Janvier's Weight loss Diary

[chubbygirl]

I think we both deserve a smack but look we are both back on track and that is what is important! We didn't go on a week long binge so it could be worse right! I feel the same about weekends and slowly I think they will get better - just being focused helps so I need to spend some time focusing on the weekend before it arrives instead of just diving right in! I think I need to plan a couple really good snacks or a cheat "meal" and not cheat day or cheat weekend.
I am going to try and do the treadmill every morning before work too because I felt so much better when I was doing that. Oh and I'm so glad things went well with your friend! So happy to hear! If only it was as simple with my friend. We haven't talked in 6-7 years and she moved provinces - I tried adding her to facebook but she accepted and then blocked me. I often think too much time has passed to ever get a friendship back. It would just be fake I think. Who knows though.
Glad to have you back on track with me this week. Reading the diaries has helped keep my mind off food for the time being and then I'm going to the gym and dinner is in the works so I think I've gotten myself under control!!!
Have a good night!!

 

[Janvier]

I think we both deserve a smack but look we are both back on track and that is what is important! We didn't go on a week long binge so it could be worse right!

LOL Lisa your totally right! We both deserved a big smack this weekend, but I agree with you, the fact that we jump right back on track is what is important and I think that even though we have our slips and sometimes we even fall flat on our butts, I think it shows that we actually made a life change by not ever giving up! I know that before I would be on a "diet" and eat one wrong thing and that diet was over, I would just go right back to eating all of the wrong foods again. Now I eat a wrong food, accept that its wrong and look foward to making everything right again. So all in all I'm actually really proud of us for never giving up and really changing our lives for good!

I'm sorry that your attempts to re-kindle your friendship didn't work Lisa, my aunt told me that she thinks sometimes people get removed from our lives for different reasons, and maybe we don't know the reason but it is probably for good reasons...maybe that is the case with you and it just wasn't meant to be, or just isn't meant to be for the time being...you never know what can happen in the future.

Yesterday went well, I stuck to my meal plan...I went downstairs at my parents house to do my Turbo Jam dvd and they are doing a lof of renovations in their house and too much equiptment was in the way so I ended up just going on the tredmill and elyptical. My stomach was still achey from all the crap I ate on the weekend so I didn't do either for long...I was on the tredmill for 15 minutes- running off an on- burned 180 calories, and was on the elyptical for 9 minutes and burned 105 calories. I felt so bloated and gross all evening, I took some anti-bloating meds, had some camomille/mint tea and went to bed. I had to really force myself out of bed this morning, but I did get up and went on my stair stepper for 30 minutes this morning, burned another 350 calories! My bloat meds worked well and I feel much better today! The cheating is so not worth all of the gulity feelings and upset stomach and I know this and do it again and again ...ah well...hopefully I learned my lesson this time. Today is going well, heres what it looks like...

Breakfast: 1 packet instant apple cinnamon oatmeal with 1/2 cup of frozen blueberries and one large cup of coffee

Snack: 1 cup of mint green tea, an orange and a 3/4 cup of honey nut cheerios without milk

Lunch: 2 slices dempsters body wise bread with 1 tbsp of sugar free jam and campbells chicken noodle soup

Snack: Banana and diet pepsi

Dinner: Sweet and sour chicken by Lean Cusine and steamed veggies

Workout: stair stepper during the BL and turbo jam after that.

I am so happy that its Tuesday, I am really looking forward to the BL, it always motivates me to do the best that I can. I was wondering if anyone has someone in their life that constantly tells them that they want to lose weight yet they do nothing about it?

Happy Tuesday everyone!

 

[chubbygirl]

So all in all I'm actually really proud of us for never giving up and really changing our lives for good!

I am so happy that its Tuesday, I am really looking forward to the BL, it always motivates me to do the best that I can. I was wondering if anyone has someone in their life that constantly tells them that they want to lose weight yet they do nothing about it?

Happy Tuesday everyone!

Happy Tuesday Janvier! You are right we are never giving up and we will win because of that!! that was me before too - diet for a couple weeks and lose 5 pounds and then eat everything in site and gain 10 and the vicious cycle just went around and around! Never again!

I have a couple friends that constantly say that - especially after commenting on my own weight loss - they always say you look so good I should lose weight too and then I give them advice and tell them they could do it and then I see them a month later and nothing has changed. My sisters are like that too - say they want to lose weight but don't put in any effort. Then they get mad when I tell them what I am doing is working and I'm losing and they just say it's not working for them but I know they aren't trying!
My oldest sister just joined Herbal Magic because she ordered a bridesmaid dress that is currently 4 sizes smaller and her trying on her own wasn't working (I don't think she tried very hard) and I keep trying to tell her that yes she will lose weight with their program but she won't be able to keep it off if she doesn't change her habits. I know from experience the Herbal diet is very restrictive and very expensive and I just don't think it is something she could keep up for life - I hope she does though and will be supportive along the way - I just think she could do it on her own.
I guess I shouldn't talk though because I couldn't do it on my own and had to go back to WW. Oh well what works for one might not work for the other.
Glad to hear from you today!! Have fun watching BL!

 

[mizzie]

I was wondering if anyone has someone in their life that constantly tells them that they want to lose weight yet they do nothing about it?

Oh my, yes! I can think of six right off the top of my head. One in particular was going to start the same time I did, but right away out came the excuses. She didn't have money for the "right" food and her parents (she's still in college) wouldn't buy enough of it or the rest of the family would eat it. She was too busy to exercise. She couldn't give up soda.

I've tried telling her what she needs to do, but she won't listen. She thinks she's actually trying, but she's really not. In under two months, I've lost 16 pounds and she lost about 4 at first, then gained them back.

I've given up talking to her about it. She'll ask how it's going sometimes and I'll update her on my weight. I know she's really impressed/jealous that I've lost so much, but she still won't try "my" way.

Then there's my mother in law who noticed that I lost weight last weekend when I saw her. She seemed really happy for me and asked how I was doing it. When the answer was basically "diet and exercise" she completely tuned out. Honestly, I think she was hoping I'd found some miracle pill or something.

Of course, I was one of those people until 2 months ago, so I guess I shouldn't talk.

 

[Janvier]

Thanks for your responses Lisa and Mizzie! I was asking because I go through it a lot with my sister and people at work. Same situations too. With my sister, I started my own weight loss because of her, she was trying to lose weight and convinced me to try with her...and she gave up a couple months in and I kept going. I love her, but I feel like she can never seem to follow through with her plans, she does a LOT of planning (meal plans and excersice plans) and convinces me and herself that she will follow through and it never seems to happen, not even for a week. And its frustrating, because we will discuss it so much, and I try so hard to give her advice and boost her confidence to help her decide to actually follow through and time after time I realise that it just falls on deaf ears. Or i'll believe her and then ask her if she wants to work out and all I get is a "nope"...and its like why not??? I thought you were trying! I don't think anyone can decide to lose weight or change someone elses life, and I will continue to support her if she tried but I just find it tiring and irritating to see her give up so easily, especially when I see her planning and buying healthy food. And as for people at work, its just like Mizzie's mother in law, they ask how I did it and I say with eating well and excersice and they look at me like I'm lying! Or they will say, what did you take to lose weight? Do you eat? And when I say I didn't take anything, or course I eat- thats just stupid and insulting, I work hard and eat well they say they don't have time for that or that doesn't work for them. Its like they all think I either have a magic pill that I don't want to share with them or I have an eating disorder! Its pretty frustrating and annoying at my job because I work with pretty much only women and they all seem to think I just simply don't eat. I'm not asking any of them to be happy for me, but I know if any of them lost weight I would be happy for them. Its good to know that we can all relate to what eachother goes through on this journey.

Okay, so yesterday went well, I stuck to my meal plan, I went on my stair stepper during the Biggest Loser for the full two hours! I felt good too, its not an exhausting excersice....but about 25- 35 minutes in for some reason it re-set my time and burned calories and I was so angry because I didn't notice at first so I am not positive about just how many calories I burned during the two hours- my rough estimate would be 1550, plus the 350 I burned in the morning putting me at 1900 calories burned for the day! I was so hungy when I was done, so I defrosted some frozen cherrys and mango chunks and ate about 2/3 of a cup all together and made some tea and went to bed. This morning I was exhausted, but pushed myself to get up and went back on my SS and burned another 350 cals in 30 minutes. Today is going well, my legs ache but it just shows that I'm working hard. I think that my weight will be more then 123 on Friday, because this weekend took a huge toll on my weight, when I stepped on the scale on Monday it said 131!!! I'm hoping most of that was retained water....but anything will be better then that by Friday. Today I'm doing good so far and plan to keep it that way...here is how it looks:

7am- 30 minutes stair stepper 350 calories burned

Breakfast: 1 packet instant oatmeal with 1/2 cup of frozen blueberries and 1 cup of coffee

Snack: Mint green tea, orange and ff yogurt

Lunch: 3/4 cup of dry honey nut cheerios and uncle bens bistro express

Snack: 1 cup of mango chunks

Dinner: Lean cusine, sautted cabbage and steamed veggies

Workout: Turbo Jam

Sorry for the crazy long post!

 

[mizzie]

Its like they all think I either have a magic pill that I don't want to share with them or I have an eating disorder!

Exactly! The same friend who was supposed to start with me did the same thing. I ate really bad one night (way over processed chicken dipped in dressing) and I felt actually ill from it. When I told her that, she said to be careful because that "sounds like a slippery slope to an eating disorder." I don't know if she thought I meant I wanted to go throw up or something, but that's not what I said. I was really mad and really hurt that she would think that.

I am in awe of your exercising! I think stair steppers are exhausting. Way to go!

 

[chubbygirl]

Your doing so great this week! Major recovery from the weekend! Are you nervous about Easter? I am a little bit but finally getting into the 140's has motivated me to stay there this time! I hope to have will power this weekend if tempted at all - I'm also going to try and avoid all those temptations so I don't have to test my will! I've done that test before and failed so keeping it away is the best solution. Hope you get out for a run - I know you'll love it! It's supposed to rain here all weekend but they are usually wrong so I'm still going to try and get out. Chat with you Monday!! Take care and enjoy the extra day off! Happy Easter!

 

[chubbygirl]

Hey Janvier - how was your weekend? Mine was awful as usual but it's the work week again so back on track. If only I could prove to myself I could get through one weekend without set backs! one day - I promise!! Looking forward to hear from you and hope all is well!

 

[Janvier]

I ate really bad one night (way over processed chicken dipped in dressing) and I felt actually ill from it. When I told her that, she said to be careful because that "sounds like a slippery slope to an eating disorder."

I am in awe of your exercising! I think stair steppers are exhausting. Way to go!

I always feel bad or sick if I eat something that my body is no longer used to as well so thats just stupid!

But thank you for the support Mizzie!

 

[Janvier]

Hey Janvier - how was your weekend? Mine was awful as usual but it's the work week again so back on track. If only I could prove to myself I could get through one weekend without set backs! one day - I promise!! Looking forward to hear from you and hope all is well!

Lisa thank you for your messages, I was SO nervous going into the Easter weekend as well- with good reasons too because I did awful as well- more like horrible! I started with one little chocolate egg and all it did was awaken this horrible sugar craving and did I ever give in! From Thursday to Saturday night I had: chips with cheese and articoke dip, chilli chicken wings (after dinner Thursday night ) 4 cup cakes total , calimari, crab dip and chips, nachos with the works and a few chocolate eggs ! By Sunday morning I was disgusted with myself and had a bowl of cereal for breakfast and nothing else until dinner. I made dinner for my family so it was healthy; Turkey, steamed veggies, baked sweet potatos and baked onion rings with fruit for desert. So Sunday was good. Over the weekend I managed to go on my stepper and got outside for my run but decided to just walk, walked for 45 minutes- wanted to do more but my mom was complaning about being tired

I don't know why weekends are so hard for me and I don't know why they turn into a full blown cheat fest, But I hate it, I'm sick of it and I am ready to find a way to stop it! Starting Sunday I did get back on track with my eating and Monday morning I had work so I woke up at 7am, went on my stepper for 30 minutes, burned 365 calories and ate well all day then did 40 minutes of Hip Hop abs with weights after dinner- He really kicked my butt-I was soaked with sweat! It was a bitter/sweet workout because I felt great after but then I was thinking just before christmas I would do that whole workout and hardly break a sweat, and now it feels like climbing Everest! Oh well, I just have to keep pushing forward. This morning I decided to face the scale and got on and weighed in at 128 lbs...Last Monday I had gone up to 131 lbs so I guess its better, but without allll of that cheating it could of been much better. I'm frustrated with my weight bouncing up and down, and its clearly my own fault, but I feel like I'm in a bad place with my weekend cheating and have no idea what the soloution is...I am at least back on the wagon this week and am working hard to stay positive and keep up the good eating and workouts....here is what today looks like:

7am- 30 minutes stair stepper 360 calories burned

Breakfast: 1 packet instant oatmeal with 1/2 cup frozen blueberries

Snack: 10 calorie vitamin water, ff yogurt and an orange

Lunch: 3/4 dry honey nut cheerios and campbells chunky southwestern chicken soup (surprisingly yummy)

Snack: Banana and small salad

Dinner: steamed veggies, sauteed mushrooms and lean cusine

Workout: stair stepper during the biggest loser and 40 minutes Hip Hop abs

Happy Tuesday everyone!

 

[mizzie]

I know what you mean about weekends. I think most of us struggle through them. During the week we are all stuck at work, so it's easier to bring healthy snacks and drink our water, etc. But then the weekend comes and we don't feel like exercising because it's our day off. And if any fun plans come up they usually involve going out or going to someone's house to eat. And it's harder to make healthy choices at a restaurant (sometimes there literally isn't anything healthy!) and almost impossible when you are a guest somewhere!



And yet, we can't give up our fun on the weekend! I mean, this is hard enough, with enough sacrifices, without having to take the fun out of weekends. And even if we just stay home all weekend, we are still home with all our food and a whole day to fill.

Don't stress over what is in the past. Can't do anything about it anyway! Just do really great this week and try to do better on the weekends in the future. You've come a long way and are getting very close to your goal weight. Be proud of where you are!

 

[chubbygirl]

Great post Mizzie - I totally agree. I really live for my weekends - count down the days at work and if I can't indulge in some way I think it wouldn't be as fun for me. I do go over board most of the time so I need to find a balance and plan what yummy stuff I want to have and maybe try to make a healthy version of it. I think the more experience we have with it the better we will get - I think planning really helps too. Sometimes I plan my weeks so well and then the weekends are just fly by the seat of my pants. I blame that on my hunnie partly because on the weekends our plans come together and he is not a planner and actually hates plans and whenever I try to make plans he gets mad because then something else will come up that sounds better and he's like "well if we didn't have plans"! Oh well as long as we stick to our guns come Monday morning and jump right back I think we will succeed. Hope your week is going good.

 

[Janvier]

You girls are so right! Thank you for your posts Mizzie and Lisa. I count down the days until my weekend is here as well... Its never usually very exciting but I don't have to work so thats always great lol...But I agree that since we work hard on our weight-loss all week long and since it is the weekend a little treat shouldn't be considered a crime, as long as it is portion controlled because I usually go way overboard...so if I can stop myself after a few bites or after I finish whatever it is and not turn it into a binge I will be very satisfied with that.

Sorry I haven't updated in a couple days...I will catch you up to speed...

Tuesday was great! I woke up and did my stepper for 30 minues, burning 360 calories, ate well all day long, did my stepper again for an hour and a half during the biggest loser, burning 1200 calories then went and did 40 minutes of Hip Hop abs with weights! I have never been so sweaty in my whole life- besides the day I went to hot yoga. I was really proud of myself for doing everything I planned.

Wednesday started off rocky, I decided to sleep in instead of getting up to go on my stepper , I think it threw off my whole day so that was a bad decision...I ate well all day, got stuck in traffic on my way home and the gum i usually chew on my way home to keep me from snacking just wasn't doing it...it was just taking way too long to get home. By the time I got home i felt like i was going to die of starvation, my veggies were taking too long to cook so i decided to raid the cupboard while they were cooking ...ended up finding some old (and by that i mean stale) nacho chips, just little pieces, probably about a cup full...so I ate them...dispite the stale texture . By the time I was finally eating my dinner I just felt like i wanted to eat something else unhealty...I have no idea why...but I had nothing in my house anyway. I took a nap, got up to workout and just wasn't in the mood, I kept thinking okay in half an hour I'll start...never happened. I ended up going to get some gas, the gas station had a Tim Hortons and I bought 1 cookie and 2 timbits ...when I got in the car I could hardly wait, I dug into the bag and saw that the cashier was really sweet and gave me an extra timbit...if he only knew that i was already being bad, I was secretly very excited for the extra one! I pretty much inhaled them and decided that I would stop at the McDonalds that is right outside of my building !!!! Just telling this story makes me see how crazy last night was...anyway, I have to tell it just to see in words that it was ridiculous! So I stopped at McDonalds and ordered a small fries and this cinnimon doughy thing...while I was curled up on the couch eating the fries I noticed that it had the "nutritional" facts on the back...11g of fat in the serving of small fries!!! I ate them anyway . I went to bed feeling overly full, sick and like an idiot....

Today is going very well, I woke up at 6:45 today to go on my stepper, I decided to make myself do 6 more minutes then I usually do since I didn't do anything yesterday, so I did a total of 36 minutes and 425 calories burned. I am eating well today and plan on going back on it for an hour tonight and doing my 40 minutes of Hip Hop abs because he really kicks my butt with those weights. Usually on Thursdays my boss sends me out to get everyone baked goods and I don't think hes going to send me today which is great because my will power to not buy something for myself is way too low right now, so I am greatful that I don't have to go. What I did yesterday made me very nervous for the weekend, but I am trying to keep a positive attitude...Here is what today looks like:

6:45am- 36 minutes stair stepper- 425 calories burned

Breakfast: 1 packet instant oatmeal with 3/4 cup frozen mixed berries and large cup of coffee

Snack: 1 cup of mango chunks and a 3/4 cup of banana nut cheerios dry

Lunch: Uncle bens bistro express rice

Snack: banana and cucumber slices

Dinner: sauteed cabbage, steamed veggies and lean cusine

Workout: 1 hr stepper and 40 mins Hip Hop Abs

 

[mrskt20]

Hey Janvier! Looks like your still doing a great job. I am ready to get back to my routine. My surgery went fine and I'm in my 2nd week of recovery. My dr. told me I could start exercising by doing short walks (20-30min). I have to get my eating under control. I have started eating sweets again and I have to stop that now!! I am really going to try to focus on my diet since I can't work out that much. It's great to be able to visit your dairy again. I really miss chatting with you and Lisa. You all keep me so motivated.

 

[chubbygirl]

Hey Janvier - hope you haven't come down with what I got! Happy hump day! Cheers to a new week!

 

[Janvier]

Mrskt20 I am so happy to hear from you! I am glad that you are doing better and getting back to business with your diet and walking, but take it slow, you have time to catch back up once your healed. I had started eating sweets again too, so we need to cut that out and have some healthier options when we start craving sugar. I'm gald your back, I missed chatting with you too, you are good at keep me on track!

Hi Lisa, I'm not sick, I think I came down with the blues instead...I didn't do great on the weekend (as usual) and even though I decided to cut the crap by Sunday and have been doing well this week I just felt like I didn't want to post about another failed weekend...I'm just feeling a little down in the dumps and didn't want to spread around my negativity. I'm trying to get out of my funk. Thank you for checking up on me, I think I need to go back to posting my progress so here is yesterday and today:

Yesterday...


Breakfast: 1 packet of instant oatmeal with 1/2 cup of frozen blueberries and a large coffee with skim and splenda

Snack:1 fruit bar (made of only dehydrated apples and strawberries) 90 cals and 3/4 cup of dry banana nut cheerios

Lunch: Campbells chunky soup

Snack: special k bar and another fruit bar

Dinner: Lean cusine and cooked spinach

Snack: another special k bar that I probably didn't need

Workout:75 minutes on the stair stepper- 1000 calories burned and 40 minutes of hip hop abs with two 5 pound weights (I usually use two 3 pound weights)


Today...



Breakfast:1 packet of instant oatmeal with 1/2 cup of frozen blueberries and a large coffee with skim and splenda

Snack: an orange and ff yogurt

Lunch: 1/2 cup of banana nut cheerios dry and campbells chunky soup

Snack: banana

Dinner: Lean cusine and steamed veggies

Workout: stair stepper and turbo jam

By the way, I was really happy that Sam didn't get kicked off on BL, I think he is my TV crush lol, he made a total transformation and looks amazing! Happy Wednesday everyone...

 

[chubbygirl]

Hey Janvier - hope the rest of your week went good - didn't hear from you so I'm not sure what to think - I'm thinking positive though that you have been a good girl! I'm going to do it this weekend - eat healthy and exercise and NOT BINGE!! I'm challenging myself and I plan to win! I know I can do - make me proud and try your best too - find that place you were in before when it wasn't a question that you would do good and you just did it!! I know you can do it - think about your goal and when you go to eat something bad think about how it will help you get there! Maybe the weather will be nice and you can get out jogging again. Either way have a great weekend and I'll be here for you Monday!!

 

[Janvier]

Hey Janvier - hope the rest of your week went good - didn't hear from you so I'm not sure what to think - I'm thinking positive though that you have been a good girl! I'm going to do it this weekend - eat healthy and exercise and NOT BINGE!! I'm challenging myself and I plan to win! I know I can do - make me proud and try your best too - find that place you were in before when it wasn't a question that you would do good and you just did it!! I know you can do it - think about your goal and when you go to eat something bad think about how it will help you get there! Maybe the weather will be nice and you can get out jogging again. Either way have a great weekend and I'll be here for you Monday!!

Hi Lisa,

Your messages always lift my spirits and put me in a good place that makes me really want to change some of my new bad habbits and get back to my old self that didn't cheat and worked out everyday and had my weight loss as my number one priority. I didn't do bad last week but I didn't try to do my best either...I ended up getting sick on Thursday and it got worse throughout the weekend. I read you post to me before I went home on Friday and told myself, this weekend I am going to do this, I am not going to cheat, I am not going to have fast food or cookies or candy or cupcakes and I am not going to even tempt myself with anything by going anywhere that I may be tempted to get unhealthy food....and good news...I did it! I was stuck in bed all weekend with this annoying cold, and it was a good oppertunity to binge but I didn't! I ate healthy and only had healthy snacks! And yesterday I got up enough strength to go get some groceries and I stocked up on healthy foods and healthy snacks. I hated being stuck in bed and not getting to do any excersice, but I knew it would be better to rest and get better soon then push myself and have the cold linger from not resting- plus that grocercery shopping for 2 hours made me feel like passing out so I knew I did the right thing. I am feeling about 50% better, and plan to get some excersice in today, but I feel very good about doing well this weekend and I feel like it has given me a boost to do well this week! Thank you Lisa for believing in me and helping me remember that I can do this!

Here is what today looks like:

Breakfast: 1 packet of instant oatmeal with 1/2 cup of frozen blueberries and large cup of coffee with skim and splenda

Snack: 1 mango diced and ff yogurt

Lunch: 110 cals of popcorn clusters, uncle bens bistro express and Pepsi zero

Snack: small salad and banana

Driving home snack: 1/3 of a cucumber sliced

Dinner: WW smart ones meal and steamed veggies

Workout: stair stepper- Maybe turbo Jam

Ps. my friend's bf is selling his p90x dvd set and I decided to buy it from him and try it- I always watch the informecial and like workout dvds so I am hoping I can actually do it- I call tell it will kick my butt- I will update how it goes once I try it. Happy Monday everyone!!


Lunch:

 

[chubbygirl]

So glad you are feeling better! - don't worry about the exercise until you are 100% better and keep watching what your eating you know what to do. So glad to have you back on board to losing! I'm feeling it's going to be a good end of April for a lot of us. I feel like I'm getting more in control with my snacking too and that's a huge thanks to you with your tips you have passed on! The lemon in the decaf tea totally does the trick now! I think of you everytime I enjoy a cup! Have a great Monday and I look forward to hearing from you more this week! Water, water, water!

 

[njoyabl]

Hello, just got finished reading your diary, and even though my eyes hurt from this computer I had to give you a shout and tell you how amazing I think you have done with your weightloss. I am 5'2 and now at 189, and it is such a rocky road. I had a baby 5 months ago and it seemed like the scale just didn't want to budge, but I'm on my way, and reading a diary like yours is very inspiring, keep up the good work.