Jolie's Struggle for Success

What's the hardest part of your struggle?

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~Jolie~

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Well, here goes, right? I don't know how it happened. Really, I knew I was overweight, but not this much. I have always had a bit of a struggle with my weight (who am I kidding, here? a bit!!! that's an understatement). Since I was about 12 or 13 I have steadily gained and lost weight, and have yo-yo'd for the past ten years. My lowest weight was in high school when I was on the swim team. I stayed around a healthy size 6 for a little while, then ballooned up to a 10. After that, I would go up a size occasionally, always telling myself I would never go above a certain size, and always breaking that in a cycle of binge eating and hiding my eating habits from my always-thin family.

My problem is binge eating when nobody's looking--it's like I believe that if nobody sees you eat it, the calories don't count. And then I feel terrible about it and vow to do better, but never actually do anything.

Well, I've really decided to change all that. I'm at my highest weight ever, and I'm even too ashamed to post it on this blog. Let's just say that i'd be ok if I were 6'2", but I'm only 5'2". The main reason I want to change my habits is for my son. I don't want him to go through the same yo-yo/binge eating cycle as me, I don't want him to be embarassed of me (which he's not, but he's only 2), and I really don't want to be so unhealthy that just playing with him leaves me tired. I can't even run around outside with my kid! I feel so terrible about that.

I'm hoping that this blog will help me with motivation. I hope that you will post comments of support and help me to stay motivated so I don't go through the yo-yo/binge cycle again. I know there will be days that are really hard, but I know they will all be worth it.

I will be posting daily about what's going on in life and in my head as an outlet, so please feel free to stop on by anytime.

My next post will be about my exercise program and diet. Stay tuned folks!
 
HI Jolie,

I could have written your post except I have a 2 yr old daughter! I am in exactly the same shoes as you are. I am a binge eater although I calorie track already I find myself conveniently forget to record that 2 crackers, that one spoonfull of ice-cream...etc.
Also I am worried about my daughter being ashamed of me and since I am very careful about her nutrition (we are all vegetarians) I think I owe it to her and me to be just as healthy.
My motivation is having another baby and I absolutely refuse to get pregnant at my current weight. And I really want to have a baby.. so it is a great motivator for me besides other things.
I look forward to seeing you dropping the lbs!!
Hajni
I am a newbie just yet at this site but not at losing weight! :)
Oh, and don't be ashamed of your weight on this site, you have done the hardest part of deciding to do something about it!!
 
motivation

That's a really great motivation. I'm not quite ready for that, yet, but you're right. I could never get pregnant at this weight and be happy. But maybe th morning sickness could help... just kidding!

"My motivation is having another baby and I absolutely refuse to get pregnant at my current weight. And I really want to have a baby.. so it is a great motivator for me besides other things."
 
Diet and Exercise

I started going to Fusion, a health club about 2 miles from my house. I'm doing spinning classes five nights a week right now and I really enjoy them. They last about 45 minutes. Each class burns between 700 and 1000 calories, which is awesome.

I am trying to eat about 1500 calories a day, but this is the hard part for me. I'm looking in my pantry and all I can see are the Honey Buns. Gotta get all the crap out, I guess. Which sucks because I don't want to take all the "good" food out because the rest of the family doesn't need to lose weight, too, because they are all naturally thin and most of them actually have to try to GAIN weight. Ridiculous. So right now I'm basically eating plain turkey and veggies. We shall see...

Now I'm going to take Andrew, my son, to the doctor because I think he got pink eye from the day care at the gym. Hopefully I'll be back before spinning class and it won't be pinkeye so he can go to the gym with me.
 
Howdy Jolie,
Welcome and goodluck to ya. You are on the right track
and you also have a great plan.I am sure your going to well,have a nice day tammy
 
Thanks

niapage said:
Howdy Jolie,
Welcome and goodluck to ya. You are on the right track
and you also have a great plan.I am sure your going to well,have a nice day tammy
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Thanks for the support and the post. We are about the same start weight. What did you do to lose the weight?
 
Blech

I don't feel like going to the gym. I don't feel like eating healthy. I want a cheeseburger and to sit on my fat bum. Dangit, my bum is too fat so I have to go to the gym.
 
One day at the time

Hi Jolie,

The first two weeks were the hardest for me. I already lost 30 lbs in about 8-9 months prior to coming to this site. The only thing that worked for me in that initial phase is: I literally got rid of every piece of junk food or sweet item from our house. My poor husband (who is of course skinny and can eat all day not gaining an oz) had to hide it. I still found myself looking into the pantry for sweets every chance I got. If it was there I had no strenght to resist it.
Take it one day at the time. That is the only way I could go through the initial phase. I just kept telling myself this: I will stick to my eating plan today. I fell off the wagon about a month and a half ago and gained 10 lbs. So now I am re-starting and really sticking to it
Hope this helps.
Hajni
 
YAY! :rotflmao:

Yay! I lost four pounds this week since Saturday! That makes me happy. I also learned how to grill chicken (so simple) and got my new camera in. Which means... Before Pictures :eek: . So not fun. But, I have them. Now to get the balls to post them.
 
Welcome unless...

You are totally welcome here, unless...you think this is an adult personals site. Then you must have some really out there fetishes. If you are looking to lose weight then of course you are.


JaneBaylolda said:
Hello

I spent 3 hours researching on the network , until I completed my search weight-loss.fitness.com and signed up. Unlike other Adult Personals sites that I registered to.

I hope I am welcome here...
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Eating Plan help??? Where to start?

Good morning world,

How are you? Crappy? Oh well, get over yourself because I'm in a good mood. I'm sleeping better and I can feel it in the mornings. Woohoo.

Ok. Now I'm hungry and that makes my day not as happy because I just don't know what to eat. I need an eating plan and have no idea where to find one or what one entails. Any help? If anyone wants to make me a plan that I can follow, I will be your puppet. Unless you want me to eat things like spaghettios (not real healthy).
 
sorry Jolie - that was a bit of spam - usually there's not much spam in diaries but the poll attached to this diary puts it front and center so the spammers tend to drop into the first thread they find...
 
Hi Jolie -

I just joined this BB this morning. I feel your pain, really I do. My highest weight was 362 lbs, and I have a young daughter that I was unable to play with because it was too hard for me. I'm down to 172. I was down to 155, but I got married a month ago :jump: and with all the stress of planning the wedding, not to mention all the celebrations, I gained nearly 20 lbs in 3 months. I had gastric bypass surgery in December 2002 and that jumpstarted my weight loss....but I got lazy.....and that's how I gained some of it back. I've gone to the store and got healthier foods, and started working out 7 days a week -- I'm doing some weight training but mostly I do walking/treadmill for 35-40 minutes twice a day. So far I've not lost any weight, but I think I'm gaining muscle. It's a bit frustrating because I'd really like to lose WEIGHT, but I know how it works.

I am so glad I joined and I can't wait to watch your progress!
 
Good for your Jolie. Posting your pics. You are a cutie.

Welcome to the site. Keep posting, come back for the encouragement. I think almost everyone here has been guilty of binge eating.

I agree with one poster that getting rid of a lot of the junk food is a great idea. If your family doesn't support you with that, it makes it more difficult for you. I have to keep stuff out of my house that I know my kids would like because I will eat it and it really isn't good for them either....

You also don't have to only stock your kitchen with carrots and celery. The key can be moderation. A variety of foods. When you do eat out, eat half of what's on the plate. Kick the soda (or diet soda habit) and replace it with water. One day you will actually prefer water. Many people here at WLF will attest to that.

Good luck.
 
Hi Jolie!

I want to welcome you and tell you that there is a whole world of flavor out there and you are not stuck with "plain turkey". Fresh food opens the door for such great combinations! Honest! :) They are not only delicious, but healthy and low calorie! Your family can eat the same foods and be better in better health along with you!
 
Woohoo!

2 more pounds as of the gym scale today! I guess the high quality H2O, healthy eating, and hours at the gym are actually working. How about that? That's 6 pounds this (my first) week. I'm sure it's mostly water weight and all, but I'm pretty ok with that. Went to spin class again tonight and wasn't feeling it but I am gonna get my money's worth out of it. Burned 1400 calories in that class because I put my all into it. Now I'm starving and am about to chow down on my favorite salad. Score!
 
Hi Jolie,
You are so beautiful :) You have the desire and you can do it. As soon as I read this post I thought of an egg white omlette with mushrooms, peppers and onions (if you like these things). I have had 4 children and have lost my weight each and every time. I have learned more ways to trick my mind, and found more things to throw together easily that are low cal. you wouldn't believe it. If you want me to post some, let me know! Keep up the good work :jump:



~Jolie~ said:
Good morning world,

How are you? Crappy? Oh well, get over yourself because I'm in a good mood. I'm sleeping better and I can feel it in the mornings. Woohoo.

Ok. Now I'm hungry and that makes my day not as happy because I just don't know what to eat. I need an eating plan and have no idea where to find one or what one entails. Any help? If anyone wants to make me a plan that I can follow, I will be your puppet. Unless you want me to eat things like spaghettios (not real healthy).
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