JadeLynn's Weight Loss Diary
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JadeLynn
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Hmmm my post from yesterday is missing. Oh well, nothing really profound in it.
Quercus and icychic thanks for stopping by! I think unfortunately for my friend at work, I will learn more from observing her at this point in time. It is apparent from yesterday that I will need to be mindful that we can inspire each other, but I will not be her 'partner in crime' in perpetuating the behavior.
I was looking at two specific kinds of therapy that is geared at changing your thoughts, Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT) and Dialectical Behavioral Therapy (DBT) not for any kind of formal treatment, but to get some tips on how to change my own thoughts into more positive and productive ones.
Working on something like this by myself appeals to me. I think that changing my thoughts will improve changing my behavior. I still do not know how to get people to not stress me out with their negativity. I do two things. Listen, while silently screaming inside after the conversation has gone on longer than 10 minutes. Abruptly leave or show my displeasure. I don't mind problem solving, I do very much mind whining about the same thing. That keeps me from doing my work and then off they go on their merry way as soon as it is 5:00 pm.
I am taking today off. I have a lot of vacation time that I will lose by January 10th. I have worked late 2 days this week when I was supposed to only be working a half day.
Soooo I better get my butt in gear, it is 6:30 am and I haven't worked out yet. Took me a while to decide to take the day off. I'm really not good at that.
Hope everyone is doing well!
Quercus and icychic thanks for stopping by! I think unfortunately for my friend at work, I will learn more from observing her at this point in time. It is apparent from yesterday that I will need to be mindful that we can inspire each other, but I will not be her 'partner in crime' in perpetuating the behavior.
I was looking at two specific kinds of therapy that is geared at changing your thoughts, Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT) and Dialectical Behavioral Therapy (DBT) not for any kind of formal treatment, but to get some tips on how to change my own thoughts into more positive and productive ones.
Working on something like this by myself appeals to me. I think that changing my thoughts will improve changing my behavior. I still do not know how to get people to not stress me out with their negativity. I do two things. Listen, while silently screaming inside after the conversation has gone on longer than 10 minutes. Abruptly leave or show my displeasure. I don't mind problem solving, I do very much mind whining about the same thing. That keeps me from doing my work and then off they go on their merry way as soon as it is 5:00 pm.
I am taking today off. I have a lot of vacation time that I will lose by January 10th. I have worked late 2 days this week when I was supposed to only be working a half day.
Soooo I better get my butt in gear, it is 6:30 am and I haven't worked out yet. Took me a while to decide to take the day off. I'm really not good at that.
Hope everyone is doing well!
icychic
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You would lose your holidays? Would you get paid for them or they just vanish like you never had them? Either way sounds like you could use a holiday so might as well take some days off while you can!
I too like solving problems, possibly because it means I don't have to think of mine own hehe. But like you I get tired of hearing the same problems from the same people. If they are friends I am more tolerable but even then eventually it gets to be too much and you wish they would just stop getting themselves into the same problems. I totally do this too "Listen, while silently screaming inside" or things like "shut up, shut up, SHUT UP!" going through my head and imagining slapping them upside the head while wishing they would just finish and leave.
Hope you get a good workout in today and be sure to take some other days off while you can!
I too like solving problems, possibly because it means I don't have to think of mine own hehe. But like you I get tired of hearing the same problems from the same people. If they are friends I am more tolerable but even then eventually it gets to be too much and you wish they would just stop getting themselves into the same problems. I totally do this too "Listen, while silently screaming inside" or things like "shut up, shut up, SHUT UP!" going through my head and imagining slapping them upside the head while wishing they would just finish and leave.
Hope you get a good workout in today and be sure to take some other days off while you can!
JadeLynn
Member
icychic said:
Yes they would just vanish and some of those hours probably will.
I don't think I am as nice as you, I actually don't usually enjoy solving their problems. But these are work related things so if I can solve them, then I always hope that things run more efficiently. Now if you were talking about personal problems, I cut those off very quickly at work. There was only one person who used to talk to me about her roller coaster relationship, but she stopped after hearing my answers
The day was good. I worked out and then I actually slept for about 3 hours. I think I needed it. I feel a little bit better.
Yes they would just vanish and some of those hours probably will.
I don't think I am as nice as you, I actually don't usually enjoy solving their problems. But these are work related things so if I can solve them, then I always hope that things run more efficiently. Now if you were talking about personal problems, I cut those off very quickly at work. There was only one person who used to talk to me about her roller coaster relationship, but she stopped after hearing my answers
The day was good. I worked out and then I actually slept for about 3 hours. I think I needed it. I feel a little bit better.
JadeLynn
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JadeLynn's Thoughts on Christmas
So maybe I'm just not in the Christmas mood because I have a cold and don't feel well, but I have to say that Christmas really isn't that fun. Most of us spend a fortune getting presents for people that we hardly ever see, just because that's what we are supposed to do. We wait in lines and then spend hours wrapping presents until we are exhausted or maybe even sick like me. Then the big day comes and it is over in like an hour. All that is left is cleaning up the mess and paying the bills.
I think maybe it is different if you have small kids who are excited about Christmas and Santa. Maybe it’s also different if you have a big family who gets together and really makes it an event, but if you have a small family and no kids it really is a hassle. I think if we could all agree to cut back on all the gifts and maybe just find a way to enjoy each other's company Christmas would be a whole lot more fun.
I was in Target a couple of days ago, braving the chaos of the people armed with my tissues and my cough drops when I saw a display of bikinis. At first I was confused, bikinis in the winter? But then I realized that there is a really smart group of people somewhere who donated about $500 to various charities in their friends and family member’s names, and then took themselves off to a tropical island to frolic in their bathing suits and drink lots of fruity beverages. They will wake up Christmas morning and have fabulous sex multiple times because they are totally stress free and really celebrate Christmas right!
They will come back tanned, relaxed and rejuvenated. While the rest of us, will be going back to work exhausted and dazed and confused by all of the family events that all seemed to involve a turkey or ham and way too many dishes to wash. With a box full of gifts that we have no idea what to do with and would be frankly too embarrassed to even re-gift.
So to all of you that have figured out the right way to celebrate Christmas, at least once or twice in your lives, I salute you. God bless you and remember your suntan lotion and that there are certain body parts that should always remain sand free!
As for the rest of us...well maybe one year we will figure out that the true meaning of Christmas may actually be to enjoy ourselves, have a good time and realize that there are a lot more fun things to unwrap then yet another Hickory Farms gift set.
Quercus
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Ohh Hickory Farms or as I like to call it "Hey folks there's some snacks in the breakroom".
I have the holiday yucks too. Hang in there! We don't do anything other than a gift exchange at the house and the main event is xmas eve at the parents. The youngest "kid" we have left is 14 and so unconcerned with any of us. I'm giving thoughtful gifts to my wife , parents, and 2 awesome cousins and the rest will get cash or gift cards. If I'm not still sick I intend to drink before I go (My Wife will drive) and wear a hideous sweater featuring dinosaurs in santa hats and snow flakes. Anybody comments on it and they get a tipsy theorization on the possible mass extiction scenarios that took out most of the dinosaurs. You gotta make your own fun Jade!
I have the holiday yucks too. Hang in there! We don't do anything other than a gift exchange at the house and the main event is xmas eve at the parents. The youngest "kid" we have left is 14 and so unconcerned with any of us. I'm giving thoughtful gifts to my wife , parents, and 2 awesome cousins and the rest will get cash or gift cards. If I'm not still sick I intend to drink before I go (My Wife will drive) and wear a hideous sweater featuring dinosaurs in santa hats and snow flakes. Anybody comments on it and they get a tipsy theorization on the possible mass extiction scenarios that took out most of the dinosaurs. You gotta make your own fun Jade!
icychic
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I agree it must be great for the kids, especially the little ones who really get into it! (I never celebrated as a child, started to when I dated a guy back in 2003 I believe it was who did).
Perhaps for the family you should do a Secret Santa type thing. Rather than everyone spending tons of money buying tons of gifts, everyone can buy for whatever kids there are but the adults draw names and buy 1 gift and get 1 gift. First it means you can spend a little more on that one gift without spending as much as you have been, and second it means you would likely get something you can actually use rather than a gift for the sake of a gift. But I guess the theory is easy to state rather than put into action.
Perhaps for the family you should do a Secret Santa type thing. Rather than everyone spending tons of money buying tons of gifts, everyone can buy for whatever kids there are but the adults draw names and buy 1 gift and get 1 gift. First it means you can spend a little more on that one gift without spending as much as you have been, and second it means you would likely get something you can actually use rather than a gift for the sake of a gift. But I guess the theory is easy to state rather than put into action.
JadeLynn
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Quercus said:
Oh this made me laugh, but it is also such a good idea. I really have no idea what to do with all of the food that people seem to give me!
Quercus said:
Quercus said:
And that is how it should be. I too enjoy getting thoughtful gifts for those I care about. Shipping to Europe, where my fiancé is, has its own set of challenges. The first time I sent something I did not even think about him having to pay customs fees!
My Father has lost 50 pounds over the last six months. Not the good way, he got a nasty infection from a very routine surgery. But I did really enjoy buying him several new things to wear!
AND you inspired me. I saw a black tee-shirt with a huge red sequined bow on the front of it. I bought it to wear on Christmas Eve. It really is 'eye catching.'
icychic said:
It actually is not my family that I get annoyed about, I have a very small family. But people at work who give gifts. I have a very hard time buying a crappy generic gift, so I tend to spend actual time and money picking things out for those who I know will get me something.
This is totally my own issue and next year I will lower my standards and do what they all do. I will try to suggest Secret Santa at work, but I kind of doubt it will work there
I am quite proud of myself that I didn't put up any decorations at work. People like the way that I decorate and over the years I have put up a lot of different Christmas Trees and things. But this year I didn’t do it. No one every helped me put the stuff up or take it down. So…I am baby stepping my way to sanity!
As for the weight loss. I am clearly no where near my goal. And one reason is that although I have stressed over it and written here, I do not think that I have made it the priority that I need to.
Two things take a lot of my time. One is completely appropriate and I do not intend to change it and that is the amount of time that my fiancé and I schedule to spend interacting. Usually 3 times a day for a total of about 5 hours. Morning, mid day and night. When you are far apart it can be hard to stay connected.
The second is work. Clearly I don’t use my vacation time and allow the stress and quite frankly inadequate work done my others to impact me. If I spent more time writing up/disciplining the people who don’t do their share instead of fixing their work, I’d probably be better off. But of course it is unpleasant. I just hired two new people. I am quite hopeful that their personal problems are low and that the quality of work is high.
When I was younger I could eat more of what I wanted, sleep less and there wasn’t that much of an impact to the way I looked and felt. Now that does not appear to be the case.
I keep saying this, but now I really do need to make it my priority to spend some time learning about nutrition and making time for myself. I am quite disappointed in my progress and the only person that I can blame is myself.
I did get more junk food which I am actually quite pissed about. I do not like talking about my weight, but I have told people that I am really working on eating better and want to lose at least 15 pounds. I got:
A big tin of chocolate covered peanuts, a box of candy, two big bags of candy, a huge tray of cookies and a big basket of sweets.
I have thrown most of it away now after realizing that it was going to be a problem for me and I do not feel badly about it. I asked people not to do this and they did it any way. Obviously because it was easier for them to buy/make these things in bulk and give them as gifts. A nice card would have done just fine.
I hate the way that I feel when I eat sweets. Sluggish and disgusting. I feel no need to ‘test’ my will power, life is hard enough.
So I suppose even though I wanted to reach my goal by the new year and I really thought that I could, I have spent the past three months learning why I gained this weight, being sad and mad about it and then developing some coping methods to address the problem. I had no idea this would be so tough.
I am in awe of those of you who have lost 50 pounds or more. I know that must have been terribly difficult, but so rewarding when you got to record those lower weights and buy smaller clothes!
Oh this made me laugh, but it is also such a good idea. I really have no idea what to do with all of the food that people seem to give me!
Quercus said:
Quercus said:
And that is how it should be. I too enjoy getting thoughtful gifts for those I care about. Shipping to Europe, where my fiancé is, has its own set of challenges. The first time I sent something I did not even think about him having to pay customs fees!
My Father has lost 50 pounds over the last six months. Not the good way, he got a nasty infection from a very routine surgery. But I did really enjoy buying him several new things to wear!
AND you inspired me. I saw a black tee-shirt with a huge red sequined bow on the front of it. I bought it to wear on Christmas Eve. It really is 'eye catching.'
icychic said:
It actually is not my family that I get annoyed about, I have a very small family. But people at work who give gifts. I have a very hard time buying a crappy generic gift, so I tend to spend actual time and money picking things out for those who I know will get me something.
This is totally my own issue and next year I will lower my standards and do what they all do. I will try to suggest Secret Santa at work, but I kind of doubt it will work there
I am quite proud of myself that I didn't put up any decorations at work. People like the way that I decorate and over the years I have put up a lot of different Christmas Trees and things. But this year I didn’t do it. No one every helped me put the stuff up or take it down. So…I am baby stepping my way to sanity!
As for the weight loss. I am clearly no where near my goal. And one reason is that although I have stressed over it and written here, I do not think that I have made it the priority that I need to.
Two things take a lot of my time. One is completely appropriate and I do not intend to change it and that is the amount of time that my fiancé and I schedule to spend interacting. Usually 3 times a day for a total of about 5 hours. Morning, mid day and night. When you are far apart it can be hard to stay connected.
The second is work. Clearly I don’t use my vacation time and allow the stress and quite frankly inadequate work done my others to impact me. If I spent more time writing up/disciplining the people who don’t do their share instead of fixing their work, I’d probably be better off. But of course it is unpleasant. I just hired two new people. I am quite hopeful that their personal problems are low and that the quality of work is high.
When I was younger I could eat more of what I wanted, sleep less and there wasn’t that much of an impact to the way I looked and felt. Now that does not appear to be the case.
I keep saying this, but now I really do need to make it my priority to spend some time learning about nutrition and making time for myself. I am quite disappointed in my progress and the only person that I can blame is myself.
I did get more junk food which I am actually quite pissed about. I do not like talking about my weight, but I have told people that I am really working on eating better and want to lose at least 15 pounds. I got:
A big tin of chocolate covered peanuts, a box of candy, two big bags of candy, a huge tray of cookies and a big basket of sweets.
I have thrown most of it away now after realizing that it was going to be a problem for me and I do not feel badly about it. I asked people not to do this and they did it any way. Obviously because it was easier for them to buy/make these things in bulk and give them as gifts. A nice card would have done just fine.
I hate the way that I feel when I eat sweets. Sluggish and disgusting. I feel no need to ‘test’ my will power, life is hard enough.
So I suppose even though I wanted to reach my goal by the new year and I really thought that I could, I have spent the past three months learning why I gained this weight, being sad and mad about it and then developing some coping methods to address the problem. I had no idea this would be so tough.
I am in awe of those of you who have lost 50 pounds or more. I know that must have been terribly difficult, but so rewarding when you got to record those lower weights and buy smaller clothes!
AthalaRanger
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Jade, I noticed that before quoting somebody you add '[insert name] said:'
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Sadly, I can't offer you any valuable input, but I do hope you get the stress and the situation at work under control.
Take care of yourself!
-Athala.
icychic
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I think you need to use up ALL of the vacation time you have before it "disappears". And also I think it's horrible of the company to do that. At the very least they should pay you out for the time, or force you to not come in to work. Period. But seriously, it's the holiday season, take vacation and RELAX while you can!
I totally get this. I'm not near my goal either and I find I am not making it a priority either. Yesterday I procrastinating doing work stuff by being on Facebook and playing games when I could have easily done a workout, even just some jumping jacks or whatever, but I didn't do a damned thing. As for the gifts, people can really suck. If they are like boxes of chocolates or anything you could always re-wrap and re-gift or even just open and leave them at work for people to take as they please. Or bring it to family/friends for get togethers.
On the bright side while you haven't reached your goal you have learned more about yourself. You have learned what got you to this point and made progress to find ways of not making it worse and coping differently. That is good because it will help prevent you from ending up in the same situation later on and has made you more aware of what you are doing.
I totally get this. I'm not near my goal either and I find I am not making it a priority either. Yesterday I procrastinating doing work stuff by being on Facebook and playing games when I could have easily done a workout, even just some jumping jacks or whatever, but I didn't do a damned thing. As for the gifts, people can really suck. If they are like boxes of chocolates or anything you could always re-wrap and re-gift or even just open and leave them at work for people to take as they please. Or bring it to family/friends for get togethers.
On the bright side while you haven't reached your goal you have learned more about yourself. You have learned what got you to this point and made progress to find ways of not making it worse and coping differently. That is good because it will help prevent you from ending up in the same situation later on and has made you more aware of what you are doing.
JadeLynn
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Something More Positive
I have been complaining about Christmas a lot this week. Something very positive did happen. I have been friends with an autistic person for 3 years. He is quite a bit younger than me and I suppose I kind of try to mentor him in different ways regarding things like finding a place to live, finding a part time job, controlling his finances...stuff like that. I usually send him a Christmas and Birthday gift, which I am always very happy to do.
This year I got a package from him. It is a lovely silver bracelet with a quote about friendship on it. I am very touched by this gesture. And I see the amount of personal growth that has occurred during the time that I have known him.
So although I have turned into a bit of a grumble elf, there are still positive things that happen.
I also got quite a chuckle when I asked my fiance if he wanted to watch that 1950's Christmas movie "White Christmas," and he told me that he was certain that he told me that he loved me enough each day, that surely there was no need to test him. But if it would make me happy that he would. Lol
icychic
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Something More Positive
I also got quite a chuckle when I asked my fiance if he wanted to watch that 1950's Christmas movie "White Christmas," and he told me that he was certain that he told me that he loved me enough each day, that surely there was no need to test him. But if it would make me happy that he would. Lol
That is so sweet! As is the very thoughtful bracelet you received.
JadeLynn
Member
icychic said:
The bracelet was a wonderful surprise. This person really struggles to make connections with other people. And that is the worth while kind of helping that I don't mind
And I have to say that Jacob (I'm getting a bit tired of saying my fiance, I feel like a Seinfeld episode!) is an amazing person. I could gush, but I won't
Today was a good day. I really do not do well when I allow myself to get off track, I am just not the kind of person who can sit around for half of the day like I did on Saturday. I was up and working out by 5:00 am, had my grocery shopping and laundry done by 10:00 and was getting my nails done by 11:00 am. I do best when I'm up early, work out early and shower early. That is just me. It takes some discipline from time to time, but in the long run that is what works best and it really has to start first thing I get up. Kind of sets the tone for the day.
I guess I didn't just sit around yesterday. I did workout and I did read a book called "You On A Diet" it talks about the way that food interacts with our bodies, the different chemical reactions that happen and the ways to ensure that everything stays in balance. I attacked it like a work project...notebook and highlighter in hand! Didn't read it all, but I made a dent.
I caught a glimpse of myself walking in the mall. And for the first time in a while, I didn't hate what I saw. I still have work to do though, that is for sure. I found a picture of me in a size 4 pair of low rise jeans and a strapless bustier top. About 3 inches of my stomach was showing. I didn't really like seeing that picture, but I do think that if I was there once...I can at least get close again. I think I weighed about 118 pounds and at 5'7" that is fairly small. It is a little daunting, first I've got to get to 130. If I can do that, then I will be happy. Anything after that is just a bonus!
Ran 3 miles today, did an arm workout, lower body workout and used my ab machine. Ate pretty well. Glad I threw out all of the junk.
Hope everyone is well and ready for Christmas!
AthalaRanger
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I used to get up at a similar hour and exercise. It's definitely better, because you don't have to stress about it later in the day.
There was a blog by a physician I enjoyed reading, it is called 'Archevore'. I never really tried the ideas proposed there, but I do believe it makes for some interesting reads.
Why don't you check it out? you may find it interesting as well.
Have a great day and take care!
-Athala.
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Merry Christmas! Hope you have a wonderful day ahead of you.
There was a blog by a physician I enjoyed reading, it is called 'Archevore'. I never really tried the ideas proposed there, but I do believe it makes for some interesting reads.
Why don't you check it out? you may find it interesting as well.
Have a great day and take care!
-Athala.
-(Edit)-
Merry Christmas! Hope you have a wonderful day ahead of you.
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JadeLynn
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Athala said:
Thank you so much! I hope you had a Merry Christmas too!
My Christmas was a bit scary...scratched by cornea and was in a lot of pain Christmas Eve. But that is better now. I still managed to take a walk on Christmas Day and use my treadmill to walk the next day. Was back to running on Saturday.
I didn't eat a lot of junk, but the meals themselves weren't exactly healthy. Weighed myself today and I was scared, but didn't gain any weight..so that is a bit of a victory in itself I suppose.
I ate worse today, first day back at work and as usual I was stressed. But I am learning to handle that and didn't do as much damage as I have in the past.
I ordered some new things to wear, they should be here tomorrow just in time for New Year's Eve. I love clothes. It is not as fun ordering bigger sizes, but it is nice to have things to wear. For me, it is kind of part of my 'armor' for lack of a better word. When I feel put together, I feel more calm.
I'm not a big drinker so not worried about the alcohol tomorrow. Going to dinner with a group of people to a very nice restaurant. Should be fun.
Happy New Year Everyone! May 2014 bring us good things, and help us lose some things too
AthalaRanger
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That's awful! I hope your cornea is alright?
Take care of yourself and enjoy your dinner tomorrow! I hope you have a happy new year too.
-Athala.
Take care of yourself and enjoy your dinner tomorrow! I hope you have a happy new year too.
-Athala.
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JadeLynn
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Thanks Athala! My cornea has healed, but now I have a cold. Decided to stay home today. I wish more people would stay home when they are ill and not spread their germs. That is most likely how I got sick all the people who sit near me have been sick. Funny they will use their 'sick' time to get their hair done or something, but not to actually be sick. I find that very annoying.
I have 77 hours of sick leave that I will lose on January 10th. I don't mind losing sick days too much though because then it means that I wasn't sick!
Work has been quiet this week. Next week will be very busy, so best to get well before then!
I did enjoy going out to dinner. I loved my new dress. I missed not having Jacob there.
On New Year's day I got a bit off track because I did sleep in a bit, got up at 8:00 am. Started taking decorations down and worked for longer than I thought I would. But...I decided to run when it got dark at 5:00 pm no days without workouts unless I am really ill or injured.
Today I will even do some yoga or Pilates . It is quite cold here and so not a good day for running while ill. I am just the kind of person that doesn't feel physically good if I have not done something during the day. I have been like this for years. I do believe that even with bad eating habits, I have managed to not get heavier because of the workouts.
Some cookies at work tempted me yesterday, but I threw them away. The only reason that I didn't gain weight during this holiday was because I got rid of all of the treats. I just cannot have certain foods around me at this point in my life! Figuring out healthy foods to eat is difficult enough without any temptation!
I don't usually make New Year's resolutions and I suppose a logical one would be to lose 20 pounds. But I think that my resolution will be to deal with work stress better because until I do, I won't be able to lose that 20 pounds.
I have 77 hours of sick leave that I will lose on January 10th. I don't mind losing sick days too much though because then it means that I wasn't sick!
Work has been quiet this week. Next week will be very busy, so best to get well before then!
I did enjoy going out to dinner. I loved my new dress. I missed not having Jacob there.
On New Year's day I got a bit off track because I did sleep in a bit, got up at 8:00 am. Started taking decorations down and worked for longer than I thought I would. But...I decided to run when it got dark at 5:00 pm no days without workouts unless I am really ill or injured.
Today I will even do some yoga or Pilates . It is quite cold here and so not a good day for running while ill. I am just the kind of person that doesn't feel physically good if I have not done something during the day. I have been like this for years. I do believe that even with bad eating habits, I have managed to not get heavier because of the workouts.
Some cookies at work tempted me yesterday, but I threw them away. The only reason that I didn't gain weight during this holiday was because I got rid of all of the treats. I just cannot have certain foods around me at this point in my life! Figuring out healthy foods to eat is difficult enough without any temptation!
I don't usually make New Year's resolutions and I suppose a logical one would be to lose 20 pounds. But I think that my resolution will be to deal with work stress better because until I do, I won't be able to lose that 20 pounds.