How do kids have so much energy in the morning? Seriously? It's ridiculous! I just got home from dropping my daughter off at school. I was standing there with all the other half dead Moms and Dads, while the kids ran up and down the hallway, they made me tired just watching them...hahaha. I am soooooo not a morning person. I can't wait til summer vacation and I can sleep in......it's going to be so nice.
Anyway, I haven't weighed myself in a while, and am kind of scared to..haha. I haven't been doing the best that's for sure. I've been doing quite a bit of emotional eating. I have something going on in my life right now that is HUGE, and even though I KNOW that it will be the best thing in the world for me, it still means hurting a lot of people, which upsets me. And, what do I do when I get upset???? I EAT of course....siiiigh. And then I feel horrible for eating, which makes me feel bad...which makes me want to eat more..hahhaa...it's a horrible, horrible cycle... :facepalm:
SIIIIGH....why does life have to be so complicated. Why can't I just have what I love and need, without all the heartache and frustration and WAITING. I am so not a patient person...and this thing I'm going through is really pushing my patience to a whole new level. SIIIGH .... It really, really sucks right now....BUT I know in the end that it will sooooooo be worth it. It will mean a lifetime of happiness and love....THAT is definitely worth it.
Kids are energetic in the morning because they go to bed at 8 o'clock, unlike they're stupid idiot parents who stay up until the weeeeee hours in the morning talking, watching TV, playing games, etc. Plus, they're kids - it's their job to be as
annoying as possible, as
early as possible. So...yeah.
Anyway, I know how it feels to eat emotionally. I've always been an emotional eater and, just like you, I've been going through some very serious emotional issues lately - issues that have caused me to stuff my face full of crappy, crappy food. So, you're not alone. You just have to find some sort of motivation that keeps you from stuffing your face every time you feel emotion. I can't tell you where that motivation should come from - because that's all up to you - but just search your heart and I'm sure you'll find what you need.
Speaking of hearts...you have to remember that
you have a heart too. You can't always look out for the hearts of others. Sometimes, you have to cater to
your own heart before you think of anybody else's. That may seem selfish, but it's not. You have to keep in mind that,
no matter how other people feel, YOU have to be happy too. And, if you allow yourself to stay unhappy just for the sake of not having to hurt somebody else, then you aren't doing them any favors. If you avoid breaking somebody else's heart, you could end up breaking
your own in the process...which would be the worst thing you could possibly do. Do what's right for YOU. Do what makes YOU happy.
It took me FOREVER to realize that loving yourself and protecting
your own heart
isn't a selfish thing to do. I always thought it was, but...
it's not. Looking after your own heart should be your number one priority.
Remember...if
you aren't happy...then
nobody else is either.
