It's all about me

Mal: that's a good link! But it pretty much defines what I'm talking about when I say I realistically can't go through 2 doors at once...right now door number one is the goal of seriously improving my lifting, increasing strength, moving beyond the "basics" to some neat (to me) stuff, yada, yada...my running is limited to 1-2 days a week. Now, from the link on the type of training required to seriously improve running speed:

In this program, you’ll run 3 or 4 days a week, usually resting a day after each run. You’ll vary the distance and intensity of the workouts, with each designed to build on the preceding one. Follow the guidelines below for performing each workout at the ideal intensity

edited to add: I was thinking about this, and a year ago I would have been like "bring it on" and jumped with both feet into trying to figure out a way to do it all....now I'm just about trying to find a balance that's not going to ultimately lead me to physical/mental exercise burnout...maybe I'm overly cautious but that's a strong fear/concern of mine
 
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Mal: that's a good link! But it pretty much defines what I'm talking about when I say I realistically can't go through 2 doors at once...right now door number one is the goal of seriously improving my lifting, increasing strength, moving beyond the "basics" to some neat (to me) stuff, yada, yada...my running is limited to 1-2 days a week. Now, from the link on the type of training required to seriously improve running speed:

In this program, you’ll run 3 or 4 days a week, usually resting a day after each run. You’ll vary the distance and intensity of the workouts, with each designed to build on the preceding one. Follow the guidelines below for performing each workout at the ideal intensity

edited to add: I was thinking about this, and a year ago I would have been like "bring it on" and jumped with both feet into trying to figure out a way to do it all....now I'm just about trying to find a balance that's not going to ultimately lead me to physical/mental exercise burnout...maybe I'm overly cautious but that's a strong fear/concern of mine
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I think it's great that you're conscious of a balance. I certainly wasn't aware/concerned with a balance, and now that it's being constructed for me, I can see the importance of it. You have fabulous goals, so much knowledge and drive to back it up that you will most certainly achieve them ;) I love watching your evolution!
 
Different day, same subject. Goals I want to reach in a year. A long time ago someone pointed out to me that having a goal without a plan to reach that goal wasn't really having a goal so much as a "wish list". So....plans for reaching those goals....

Weight: I want to be the same weight, give or take 3 pounds either way. This is so siimple I'm smacking myself in the forehead...I just need to continue weighing myself once a week...unless something bizzare happens and I fall into a vat of ice cream and don't re-emerge for a week, no way am I gonna gain more than 3 pounds in a seven day period...so if weekly weigh-in's consistently edge upwards, before even reaching the 3 lb "too much" mark I can just cut back intake until back at baseline. The other half of that is continuing to record my daily food......How easy is that! Not rocket science.

If it's so simple how come I managed to re-pack on mounds of weight not once but twice? Cause I never, ever consistently kept weighing myself post weight loss or tracking my food...it was hit goal weight, forget about regular monitoring, and by the time I noticed the creeping weight rebound it had gone from a little excess I could easily drop in a week or two to some massive undertaking where it was just easier to stay and get fatter.

Nutrition Not 100% sure where that's going. A long time ago I thought that by this point I would limiting my meat sources to seafood and dairy with occassional poultry...Now, I just don't see that happening....okay, so no, that's not gonna happen. I still think 3x week for beef, even lean, is too much for me, but those days I just have to make a deliberate choice to have soy milk & fat free dairy to keep the sat fat in check.

Fitness: Gosh, I've go so many goals I'd like to arrive at a year from now it's not funny. Some of them are contrary...I'm picking a door...the one marked with pretty little pink dubmbells:rotflmao: There's no reason that a year from now I can't decide to go in another direction, but for now I want to see where this is gonna take me....

Friday foods:
fruits: 4-6 daily servings. 1 berry, 1 apple, 1 citrus, the rest chosen from:
apricots,banana, canteloupe, cherries, figs, grapes, papaya, pineapple, prunes, raisins, strawberries, watermelon

veggies: 6-7 daily servings, 2 dark green leafy, the rest from:
artichokes, avocado, beets, broccoli, cabbage, carrots, califlower, chili pepper, daikon, garlic, ginger, mushrooms, onions, sweet potatoes, squash, tomatoes
additional: sprouts & snow peas

grain/nuts/seeds/legumes: 4-6 daily servings, 1 nut, 1 flax, 1 legume, the rest chosen from:
buckwheat, bulgar, lentils, oats (rolled or bran), pumpkin seeds, rice, walnuts, wheat germ, whole wheat
no grain/nut/etc. servings today (on purpose) - yesterday was last day of this

dairy :1 daily servings chosen from:
yogurt, soy milk, cheese (any type)
cheese type: mozzarella

meat: 3 daily servings chosen from
chicken, turkey, fish, lean beef
additional: pork cutlet

other: 1 daily serving each
olive oil
green or echitacea tea

optional crap (1 serving): sugar free frozen pop
 
Cym, I love reading your journal, because that's where I want to be a year from now -- dealing with issues like you're doing.

If it's so simple how come I managed to re-pack on mounds of weight not once but twice? Cause I never, ever consistently kept weighing myself post weight loss or tracking my food...it was hit goal weight, forget about regular monitoring, and by the time I noticed the creeping weight rebound it had gone from a little excess I could easily drop in a week or two to some massive undertaking where it was just easier to stay and get fatter.
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Now, that's the truth! I have done that SO many times!
 
I've weighed myself every single day for at least the past 15 years. I know its not needed daily, but I do so agree that a healthy dose of reality on a scale is enough to make you take a good look in the mirror and put a stop to the gains before they get too out of control.
 
hey pretty lady,

lifes hard its not easy to keep on the diet and exercise thing all the time, just dont let yourself slip up too much, but you've done amazing thus far!

dont get discouraged
 
When I think back to all of the times I've gained excessive weight...I never weighed myself either, and I wouldn't even let myself think about it. Complete 'head in the sand' syndrome. I did not want to take responsibility for it...I don't see that happening again because I feel like I'm working far too hard this time around, and I know that you will never let that happen. It's one thing to starve and lose weight-and then regain it with a vengeance. It's another to restrict calories reasonably in addition to a strength and aerobic training program...to throw away all of the knowledge and time would be quite insane. If you constantly set new goals then you'll keep it up forever. I'm so happy you post all your thoughts. It prepares me. Thanks Cym, also thanks for the bday wishes ;)
 
Okay, so this is just me having a mini-rant because I'm super pissed off and I'm thinking maybe if I just write it down I can, as Miss Ladybug so elegantly put it "greet it and release it".

So, right after posting my foods this morning I ran off to the gym and then to the grocery store. I'm standing in the check-out line, still in work-out gear, unloading my usual fruits/veggies, etc. And I'm in a really, really good mood because today is one of those rare Saturday's when I'm not working, not being pulled in a hundred different directions, it's not a million degrees outside and I was thinking happily about coming home and working in my flower garden, super scrubbing my house, just dumb routine stuff that seems appealing sometimes.

And in line behind me comes these two WOMEN, two very large, sloppily dressed, big mouthed WOMEN who for what ever reason start staring at me and giving me these nasty, and I mean hateful looks and making really, really stupid and rude remarks to each other - meant of course for me to hear. I mean stupid childish shit like "ohh girl you know if I'm gonna eat it's gonna be some REAL food". And it was so unexpected that it took a moment for it to even register. "Oh, they're talking about me?" Even the cashier was getting uncomfortable and all I could think was "hurry up...hurry up".

And yea, it's stupid but it BUGS ME...cause I've never been rude to a total stranger in my life...and I guess I haven't had many strangers be rude to me (except in traffic) so I'm kinda stunned. I'm driving home thinking "what did I do to provoke that kind of hostility from two women I've never seen before and will never see again?" NOTHING. It wasn't like I was looking at them or in their cart and shaking my head in disapproval or something....I didn't even notice them until I heard their voices behind me and looked back.

Well, I guess that's my effort at "greeting it"...now I'm gonna go do some weeding and work on "releasing it":) But honestly, sometimes people can just be so...people-ish!
 
What they meant was, "I am unhappy with the way that I am, so I'm going to try and make myself feel better by revealing my cowardice and insecurites through a thinly veiled attack on a person that lives a healthier lifestyle than I do." I hope you can forget them...you're awesome!
 
Whoops, I was too busy having my little whine to respond!

Blancita: I used to weigh myself every day too but, frankly, it was making me crazy...cause I fluctuate like crazy within the week...and even though it says the same thing pretty much every Tuesday...the days in-between go up and down without rhyme or reason. I don't even own a scale, I use the one at my gym...it was a little mental game I had to play with myself in the beginning to get into the groove of daily exercise "if you want to know your weight, you have to take your butt to the gym"...and I just never got around to buying one after that.

Jeremy: those little sayings of yours have "infected" me...everytime I have a really hard-core workout I find myself thinking "yea, DO WORK...GET SOME" lol

Sara the time before this when I lost weight (it was a trainer/nutritionist designed nightmare of 1200 cals, fasting morning cardio and 2x day work-outs) I distinctly remember thinking "oh my god, this is sooo hard, I'll never let myself get fat again"....uhm yea. I think it's like childbirth....I've been in the labor room with friends who were in crazy pain and swearing "never again"...then the baby "pops" out and two days later I visit and they're all "oh, it wasn't so bad" ... hello - that was my ARM you were clawing!

Tom: yea, we've both been down the happy "lose it and forget it" road.
 
Oh CYM, I hope you got that gardening in girlfriend!! I did a LOT myself today, I had about 8 plants/flowers that needed repotting and bad!! I hope several of them recover and snap back as they were sitting on a side porch that gets a lot of day sun and well, they didn't like it up there, so I had to relocate them. Hope they like the shady side of the house better. :) On the two frumpy bad mouth wenches, Do you think they would have said stuff like that if you were a large women checking out with the same groceries?? Your thin, healthy and to them a threat!! Some women are just hateful!! And maybe someday they will get a dose of their own medicine and trust me, it won't be nice. I believe in the what comes around goes around. They will get theirs, believe me!! It's interesting, be it large or small, there is always hateful things that one can say to rip ones self esteem apart. We think only large people can be put down or ridiculed, it's not true, it happens to all of us, big or small. Don't sweat the small stuff, tomorrow is a better day!!:)
 
Sara/Kim: I'm over the annoyance of yesterday...don't know why I let it get under my skin like that?:confused: It just did. There was, however, no gardening...apparently the reason it was less than 5 million degrees was so it could storm - violently - power outages off and on through the afternoon, evening and night.

I've been up forever, my body is going "let's run, let's run"...it's a rest day so "noooo", weird 'cause I usually have zero desire to do anything physical on Sunday...since this time last week I was exhausted I guess the extra calories + meat did a body good this week.

I can't believe I still have a heaping mound of bulgar from the original batch I made....I've eaten it every way it can be eaten and it's like this huge self-replinishing supply. Enough already. I'm gonna make the remainder into my favorite (so far) recipe (mixed with ripe cherries, almonds and honey) and take it to my friend's pot luck brunch this afternoon where hopefully it will all get eaten - if not, I'm going to "forget" to bring the leftover's home:) .

Pretty much just got in the min. servings of everything and topped off with protein bar for additional cals.

Friday foods:
fruits: 4-6 daily servings. 1 berry, 1 apple, 1 citrus, the rest chosen from:
apricots, banana, canteloupe, cherries, figs, grapes, papaya, pineapple, prunes, raisins, strawberries, watermelon

veggies: 6-7 daily servings, 2 dark green leafy, the rest from:
artichokes, avocado, beets, broccoli, cabbage, carrots, califlower, chili pepper, daikon, garlic, ginger, mushrooms, onions, sweet potatoes, squash, tomatoes

grain/nuts/seeds/legumes: 4-6 daily servings, 1 nut, 1 flax, 1 legume, the rest chosen from:
buckwheat, bulgar, lentils, oats (rolled or bran), pumpkin seeds, rice, walnuts, wheat germ, whole wheat
whole wheat type: egg roll wrappers

dairy :1 daily servings chosen from:
yogurt, soy milk, cheese (any type)
cheese type: mozzarella & 4 cheese blend
additional: protein bar

meat: 3 daily servings chosen from
chicken, turkey, fish, lean beef

other: 1 daily serving each
olive oil
green or echitacea tea
honey

optional crap (1 serving): none...a crap free day!
 
One word for what those women were thinking about you: jealousy. Its so patently obvious to anyone hearing the story so as far as I see they get what's coming to them every day when they have to live with the unhealthy and sloppy lives they've chosen for themselves. Scary what would've happened if they picked me to do that. I would've definitely at the very least turned around and made it very obvious that I was staring and listening. Knowing my crazy ass I would've said something too. Good for you that you just ignored it, that's always the bigger more mature approach.
 
And the number one, top dawg dessert dish at my friend's potluck brunch.....BULGAR! FRIGGIN BULGAR. Specifically - cold bulgar with chopped almonds, fresh blueberries, raisins, cherries and a little bit o' honey! Annoyingly I had to do the "first bite" coax "oh come on, just take a bite before you say you don't like it" yada, yada (admittedly bulgar doesn't really look like anything familar in the dessert world)...but from then on it was just sitting back watching that stuff disappear:jump: ...mostly I'm happy to finally be rid of it...and I now know how to not make quite so much at one time:doh:

I learned something good though. Since day one I've been trying (with mixed results) to recomposition traditional desserts (i.e. pastries) with healthier ingredients....now I'm like - why? Instead of just re-creating the same wheel over and over I'm thinking why not, when I'm going to take the time and spend the money to make dessert, just go crazy creative with something that may not look or taste like something familiar - but is entirely good just on it's own merits? How fun is that going to be?:jump:

edited to add: oh, and I gotta add this part cause it was so cute and just made me laugh all the way home...my friend's hubby is this big ex-football player he-man type who took the biggest coaxing and kept his face screwed up with every bite that went into his mouth...so as I'm leaving I say to him "admit it, you liked the bulgar didn't you" and he says, in this hopeful, kidlike tone "well, I could eat some more...I mean if you wanted to bring some more over sometime...I could eat it"
 
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Ok...that dessert you mentioned sounds really delicious in a naturific way. Since bulgar has been part of the discussion for the past few pages, I'm going to try it sometime. Gracias Cym. We're having serious thunder and lightning storms around here as well, the sky is nuts!
 
Oh man CYM, that sucks about the power outages! I know gardening would have been a nice release! You mentioned that you felt like running. Do you run every morning? I don't recall reading about you doing that before. If so, how far do you go and are you fast like Val??? Oh I've wanted to up my running game I'm a WOOS when it comes to running now, I used to love it at my younger years. Now I run 4 times around our track and my chest hurts or more like my lungs hurt. I envy those who run and are good at it! I'm sure that sheds those pounds and fast! Good to see you got rid of the bulgar too, LOL LOL I always try things at least ONCE, usually I'm surprised that I like things more than not. I just love food PERIOD! Hope your weather is better and you can get out and enjoy some sun.
Kim
 
Kim: Nope, I only run twice, sometimes once a week, used to be three but I've changed to 4-weight days vs 3-weight days so running got bumped down. I'm not sure how fast Val is, but I'm pretty sure that I'm nowhere near as fast...

Hmmmm super good mood this morning....feeling like "Oh, it's gonna be a great day, a great week, a great rest of summer" yada yada. Actually something very cool and life changing (in a positive way) is finally (months in preparation) gonna get started at about two o'clock this afternoon...

Really happy with yesterday's food choices...I'm always happy the day after I do a social thing involving food and manage to have a good time without any day after "food regrets"...pot lucks are kinda easy though cause a) I can always take along at least 2 dishes of stuff I want and b) at this point everybody knows my food preferences so I can pretty much count on a couple of other dishes being made with that in mind.:)

Oh, and I tried out something I've been thinking about and it turned out exactly like I imagined - not real imaginative but yummy - cooked cauliflower mashed with chicken broth & fresh garlic and baked with a top layer of cheddar. That went crazy quick and I got just enough to know how good it tasted.

Sunday foods:

fruits: 4-6 daily servings. 1 berry, 1 apple, 1 citrus, the rest chosen from:
apricots, banana, canteloupe, cherries, figs, grapes, papaya, pineapple, prunes, raisins, strawberries, watermelon

veggies: 6-7 daily servings, 2 dark green leafy, the rest from:
artichokes, avocado, beets, broccoli, cabbage, carrots, califlower, chili pepper, daikon, garlic, ginger, mushrooms, onions, sweet potatoes, squash, tomatoes

grain/nuts/seeds/legumes: 4-6 daily servings, 1 nut, 1 flax, 1 legume, the rest chosen from:
buckwheat, bulgar, lentils, oats (rolled or bran), pumpkin seeds, rice, walnuts, wheat germ, whole wheat

dairy :1 daily servings chosen from:
yogurt, soy milk, cheese (any type)
cheese type: cheddar

meat: 3 daily servings chosen from
chicken, fish, lean beef
(yep, all three plus pork)

other: 1 daily serving each
olive oil
green or echitacea tea
honey

optional crap (1 serving): lumpia & 2 mini sticky rice buns baby!!!!!
 
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