Jill's diary

okay, I decided to update my photo, since Josh Halloway is no longer offering me motivation!!

Now ya can see what I look like, I dont mind my face... its my body that scares me sometimes!!! haha
 
ok, the PLAN

No sugar, alcohol, or white flour for as long as I can do it, I know ill feel better....get my fluids in...

back to:

Breakfast:
protein, dairy, fruit

lunch/dinner:
protein, cooked veg, raw veg

snacks:
dairy & fruit

STOP looking at changing the plan, thats when I get into trouble!!
 
oh, and DO NOT FREAK when I mess up... forgive myself and move along... back to the plan...

also focus on nutrition and continue to log foods into fitday.com...
 
I wanted to add also to my diary that my nutrition has been EXCELLENT which im very happy about because it was a huge struggle....
 
I have to ask an obvious question... and maybe you've answered it already and I missed it -but if it's such a struggle to stay with your 'plan' why not use something that's less of a struggle - this should be the "rest of your life" change - if you want permanent results that is... and eating shouldn't be a source of angst.... about what you can or can't - or should or shouldnt be having...
 
maleficent said:
I have to ask an obvious question... and maybe you've answered it already and I missed it -but if it's such a struggle to stay with your 'plan' why not use something that's less of a struggle - this should be the "rest of your life" change - if you want permanent results that is... and eating shouldn't be a source of angst.... about what you can or can't - or should or shouldnt be having...
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ah, there you are... the little devil thats sits on my shoulder!

when I follow the plan...

I FEEL good!!!.... duh nuh nuh nuh nuh nuh!
I knew that I would!!!!! duh nuh nuh nuh nuh nuh!
so good! duh nuh nuh nuh nuh nuh!
I knew that I would now! duh nuh nuh nuh nuh nuh!
so good! dun dun
so good! dun dun

ba ba ba ba ba ba baaaa....................


so good!

:party:
 
seriously though, I have this major water retention issue with flour products, I have an addiction to sugar (as much as id like to ignore my therapist) and alcohol is basically sugar....and i feel good when I follow THAT PLAN that I have....

like I said, its a PLAN and im not gonna jump off a bridge if I dont follow it exactly anymore (psyching self)

lunch: herbed chicken breast, broccoli, 1/2 cup raemen noodles (HUGE No NO, would have done better if I didnt add that msg package, my ankles are already bloated....

drinking my water now...
 
Note to anyone who reads my diary:

I really just started this diary to track my thoughts... I kinda get confused when advice is thrown in here, it gets me all messed up...please dont offer advice unless I ask for it...

I really want to stay focused on my plan, I know I can get back on my plan, I have done it before... I do appreciate encouragement and dont want you to leave me...

(I have huge abandonment issues)

please accept me as I am... faults and frustrations and all....

love to you all xoxox

Jillzy
 
ok, I had a protein bar for snack, maybe Mal is right and I should come up with a new plan, Im just scared ill just keep changing plans for the rest of my life...and never lose weight...
 
you don't want advice.. but that doesn't stop me... and I truly believe part of support is pointing out where someone might not be using the most beneficial tactic...

You are not the only person on the forum I've said this to - you need to let go of the diet mindset and think lifestyle change... Eliminating total groups of foods that you enjoy - doesn't make for a happy jill...

balance will make for a happy jill long term - and learning balance and moderation... are a lot better than stressing out over staying on plan or not...
 
maleficent said:
you don't want advice.. but that doesn't stop me... and I truly believe part of support is pointing out where someone might not be using the most beneficial tactic...

You are not the only person on the forum I've said this to - you need to let go of the diet mindset and think lifestyle change... Eliminating total groups of foods that you enjoy - doesn't make for a happy jill...

balance will make for a happy jill long term - and learning balance and moderation... are a lot better than stressing out over staying on plan or not...
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I hear you, and ive been reading stories here about people who have done it....

i do seem to do well with the 40/40/20 ...... and getting my nutrition in, those are my strengths....

you care about my happiness?????????

:party::party::party::party::party::party:

i sure have been hitting my head against the wall.... :banghead::banghead:

I just dont have any integrity... I dont do what I say Im gonna do...

I feel like a failure...
 
you aren't a failure -it just possibly means you haven't found the right plan for you...

What works for others - doesn't mean it's the best choice for you... you're the one that has to live with you...

Food choices shouldn't be difficult...
 
Jillzy_2008 said:
Note to anyone who reads my diary:

I really just started this diary to track my thoughts... I kinda get confused when advice is thrown in here, it gets me all messed up...please dont offer advice unless I ask for it...

I really want to stay focused on my plan, I know I can get back on my plan, I have done it before... I do appreciate encouragement and dont want you to leave me...

(I have huge abandonment issues)

please accept me as I am... faults and frustrations and all....

love to you all xoxox

Jillzy
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This is why I stopped coming in here. I cannot sit back and encourage and support someone who is determined to "stick" to a plan that clearly doesn't work for them--and who doesn't want any help from those who've had success at losing weight and keeping it off. Everything Mal said is right. You should listen to her. Avoiding sugar/flour for the rest of your life is just not realistic. As I said before--if you can learn moderation you'll go far. That is what you should work on.

Being at your son's lacrosse game is about being there to support him--not to feel loved and wanted/needed. The fact that you sucked it up and went despite your other issues is something to be proud of. Don't worry what that lady said. She might have said it in all innocence. And if not--screw her! :D
 
Ive always chosen the hard road, ever since I was little, its in my blood I guess....

hard road and lots of head knocking....

I must drive people crazy...
 
Jillzy_2008 said:
Ive always chosen the hard road, ever since I was little, its in my blood I guess....

hard road and lots of head knocking....

I must drive people crazy...
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The trouble is that the hard road doesn't get you anywhere...so why keep going down it? find a better route.
 
alright, I'm gonna try a new plan...

1. I want to keep my processed sugar and flour to a minimum.

2. I want to keep my calories under 2,000.

3. I want to get my nutrients in.

4. I want to exercise 90 minutes per week.

5. I want to be hydrated.

I have no idea how to keep track of my calories all day.... without being glued to fitday.

advice anyone?
 
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