Jen's Diary of Random Stuff

I agree with the previous post! You need to take care of yourself in order to be the best possible you! How can you be the best mom you can be if you are not your best possible you???? Mothers tend to forget that they are also women, we still need the girls night out, and me time even when we have little ones and the over grown kids that usually comes along with the little ones. I know it's easyer said then done, I have a hard time finding the time for me time but I do see a difference in my personality when I do get some me time and when I don't!!!!
 
KTSpeedhorse said:
Hi Jen. I just started reading your blog. I lost my grandfather who was like my second father last May and that put me on a major self-destructive downhill slide over the summer. It gets easier but you never get over it. My condolences.

You seem to be doing well on your "diet" at least it seems that you have lost 10 and kept them off....so I think that is good : ) Especially with all that you are dealing with. Keep your chin up girl.

P.S. You look like Tina Faye in your profile pic.
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Thank you for stopping by and for your condolences and your well wishes....I appreciate it! And I love Tina Fey, so I'll take that as a compliment..hahahaha!

ChefChiTown said:
Speaking of hearts...you have to remember that you have a heart too. You can't always look out for the hearts of others. Sometimes, you have to cater to your own heart before you think of anybody else's. That may seem selfish, but it's not. You have to keep in mind that, no matter how other people feel, YOU have to be happy too. And, if you allow yourself to stay unhappy just for the sake of not having to hurt somebody else, then you aren't doing them any favors. If you avoid breaking somebody else's heart, you could end up breaking your own in the process...which would be the worst thing you could possibly do. Do what's right for YOU. Do what makes YOU happy.

It took me FOREVER to realize that loving yourself and protecting your own heart isn't a selfish thing to do. I always thought it was, but...it's not. Looking after your own heart should be your number one priority.

Remember...if you aren't happy...then nobody else is either.
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I know, I have to do what makes ME happy, and I KNOW what makes ME happy, I just wish it wasn't so damn far away. I'll be patient though, or at least try. I know there will be many ups and down between now and then, but I know it's worth it...and I KNOW that when I get that thing I want....I will be happy...truly happy.


Verobc said:
How can you be the best mom you can be if you are not your best possible you????
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Thanks Verobc for stopping by......And that is very, very true. Definitely something to think about...Thank you! :)
 
I'm so tired....siiiiiiiiiiiiigh. I even went to bed earlier than usual last night...around Midnight. I was still dragging this morning though, and am still tired...I could sooooo take a nap right now. The weather is perfect for napping too, it's rainy and dreary. It just makes you wanna curl up on the couch with a blanket and sleep for hours...yeeeah..I could totally do that right now too....oh it'd be so nice....it won't happen.....but it'd be nice.....hahahaha!!!

PS- The smilies not working is really pissing me off.....sometimes you just NEED a smilie! Grrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!! I'd use the smilie where its banging its head against the wall.....but you probably wouldn't see it...siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh.....so I won't bother.

PSS- Elmo is so annoying...hahaha
 
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Well I'm sitting in a condo looking out over the ocean. The view is gorgeous!!....it's hot though...really hot...which is why I'm sitting inside in the air conditioning..lol! Anyway..I'm on vacation, having fun...but missing someone a lot...sigh. I should be back next Friday though.... Oh and FYI...vacations are not really diet friendly..hahaha!
 
Well I'm back from vacation...it was ..uh...fun? The ocean was beautiful..that I'm sure about...hahaha! AHHHHHHHHHH...why can't life just be easy? Is it too much to ask? Oh that's right ..it IS. siiiigh.

So anyway...I've been gone on a family vacation for two weeks. If that wasn't stressful enough...there was a lot of "other" stuff that kind of blew up just before we left. So we basically had to go on vacation and pretend like everything was hunky dory for two weeks..while in reality things were falling apart...more like crashing down all around us. So vacation was REALLY FUN! hahhaa...I hope you can sense the sarcasm there...cause it's overflowing with it.

Anyway....I'm back. The ocean was beautiful. Life kinda sucks for me right now. And I ate soooooo horribly...I'm terrified to get on the scale...I've probably gained like 10lbs over the last two weeks...siiigh. I'm going to get back on the wagon though ...soon...I feel like crap..I'm guessing anyway...I don't technically know what crap feels like, but yeah..you know..hahhaa!
 
Ok, So I weighed myself this morning and my scale and I are no longer on speaking terms...it's ok though..he was kind of a jerk anyway..hahaha! So tomorrow I'll definitely be watching what I eat and getting back on track and getting back on the treadmill...I'm shooting for 4 days a week, which I think is definitely doable...especially in a couple weeks. My kids will be off for summer break...so it will be more relaxed around here and I'll be able to exercise in the morning, So that's good.

I definitely have to get this emotional eating under control though. The past 3 weeks has been horrible. I've been eating anything and everything in sight...as long as it wasn't moving, it's went directly in my mouth....hahaha. Hell, I even ate some things that were moving...hahaha..no I'm kidding. NO, wait, I'm not...I did eat some jello..and as we all know...Jello Jiggles! hahaha! It's not the only thing that jiggles either....siiiiiigh.

Ok...so anyways....tomorrow is a new day...a new day that doesn't involve shoving my face full of food.
 
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Well I've been doing good so far today, been eating good and already got my workout done for the day...so ...Yay me! lol! I feel pretty good right now...physically and emotionally.

I have lots of things running through my head ...but they're all good things today...and I'm getting a present later ;) Yeah it's a good day...hahhaha!

PS- I just noticed the smilies are working again! YES it's a good day. :party:
 
Verobc said:
Good to see you are back on track!!!! Now get on that threadmill lol!
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Thank you, it feels good to be back on track. :)


I've been doing really good...eating and working out. There's not much to really report diet wise. I did however get into a big argument with my mother this morning...that was fun. :rolleyes: Mothers are such a pain in the butt sometimes......Grrrrr...I love her, but sometimes she makes me want to pull my hair out....or pull her hair out...hahaha....

Oh well, I hope everybody is doing well and has a great weekend!
 
jen_renee said:
Thank you, it feels good to be back on track. :)


I've been doing really good...eating and working out. There's not much to really report diet wise. I did however get into a big argument with my mother this morning...that was fun. :rolleyes: Mothers are such a pain in the butt sometimes......Grrrrr...I love her, but sometimes she makes me want to pull my hair out....or pull her hair out...hahaha....

Oh well, I hope everybody is doing well and has a great weekend!
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Good Job with the eating and workouts....As far as your mother goes all moms do that,,,,in a couple years your kids probably will think that of you lol!!
i think mine already do (the 3yrs old annyways!)
 
Verobc said:
Good Job with the eating and workouts....As far as your mother goes all moms do that,,,,in a couple years your kids probably will think that of you lol!!
i think mine already do (the 3yrs old annyways!)
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Yeah, I'm sure I'll drive them nuts...but it's only fair..they drive me nuts! I guess I'm just getting what I deserve for the many years of driving my mom nuts. I knew I should of been a better kid..Dang it! HAHAHA!

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Still doing good.....been sticking to the treadmill...I'm getting in the zone with that again I think....I hope...hahaha. I could still do a little better with my food choices...but I'm eating a lot better than I was a week ago, so I'm happy with that for now. I stepped on the scale this morning and was down 3 lbs so far....so I can't really complain..it's probably just water weight...but it's something.

I'm sitting here bored...it's raining..and I'm watching Juno. Another exciting Saturday night... I hope you guys are having more fun than I am. Please tell me you're having more fun than I am....I need to live vicariously through someone..hahaha! Well I guess if you're reading this you're not....you're sitting here reading through the forum too......damn it! Oh well.....Juno's back on...gotta go. OH yeah...Go do something FUN! ;)
 
jen_renee said:
Oh well.....Juno's back on...gotta go. OH yeah...Go do something FUN! ;)
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That movie sucks. That's the one with the pregnant teenager who does nothing but talk in uncommon slang terms, right? Yeah? It is? Ok yeah..that movie sucks.

Anyway, good for you. I'm really proud of you for finally getting back into the swing of things. I know you've been trying to get on track for a while now, but it seems as if you fiiiiinally got there. And, for that, I'm proud of you. And, you should be proud of YOURSELF too. So...yeah. How 'bout that?
 
ChefChiTown said:
That movie sucks. That's the one with the pregnant teenager who does nothing but talk in uncommon slang terms, right? Yeah? It is? Ok yeah..that movie sucks.

Anyway, good for you. I'm really proud of you for finally getting back into the swing of things. I know you've been trying to get on track for a while now, but it seems as if you fiiiiinally got there. And, for that, I'm proud of you. And, you should be proud of YOURSELF too. So...yeah. How 'bout that?
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Well I'm gonna have to disagree Mr. Movie Critic. So.... hmph!!!!!!! I thought it was good! I'm gonna make you watch it again someday....and a bunch of other girly movies...like Dirty Dancing...and Pretty Woman....OOOOOOOOOoooo...Grease! You'll LOVE that! hahhahaa! You think Juno sucks....just wait Mister. ;)
 
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Ooowwww...I hurt my neck. I have a pain going from the back of my head all the way down my neck and into my shoulder. I've had it before, so it's nothing new. It just hurts and is kind of annoying since I can't turn my head to left very much. lol! So I've been putting heat on it and I'm hoping by tomorrow it feels all better. :fingers crossed:

That's not the only pain in the neck I have at the moment though. Have you ever had someone try sooooo hard and just suck up to you soooo much..... to the point that it just irritates the piss out of you. Where you just wanna say... Don't talk to me!!.....Get away from me!!....Get out of my face!!! AHHHHH....It's so annoying. It just feels so fake. I think that's why I find it so annoying. It's all just a show. In my opinion you can't act one way for years and then all of a sudden change...and expect me to buy it. Nuh uh...doesn't work that way. You can't ignore a person for years and then find out you're going to lose them and then MIRACULOUSLY want to spend all sorts of time with that person. I'm sure some of it is out of fear...trying to cling to what they are about to lose. But really! Seriously! It's annoying! Just STOP!

SIIIIIIGH.... At least the actual physical pain in my neck will probably be gone by tomorrow. That's something to look forward to...lol.
 
Hi

Thank you for stoping by my Journal. I hope the heat will help your neck I hate it when that happends, sometimes I just sleep funny and wake up like that ...hate it! It seems like you are going throught emotional times as well so I am retuning a HUG.

Take Care!
 
Verobc said:
Hi

Thank you for stoping by my Journal. I hope the heat will help your neck I hate it when that happends, sometimes I just sleep funny and wake up like that ...hate it! It seems like you are going throught emotional times as well so I am retuning a HUG.

Take Care!
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Thank you. I appreciate it very much.

I'll probably be venting on here quite regularly over the next few months....so everyone has been warned...hahaha!! Better to vent, than to suffocate the emotion with food........yummy.... yummy food...siiiigh. Ok....no more thinking about food...that's not helping..hahaha.
 
So I had a really bad night last night and instead of writing in here or talking to someone....I ate ice cream..lots of it! SIIIIGH...I'm so stupid. But I'm much better today.

Today was the last day of school for both my kiddos. Right now I'm happy about that cause I get to sleep in a little....Next week after a few days I'll be ready for them to go back to school..hahaha. Oh and I came home today to find my front door wide open and a chipmunk under my couch! FUN! :)
 
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