Jessie's Journal

Ahh greek gods are always good for inspiration......lol I can relate to that 7 minutes, yesterday on the bike I set it for 25 minutes and felt like i was going to die after about 5.....i guess that is the difference, in the past I would have given up, now I don't

You go girl, you are doing awesome!!!!
 
So I didn't do cardio tonight :( weird, cuz I always do cardio, even on nights when I don't feel like it! So, I got to the gym really late- 3am, and just wanted to get some weights done and get out... I think I can burn enuf cals the rest of the week in cardio to make up for tongihts booboo...
100crunches on 50lbs
chest press: 3sets of 15, on 45lbs
regular crunches: 50
Seated rows: 3sets of 15, on 45lbs
ROtary upper back: 3sets of 10 on 30lbs
Arm extensions: 3sets of 10 on 40lbs
rotary lat: 3sets of 15 on 70lbs

Pretty good weights and crunches, but again, gotta get my cardio done tomorrow!!
My vacation is a little less than a month away, and I am SOOOO flippin excited! At the beginning of this month I was at 241, and I wanted to get down to 235 by vacation time, well, I'm down to 236, so I think I may up it to 230, if I don't make it, no biggie, cuz I already am practically at one goal, but if I make it, hellll yeah, I'm gonna be excited :D I still go thru that mirror hatred though, cuz I see myself in the mirror, and I think, ok, I'm kind of a cute fat girl, and then I see pics of myself, and I think, woah, what the heck?? Why am I uglier in pics?! weird, don't understand it really.. But even after losing 40 pounds, which is amazing, I never thought it would happen for me, I still feel disgusting next to my friends, ya know? *sigh* All I know is that I've come this far, I'm not quitting, no way no how, and I know on my vacation there is a slight chance that I"ll gain a bit back, but once I get back, theres no way in heck I'm keepin it, lol... Besides, I have a little over $1500 to spend on skinny clothes, sooo, that would be stupid to quit my work after spending a buncha money on inspiration, lol.
ALrighty, just felt like venting there a little, had a few seconds of fatass blues, lol, but everyone have a wonderful day tomorrow, I shallllll return!!!!
 
if that's you in your avatar, I don't think you're ugly at all. you are cute! :)
i think you're being too harsh on yourself. which i think we all know how that can be. so stop thinking you're ugly. cause you're not. and start loving yourself. :)
In fact, you should go out and buy something pretty for yourself right now (or do something nice for yourself like getting a manicure or a new haircut).
 
Hey gorgeous girl. Yes, the dreaded mirror hatred bites us all in the a$$ eventually, but luckily for us, you're a tough cookie with a great attitude and a good dose of determination. Kepp your chin up babe becaus eyou'll be there before you know it :D Ad I'll shout you a mai tai in Hawaii :p
 
NothinToLose said:
Doing good! I wish I could exercise as much as you. You're totally awesome with exercise!
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Its the weirdest thing ever- I bitch and complain about having to GO to the gym, but once I get there, I just wanna keep going and going :rolleyes: weird...
 
Initial_C said:
if that's you in your avatar, I don't think you're ugly at all. you are cute! :)
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awww, shucks, lol... That just happens to be a realllly good pic, I'm attaching another one,(lol) just cuz, well, my av. and this pic are the only two good pics I have of me, lol... but when I'm skinny, I promise to post my fat-ness pics and my hot skinny pics :D
 
Bedsy81 said:
Hey gorgeous girl. Yes, the dreaded mirror hatred bites us all in the a$$ eventually, but luckily for us, you're a tough cookie with a great attitude and a good dose of determination. Kepp your chin up babe becaus eyou'll be there before you know it :D Ad I'll shout you a mai tai in Hawaii :p
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*mwah!!* I ADORE you guys!!! I don't know what I'd do without all of you, lol. Thanks, Bedsy- totally gonna do the mai tai..lol..
 
Heh I think I'll do the same as you and wait until I have something tonot only compare to before posting pictures.:cool: I hate having my photo taken because of my weight but because I always seem to blink when the flash goes off.

Keep up the good work and don't let your slip up re cardio put you down.:)
 
OOOOK so todays workout was just cardio, 45 minutes, 2.75 miles, and 627calories.. tried to go as hard as I could to kinda make up for last night... GOtta work at 9am, which sucks, but hey, its money, right? anyways, makin this short, gonna try to get to journals tomorrow... have a great day :D
 
Jess you are NOT ugly! You are BEE-u-tee-ful!!! That mirror likes to play its head games on us all now and again. I HATE having my pic taken :eek: I think cameras play even worse head games on me than mirrors :eek:

Have a great day and kick towards that new goal! You're doin' awesome! :D
 
Jess393 said:
Its the weirdest thing ever- I bitch and complain about having to GO to the gym, but once I get there, I just wanna keep going and going :rolleyes: weird...
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Same thing here! When I get there, if I don't have any time constraints, I will stay for a few hours until I'm ready for a wet tshirt contest. haha

How ya doing sista? Missed you. Keep up the exercise, you are getting in shape!!!
 
Jess393 said:
awww, shucks, lol... That just happens to be a realllly good pic, I'm attaching another one,(lol) just cuz, well, my av. and this pic are the only two good pics I have of me, lol... but when I'm skinny, I promise to post my fat-ness pics and my hot skinny pics :D
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it is a pretty picture of you.
and you have such lovely curly hair.
mine never knows what it wants to do. It's curly. It's straight. It's um... fro-y? :confused:
which is weird... cause I'm 100% Chinese and I'm supposed to be super thin with straight limp hair. I swear Marco Polo must have contaminated my gene pool! :p

;)

anyways, hope you have a lovely day too. and get some sleep!!
you're always at the gym and then up to work. when do you ever sleep?!?! :confused:
 
Hey Jess! I love that picture! Did I read that you think you are ugly? Shame on you! You are not!! I must admit that I hate to have my picture taken too. I don't think I've been in more than 4 or 5 in the last 5 years or more. :rolleyes:
 
You are beautiful!!

I'm with you on the photo thing, actually I have never like cameras even when I was skinny, most of all I hate my chubby face! Even when I was slim I hated my face!

I am soo like that with exercise too, I dread it, but once I'm started I just don't want to stop!

Keep up the good work girlfriend!:D
 
Hey guys~ I have returned :D I ended up not working out on Thursday night cuz our night guy at the gym quit, and I covered till 4am for the other guy, then I hadta work at 9am on Friday, so I didn't bother, needed the sleep more. Friday night, that guy(jeffrey) covered for me so I could go out with a buncha friends- really short notice, but a friend of mine is moving to California, so we hadta have a good time before that :) TOday was a long day also, but as tired as I am, I think I'm not tired enuf to go to sleep, so maybe I'll go jog in the pool for a bit, haven't done that in a while...
MissJB- very exciting news- Friday night, I totally had a (hot) guy hit on me.. .and grab my butt a bit... I didn't mind, lol.. was actually quite excited to finally get a *little* action :D
Everyone: I'm soooo sorry! I didn't mean to make it sound like I think I'm ugly, its really sad, cuz I've got pretty damn good selfesteem (haha) I was just saying its weird how pictures can make you feel totally different than when your staring in a mirror... But *MWAH* I love you guys for caring anyways, and thanks for saying I'm cute, lol...
ALright, I think I'll go catch up on some of you, and then maybe hit the gym... can't decide yet...
 
Why can't a hot guy grab my butt?? I promise I won't press charges!!
That's awsome...man all i get is other girls grabbing my boobs and telling me they've shrunk! Yeah thanks guys! :rolleyes:
So who was this hot guy?? Do you know him?
 
yes! we need more juicy details! :D

and I'm glad you weren't seriously calling yourself ugly. It actually makes me real mad and upset that alot of people who are overweight don't love themselves enough. I mean, I don't claim to be perfect with super self-esteem. But I think alot of people who are overweight tend to shoot themselves down alot when they really shouldn't. So I'm happy to see you weren't serious. And you are cute! :)
 
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