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Being in Chemical Engineering, Chemistry is my middle name haha! I am done with all of the Organic and Analytical chem classes now though. Going into my third year the classes are more like Biochemistry, separation methods, Calculus, advanced instrumentation, etc. Should be a blast. (very sarcastic)
 
I'm sad to hear about things not being so good with you and Stephen right now. Hopefully it's something you guys can work through.

I wouldn't worry so much about being intimidated at the weight room. Do a little reading on the stickies on here about strength training and you'll know a lot more then 90% of the meat heads in there. Most people are just winging it, so you go in knowing what you're doing you'll stand out as a pro.
 
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Being in Chemical Engineering, Chemistry is my middle name haha! I am done with all of the Organic and Analytical chem classes now though. Going into my third year the classes are more like Biochemistry, separation methods, Calculus, advanced instrumentation, etc. Should be a blast. (very sarcastic)
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Oh fun stuff! I began my university career studying engineering (I have a degree in drafting and design and work for an engineering firm...) but after 3 semesters called it quits... I was doing it because my employers thought it would be a good idea... but the course work SUCKED!! Granted I am kinda a math whiz and more of a science person, but I just wasn't interested. Then I changed my major to nutrition and then school finally had a purpose! But sadly I turned off my math skills for whatever reason when I switched... hence the low mark in gen chem... too much math and complex formulas! Give me molecules and cells instead!

Chem engineering is an impressive field and you can make ALOT of money. I have a friend who just got her masters and worked for exon and made bucoo bucks! She is going for her PhD now... But good luck that class line-up is quite intimidating!
 
Yea each semester we have had at least one Math course. Usually math/chemistry based. I'm only in college though so the workload isn;t TOO bad. I do intend on going to uni afterwards and getting at least a B.Sc.
 
Sorry to hear about you and Stephen as well. Hope things work out smoothly here soon :)

Glad to hear about the intervals going good. And, yeah, triple F anyone who gives you shit for wearing shorts. Your working very hard and deserve to wear whatever the hell you want to. Your legs aren't bad at all, imo and they will only get better with all this hard work your doing exercise wise, so rest comfortably on that ;)

I need to bone up on my Chemistry. When I took my last Chemistry class a few years ago for my prerequisite to Nursing, it wasn't too bad but I had a really good teacher. I had to retake my Anatomy and Physiology classes while trying to get into the Nursing Program, and that sucked and scared me too... That's why I deferred my acceptance to the program for a semester and am tutoring myself on old stuff until next semester. It's going to be such an insane amount of work but, I know I can do it. I just gotta stay positive, keep up on my studying and make it my #1 priority above everything else. I'm even considering unplugging my TV when I start school in Jan... Ya know, just to see. I don't watch a ton of TV but i do watch my fair share... It might have to go... Still deciding.

-Sam
 
Hey guys thanks for stopping by. I wasn't planning on venting about Stephen and I's relationship, but its hard not to when its such a huge part of my life. He and I met when I was a sophomore in HS, we met in an AOL chat room...ya ya I know... And we became friends, like best friends who secretly had a crush on each other. Well years went by and we still chatted on the net, and talked on the phone a bit... emailed ALOT... and then I got involved with "bonehead" as we like to call him and Stephen became a memory... Well after almost 3 years with bonehead I finally got the courage to get out (he was both verbally and physically abusive and I was scared for my life) and I went running back to Step.... and within 3 months of "reconnecting" we met face to face for the first time... He is from MA 2500 miles from me. And we have lived in a fairy tale ever since. He moved here last August, we did the long distance thing for about a year then made a more serious move. We have been together officially for over 2 years and like I said its been like a fairy tale... our relationship is pretty darn close to perfect... and for the first time we are experiencing a little BUMP and its been hard on both of us... But I am happy to say that we are great at communicating with one another its has worked out smoothly. We did alot of venting today and feel like we are at a conclusion... it just made us realize that this is in fact real... but still amazing... so that's all I'm gonna say about that... ha ha but thanks guys for your concern!

Its been a really off past few days... especially with eating. My dad's birthday was Wednesday, last night Step and I walked to the local pizza place to eat... yes we walked but still I had a turkey grinder with chips and a huge diet soda.... and then this morning with my pancake and then we had dinner with my parents just a little while ago! Ugh! And then tommorrow we are going on a double date to see Batman and have dinner and drinks.... I hate moments like this because the eating out last night and tonight could have been avoided. Its hard to say no to my parents though, my mom likes to push and both Step and I are pushovers... Hopefully I can eat clean tomorrow until dinner and then we already decided that we are going to split a plate tomorrow night, just because portions are sooo huge. And then Sunday for sure I will get back to counting points. I think this is just one of those moments where I have to not let it ruin everything. Usually a week like this would have derailed me completely, but I am very determined to get to my goals that nothing even a little eating out can stop.

Ha so with that said. I hope to go to salsa tomorrow morning. And then we are planning a bike ride for Sunday. Which works for me!

I emailed my trainer from 2 years ago today. He took my measurements towards the end of my training to see if it would boost my motivation a bit and I am hoping he still has those on file. I would like to compare those to where I am now... I know I am smaller, but by how much I'm not sure. I think when I finished my training with him I barely broke 160... and then of course as soon as I started going to school all my hard work went to shit and I gained most of it back... But his eating plan sucked, its reaked of failure... way to restrictive for me. And I was never fully commited... I didnt believe in myself at all at that time. And that has for sure changed now!!

anyway, I am done ranting for the evening! It's late and I'm pretty tired...

Night Night
 
Batman: Dark Night is AMAZING!!!! I reccomend it to anyone! We saw it yesterday with friends and were BLOWN away!

Yesterday was better as far as eating. Well for the most part. I went to salsa which it worth 7 points so I figured I'd better eat something before I go, I usually dont and on those mornings that I do go... I die. I had a 1/2 cup of fat free milk and a nutrigrain bar, worth a total of 4 points. Then after class I had a banana, worth 2 points so I still had 23 points to burn throughout the day. I made chicken quesidillas for lunch. I went easy on the cheese and heavy on the chicken and veggies in mine, I didn't calc points but I am assuming it was around 10 total, and thats on the high side. We had dinner after the movie at a Steak House and Step and I shared a plate. We had the smoked sirloin with garlic mashed taters. He had a cup of soup and I had a Cesar salad. However I also had a margarita... I normally don't drink but it looked good... and of course since I don't drink it totally did me in... lol but my friend was in the same position, so it was all good. We had a good time! And Step and I burned a few calories when we got home anyway... *winks*

So I have to share a "moment" I had yesterday. I was getting ready to go to salsa and I had my workout clothes on.. ya know t-back tank and adidas pants... So I was standing in front of the mirror putting my hair in a pony-tail and Stephen was on the bed watching me... and was like "You're so sexy..." ha I just laughed as always and he was like no "your shoulders and arms look amazing and its wicked sexy" and I was like really... I was kinda having a fat arm moment before he said that. Step compliments me daily and usually I just laugh it off... I have trouble taking compliments from people including him. I am quick to point out my flaws as a "counter" to their comment... I know weird... But anyway it made me feel pretty good, like I am actually getting somewhere.

So thats all... below are today's eats thus far!

Breakfast:
1 cup cheerios: 2 pts
1/2 cup fat free milk: 1 pt
1/2 banana: 1 pt
1 cup coffee: 0 pts
2 tbsp half/half: 2 pts
2 pkt splenda: 0 pts
Total: 6 Points

I think we are either going for a run or a bike ride this evening when it cools off. Hopefully a bike ride, Step put some more aggressive tires on for me and I would like to test them out.

That's all for now!
 
Just checking in before lights out. Stephen and I made a trip to the grocery store, which we always dread because its sooo expensive. But we spent just over $50.00 and got everything we need for the week's menu. Just recently we decided to start making a menu for the week and then go grocery shopping weekly for those things, so far its worked out pretty well. We have also been trying to cut back on wasting food. Just yesterday I threw out leftovers from the week and it was seemingly alot of food. So we have decided to only cook dinner every other night and do left overs in-between. Hopefully this will cut down on cost as well as waste!

I made an enchilada casserole for dinner. I tried using less corn tortillas and cheese, they turned out alright... But I haven't checked out the points value yet. I would assume that the cheese and cream of mushroom soup are the high end points. But either way I enjoyed it!

While the casserole was cooking I made an attempt to run. Attempt because I just wasn't feeling it. I didn't even get a mile in... Stephen (being the runner) said it happens and as I advance into higher mileage these moments will come less frequently. We will see what tomorrow brings. I was hoping for he and I to go out today, but we kinda got caught up with chores and what not... and time goes by too quickly. Tomorrow is weight training in the morning and then an evening run once it cools off. I just decided that Friday I WILL run the Academy weather I want to or not. I need to start logging more miles weekly! I know I have to start slow, but even if I am walking 40% it's still logging miles!

Anyway today's final eats!

Lunch:
2 slice sara lee wheat: 3 pts
2 oz roast beef: 1 pt
1 slice colby cheese: 2 pts
1 tbsp mustard: 0 pts
6 corn chips: 3 pts
1 Diet DP: 0 pts
Total: 9 pts

Leaving 7 points for dinner which I'm sure I used! Back on the horse tomorrow! I need to get my mind back in the game... its been else where....

I'm off to bed! Night Night
 
MissD, I'm really glad that the bump with Stephen was just that, a bump. He sounds like a nice guy, and there aren't that many of us around. :D

I know what you mean about having your parents visit and having an extra treat. You know that it won't hurt you and it's more then ok to do it from time to time, but when someone is visiting there are three opportunities a day for a "treat." Then the treat becomes part of the routine and you are losing ground instead of losing weight. Glad to hear that you're back on it, now.
 
Thanks guys for stopping by! And yes Trops, Stephen is one of those few good guys who didn't finish last (or at least I would like to think so!).

Anyway, just thought I would check in. I am currently on my lunch break, actually its just about over. I tanned for the first half of my break (trying to not be sooo pastey when we hit the beach in a few weeks) and then I ate my little lunch.

I have decided to start logging my exercise on here aswell hoping that it will make me more accountable. I feel like I do pretty good, but every little bit helps!

AM Workout:
Full Body toning w/Lina Messig (DVD): 23 Mins (+2 points)
Note: I have done the different sections of this video but never the full body. It incorporated for-lim moments, where you are doing both lower and upper body movements together. It was a quick workout, but I was still soaked in sweat!

AM Post workout snack:
1 Banana: 2 Pts
16 oz Water: 0 pts

Breakfast:
1 Cup hot tea: 0 pts
1/2 cup soy milk: 1 pt
1 pkt splenda: 0 pts
1 pkt instant oatmeal: 2 pts
Total: 3 Points

Lunch:
1 Slice Wheat Bread: 1.5 pts
2 oz roast beef: 1 pts
1 cup baby carrots: 0 pts
1/2 roma tomato: 0 pts
32 oz Water: 0 pts
Total: 2.5 Points
Note: I have decided to go cheeseless on my sandwhiches from now on. I didn't even notice a difference today. I am going to try to get my dairy from yougurt instead.

I have noticed that I am getting the majority of my points at night, I think I need to start distributing them a little more evenly throughout the day.

So back to work!
 
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I realized soon after my last post that I was hungry, and that makes sense because I only had 2.5 points for lunch!!! So I had a "post lunch" snack.

I had a moment today where I was feeling... well large and in charge as I like to say. I texted Step and told him I was having a negative moment. I felt like I was or am getting no where fast. But he was quick to remind me how well I am doing and asked me how many pounds I have lost since he and I have been together. And to date I have lost 19 lbs since January of 2007, we actually have been together since June of 2006. And then he asked me how many pounds I lost last month... and I said well.. 5... and then he said he thinks I am more on track now than I ever... and to just imagine if I loose another 5 lbs this month and then 10 more in the next 2 months... then there will be nothing left to loose... And yeah he is right, I am just wanting instant results like everyone or some results at least. I was looking at pics in the before and after and was amazed at this one lady who has an amazing body at 160!! It just goes to show everyone carries their weight differently. And I WANT that amazing body, but it seems so far away sometimes, I wonder if I will ever be happy with what I have worked for... I know that this is a journey and not a destination as Steve says, but is there ever a point in which I am at least satisfied????

So anyway, Step and I went for our run today... and I officially died, but I pushed myself really hard on the hills... like couldnt breathe when I got to the top pushed myself... my legs were burning y todo!! We ran the first mile and a quarter then walked for a short bit, I won't lie I needed a rest. I like that to get back to our house we have to climb a huge hill... devil hill I like to call it... and Stephen runs casually in front as I struggle behind... but I didn't stop!!! I feel like its getting easier, my legs are getting stronger slowly. I just make myself into a runner after all!

Final Eats

Post Lunch Snack:
1 Nectarine: 1 pt

PM Snack:
1 pkt peanut butter granola bites: 2 pts
1 vanilla yogurt cup: 2 pts

Pre Run Snack:
16 wheat thins: 3 points
2 tbsp FF cream cheese: 1 pt

Total Snacking points: 9 points

PM Jog: 2 miles 33 mins 20 second (+4 points)
Note: This cancels out the pre run snack

Dinner:
1/2 roma tomato: 0 pts
1 cup romain: 0 pts
1 svg enchilidas: 10 points
Total: 10 Points

Grand Point Total: 30.5 -6 (workout points)= 24.5

I went over by almost 3 points. However I ball parked the enchiladas, so that amount is most likely high, but better high than low. I will use 2.5 of my "flex" points to cover me!

As for now I am off to finish up some chores before heading off to bed. Hope everyone had a good Monday.

Night Night
 
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Hey Stephen is right, and you know that you are seeing results, though slow. It definately takes time. You can't expect to lose weight overnight. My cousin is trying to lose and she told me that diet and exercise doesn't work for her so now shes trying this super fast diet crap thing. I told her it takes time and patience, which she didn't have. She assumed that changes would be made overnight, AND she was a lot slimmer, but just not 135 overnight like she wanted to be. I have been working out for 4 months and FINALLY I am at my smallest that I have ever been. Time and determination are key. You have the determination, I can tell by your journal, so just be patient and before you know it you will begin to see some amazing changes that you will LOVE!!
 
but is there ever a point in which I am at least satisfied????
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I certainly hope not. Why would you want to be satisfied? That sounds boring to me. Are you satisfied with your career? Your family? Your relationships? I hope not. All those things can always be better.
 
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I certainly hope not. Why would you want to be satisfied? That sounds boring to me. Are you satisfied with your career? Your family? Your relationships? I hope not. All those things can always be better.
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I disagree. I'm very satisfied with my career, family, life. I love living and doing what I'm doing. It sounds corny, but that's the way I see it. When you have something good, recognize it for what it is and enjoy. If you are always looking for more you miss out on what you have.
 
Thanks for the encouragement guys! I of all people know it does take time... I think it took me all of my high school career to loose 50lbs... but I did. And I am currently the lowest I have been in my adult life, but I still feel like I have a long way to go. I just get down on myself sometimes it's a bad habit I have. Sometimes I think I need professional help! LOL!!

Edco: I agree and disagree with your statements. I am very happy in my relationship as well as family life. But I hate my job but hope to one day be happy in a career. And as for being satisfied with myself I think I will ALWAYS want to look better and be stronger.
 
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I disagree. I'm very satisfied with my career, family, life. I love living and doing what I'm doing. It sounds corny, but that's the way I see it. When you have something good, recognize it for what it is and enjoy. If you are always looking for more you miss out on what you have.
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Yeah. After reading my post it sounded a little extreme. I am happy with my life to. What I meant was that just because I am happy with things that are important to you. I still think you should keep working at them to make them all better. I see no reason why you can't do both. Enjoy and love what you have but still try to improve it. As my daughter gets older I am having more trouble finding common ground and sharing bonds that we use to have. I still lover her and she me. But I am not "satisfied" with that. So I am actively looking for new things we can share together and continue to grow and improve our relationships. I plan on doing the same with my health goals. people already tell me that I am at the right weight etc.. In about 10 lbs I will be at my goal and appx. 10-15% BF. I will be thrilled! Extatic even! I am going to enjoy it and may wear tank tops all winter. But I wont be satisfied. I already plan on adding a little mass over the winter and improving my overall strength.
 
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Yeah. After reading my post it sounded a little extreme. I am happy with my life to. What I meant was that just because I am happy with things that are important to you. I still think you should keep working at them to make them all better. I see no reason why you can't do both. Enjoy and love what you have but still try to improve it. As my daughter gets older I am having more trouble finding common ground and sharing bonds that we use to have. I still lover her and she me. But I am not "satisfied" with that. So I am actively looking for new things we can share together and continue to grow and improve our relationships. I plan on doing the same with my health goals. people already tell me that I am at the right weight etc.. In about 10 lbs I will be at my goal and appx. 10-15% BF. I will be thrilled! Extatic even! I am going to enjoy it and may wear tank tops all winter. But I wont be satisfied. I already plan on adding a little mass over the winter and improving my overall strength.
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Yes I totally agree! There is ALWAYS room for improvement in all aspects of life, and typically you just have to work harder for them.

I think its great you are looking for new ways to keep the relationship with your daughter!! I wanted so badly to be a daddy's but we just don't have a thing in common!
 
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Yes I totally agree! There is ALWAYS room for improvement in all aspects of life, and typically you just have to work harder for them.

I think its great you are looking for new ways to keep the relationship with your daughter!! I wanted so badly to be a daddy's but we just don't have a thing in common!
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Well at first I relized she was kinda drifting away and just said "Oh well, daddies girl is growing up" Well I finally realized that she was doing her part and I was the one drifting away. When she was younger I was more willing to "take one for the team" You know, watch a show I didn't want to or play a game I hated. I just had to get back to that mentality. It doesn't kill me to watch High School Musical. (it just feels like it is going to)
 
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