Janvier's Weight loss Diary

Janvier said:
But I chose that date because it will be a year and a half since I started my weight loss journey and I am ready to be done with the losing weight portion of my life and ready to start the maintaining and healthy lifestyle portion of my life...so 2 months and 3 weeks to go!
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I like this goal - something to work towards! It also really hit home when you wrote about being done with the losing portion and ready to maintain! I am so ready for that too! I think that is why my motivation has fallen lately because I am happy with myself the way I am and when I look in the mirror I'm not constantly putting myself down but I know I want to lose more for the wedding but it just seems like it's going to be so hard to get there. I think I need some mini goals because it just seems so far away - something I need to think about.
I love my sweet potato fries with a little dill on them! yumm!
Awesome work on the two pounds - your hard work is paying off! I need to work harder too! Way to keep it up - your dedication is really motivating! thanks for the posts - I always enjoy reading them! have a great day!
 
Its good to hear from you Lisa, I think you just hit the nail on the head...I think that could also be why I am struggling with my last little bit of weight to get off, the fact that I have a whole new body and a whole lot less to put myself down about. But just like you, I am happy with how far I have come yet want to continue and get to my goal weight. I agree that mini goals may be the best bet to have something to look forward to and some extra motivation.

I didn't even think about putting dill on my sweet potato fries! That sounds sooooo yummy! :drool5:

Mrskt20, thank you for your post. My weekend was so-so. I did great on friday, I gave into temptation and snuck some ice cream out of the freezer when I went to visit my parents...when I'm sneaking around to eat food I feel like it is so silly! The fact that I am sneaking around just shows that I shouldn't be eating it! I was mad at myself and wanted to just lay in bed and keep cheating but I decided to get off my feeling-sorry-for-myself butt and get on my stair stepper...So I did and ended up staying on it for an hour and a half while I was watching tv and managed to burn 1100 calories! I was so proud of myself for not letting my cheating get the best of me, My legs still ache! Saturday I could of done much better, I was all excited to get out and do some healthy grocery shopping, I had my list and was excited about getting some healthy meals and snacks...that went down hill fast, they didn't have any thing on my list and I had to settle for things I don't feel like eating or go with out anything...I ended up only spending $30 because they seriously had nothing that I planned on buying. I had done well with my food all day, then went home and did some unnecessary snacking i guess just out of frustration. I didn't workout on saturday or sunday, but I stuck to my meal plan on sunday.So over all I guess it wasn't horrible.

Yesterday went well- Except I fell asleep watching tv and didn't get to workout. Heres what it looked like:

Breakfast: 1 toasted crumpet (80 cals) 1/2 cup of egg beaters and 3 strips of extra lean bacon

Snack: an orange and ff yogurt

Lunck: Bistro express rice and 110 cals of popcorn clusters

Snack: apple

Dinner: Healthy choice chicken and pasta, I threw in a ton of sauteed mushrooms in there with a side of sauteed cabbage and 1/2 of a baked sweet potato

Workout: I took a nap instead :banghead:

Today is going well, I stuck to my meals and plan on going on my stair stepper while watching the biggest loser. I met with my doctor yesterday who said I can go back doing my full blown workouts so I'm looking forward to that. Here is what today looks like...

Breakfast: 1/2 of a pita, 1/2 cup of egg beaters and 1 packet of cream of wheat

Snack: an orange and ff yogurt

Lunck: campbells chunky chicken noodle soup and 110 cals of popcorn clusters

Snack: banana

Dinner: weight watchers smart ones and steamed veggies

Workout: stair stepper, hopefully an hour.
 
So Yesterday went really well, I stuck to my meal plan and hopped on my stair stepper at the begining of the last hour of The Biggest Loser and stayed on for an hour and a half- I was stair stepping and crying from the show lol, I can not watch an episode without crying! Anyway, I beat my last time- last time I did an hour and a half I burned 1100 calories and this time I burned 1217 calories!!! I was really excited about that, my thighs are so sore today but its a good sore! I felt like having a snack before bed but I made some mint tea and threw in some fresh mint and it was sooo good and I didn't feel the need for a snack anymore. Things are going well today...but a co-worker brought me some indian treats from her wedding and I am really tempted to eat them- I might just try little bits to see what they taste like...we'll see...anyway, heres what today looks like...

Breakfast: 2 cups of special k red berry cereal with 1 cup of skim milk and 1 cup of coffee

Snack: orange and ff yogurt

Lunch: 110 calories of popcorn clusters and campbells gumbo soup

Snack: coke zero and banana

Dinner: WW smart ones with added mushrooms. sauteed cabbaed steamed veggies on the side

Work out: possibly turbo jam if I can get through the whole thing (still a little sore in the tummy), other wise my stair stepper for an hour

Happy wednesday everyone!
 
Awesome work Janvier and that weekend looked great to me! Way to really burn those calories on that stair stepper!
I had the same problem grocery shopping last night - they didn't have all bran buds or the yogurt I'm used to so I had to switch it up and I found out this morning I don't like the new yogurt but I'm going to have to put up with it until next week now.
Your crazy about being self conscious about running outside! You shouldn't care what other people think and hey look at yourself - your tiny! Your going to look like a little kid running from a distance and when they get close they are going to say "who is that hot girl" and then two seconds later they will be gone and never to be seen again! Put in some music and you won't even remember to care about what others are thinking because you will be so excited about your run and the music you are listening to and feeling so great about what you are doing. Anyway hope that gets you out there because it really is fun! And fresh air is so much better!
Keep it up this week! Glad the Doctor gave you the go ahead to bust some more butt!
 
chubbygirl said:
your tiny! Your going to look like a little kid running from a distance QUOTE]

:smilielol5: Lisa this actually made me laugh out loud, you are SO funny! people at work must think I'm crazy! But thank you so much for the confidence boost, you are so motivating- and I totally see your point and agree with you that I shouldn't care and that I will have fun and love it just knowing I am doing something great for my body- and not only that but it is somthing I always used to want to do! I think This weekend I will give it a try and report back!

Yesterday was pretty good, I didn't work out as much as I wanted to, did 30 minutes on the stair stepper- 320 calories burned and I did about 60 sit ups on my excercise ball...I've been so tired all week that I really really had to push myself just to do that...I even changed into my pjs and then decided to throw on my runners and hop on the stair stepper...it wasn't much but it was better then laying on the couch all evening I guess. My meals went great and they are going great today as well, here is what today looks like...

breakfast: 2 cups of special k red berry cereal and 1 cup of skim milk

Snack: orange and ff yogurt

Lunch: popcorn clusters and Uncle bens bistro express

Snack: fruit salad

Dinner: Lean cusine, steamed broccoli and sauteed cabbage

Snack: banana

Workout:Turbo Jam

My boss decided that every Thursday he is going to send me to the bakery across the street to buy baked goods for everyone and I of all people get the lovely task of choosing the baked goods and picking them up! :banghead: so now I get to go get tempted at a bakery once a week! Last week was my first time and everything looked and smelled SOO good! But all i got for myself was a fruit salad and I will do the same this week and just keep telling myself my body does NOT need all of those calories, all of that fat and all of that sugar- not worth gaining any weight that I worked sooo hard to get rid of!...wish me luck that I stick to that story when I get there lol
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Wow that would be so hard to resist - damn boss! I bet everytime you go and do resist it will feel that much better! Just remember the good feeling from not eating it opposed to the tummy ache you might get if you do eat it. The feeling from not eating it will last all day but the good feeling of eating it will only last a few minutes and then the bad feelings will sink in. If the odd time you decide to indulge make sure it's for something you really want!!
I'm excited for you to test out the jogging this weekend - I hope it goes great! The weather is supposed to be really nice here this weekend so maybe it is there too! I love Spring!
I tried some lemon in my tea last night and really enjoyed it and didn't over do it in the snacking - thanks for the tips - they are working!!
Have a great weekend and chat with you Monday! We got this!!
 
Thanks for your post Lisa, it actually rained here alllll weekend long, cold, windy and rainy so I didn't get to go for my jog. I am so proud of you for having your tea as a snack!

Friday went fairly well- I didn't gain or lose, I stayed at 123 lbs. I went home and did well until I had a little piece of cake...I felt like I blew the whole day with the cake and wanted to just watch tv all evening but I decided to go on the stair stepper instead and did an hour and a half I think...

The rest of the weekend went horrible...I don't even want to list everything I ate because Its a super long list...I have been so down lately and I can't seem to find my way out of it...I am unhappy at work, my best friend and I are on bad terms, I feel like I have no one at all and the lonelyness is really getting to me. since I found out that my ex moved on with a new gf I feel like I am back to square one emotionally and I just think about him non-stop, everything reminds me of him, EVERYTHING, and everywhere I go reminds me of where we would go together, I even dream about him, probably since I think about him so much. I am dying to be over him and keep hoping tomorrow will be the day I just don't think about him anymore but its not happening. I feel like its crazy for it to be over a year and I'm still not over it and I just want to move on. I am just sad all of the time and I just wish I could pack up and move to somewhere new where I don't have constant reminders of him, and away from my job and from everyone I know....well all of this ended up in my really doing some hard core emotional eating, I ate so much last night that I could hardly sleep because I was so full, I feel disgusting and sick today, my stomach is killing me and I am really annoyed with myself. If I keep this up I will gain all the weight back, just the thought of that is scary because I really did work my ass off to get to this weight. I'm hoping that the feeling of nausea and disgust will be a reminder of how bad this feels and how the cheating is not worth it. I don't care if I feel better later, I will be working out either way because I am positive I gained. Sorry for my rant- heres what today looks like:

Breakfast: 1/2 cup ff yogurt with 1/4 cup blueberries and all bran buds

Snack: Banana and maybe ff yogurt

Lunch: 110 cals of popcorn clusters and campbells soup

Snack: small salad with ff dressing

Dinner: lean cusine and steamed veggies

Workout: Undecided

Happy Monday everyone!
 
:grouphug: I wish I knew what to say to make you get over that loser :grouphug: He is not worth all this energy you are wasting on him. I think you need a girls night out! Too bad your best friend is also causing some issues - you just can't catch a break can you?
Thank you for the constant support in my diary - I feel really on track these days and more in control regarding the snacks. You are doing really well too - getting on the stair stepper on a Friday night deserves some major points! Do you have some holidays at work that you could use to get away? Take a trip or just take a drive to the next town and get some space. I wish I could be there to make you feel better - you don't derserve to feel this way. I know that exercise and healthy eating will help with feeling bad so keep your mind focused on that in the mean time! :grouphug: Hope you feel better today.
 
Thanks for your post Lisa, you always always cheer me up! You made me laugh when you called him a loser lol. I really do feel like I can't catch a break and I think some time off or time away would be such a great idea! I'm going to really look into that, just to clear my mind and hopefully get some of my positivity back. I'm glad that we can be such a great support and infulence to eachother. I am so happy to hear that you are on track these days, I couldn't be happier for you and it motivates me to get myself on track as well! I agree with you that getting back to eating well and excercising will help me to feel better, especially knowing that I am doing something great for myself! Thanks again for your constant support and encouragement, it means a lot to me!

I am feeling a bit better today...I ate well all day yesterday and caved at night and had three 1/2 full bowls of cheerios...I guess it could of been worse, but I did not need eat again for the night. After that I didn't feel like working out at all, I felt like I blew it again so whats the point, but I sucked it up and went on the stair stepper for 45 minutes and burned 520 calories and felt SO much better! Today is going well...I ate well all day and am looking foward to the biggest loser tonight, I have gotten into the habbit of stair stepping while i'm watching because it makes the time just fly by! So I will be working my butt off later and I am looking forward to it. Here is what my meal plan looked like today...

Breakfast: 1/2 cup of scrambled egg beaters and one huge cup of coffee with splenda and skim

Snack: mint tea and an orange

Lunch: 110 cals of popcorn clusters and uncle bens bistro express

Snack: banana and small salad with ff dressing

Dinner: Lean cusine with added sautted mushrooms, sauteed cabbage and steamed broccoli

Workout: stair stepper, hip hop abs and crunches on my excersice ball
 
Your posts remind me so much of me sometimes - I think we have a lot in common. Good work getting on the stair stepper after the cheerios - and your right it could have been a lot worse!! I'm glad you are thinking about getting away - I think it would be really good for you. I was also reading on someone's page that they went to a singles wine mixer and met a couple guys - this is something you should be getting out to do! I understand wanting to stay home and maybe being too shy to go by yourself. I'm making myself get out this weekend with some girl friends for some dancing - I don't see them much and I think if I don't try to stay in better contact I will lose some of them and girl friends are important. Maybe you have a friend or two you haven't talked to in a while that would appreciate a phone call? Just a thought. Take care and so glad you picked yourself up this week to finish strong!
 
Hey Janvier! I am so sorry you have had such a hard time these last couple of days. But I agree with Lisa, you need to beef up your social life, and get out with some friends, this will help you get over that loser. He is not worth your time or your thoughts. You have did a pretty good job sticking to your plan so keep up the good work. Hope you have a great St Patrick's Day. Chat with you soon.
 
Thank you for your posts ladies. You are both so right, I need to get my butt out of hiding and out of the house and learn to be social again, I am such an incredibly shy person that it will be really hard for me...but if I don't do it now i'm afraid i'm going to end up the loney old and bitter lady. I feel like I was much less of an introvert before I lost the weight because I knew everyone just looked past the chubby girl and not at her, now its like i'm going to have to go out there and know that people will maybe look at me and not just write me off as the chubby insecure girl that I used to be...and I think I struggle with not seeing myself as that girl anymore....I will be at the mall with my sister and she will say, "that cute guy just looked at you" and I will think, yeah right! why in the world would he be looking at me??? I don't ever think that someone will be able to find me attractive, and I guess before when I would think that i was comfortable feeling like I wasn't attractive for 2 reasons, one because I already had a boyfriend and two because I didn't expect someone to find me attractive at 60+ lbs over weight- in an obese category. I think its going to be a hard transition from insecure to confident, but I think trying will be worth it because I don't want to be sad, insecure and lonley forever and if I don't try, thats how I will end up. So I'm going to try and really work on my self-asteem and push myself to get out and do some social things, maybe if I even start just getting outside to do some running or taking my dog to the park just to not always be in the house. Thanks for all of your advice and support Lisa and Mrskt20!

Okay, so yesterday was Great! I stuck to my meal plan, NO cheating! I did my stair stepper for an hour and a half while watching the Biggest Loser, and during commercial breaks I would go as fast as I could for the entire break which isn't long but my legs would feel like they were on fire so it certainly felt like a life time, and then go back to my stride during the show. I beat my last hour and a half record by 80 calories! I burned a total of 1300 calories! I was so stoked and so proud of myself, I was dripping and my thighs were killing me....I hope all this stepping gives me a cute butt lol. I'm not going to lie, I was craving everything under the sun after I took a shower, so I made a huge cup of mint tea then read for an hour and went to bed! I plan on today going just as well, I can't find my workout dvd's anywhere which is irritating because I really want to do turbo jam ugh :willy_nilly:....so it looks like I will just be doing the stair stepper and elyptical for a while...anyway, here is what today looks like:

Breakfast: 6 tbsp of eggs whites, 3 strips of extra lean bacon and 1 crumpet with 1 tbsp of sugar free apricot jam (220 cals total) and coffee with skim and splenda

Snack: mint tea and an orange

Lunch: popcorn clusters and bistro express rice

Snack: banana and small salad

Dinner: Lean cusine and steamed veggies

Workout: Stair stepper and elyptical
 
Thanks Mrskt20, I'm trying hard!

Yesterday went well, I didn't cheat and stuck to my meal plan...down fall of the day: took a nap after dinner and woke up with a tummy ache and didn't workout....but I'm not all that worried about it, I'll make up for it tonight. Thinks are going well today, I'm sticking to my meals and intend to work out tonight...I'm feeling much better then I did on the weekend, when I was watching the biggest loser Bob said something that really made sense to me, he said that no matter what happens, life goes on, and I thought that is so true, yes i'm very sad and hurt and don't understand why certain things happen, but dispite all of that life is going to keep moving forward, with or without me and I am tired of living in the past and i'm very ready to start my future. I don't doubt for a second that my sadness will come and go for a while longer, but I think i need to not let it hold me back from moving on with my life. so...here is what today looks like...

Breakfast: 1 packet of instant brown sugar oatmeal with 1/4 cup of frozen blueberries, 6 tbsp of egg whites and 3 strips exra lean bacon (240 cals total)

Snack: orange and ff yogurt

Lunch: popcorn clusters and campbells chicken noodle soup

Snack: banana and small salad

Dinner: lean cusine and steamed veggies

Workout: elyptical and stair stepper
 
Nice work Janvier - I like this attitude much better! And you are right - life will go on! And it will be great because you will make it that way! No more wasted energy on feeling sad about you know who!
Wow no snacks after dinner - looking good! Have a great weekend - hopefully the weather is nice so you can get out and enjoy it. :seeya:
 
Thanks as always for your post Lisa.

So this is my first post since last week, my weekend was okay...Sunday was bad, I did well all day long up until after dinner. I was craving onion rings allll weekend long, told my sister, who was craving calamari and we went to a restaurant :ack2:! it was 11:30pm! We ordered my onion rings, the calamari, popcorn shrimp and mozzarella sticks! :banghead: Everything was deep fried and that was the most I have ever cheated during my whole weight loss journey, and all of that was AFTER dinner! I was so full and felt so disgusting and greasy after, and of course the next day I felt bloated, had nausea and just felt like I needed to :puke:...well the damage had already been done so all I could do was try to get back on the wagon and try again.

This week so far has been good, I have been sticking to my meal plans, I didn't workout Monday from the post-binge tummy ache, but did really well yesterday, I stuck to my meals and I did an hour and a half on the stair stepper during the biggest loser ( I was SO happy for the black team btw! And so happy for Sam and Koli for doing so well in the competition and SO happy for Stephanie's big loss) and burned 1250 calories and then went and did 40 minutes of Turbo Jam which kicked my butt because I haven't done it in so long, I was drentched in sweat. I was up a pound on the scale this morning- so I'm 124- which I wasn't upset about considering all the crap I ate Sunday night, but am looing forward to only seeing the scale go down from this point on. Today is going well, I tried to get up this morning to workout but I was too exhausted, I couldn't sleep last night, but I am doing well with my meals and intend to do Turbo jam again tonight as well as 30-45 minutes on the stair stepper, maybe a little elyptical too! Here is what my meal plan is for today...

Breakfast: 1 grapfruit and 1 packet of instant oatmeal with 1/3 cup of frozen blueberries

Snack: 1 cup mint green tea, orange and ff yogurt

Lunch: smart food popcorn clusters and uncle bens bistro express

Snack: 1 packet apple chips (40 cals)

Dinner: Lean cusine and steamed veggies

Workout: 30-45 mins on the stair stepper, 40 mins turbo jam, possibly elyptical

So my best friend who I havent seen or spoken to in 2 months- she was my roomate and moved out on bad terms- emailed me and we are meeting up to talk tomorrow! So wish me luck, I am really hoping to resolve things.

Happy Wednesday everyone!

Dinner:
 
That is so good that you are going to meet your friend! I had a falling out with my bff in uni and haven't spoken to her since. She would have to make the first move because I have already tried numerous times with no luck. It's really sad to lose someone who was so close and over stupid reasons most of time - well ours was about boys so that was really stupid!! We were tied to the hip from gr 1 - second year uni. She would have been my maid of honour - that was how we always pictured it anyway.
I see you didn't have the best weekend either but oh well we only live once! Time to move on and make things better next time. I see you are already back on track this week - awesome workout yesterday! I enjoyed the BL too! I cried when everyone finished their marathon bike race! It was so emotional! I was glad my hunnie wasn't around to make fun of me!
Have a great rest of the week Janvier! Keep it up!
 
Wow Lisa that is so sad, that you would of wanted her to be your maid of honour....I tried reaching out to my friend a few times before as well and she only now agreed to meet, maybe you should consider trying again...you never know, maybe she will change her mind.

BL was SO emotional, I have never watched an episode without crying...ever lol. I always relate to all of them so much and want all of them to do well, I cry when they do well and cry when they don't do well too, I love that show, it is so inspiring.

Things went well yesterday, I stuck to my meal plan and did my 40 minutes of Turbo Jam- which I had to really push myself to do because my body was SO sore from doing it on Tuesday, but I pushed through the aches and finished it! I seriously looked like I was dropped in a pool I was so sweaty! I couldn't do anymore (elyptical, stair stepper) after that because I got cramps from Turbo Jam, and my body hurts 10 times more today, I was even aching in my sleep...but its a good thing, I haven't been this sore in a while and I assume i'm burning lots of calories, we'll see for my weigh-in tomorrow. My sister decided to re-start her weight loss which I'm really happy about, its good to have someone to do it with, she initially started with me but I guess she got lost along the way, and now shes ready again so I am really happy for her. Anyway, today is going well...I intend to stick to my meal plan and let Turbo Jam kick my butt again tonight...heres what it looks like...

Breakfast: Egg white sandwhich (2 slices dempsters bodywise bread with 6 tbsp of egg whites and 5 slices of tomato 140 calories total), grapefruit and 1 cup of coffee

Snack: 1 cup of mint green tea and an orange

Lunch: smart food popcorn clusters and uncle bens bistro express

Snack: 40 cals of apple chips

Dinner: Lean Cusine, steamed veggies and sauteed cabbage

Workout: Turbo Jam

So today is the big meet-up with my bff, I really hope all goes well, no matter what, I need to make sure I workout to see some results at tomorrow's weigh-in because I tend to not workout when I'm sad....i'll update tomorrow.
 
Can't wait to hear how it went last night! Hope it went good and your not feeling down - that's no way to start a weekend! Take care and enjoy your weekend! Chat Monday!
 
Thanks for your positive hopes Lisa, It went really really well! I was so nervous waiting for her, we meet at starbucks, I oredered a late with skim and splenda. I didn't know how I should greet her, with a hug or not, since she moved out on such bad terms (she never told me she was leaving, just came home to her empty room!) anyways, she showed up and said, "i need to give you a hug, its been so long!" so that broke the ice. We talked for hours, just updating eachother on what has been going on in our lives, we laughed alot, so it was good. Towards the end of the convo, I told her that we need to get everything out on the table and discuss it if we want to be able to keep our friendship. So we discussed it, told our sides of the story and said sorry to eachother. I left feeling so much better and feeling like I got my friend back. I updated her about finding out about my ex's new relationship, and when I could feel my eyes filling up with tears I told her I couldn't discuss it anymore...well that emotional eating monster reared its ugly head and when I left starbucks I decided I needed to feed my monster with birthday cake! Birthday cake just because I love all of that frosting...I droke to the grocery store, but the bakery was closed because It was 10pm at this point, so all I could find were these mini chocolate cakes with a toffee drizzle....wasn't what i was craving but bought them anyway :smash:...there was 16 in a pack! when I got home, I dared to look at the calories and they were 100 calories for 1 and 5g of fat...I ate 6 and poured dish soap on the rest and put them in the garbage, I knew if I didn't put the soap on them I would get them out of the garbage :ack2:- gross but probably true! So that was 600 calories and 30g of fat! All that did was make me feel sick yet waken my cravings for the birthday cake. Friday started off well, it ended with me going to see if I could find my cake, again it was late and the bakery was closed so I bought chocolate lucky charms which would of been fine if I didn't eat 3/4 of the box:smash:! Saturday also started off well, ended with me having a crab salad wrap with a side of pasta salad at the mall as my second lunch, went home and ate a healthy dinner then I had candy and 3 bite sized cinnamon buns that I bought at a gas station on my way home :smash:! I feel like I awakend this horrible sweet craving and its making me crazy! I am so tried of doing SO bad on weekends, I do so well and turn down temptations left right and center all week long, especially at work, people constantly bring me things and I give them away or say no thank you but on weekends I go out and buy them for myself, its crazy. So yesterday I decided to cut the crap and I ate well all day, Those cravings were still there tapping me on the shoulder all day but I didn't give in. I got up at 7am this morning and went on the stair stepper for 30 minutes, burned 350 calories. I was happy I actually got up and worked out, I need to really push myself and do that every morning, I used to before christmas and saw great results so I'm going back to that. I also decided that on the weekend I want to jog around the track near my parents house in the mornings, I am talking my sister into trying it with me this coming weekend. I am hoping to have a good week this week, stay on track and get through the easter weekend with out cheating to no extent. Here is what today looks like...

Breakfast: 1 packet instant apple cinnamon oatmeal with 1/2 cup frozen blueberries and 2 large cup of coffee

Snack: mint green tea and an orange

Lunch: 10 calorie vitamin water, popcorn clusters and Uncle bens bistro express

Snack: diet pepsi and a banana

Dinner: Lean cusine and steamed veggies

Workout: 40 minutes Turbo Jam

Happy Monday everyone!
 
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