Jennifuffa's Journal

Hope Your Doing Great And Have A Happy And Safe 4th Of July!
 
Congratulations, Jenn, on losing a pound!!! That's terrific! That's exactly what I say ... slow and steady wins the race. You go, girl!

I finally got the nerve to go swimming while on vacation last week. Of course I was at a motel where I didn't know anybody. I bought one of those one-piece suits (black, of course) with the skirt that's supposed to hide the fat butt and thighs. Well, I'm not sure it does that exactly, but I decided to throw caution to the wind and wear it anyway. I wish I had the nerve to go swimming at our local pool; but like you, I still live in the small town where I grew up. Maybe someday ...

Keep up the good work, lady!
 
M2M is right. Life's too short to sweat the small stuff. Hell, I got into a bathing suit when I was 285 pounds. And you know what? I had FUN! So try to go out there and HAVE FUN!! :D
 
Hoping you are doing okay sweetie.

One pound at a time is the best way to do it.

We must first strech our wings before we can fly. :)

Huggs momma.
 
Hi Jen,

Just stopped by to see how you were doing. I have the same problem you do. I don't care for the exercise so much. I know in the past when I have gone to the gym and really start to see results it keeps me going. There is a 2 week challange people are signing up for. I thought it would get me out there doing more exercise. You may want to sign up for it too.
 
EXCELLENT job with your loss! Keep up the good work.

I always 'used' to think to myself at the beginning of 'yet another' diet - one pound - I WANT TO LOSE MORE and NOW! But when you think about all of the diets or weight loss plans most of us have tried. If we had JUST lost one pound a week - we would have met our goals a long long time ago. So ... keep up what you are doing and you'll succeed!
 
Let Us Eat Cake!

Grrrrrrrr. My husband can be so supportive but on the other end he can be a hinderance. He has such a sweet tooth. He asked me to make him some chocolate cake. The box and icing was burning a whole through the pantry door and just popped onto my kitchen counter. So I made him a chocolate cake. Well he has had 2 pieces to my 4. I am not making cake or any other baked treats until Christmas unless I have to for some reason.


Reflection:

I ate cake for breakfast. Now I can feel a sugar rush. Silly me silly me. I think I will pack up the little munchkin and and go for a nice long walk to the healthfood store and get some unsalted soya beans. They are always great for a I need to munch on something kinda snack.

Yes I think that is what I will do.

Ladies! I love the support.

Scarlett:

Would you believe that I have not soaked in the bathtub for over two years? I refuse to bath in my yucky mint green bathtub, eventhough I've cleaned it until it sparkled. I think it has something to do with the fact that it has been in the house for some 50 years.

So yes I am looking forward to soaking in the tub. Unfortunalty just the floors, walls, sink toilet are getting done this weekend. We are putting an acrilic incert into the bathtub so we have to call the guys to come and do that but the tiling on the floors and the rest of the stuff we are doing ourselves. I just can't wait.

I'm going to have a tall glass of wine and soak in the tub...or maybe it might be beer in a wine glass. lol

Twinmom:

Yes I live in my home town. I moved away for about 3 1/2 years after college in my early 20's but moved back to return to school. That was when I met my husband and we are settled here now. Most of my family and friends are here so yes the city is boring and there isn't much to do unless your really outdoorsey or a bar hopping lush but it's home. Oh it sounds so horrible but really it isn't all that bad.

Initial C: I don't have a problem wearing a bathing suit when I am at the cabin running between the sauna and the lake but I don't care to wear one in extreme public. So I'm not totally depriving myself but I am kinda as well. I know life is to short but it will be even shorter if I stay at this weight. I will get there eventuallly I hope.

Hi Dgillygal: Yes I'm doing alright except for the cake part. No more cake.

Smallerbytheday: Yes that pound was a difficult one. I just hope to speed up the process here. Thanks for peeking in.

Stephanie: Yes it one little pound at a time. Slow and steady winds the race.

Pineola: Thanks for telling me about the challenge, Unfortuanatly I've given up on the challenge rooms. I don't really find there to be a whole lot of support in those rooms. Lots of people talking. I rather just stick to the journals. I have made a promis to myself thought to get moving and eat less this month. Ok so the cake was a mistake but hey I'm only human.

So let's get moving! I will track my exercise progress in here if ya want to check in now and again!

Epi: I couldn't agree with you more. If I had only made an effort to maintain any of the weight I worked so hard to lose I would be in a much better place than I am right now. I can blame the weight on my pregnancy but the truth is my son is 8 months old and I still have to 25lbs or so to get to my pre pregnacy weight. Uggggg.

This time I haven't been looking at my weight loss in the quick fix way. I've been losing but very very slowly which I think in the long run will be easier for me to maintain and keep under control. I guess if you think about it you slolwly get use to eating less calories and stuff.
 
Are you sick of it yet?

Is anyone sick of watching their calories, exercising and just in general controling thier weight? I am! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. I won't give up but I just feel like complaining, crying and kicking and screaming like a little kid.

awwww I feel a little bit better.
 
That's exactly how I feel today too!!! I HATE always having to be conscious of what I eat and how much I eat. Does it ever not control our lives???? When does one get to the point of eating to live rather than living to eat? :(
 
It's all in the perception honey. If you perceive it to be tiresome and a burden then it will be. But if you can put yourself in a mindframe that you are taking care of you, you are pampering you, you are keeping everything inside and outside clean and well oiled, like the expensive and valuable machine that you are.....then it becomes something you appreciate and look forward to doing. It's all in the mind control, baby!!!
 
Well put Scarlett. You certainly have a way of puttting things into perspective. Yes I see what you mean. This is the only body I'm going to have and I it shouldn't be a chore to take care of it. Wow thanks for that. I think that helps with my mind set.

Dgilly: I don't think that we will ever get to that point. This is an addiction after all. At least I don't think I can. I will just have to always be aware of the fact that if I lose control again I will end up right back here.

Thanks lots and lots and lots ladies!
 
I like what Scarlett said, too. :)

I'm not tired of counting calories, because strangely it gives me a lot of comfort. I had buttered popcorn and a regular pop at the movies tonight and went over my calorie limit. It was sort of a pre-planned splurge. I decided to go ahead with it this afternoon. :p I was still feeling guilty about it, though, and a little worried until I got home and looked up the calories. Turns out, I only went over my limit by about 200 calories, and yesterday I was under my max goal by 300, so it all worked out. That's what I mean by comfort. It feels good to be in control and to be able to put numbers to the things I eat. Even when they are not the best choices, they are still my choices.
 
I agree with Twinmom. On some days, I'm like "BLAH! I need to go online and go on fitday." But generally... I like adding up my calories and stuff. I like seeing how much fat, sodium, cholesterol I've had for the day. I dunno. I think it gives me a sense of power and control. If nothing else, I can control what goes into my body. ANd I can track my progress yknow and be proud of it.
 
Yes I guess I do agree with you guys but as you said Initial C Some days are like forget it I don't want to count today. I do most of the time like to calculate what I've eaten. I do like the control factor but I don't always control myself and I think that is when I don't want to count. Because I don't want to know. Kinda like when I weigh myself all of the time. When I am watching my weight I am always weighting myself. When I know I have gained weight I avoid the scale. I guess I like to hide from the truth.
 
Oh, I so agree with feeling in control when I count calories - yesterday for example, by 5:00 pm I was leaving the beach and had only had 560 calories for the day. My daughter still had 2 hours of swimming ahead of her and we were out of food. By knowing how many calories I had consumed, I had no problem stopping at Taco Bell and getting a Chalupa (390 calories) and a MexiMelt (290) calories - it took me to a toal of 1240 for the day - I had a handful of grapes when I got home at 8:00 and was still under 1300.

I don't think I could have done Taco Bell guilt free if I hadn't known how many calories I had eaten and could still eat.

Anyway, hope your day is going well - don't forget to drink some water :D
 
Hey Jen, just checking to see if you would be interested in joining a challenge that starts on Monday. Those participating are divided into team, and the team who loses the most combined weight at the end of two weeks wins. It's my first challenge and not alot of pressure. I think it will be fun...here's the link.....

http://weight-loss.fitness.com/showthread.php?t=4253
 
M2M That is a good point that you make. Yes that certainly does make your taco bell trip guilt free and you were also able to eat some "bad" food that you would otherwise forbid yourself to eat if you were on a typica diet. I do like cal counting for that reason. It allows you to make better choices when you are at fast food places. For example I use fitday and I programed in Some Mcdonalds choices cheeseburger, medium fries and an apple pie. I find that I eat better on the days that I count the calories and have "bad" foods as opposed to eating good foods all day. It's like I am more aware that I didn't eat so well that it's easier to stay within my calorie range.

Scarlett: Yes I would like to join but I just checked out the link and it said that the thread was closed. Was it moved? or started elsewhere?

Relfection:

I came across this little quote on my travels and thought that I would post it today.

[
There'll be two dates on your tombstone
And all your friends will read 'em
But all that's gonna matter is that little dash between 'em..."

Kevin Welch​

It kinda makes me realize how short life is and that I don't want to spend the rest of my life as a big girl. That reminds me of a story. The worst insult that I got a few years back was from a woman that I worked for as her personal assistant. She was a retired model and said to me. "You are so pretty have you ever though of being a plus size model?" I was so taken aback by the comment because at the time I was a size 11-12 and did not think of myself as a plus sized person. I could walk into any store and buy clothing. I was so offended. she thought she was complimenting me and I certainly did not think so.

Funny think is now I can only purchase my clothing in the plus size stores.


What I liked about the weekend:

I got my bathroom mostly renovated

What I didn't like

I had 2 big steak dinners one on friday and one on sunday with all the trimmings. I did not exercise. I gained 3 lbs.

What I like about today:

I started my 10 by the 10th challenge today. I plan to be 260lbs by August 10th. Yes if you look at my ticker the numbers don't add up. I don't change it it I gained only when I lose. So for now my ticker is not correct. :(

AAAA but this is a new week.

Wish me luck!
 
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