Iwan naloseit
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Yesterday was a long hard day filled with grief and way too much food. When you have a community potluck everybody brings traditional foods and none of them are low fat...lol. So, I'm back to two shakes a day and a sensible meal with lots of vitamins and water again this morning till I get myself back on track.
Lately I've found myself resenting things like my job and my other responsibilities because they are always getting in the way of finding time to excersize and eat healthy. Most of the time I'm going from bed to work to bed, getting in some walking between my house and my office most days but now the weather is turning to winter, the rain is blowing sideways on 40+ mile an hour winds and I can see that my weightloss is going to be nearly impossible to maintain throughout the winter months unless I drop down to about 1000 cals a day.
Pretty soon its going to be dark here all but 6 hours a day and that always leads to depression. And then theres the holidays with my family. Between 60+ people we celebrate three different winter holidays: Yule, Christmas and Russian Christmas, and in between christmas and russian christmas (which is a THREE DAY CELEBRATION) new years which is a huge deal in my family because everybody tends to be born on new years, we have 4 new years babies in the family.
I can only thank my lucky stars that we don't celebrate thanksgiving in my family. We are native american, celebrating thanksgiving would be like being happy our people were exterminated from the land. When I was a little kid my mom took thanksgiving very seriously and we fasted in protest, wore black armbands and once she picketted a community sponsored thanksgiving dinner because she felt that her tax dollars shouldn't go to celebrate something so depraved. Now we just ignore it and personally I think those that sit down and celebrate it, and are thankful for what the colonialists did to the native americans are ignorant to the real suffering that went on. I mean really, what do we have to be thankful for when you think about it all in those terms. I especially feel very not thankful when I fly into major american cities and try and imagine what it would be like without all the garbage, buildings, roads, pollution and people. Theres really nothing to be thankful for when you think about it like that.
Lately I've found myself resenting things like my job and my other responsibilities because they are always getting in the way of finding time to excersize and eat healthy. Most of the time I'm going from bed to work to bed, getting in some walking between my house and my office most days but now the weather is turning to winter, the rain is blowing sideways on 40+ mile an hour winds and I can see that my weightloss is going to be nearly impossible to maintain throughout the winter months unless I drop down to about 1000 cals a day.
Pretty soon its going to be dark here all but 6 hours a day and that always leads to depression. And then theres the holidays with my family. Between 60+ people we celebrate three different winter holidays: Yule, Christmas and Russian Christmas, and in between christmas and russian christmas (which is a THREE DAY CELEBRATION) new years which is a huge deal in my family because everybody tends to be born on new years, we have 4 new years babies in the family.
I can only thank my lucky stars that we don't celebrate thanksgiving in my family. We are native american, celebrating thanksgiving would be like being happy our people were exterminated from the land. When I was a little kid my mom took thanksgiving very seriously and we fasted in protest, wore black armbands and once she picketted a community sponsored thanksgiving dinner because she felt that her tax dollars shouldn't go to celebrate something so depraved. Now we just ignore it and personally I think those that sit down and celebrate it, and are thankful for what the colonialists did to the native americans are ignorant to the real suffering that went on. I mean really, what do we have to be thankful for when you think about it all in those terms. I especially feel very not thankful when I fly into major american cities and try and imagine what it would be like without all the garbage, buildings, roads, pollution and people. Theres really nothing to be thankful for when you think about it like that.
!! *grumbles under breath*
