Well, I did it.
I did it. 197.6 lb's this morning.
I'm speechless and pray to God that I'm not going to shoot up five pounds like I did last month. Thing is, I worked out when I got to a plateau a few days ago..and ever since then I pulled out of it. Plus, Pizza Hut really works up a sweat...it's ironic isn't it? I am now going to write to, well, first entry that I wrote. If I knew how I was going to be today back then, I would have done this a long time ago.
Journal:
So I decided to start you up today. I am here for one goal: to lose weight. I have ALWAYS been the fat kid, and I've always punked out and quit.
There is one thing that I hate the most: my chest. Typical man-boobs. I literally cannot wear the things that I like because of this simple fact...I'll tuck in a wife-beater along with a Tee in addition to whatever I am about to wear; just to make sure they don't shake as bad. I LONG for the day to be flat chested...like a male should be...and I've dreamt for the day all of my life. Ever since I was a little kid...and now I'm seventeen and I've still been fat. I won't even run because they'll start shaking and...I'm a GUY! So I work out alone in my house...put this freaking treadmill to some good use.
I've been a solo type of guy lately ever since my house was robbed in September. And recently they dropped the case due to lack of evidence (my atthetime best friend was our main suspect, and he switched up on me.) Now he's running his mouth and wants to brawl. Especially since he's in a gang now...I mean I've got my people but I just dont wanna ruin my life. However I would rather ruin it with some balls than run and live with my dads in the suburbs 20 minutes away..change schools etc. I HAVE TO LOSE WEIGHT AND GET IN SHAPE FOR THIS REASON AS WELL. I need to move, and know how to defend myself. Get stronger, tougher, and faster...as safely and as effectively as I possibly can. Just in case...I'm not out to start a fight or anything. I don't like fighting that much.
"You aint gonna lose weight R.J., you've said you're gonna do it since 7th grade and now you're a junior."
"Ill be real, ol gurl doesnt like how you dont take care of your body."
I am goal oriented and VERY DRIVEN. But at the same time I'm the biggest waste of talent ever. I'm a slacker in my mind...but I always seem to pull straight A's outta my ass. And Division I ratings left and right in my singing (which I love..).
I have never been thin. I see all these people on here who've dropped a ton of weight; and I will do the same. If not then I will not be happy.
I will be starting my food diary tomorrow. I'm planning on just, moderation. I love to eat and I doubt that will change. I just have to eat the right things more than I eat the bad things. If I crave fast food (and I usually do a few times a week...I'm in High School what can ya do?) I will just say "Okay go blow seven dollars at Subway."(I'm a penny pincher as well.)
I'm a carbs maniac...If yall read my other thread in Before and After then you'd know why. You know how hard it was eating a little cup of pasta for supper? But I did it. If weight loss was easy then there wouldn't be 31094913040431 people being obese in this world. I saw that posted somewhere .
Plan is to burn 350 calories on the treadmill with a combination of walking, jogging, and sprinting.
MAX WEIGHT: 242 lb
CURRENT WEIGHT: 238 lb
GOAL WEIGHT: 200 lb (by June 1st, 2007)
OH, and if anybody has a lifestyle in mind that I won't starve and I still get to eat bread(and meat a few times a week), post it! .
What sucks is that I don't really like salad and eggs. I am starting to really like fruit though. I'll throw up if I eat too much salad for some reason.
R.J...well, guess what? You didn't punk out this time. YOU DID IT. You are IN THE ONE HUNDREDS! Your body has shrunk all over...your face(no more sticking your chin out in your myspace pictures), your stomach, EVEN your man boobs my friend...they AREN'T gone however. That kind of sucks, but half of the time you can't TELL THAT THEY ARE THERE because all of your shirts are baggy on you now(I can't even wear half of them). The XL's fit like your XXL's did, and larges fit like your XL's did. I remember you wanting to comfortably fit in a large (or an XL at a small Preppy store).
You worked your ass off mentally. You will NEVER weigh that much again...period. April somewhat slowed your weight loss down...and you got to a couple of plateaus, but you kept your calorie levels tolerable 100 percent of the time. You almost had OCD with your calorie counting..haha.
Now I count when I feel like I have to, and I ALWAYS at least have a blueprint of how much I ate on a certain day.
YES R.J., you ATE FAST FOOD. But, I think you probably had a MEAL at McDonalds only 5 times in the past 6 months. Jesus. That's crazy. You KNEW that a meal there would be nearly all of your daily calorie needs, so you said no. However you did eat your share of your 440 cal double cheeseburgers there whenever anybody had a munchie attack...but dawg, your metabolism ate most, if not all of that up. It's good to exercise your metabolism a couple of days a week.
The women are amazing. You've become a little player this summer. Yeah, YOU. Not Trey...haha. Nate's jealous because...well...you used to weigh more than he did

. It's amazing how many girls say they have liked you all this time, yet never told me six months ago...hmm...STAY SINGLE UNTIL YOU FIND SOMEONE YOU GET BUTTERFLIES FOR.
Guess what? You can squeeze your ass into some size 34 jeans. You haven't done that since 5th grade! Those tight Aeropostale jeans you bought last year? Loose.
I'll post pics later!!
Now I'm shooting for 190 by September 1st, 2007. After that, I MAY drop to 180 and start hitting the weights. Only time will tell.