point that I was shocked in one of her spots promoting their morning show. Her face... oh my.... I don't know if it was a stroke or MS or just a dental appointment, but it was obvious that one whole side of her face was numb. Later that night, I was undressing in front of my full length mirror, looking at my big belly and my dimpled thighs, and I wondered what would happen if I lost the part of me that I value most... my mind. What if I had a stroke or heart attack or SOMETHING, and my mind was lost? What would there be left of me? How can I prevent that from happening?
So I dusted off my Dr. Phil, Bob Greene, and Leslie Sansone, and joined this group. My goal weight is 150 pounds, which is what it was when I was in the military 18 years ago. I'll post whenever possible, likely every day, and will give and take all the encouragement I can!!!
Sorry to be so long winded, but I hope that it inspires...
I weighed myself for the first time in I don't know how long, and topped out at 227. I hope to get to 150, but every little bit is an accomplishment, right? So let's start small, with a November goal loss of 10-12 pounds. I could be putting it a little high, but considering this is my first month, I thought it to be appropriate.
So how do I know this time will be different? I mean, I have tried and tried to lose weight, lost about 20 pounds at a time, then gained it all back. After a lot of soul searching, I realized that my weight is actually very convenient. I've always blamed my weight for other problems in my life, when the truth was that I never wanted to face the real cause of my problems. My weight has actually protected me from getting too close to people, and makes me less likely to be taken advantage of, as I have been in the past.
Then a couple of things happened. The first, you guessed it, someone came along that I actually wanted to get close to! I mean to tell you, I put him through some rough times, and through it all, he got to know the person beneath the weight. Many times, I would try to push him away, but he always stood firm. And in doing this, he forced me to re-evaluate myself and how I perceived others. He made me realize that there are people out there that are worth taking the chance for.
The second thing... you know how you watch news anchors long enough, and you notice changes about them. Weight gain or loss, graying hairs, etc. Over the last year... maybe even the last six months... one particular anchor woman has changed considerably, to the point that I was shocked in one of her spots promoting their morning show. Her face... oh my.... I don't know if it was a stroke or MS or just a dental appointment, but it was obvious that one whole side of her face was numb. Later that night, I was undressing in front of my full length mirror, looking at my big belly and my dimpled thighs, and I wondered what would happen if I lost the part of me that I value most... my mind. What if I had a stroke or heart attack or SOMETHING, and my mind was lost? What would there be left of me? How can I prevent that from happening?
So I dusted off my Dr. Phil, Bob Greene, and Leslie Sansone, and joined this group. My goal weight is 150 pounds, which is what it was when I was in the military 18 years ago. I'll post whenever possible, likely every day, and will give and take all the encouragement I can!!!
Sorry to be so long winded, but I hope that it inspires...
