Well as sad as it is to say this I always run away from this site when I am in a bad slump and am eating shitty. I don't want people to think "oh god this girl sucks she can't even stick to anything." We all know it's really hard. Some people can just do it and stick to it while others start and fall and go again and fall. It's just really tough. My sisters birthday weekend pretty much threw me right out. Then I had this sinus issue which I used as an excuse to not run. I fell right off the wagon for the last week and just ate what I wanted. I was also using the excuse that I am going away for a long time and won't be able to eat these kinds of foods for a long time.
Went on the scale today because I am in the February challenge and I wanted to stick to it and today I am 165.2. Not a huge hike from last week which is good.
I decided yesterday that I am going to try and get back into my running before I go so I can lose a little more weight and pick up some good habits for when I go away. So I jumped on the treadmill today and ppicked up where I left off. It was hard!!! But I burned just under 500 cals which makes me feel great. Eats today have been right on spot so all is going well so far.
I am just scrounging to make cash now for my trip. I need to work everyday from now till I go so I can have like 1500 for my trip. It won't be much but I will be able to make it work. I just need to stick to it and everything will be OK.
Yesterday didn't end how I planned. I ended up getting wings with my mom as well as potato skins and calamari.... and a beer. I ate it because I know I won't be able to eat it for 3 months. So I took advantage of it. My mentality did not change and I knew I would wake up today ready to go.
Didnt feel like eggs this morniong and there was no Fiber one left so I had to settle for another cereal that was probably higher in sugar and way lower in fiber. My cousin came over and I ALMOST destroyed my day. I started snacking. Ate almost an entire bag of rice cakes and then had pasta for lunch. Funny though it stopped there and I was ready to eat well for the rest of the day. Dinner was yummy rice beans and veggies my mom made. Didn't over eat either.
Went out to sell books and only sold 2!!!! Thats only 32 bucks blah. terrible. It's set me back quite a bit but oh well. I went to the mall today and spent $150 on all the stuff I'll need for Cuba. I am pretty much ready to go now except the money issue. That will all work itself out though I'm sure. Right now I have about $500 for Cuba. I'd like to have $1500 so I really need to push for that.
My boyfriend was telling me that if I wanted I could only go there for 1 month and we could get a house that would be private. I feel bad now for ever even having an issue with staying in his families home. He completely understands where I'm coming from and is willing to sacrifice time together in order for me to feel comfortable. I immediately sent him a text telling him that I want to be with him and I will spend the full 3 months with him. I do not want to alter my time to be with him I want to see him as much as I can.
One other note... does anyone watch Americal Idol? Have you seen the Chris Medina first audition?! I just spent the last 20 minutes fighting back the most intense tears. Honestly watch it it is sooo sad.
Sorry to end on a sad note. Tomorrow will be a goooood day! byee
Just want to update quickly. I just finished my run today it was SUPER hard! Going from a 6.0 pace for 10 minutes to a 6.5 pace for 4 minutes is a huge difference. Not to mention my calves are pretty sore from yesterday (I forgot to stretch them). I really didn't want to run but I just pushed myself and got it done. Went on the scale today just to see how I'm doing and I am back down to 163.6 which is nice to see. I'd like to tighten up a bit and maybe get down to like 161 before I leave. That gives me a week. I don't know if I can do it but I will try.
Eats today have been good so far havent had lunch yet. I might have a 6 inch sub or something. Going to be productive today and clean out my car. Also going to get my mom on my bank account so she can manage my funds while I'm gone. It's getting so close now I am really excited. I am going to be very productive this spring. I'd like to lose 20 lbs while I'm away. Hopefully I can sell alot of books today too that would be wonderful.
So today is going well so far. I dont think I updated yesterday so I'll follow up. Things havent been perfect with the eats. Yesterday I worked a temp job and they had a canteen. But because I've never been there before I was fairly confused. This guy asked for breakfast and the girl asked if I wanted it too and I just said yes so I got...... 2 sausages, 2 pancakes, and 2 hash browns. definitely horrible. They had fish and chip special for lunch but I opted out and had salad and soup to try and make up for the bad breakfast. I did not workout yesterday because I went out and sold books after. The big issue with selling these books is its not guaranteed money in your pocket. If no one buys you don't make money. So I sold 2 books yesterday and only make 30 bucks. So being stressed and upset I ate bad. I bought a bottle of wine to drown my problems and my cousin came over. We had pizza and pasta and stuff. My cousin got the Just Dance 2 game for wii and let me tell all of you it is a GREAT game. Such a good workout and soo much fun. That was the only positive thing about yesterday.
Today woke up and had a toasted western sandwich with bacon in it... not the healthiest. but I got off my lazy ass and ran on the mill which is great. Burned 500 caLs! We are at a tough time in our lives right now with my mom only having a serving job and a book sales job so theres not much to eat. I managed to make an interesting tomato soup with all the nutrition I need! I took a picture of it if anyone wants to see. I added 3/4 cups of lentils and a ton of frozen peas and carrots... then I threw in a serving of whole wheat crackers for my carbs.... its actually pretty good.
One thing I do notice I'm learning this time around is not to sabotage my day because of a bad meal. I get back up from it and eat better the next meal. I don't do it always but to start making the small changes is huge. Another change I am slowly making is the portions of my meals. I obviously measure out my pastas and rice when I'm eating well but even if I'm not trying I notice I am more cautious about the amount of carbs I am putting on my plate and that is huge!! Hopefully I can really work these changes into my life forever and not fill my plate with food when I eat.
Hey Adeon! Sorry about the stress from the book buying thing and all that! Likin the fact that you are adjusting what you eat later on the day based on earlier eats! You can do this! Can you go grocery shopping and stock up on some stuff that you can put in little baggies and eat throughout the week when need of a quick snack or something?
Hey everyone just want to update here as it will be my last post for 3 months. Tomorrow I leave and I am so excited. I can't wait to see my hubby. My february did not go how I wanted it to obviously. The first two weeks were great and after that it all went downhill. And now I have been using the excuse that I will be away from all these foods for a long time so I need to indulge in them. So the eats have been terrible for the last few days. And I have not ran on the treadmill.
I would like to work on losing weight while I am gone though. I am going to try and get down to 145. That will be a little more than 20 lbs in the 3 months which I think is do-able. I packed my measuring cup to portion out my grains and everything else will just be done by eye. I want to workout everyday. There is an area in the city that would be really easy to run laps around and I want to just focus on getting around there afew times every day. Going to try to keep the drinking to a minimum and really focus on my portion control since the food there is unhealthy no matter what.
Thats it thats all. Everyone have a nice spring and smash those lbs!!!
Hey everyone just posting on here quickly. I am back from my trip and ready to shed some pounds. I have come up with a new way to lose some weight and I think it is going to work FOR SURE. I will trial it out and let everyone know how Im doing along the way. I need this site to keep a log of my weight since I couldnt find a calender on my laptop..... mind you im sure I have one.
So, todays weigh in is 172.8 and I will weigh in everyday
weighed in today at 171.6 but the scale jumped soooo many times. I was only able to get a decent number because I have another scale right beside it that didnt jump.... but I dont think that scale is right.... it could be though.
Just for my records the other scale said 171.5 yesterday and today 170.0 (just in case I need to throw the other scale out)
thanks!
Good trip to you!!