Hey Adeon!!! Don't give up!! Can you somehow have "go to" healthy meals in advance so when you're stressed and don't want to consider calories you have something to fall back on? Like tuna or brown bag sandwiches for lunch for example? And rotisserie (sp?) chicken, sushi, etc. for dinner? Maybe you can make a list of "healthy" options and/or restaurants and tape it up in the kitchen and have them ready at home or ask the restaurants to deliver whenever needed. You are so close!! It would be so easy to just throw in the towel right about now. So incredibly easy!!! But you are much stronger than that. And are a hard worker and you want to do this for yourself, not anyone else. Your health, self-esteem/confidence, etc...Remind yourself why you want to care about sticking w/ this "journey" we are all on! Sorry if this sounds corny! lol Best of luck girlie!!! And have fun on your trip to Cuba!! Be safe! =)
It's time to kick some A$$!!
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adeon
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HELLLOOOOOO EVERYONE!!! I am BACK!!!!! Not for long though but I'm still here.
Let me just update everyone on my life since I have fallen off the wagon. I went to Cuba to spend time with my boyfriend in mid December. It was amazing and we had such a great time together. I miss the hell out of him. He proposed to me when I got back.... It was over the internet which is unfortunate but I know he means well. So I am engaged now and really happy. I am going back to Cuba on MArch 3rd for 3 months to spend time with him and get to know him better as I should.
So I fell right off the wagon. I was eating right maybe 35% of the time and bad the rest. Never creaped far into those dreaded 170's though.
I have GAD (generalized anxiety disorder) and found it was really getting bad in mid November. I am back on the medication as of a week ago so I am feeling better. Back to NORMAL.
This girl at my work told me she was doing the couch 2 5k which I have seen many ppl do on this forum but it never really caught my attention. This time it did. I decided to get back into things by seeing if therewas a couch to 10K AND THERE WASSSS!. So I started doing that 3 weeks ago with still eating bad but trying to eat well when I could. I have lost a little bit of weight since starting. Like 3 lbs. So I finally decided I need to get on it and so I am going to eat well for 28DAYS for the whole month of February. So I started yesterday. I am starting week 4 of the couch to 10 k on Friday. It is a recovery week though so I will try to take it easy.
For anyone who doesnt know the couch to 10k is a program that gets you doing intervals and starts you off small and by the end you are to do a 10k. So my runs have been CRAZY!!. I walk at 3.5 on an incline of 1 and when I run I ramp it up to anywhere between 6.2 and 7.0 depending on the length of the interval. This week was 3 minute run 2 minute walk.
So all in all I am doing well for now. I want to lose 10 lbs before I go away. I went on the scale today and I am 165.2. If I can get into the 150's before I go I will be content. I do not want to be so rediculous and intense as I have been though. It is a lifestyle change and I should not be putting so much thought into it. Just let it go and eat well and workout.
Anyways I wrote wayyy too much. I'll keep in touch
Let me just update everyone on my life since I have fallen off the wagon. I went to Cuba to spend time with my boyfriend in mid December. It was amazing and we had such a great time together. I miss the hell out of him. He proposed to me when I got back.... It was over the internet which is unfortunate but I know he means well. So I am engaged now and really happy. I am going back to Cuba on MArch 3rd for 3 months to spend time with him and get to know him better as I should.
So I fell right off the wagon. I was eating right maybe 35% of the time and bad the rest. Never creaped far into those dreaded 170's though.
I have GAD (generalized anxiety disorder) and found it was really getting bad in mid November. I am back on the medication as of a week ago so I am feeling better. Back to NORMAL.
This girl at my work told me she was doing the couch 2 5k which I have seen many ppl do on this forum but it never really caught my attention. This time it did. I decided to get back into things by seeing if therewas a couch to 10K AND THERE WASSSS!. So I started doing that 3 weeks ago with still eating bad but trying to eat well when I could. I have lost a little bit of weight since starting. Like 3 lbs. So I finally decided I need to get on it and so I am going to eat well for 28DAYS for the whole month of February. So I started yesterday. I am starting week 4 of the couch to 10 k on Friday. It is a recovery week though so I will try to take it easy.
For anyone who doesnt know the couch to 10k is a program that gets you doing intervals and starts you off small and by the end you are to do a 10k. So my runs have been CRAZY!!. I walk at 3.5 on an incline of 1 and when I run I ramp it up to anywhere between 6.2 and 7.0 depending on the length of the interval. This week was 3 minute run 2 minute walk.
So all in all I am doing well for now. I want to lose 10 lbs before I go away. I went on the scale today and I am 165.2. If I can get into the 150's before I go I will be content. I do not want to be so rediculous and intense as I have been though. It is a lifestyle change and I should not be putting so much thought into it. Just let it go and eat well and workout.
Anyways I wrote wayyy too much. I'll keep in touch
BikiniBound2011
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Welcome back!!
Glad to see you back here! I took a break from the forums myself November and December (unintentional) and just came back at the beginning of January. I won't be around much either, because my job is hectic right now and will probably only get to do proper posts on weekends.
Congrats on getting engaged!!!
I'm glad you had a great time in Cuba. You must miss your fiance so much right now. But before you know it March will be here.
Also, kudos for doing the coack to 10k program. I'm sure you'll look great when you go back to Cuba!
See you around.
Glad to see you back here! I took a break from the forums myself November and December (unintentional) and just came back at the beginning of January. I won't be around much either, because my job is hectic right now and will probably only get to do proper posts on weekends.
Congrats on getting engaged!!!
I'm glad you had a great time in Cuba. You must miss your fiance so much right now. But before you know it March will be here.
Also, kudos for doing the coack to 10k program. I'm sure you'll look great when you go back to Cuba!
See you around.
adeon
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Welll something crazy happened yesterday that came out of the blue... I lost my full time job!!! I did not expect it because I had already put in my notice. I figured they would have waited till then. But nope.. They let me and a few others go yesterday. There are ups and down to this so I need to strategize well. I am short now money for my trip. I basically have NO money for my vacation. I will have paid off all my debts before I go but I won't have ANY money to survive. BUT I can use this to get ahead if I hit the job agencies hard on monday and get back to the grind ASAP for the next 4 weeks! Because my company paid me 2 weeks severance. SOOO I hope I can find some work!!!
Having lost my job I was a whole bunch of emotions. Excited, happy, sad shocked, angry, etc.... and thats when the evil devil popped up on my shoulder telling me to eat bad and get drunk to celebrate. And I wanted to listen. I really did. But I DIDNT!!!! I said F-U DEVIL! I ain't gonna do it!!!! So I am excited for that and as a reward I am down another on the scale today! woot woot!!!.
Today I am just going to relax. I'll probably run in a bit also. Was supposed to run yesterday but decided against it just because I was STARVING when I got hoome.
Today is day 5 and I am feeling mighty powerful! I forgot to add that I turned down a whole slue of chinese food the asian people were eating yesterday in celebration of Chinese New Year. I DID IT!..
Having lost my job I was a whole bunch of emotions. Excited, happy, sad shocked, angry, etc.... and thats when the evil devil popped up on my shoulder telling me to eat bad and get drunk to celebrate. And I wanted to listen. I really did. But I DIDNT!!!! I said F-U DEVIL! I ain't gonna do it!!!! So I am excited for that and as a reward I am down another on the scale today! woot woot!!!.
Today I am just going to relax. I'll probably run in a bit also. Was supposed to run yesterday but decided against it just because I was STARVING when I got hoome.
Today is day 5 and I am feeling mighty powerful! I forgot to add that I turned down a whole slue of chinese food the asian people were eating yesterday in celebration of Chinese New Year. I DID IT!..
Laura F
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Glad to see you back!!! I'm not around as much these days but I hope to get back to posting regularly soon. CONGRATS on the engagement! March will be here before you know it. Sorry to hear your job ended a little sooner than you had hoped, but great job on avoiding the food and drink. That's a huge accomplishment!!!
adeon
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Thanks Laura! It is great to see you doing soo well on your journey. You are kicking some serious assss. I love it! I envy you!
adeon
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Hey everyone!
I am feeling pretty good today. I am starting to find myself doing the usual stomach touching I usually do when I lose weight. I like to feel it change. I also find myself waking up at godforsaken hours with excitement to jump on the scale or just start my day in general. This is good I guess but I like to sleep. I guess going to bed at 10:30 I should expect to be up at this time.
Well yesterday ended really well. Eats were right on key. I made this really nice spanish rice for lunch it was pretty freaking good. It was a vegetarian dish so I used brown rice, beans, corn, tomatoes, onion, chili powder taco seasoning and garlic powder. Turned out great!! For dinner I had my usual swiss chalet dinner and breakfast was an interesting omlette I threw together with tomatoes broccoli carrots and onion. I also busted out a great run and burned about 350 calories. Overall a good day.
We got an unexpected 15 centimeteres of snow last night which caused work to be extremely slow. I was out pretty early. It also meant I didn't go out with my friends because the weather was too bad... not worth it. On the plus side I didnt drink or anything cause I obviously wasnt tempted by my friends
Tonight is the super bowl....... and for the last 2 years I have been confined to the restaurant till close unable to celebrate in all the festivities with my friends. This year I work but I am one of the first few girls off. This means I have time to enjoy the night with my friends. The downfall is that I would like to join them with all the chicken wing eating beer drinking fun but I don't think I want to let myself. Besides I am quite broke right now..... sighhhh. I don't know what to do.
I plan to hit the treadmill this morning before making my way over to work. Yesterday I did my whole run at an incline of 2 for 40 minutes (intervals were 3 minute run 2 minute walk). Today I'd like to challenge myself and do my run at an incline of 3 (intervals today are 2 minute run 2 minute walk). I think I can do it.
Feeling really good today and I am almost at the end of my first week!! WOOHOOO!!!
I am feeling pretty good today. I am starting to find myself doing the usual stomach touching I usually do when I lose weight. I like to feel it change. I also find myself waking up at godforsaken hours with excitement to jump on the scale or just start my day in general. This is good I guess but I like to sleep. I guess going to bed at 10:30 I should expect to be up at this time.
Well yesterday ended really well. Eats were right on key. I made this really nice spanish rice for lunch it was pretty freaking good. It was a vegetarian dish so I used brown rice, beans, corn, tomatoes, onion, chili powder taco seasoning and garlic powder. Turned out great!! For dinner I had my usual swiss chalet dinner and breakfast was an interesting omlette I threw together with tomatoes broccoli carrots and onion. I also busted out a great run and burned about 350 calories. Overall a good day.
We got an unexpected 15 centimeteres of snow last night which caused work to be extremely slow. I was out pretty early. It also meant I didn't go out with my friends because the weather was too bad... not worth it. On the plus side I didnt drink or anything cause I obviously wasnt tempted by my friends
Tonight is the super bowl....... and for the last 2 years I have been confined to the restaurant till close unable to celebrate in all the festivities with my friends. This year I work but I am one of the first few girls off. This means I have time to enjoy the night with my friends. The downfall is that I would like to join them with all the chicken wing eating beer drinking fun but I don't think I want to let myself. Besides I am quite broke right now..... sighhhh. I don't know what to do.
I plan to hit the treadmill this morning before making my way over to work. Yesterday I did my whole run at an incline of 2 for 40 minutes (intervals were 3 minute run 2 minute walk). Today I'd like to challenge myself and do my run at an incline of 3 (intervals today are 2 minute run 2 minute walk). I think I can do it.
Feeling really good today and I am almost at the end of my first week!! WOOHOOO!!!
adeon
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I just wanted to drop in and update on how my night went. Welll... it didn;t go quite as I had hoped it would. I had pictured drinking ONE bottle of LIGHT beer and trying to order like 4 wings and a salad type of combo........ that was my plan all day.... until I walked through the doors of the bar..
It was packed and everyone was drinking. My BOTTLE of light beer turned into a PINT of full calorie beer. And I DID look at the menu and thene asked my friend if he had any wing at all since beer and wing and football go hand in hand... He said " nope, I'm waiting for half time. They are serving free chili and hot dogs." MY mouth dropped! and so... what becomes more important??! Eating healthy or taking a small blow and saving some money???
............ I went for saving money...
SO I had half a sausage and some hot chili on the side AND a chili dog I created with not ONE BUT TWO hot dogs in the bun, cheese and chili......... and I ate it ALLLLLL.
And then I finished off the night with another pint of beer.
So obviously I should be really bummed out. I fucked up and nothing went as planned. I ate way tooo many calories. I am slightly pissed.... but at the same time I am happy.
I am happy because I was able to spend time with my friends, do the things my friends were doing, drink and socialize with them, and yet not get drunk. So now I wont wake up feeling like shit tomorrow and I wont wake up wanting to eat everything bad in sight. I will wake up BACK TO THE GRIND!! And I will hit up the treadmill as I would have anyways and I will eat all the good foods that will make me happy. And THAT is a HUUUUGE success for me. Being able to leave when I know I SHOULD.
So koodos to a surprisingly successful evening 
It was packed and everyone was drinking. My BOTTLE of light beer turned into a PINT of full calorie beer. And I DID look at the menu and thene asked my friend if he had any wing at all since beer and wing and football go hand in hand... He said " nope, I'm waiting for half time. They are serving free chili and hot dogs." MY mouth dropped! and so... what becomes more important??! Eating healthy or taking a small blow and saving some money???
............ I went for saving money...
SO I had half a sausage and some hot chili on the side AND a chili dog I created with not ONE BUT TWO hot dogs in the bun, cheese and chili......... and I ate it ALLLLLL.
And then I finished off the night with another pint of beer.
So obviously I should be really bummed out. I fucked up and nothing went as planned. I ate way tooo many calories. I am slightly pissed.... but at the same time I am happy.
I am happy because I was able to spend time with my friends, do the things my friends were doing, drink and socialize with them, and yet not get drunk. So now I wont wake up feeling like shit tomorrow and I wont wake up wanting to eat everything bad in sight. I will wake up BACK TO THE GRIND!! And I will hit up the treadmill as I would have anyways and I will eat all the good foods that will make me happy. And THAT is a HUUUUGE success for me. Being able to leave when I know I SHOULD.
So koodos to a surprisingly successful evening
adeon
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Just finished working out and decided to update on everything. It is all going quite well! Yesterday I got off work early because it was dead. I had eaten a huge salad for dinner (spinach chicken yummm) at around 4:30 and because there were no carbs I was feeling like snacking afterwards. Came home and just sat on the couch and told my mom how I was feeling (I am very very open to sharing current emotions and feelings with people.) So my mom decides she wants popcorn........... way to go. So I threw some popcorn in for her and she ate it right beside me. I will be flat out honest I had a little bit. Maybe like 25 pieces MAX. Then I gave the bowl to my mom and said OK I'm done..... and that was pretty much it. I am very proud of myself for not giving in and sharing half the bag with her which would have been 220 unneccessary calories.
Today was what I've now decided will be my official weight day. So starting week two I weighed in at 164.4! Down 3 lbs for the week
I was hoping for a greater loss but honestly why would I?? I did great!!! AND I enjoyed a little bad food with my friends! The best of BOTH worlds!!
So today starts week two as I already mentioned. I am 25% done my 28 day challenge and I don't feel like I want to quit! I ran on the treadmill today and got my ASS kicked!!! Burned 450 CALORIES! I was WIPED afterwards even my arms felt like rubber! loll.
Just finished having some delish whole wheat spaghetti and a protein shake. I think I'm gonna throw on a rotisserie chicken for dinner. yummmm.
So my "fiance" (not used to calling him that yet) emailed me last night and told me he is not able to find a house right now and we will have to live with his family for the 3 months. Normally I wouldn't mind this but there are like 7 people that live their and they all try to talk to me and I don't understand barely anything and I am really shy. So I'll barely even talk to my boy I'm sure.... In addition, the little guy Raulito is always asking me to play with him and to be flat out honest.... I do not like playing with children. If they go do their own thing I don't mind, but don't ask me to join you. I don't want to and then I feel bad to say no! I know I'm selfish.... I just have a hard time dealing with kids to be honest. The whole situation is going to be really tough and to be honest I am not looking forward to it...... but maybe it won't be so bad once I'm settled in.
Today was what I've now decided will be my official weight day. So starting week two I weighed in at 164.4! Down 3 lbs for the week
I was hoping for a greater loss but honestly why would I?? I did great!!! AND I enjoyed a little bad food with my friends! The best of BOTH worlds!!
So today starts week two as I already mentioned. I am 25% done my 28 day challenge and I don't feel like I want to quit! I ran on the treadmill today and got my ASS kicked!!! Burned 450 CALORIES! I was WIPED afterwards even my arms felt like rubber! loll.
Just finished having some delish whole wheat spaghetti and a protein shake. I think I'm gonna throw on a rotisserie chicken for dinner. yummmm.
So my "fiance" (not used to calling him that yet) emailed me last night and told me he is not able to find a house right now and we will have to live with his family for the 3 months. Normally I wouldn't mind this but there are like 7 people that live their and they all try to talk to me and I don't understand barely anything and I am really shy. So I'll barely even talk to my boy I'm sure.... In addition, the little guy Raulito is always asking me to play with him and to be flat out honest.... I do not like playing with children. If they go do their own thing I don't mind, but don't ask me to join you. I don't want to and then I feel bad to say no! I know I'm selfish.... I just have a hard time dealing with kids to be honest. The whole situation is going to be really tough and to be honest I am not looking forward to it...... but maybe it won't be so bad once I'm settled in.
adeon
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Well today has turned out to be a crummy day. I had a job all lined up and I called the job agency today and they said that the girl is no longer looking for day shift staff right now... so thats just greattttt. Now I have no job. I don't know how I'm gonna make like 2 grand before I go. I am going to be helping my mother sell coupon books and I will be making $16 for every book I sell. I know this seems easy but the door to door work is shit and the fact that I live in the great white north and it is currently -20 celcius outside its just not an ideal job. I will bust my ass though for the next 3 weeks and try to sell as many books as I can. I don't have a choice...
Other than that everything is going well. I am starting to miss the greasy foods but I am happy with the small changes that I see in my body everyday. Besides I only have 3 weeks left until I have no choice but to eat unhealthy. And at that time it will be all about portion control.
All my eats today have been great. My cousin came over who also loves the weight loss fads but she is not eating well right now today. I went with her to the chinese food store and she ate her greasy goodness right beside me. I just delt with it and ate my spanish rice that I had made last night. I have a chicken on the rotisserie right now too that I'll eat before heading out to work.
My workout today was INTENSE!!! Did intervals (2 minute run 1 minute walk 8 times) and the runs were at 7 mph!!! I honestly could not have done one more interval! I was a little dizzy afterwards and had to walk it off longer than my cool down. But now I feel good! I like that my heart rate is decreasing. When I used to lay in bed my heart would beat soo fast which created much of my anxiety. And now my heart rate is normal it is much slower which is great. My cardiovascular system is super happy with me!.
Have to work at the restaurant tonight. Hopefully I make some coin!!!. I guess I'll be posting on here more often now since I won't have a job till I leave. Anyways thats all for today. Have a great day everyone!!
Other than that everything is going well. I am starting to miss the greasy foods but I am happy with the small changes that I see in my body everyday. Besides I only have 3 weeks left until I have no choice but to eat unhealthy. And at that time it will be all about portion control.
All my eats today have been great. My cousin came over who also loves the weight loss fads but she is not eating well right now today. I went with her to the chinese food store and she ate her greasy goodness right beside me. I just delt with it and ate my spanish rice that I had made last night. I have a chicken on the rotisserie right now too that I'll eat before heading out to work.
My workout today was INTENSE!!! Did intervals (2 minute run 1 minute walk 8 times) and the runs were at 7 mph!!! I honestly could not have done one more interval! I was a little dizzy afterwards and had to walk it off longer than my cool down. But now I feel good! I like that my heart rate is decreasing. When I used to lay in bed my heart would beat soo fast which created much of my anxiety. And now my heart rate is normal it is much slower which is great. My cardiovascular system is super happy with me!.
Have to work at the restaurant tonight. Hopefully I make some coin!!!. I guess I'll be posting on here more often now since I won't have a job till I leave. Anyways thats all for today. Have a great day everyone!!
adeon
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Today I am feeling pretty darn tired. I am not sure why. I think its from not doing anything all week. My brain is lacking stimulation. Other than that the day is going just great.
Just finished my workout. I honestly did not want to even do it right now, but I got it done. I think I burned 400 cals which is great. I jumped on the scale this morning and I am down to 163.2!! woohoo! That is great! I am soo happy that I am actually sticking to this! I feel unstoppable!!! In the last 10 days I have eaten bad TWICE!!! AMAZING!!!
Tomorrows workout is going to be REDICULOUS! This is where things really get kicked into gear. 35 minutes of running and 52 minutes in total. I am not sure how I am going to approach this yet. Might just take it slow and do the runs at 6.0. Maybe I'll alternate between 6.0 and 6.2. who knows! All I know is that its gonna be HARDD!!! And I'm gonna probably DIE!
Tonight I get to start making money with my mom as she is getting her coupon books today. Just in time cause I NEEEED money desperately now.
Eats today have been right on target. A bowl of fiber one for breakfast and a nice big orange, lunch was a small portion of leftover spanish rice and a protein shake. Not sure what I am going to eat for dinner but it's obviously going to be HEALTHY. anyways take care everyone!
Just finished my workout. I honestly did not want to even do it right now, but I got it done. I think I burned 400 cals which is great. I jumped on the scale this morning and I am down to 163.2!! woohoo! That is great! I am soo happy that I am actually sticking to this! I feel unstoppable!!! In the last 10 days I have eaten bad TWICE!!! AMAZING!!!
Tomorrows workout is going to be REDICULOUS! This is where things really get kicked into gear. 35 minutes of running and 52 minutes in total. I am not sure how I am going to approach this yet. Might just take it slow and do the runs at 6.0. Maybe I'll alternate between 6.0 and 6.2. who knows! All I know is that its gonna be HARDD!!! And I'm gonna probably DIE!
Tonight I get to start making money with my mom as she is getting her coupon books today. Just in time cause I NEEEED money desperately now.
Eats today have been right on target. A bowl of fiber one for breakfast and a nice big orange, lunch was a small portion of leftover spanish rice and a protein shake. Not sure what I am going to eat for dinner but it's obviously going to be HEALTHY. anyways take care everyone!
adeon
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Today is going so far so good. Woke up and felt like running right away so thats just what I did. Todays run was more endurance than speed so I took it FAIRLY easy.. but it wasn't that easy.. It was just plain GOOD. Burned 500 cals which is awesome! The scale didnt move today. I told myself I wouldnt go on the scale everyday!!! and here i am on the scale!!! but it makes me feel happy to see a loss.... I dunno. It's addicting!!
This morning I had some yummy eggs and a piece of toast with some cantaloupe. My cousin is going to the mall today I really want to go with her but I need to try and sell some books this afternoon. ughhhh. I neeed money!! I wish I could just win the lottery. That would be perfect! sighh.
I had some serious cravings yesterday. I wanted cookies and everything! BUT I fought through it an I settled for a decaf coffee instead. I am quite proud of myself for that.
Anyways I'm going to shower and get ready to head out. bye all!
This morning I had some yummy eggs and a piece of toast with some cantaloupe. My cousin is going to the mall today I really want to go with her but I need to try and sell some books this afternoon. ughhhh. I neeed money!! I wish I could just win the lottery. That would be perfect! sighh.
I had some serious cravings yesterday. I wanted cookies and everything! BUT I fought through it an I settled for a decaf coffee instead. I am quite proud of myself for that.
Anyways I'm going to shower and get ready to head out. bye all!
adeon
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I just wanted to post a picture of my dinner cause it looked sooo good. I got it from work. It is a 1/4 white with the skin removed, grilled, with some yummy bbq sauce on it AND a double serving of vegetables. I skipped the roll cause I had a 6" sub and I felt that was enough carbs for me. Anyways enjoy the photo
adeon
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Helllooooo I bet everyone that follows up on me didn't think I'd be back after this weekend BUT I AMMM HAHAHAHAHAHAAAA.
Honestly the weekend did not go how I wanted it to. It was fun but I really don't remember much of it which dissappoints me. I blacked out at the bar. My cousin had me doing shots at the house I did like 3 and had a drink. I only remember having like 2 drinks at the bar MAYBE 3 and thats it. the rest is history which is weird cause I can usually drink more than that.... soo I dont know but I don;t like that I blacked out it scares me. So I ate bad that night having chips and a couple wings and some deep fried pickles. And the next day I had a burger and fries for breakfast and then had a foot long sub for dinner. Soooooo ya.... bad eats.
I woke up in the middle of the night in sheer panic. I thought my life was ending. (I'm sure I've mentioned before I have an anxiety disorder. So the drinking didn't help). SO I got up and took one of my chill pills and went back to bed.
Anyways on to today!!! I woke up not wanting to eat well. I ate eggs with two pieces of unbuttered toast and 3 slices of thin deli ham. Then I had almost a whole bag of mini rice cakes. After sitting down watching tv for 3 hours I finally decided that I should run. AND I DID!!! And now I am BACK to good! Back to the grind!! Haven't had lunch yet but it will be healthy im sure. I am very proud of myself for getting back to the grind. Tomorrow is weigh in day and though I may not have a loss I will be happy if I haven't gained much. WE'll have to wait and see.
I am going to call my boyfriend tonight to wish him a happy valentines day. I can't be with him obviously but We'll be together in a few weeks.
Here's to getting back at er!!
Honestly the weekend did not go how I wanted it to. It was fun but I really don't remember much of it which dissappoints me. I blacked out at the bar. My cousin had me doing shots at the house I did like 3 and had a drink. I only remember having like 2 drinks at the bar MAYBE 3 and thats it. the rest is history which is weird cause I can usually drink more than that.... soo I dont know but I don;t like that I blacked out it scares me. So I ate bad that night having chips and a couple wings and some deep fried pickles. And the next day I had a burger and fries for breakfast and then had a foot long sub for dinner. Soooooo ya.... bad eats.
I woke up in the middle of the night in sheer panic. I thought my life was ending. (I'm sure I've mentioned before I have an anxiety disorder. So the drinking didn't help). SO I got up and took one of my chill pills and went back to bed.
Anyways on to today!!! I woke up not wanting to eat well. I ate eggs with two pieces of unbuttered toast and 3 slices of thin deli ham. Then I had almost a whole bag of mini rice cakes. After sitting down watching tv for 3 hours I finally decided that I should run. AND I DID!!! And now I am BACK to good! Back to the grind!! Haven't had lunch yet but it will be healthy im sure. I am very proud of myself for getting back to the grind. Tomorrow is weigh in day and though I may not have a loss I will be happy if I haven't gained much. WE'll have to wait and see.
I am going to call my boyfriend tonight to wish him a happy valentines day. I can't be with him obviously but We'll be together in a few weeks.
Here's to getting back at er!!
adeon
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Well I seem to be falling into the bad eats again which is a sure sign I'm about to give up. I must focus on the task at hand. I am going to extend my good eats right up until the last day before I leave. I woke up with a scratchy sore throat and I think I'm getting sick.... so of course I used that as an excuse today and I ate bad for lunch. Breakfast was great... lunch was a burger and fries... home made so I didn't spend any money and it was probably a little better than some fast food burger and fries... but still. So I also haven't worked out today because of the sore throat.
Last night was not the best of nights also. I got to work 20 minutes late which put me in a bad mood. I forgot to wear pink which put me in a worse mood. THEN I had a tiny little section which just pissed me right off. So I had decided to eat bad. Had Pizza Hut and some wings I realized were soo greasy and disgusting I could only eat a couple. Sooo the last couple days I've fallen off a little.
I need to get a grip on what I am trying to do and what makes me feel good and how I want to feel in my life. I just hope my throat feels better tomorrow. I'm going to try and workout after I sell some books tonight. I am going to really try to get on that mill.
Last night was not the best of nights also. I got to work 20 minutes late which put me in a bad mood. I forgot to wear pink which put me in a worse mood. THEN I had a tiny little section which just pissed me right off. So I had decided to eat bad. Had Pizza Hut and some wings I realized were soo greasy and disgusting I could only eat a couple. Sooo the last couple days I've fallen off a little.
I need to get a grip on what I am trying to do and what makes me feel good and how I want to feel in my life. I just hope my throat feels better tomorrow. I'm going to try and workout after I sell some books tonight. I am going to really try to get on that mill.
adeon
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Just wanted to pop in here and hold myself accountable.... I had a slice of cheesecake today and just finished off a pound of wings. On a good note I did do two streets selling books tonight. Works out to 2.5 hours walking at a decent pace with stairs included and stops at every house...... I am 100% in it to win it tomorrow. I want to be 159 at least by the time I leave. Thats 16 days so lets make this happen.
I hope to god I'm not sick tomorrow!!!!!!! PLEASEEEEE
I hope to god I'm not sick tomorrow!!!!!!! PLEASEEEEE
Alta818
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Hey girl!!! ! I'm glad I bumped into your diary! ...I don't know why I thought you had disappeared from here!!? ...But the thing that matters is you are HERE!!
...girl, a sore throat must be going around, cause I am in your boat today too!! It feels like a baby truck rammed into the sides of my neck! I've been taking zinc and multivatims and tea so it will hopefully go away.
It's held me back from working out today too. It's robbing my energy!
..So what type of books are you selling door to door right now? That's cool!!! How many did you sell ?
! I'm glad I bumped into your diary! ...I don't know why I thought you had disappeared from here!!? ...But the thing that matters is you are HERE!!...girl, a sore throat must be going around, cause I am in your boat today too!! It feels like a baby truck rammed into the sides of my neck!
I've been taking zinc and multivatims and tea so it will hopefully go away. It's held me back from working out today too. It's robbing my energy!
..So what type of books are you selling door to door right now? That's cool!
!! How many did you sell ?
Alta818
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Okay... So I just read back a couple pages and I know that you are selling coupon books! Sad to hear about your job though. I know it sucks! My boyfriend right now is going through massive $$ issues right now too! Not that I'm super ballin or anything, but at least I do have food in my fridge. (which he didn't this past weekend!)
...And as far as you and your bf...CONGRATS on the engagement!! So did you meet him while you were in Cuba? Or you knew him?
...From the sounds of it though, since he lives there with his entire family, I'm presuming that he lived there and you met him there? Regardless, that's sweet that your love is binding you beyond countries! What does your family say about you moving to Cuba?! Are they all for it!?
...if they are, or they're not,...oh well, huh!?! And as far as drinking, good job on overcoming your temptations these past couple times. I know it happens all the time, but when we do it, it feels so good afterward!
Sad to hear about your job though. I know it sucks! My boyfriend right now is going through massive $$ issues right now too! Not that I'm super ballin or anything, but at least I do have food in my fridge. (which he didn't this past weekend!)...And as far as you and your bf...CONGRATS on the engagement!! So did you meet him while you were in Cuba? Or you knew him?
...From the sounds of it though, since he lives there with his entire family, I'm presuming that he lived there and you met him there?
Regardless, that's sweet that your love is binding you beyond countries! What does your family say about you moving to Cuba?! Are they all for it!? ...if they are, or they're not,...oh well, huh!?!
And as far as drinking, good job on overcoming your temptations these past couple times. I know it happens all the time, but when we do it, it feels so good afterward!
adeon
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Hey Alta thanks for popping by my diary! I am still here. In and out. Trying to get going with something good. My family initially wasn't at all happy about me going to Cuba (I went there in the summer for 2 months) but since I made it out alive I think they don't mind as much this time around. Ya I had this weird sinus thing and my ears were plugged and my throat was sore but nothing more ever really developed which is good. Overcoming drinking temptations is very hard but we work at it one experience at a time. day by day. Thanks for all the words of encouragement! I live your 0.5 lb a week goal. I tried WW once but couldn't stick to my points cause of my drinking problem which is not much more under control.