I'm Lost.... & Depressed

Bdubedub

Bdubedub

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I don't quite know what top say but for the 100th time Ive managed to stop losing weight & in a 2 month period from my bday (Oct 25th) Ive managed to get back to 289.1 from 267 or so. 22lbs in just over 2 months... I really need help & strength to get back into things. This is ridicoulous & very frusterating for me...it always seems like I get down to 267 or so and something throws me off & I get off track... Im very depressed thinking I now have another 2 months to even try & get back to where I was at.... thats so long! My problem is overeating by far.... Ive managed to sit and eat a box of 20 choclate covered cherries about 5-6 times since Christmas in one sitting.... fast food 2-3 times a week (2 Mcdoubles, 1 Mc Chicken & Large Fry) all for one meal & just eat a ton.... I had a large pizza Saturday night all by myself... im so lost & so fed up with myself. If I didnt have a family that I love very much Im sure I wouldnt be here today becuase Id have done something dumb.... Please help me :(
 
Hey there, I can certainly understand your situation. I too have completely let myself go. I was 274 in July, I had two personal trainers. My starting weight was 307 pounds in March. Yet, here we are in January of 2011 and and I just weighed in at 312.8! During the holidays I just let myself go and really ate like food was going out of style. I am not proud of myself and many nights I sit and wonder WTH I am doing to my body. The only thing I can say for you and myself is: Let's wash away the past for now... and focus on today and what we can do today that will change us for tomorrow! We can do it with alot of hard work and commitment, we both have already experienced it before! Goodluck!
 
DON'T GET DEPRESSED ABOUT OVEREATING! It will only make you feel bad! After a large meal sometimes it helps me to just walk it off.... even if it's just Walmart or the mall. One the biggest things to overcome is to just accept your weight, and know that you can do something about it. Remember... a 1/2 lb loss is a WIN. NO weight gain is a WIN. Do what you can to lose weight over a few days, and when that works, just repeat it. YOU CAN DO THIS!
FOCUS just one day or a few days at a time. Slow and steady really does win this race!
Just don't be your own worst enemy.
 
I know exactly how you feel. I would over eat gain weight which along with other life issues would lead to severe depression. I would feel worthless and like a failure and continue to over eat. It was a nasty cycle. My advice is to forget about what you did yesterday and start fresh today. throw away the junk food around you. Try to alway keep healthy snacks with you whether at home or on the road (that always helps me). Maybe take a walk if its decent weather outside. Remember you may stumble and fall but you dont have to stay down, get back up and start over. Its not easy but when I read the success stories on this board it helps to keep me motivated. Good luck I know you can do it.

FYI have you had your thyroids checked? I gained 30 lbs in 3 months and then learned I had a thyroid problem.
 
I also know how u feel, i cried in bed while eating and being so depressed. Then i recently woke up and say screw this. Tired of feeling depressed all the time and decided to take my life back and be HAPPY. It's hard work but u can do it!! Dont beat ur self down, just start small and work ur way from there. You can do it!!! No one else can do it for you, we are here to support ya, cuz we are in the same boat as far as trying to reach a certain goal and making our lives better :)
 
Thanks everyone & to make things worse my heart problems are back and theyre bad this time.... I get probably 10-20 times a day where it feels like my heart is having spasms and and when I breathe when its doing it it feels like my hearts jumping out of my chest. Im very scared & really want to change... :(
 
Im sure 2 months of Mcdonalds 2-3 times a week having in total 2 mc chickens and 4 mcdoubles and 2 large fries didnt help either.... and the boxes of choclate coverd cherries. Im guessing I had about 100 or so of those :(
 
hope you dont mind me butting in but please go and get your iron /thyroid levels checked out at a doctors with a blood test ,

2009 was a hell of a year for me i had exactly the symptoms you had and it wasnt till i went to a doctors with palpitations, breathlessness and chest pains i discovered i was severely anaemic, which in my case is now sorted out through finding out why and taking iron tablets


also whilst i was anaemic i could NOT stop eating and putting on weight soon as my anaemia was sorted out my eating came under control again, the doctor told me it was related to low iron he did explain it but i cant remember why now


best of luck
 
Glad you clarified! lol - 100 boxes of chocolate cherries is a LOT!

If you're having problems with self control - i.e. overeating and eating things when you know you shouldn't, maybe you look at ways to make it easier not to. Like have an accountability group - someone you know and trust who you report on what you eat, and lets you know that you shouldn't be eating hundreds of chocolate cherries and lots of large McFries ;) Maybe even weigh in with that person.

Try to eat meals with people who are also watching what they eat - I eat less when I'm with my husband who's also watching his intake than with a friend who likes to encourage everyone to eat more :p

You could also try affirmations - I'm not going to convince you this is some magic hypno-woo, and to be honest I got this suggestion from the author of Dilbert - but writing down an affirmation might sort of prime your brain to think that something's important, so hopefully you're more on top if it. So 15 times a day, write down "I, <insert name here>, will get down to 245 lbs and become fitter and healthier" or something like that. Again, not selling you on the law of attraction or any of that stuff, just that if it's important enough for you to take the effort of doing this, you might later justify to yourself that it'd be stupid to get that Big Mac and large fries when every night you're doing something as silly as writing affirmative letters to yourself ;)
 
A few years back I weighed 280 and made up my mind to get fit. I exercised daily and made daily meal plans and los 100 lbs in 9 months to 180. Dec 31, 2010 I weighed in at 306. More than ever. I was also having heart palpatations (blood sugar related), 42, 2 young kids, a great wife, good job, and yet the one thing I wanted more than anything and had achieved I now was the fartherest from in my life. I suffered from depression for years. I decided I wanted to change, for me, to see my kids grow up, to be able to play with them, and do the things I once loved to do (golf, run, yard work). What I want more than anything is within my reach and only I can do it. I listed my goals, listed my motivations, I started planning what I would eat everyday on an excel spreadsheet and tracking those totals daily along with walking on the treadmill every morning while listening to my ipod. Today is 12 days later and I have lost 15 pounds (down to 291). That's a great start for me, and I have developed small incremental goals. If I can do this...again...after falling so far back then you can too.

I understand the depression. I understand the frustration. One day at a time. Yesterday is gone and you can't do anything about tomorrow yet, but today you can do the best you can do for this day. Some days are better than others. Small steps.

Walking on the treadmill while listening to my ipod helps me stay motivated. I love music. I can help you with meal planning ideas. Feel free to pm me and I'll be glad to help in any way possible. WE CAN DO THIS!!!
 
I'd love to have a contest with you big dude.... person that loses the most weight by December 31st must by the other person a prize in the amount of $40-$50... We will weigh in monthly with pictures of the scale & be honest. I need this just as much as you... I have 2 girls 3 & 4 & an amazing wife as well. Lets make today day #1 & start from here... what do you say? Lets both look amazing & do this!:hurray::waving:

EDIT: I forgot to tell you, I weighed in at 291 exactly today which is kind of odd. Considering we are almost weighing the same. What is your weight today?

Mine is 291 exactly...
 
Bdubedub said:
I'd love to have a contest with you big dude.... person that loses the most weight by December 31st must by the other person a prize in the amount of $40-$50... We will weigh in monthly with pictures of the scale & be honest. I need this just as much as you... I have 2 girls 3 & 4 & an amazing wife as well. Lets make today day #1 & start from here... what do you say? Lets both look amazing & do this!:hurray::waving:

EDIT: I forgot to tell you, I weighed in at 291 exactly today which is kind of odd. Considering we are almost weighing the same. What is your weight today?

Mine is 291 exactly...
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You've got a deal buddy!!! :party:I weighed today and am 291 as well. Let's post pics on the 1st of each month. Lets keep each other motivated...we WILL do this!!! We need this and our families need this. I'm excited for both of us!!! PM me and I'll be glad to share meal plan ideas, music play lists, or anything else.
 
Sounds like a plan.... lets make our own thread so we can post pictures each month... we will make a thread titled like: Beginning Of Weight Loss Journey For Us... I havent taken any recent pictures so I will do that later. So we will do monthly pictures of just the scale or whole body pics? I think doing just the scale & if we can both do at least 100 lbs weight lost we can post our final picture & it will be an amazing transformation. But our beginning picture needs to be full body with just shorts on. Goodluck man & Im here for you as well. I gotta cut that fast food totally out of my diet. All the pasta needs to be cut back as well.. more chicken.
 
I'll post some body pics as well as scale pics. I've found some fast foods that work into my plan pretty well. Over in another thread I've posted some items and their food values from various restaurants. I've found the more options I have the better I can stick with it. Wendy's, Subway, KFC, and Bojangles all have some pretty good stuff to choose from that can work into a plan easily. It is difficult to make those choices when you're standing there looking at all of the other stuff though.

Journeys such as this are much easier when you have someone else doing it with you. Things don't just happen by chance...what are the chances we'd be the same size and both be starting our journey at the same time. I really appreciate this more than you could imagine. WE WILL SUCCEED!!!!!!
 
Hey bud...I made a post for us in the Before, After & Inbetween... lets post there pictures. Tomorrow is day 1 for me... I ate bad today... I got a 1 year family membership to the YMCA today... will be going hardcore starting tomorrow.
 
Cool deal. I'll post up a couple pics tomorrow (it's not going to be pretty). The Y membership is great. We're both gonna be winners in this deal...one day at a time.
 
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