I'm doing it for me because I love myself and so should you :)

Valentine's day came and passed and it was very lovely. Husband had a dozen white roses delivered to my work for me, what a beautiful surprise that was. Afterwards for dinner we went out to eat at Montana's steakhouse. I had a steak sandwich and a caesar salad as my side and only water to drink :). I did have like 6 fries from my husbands plate and I tried a bite of his beef rib but I was very proud of myself for not ordering any fries for myself AND to top it of I cut the sandwich in half and only had the half the other half I took home and it's still sitting in my fridge.

I was so fully from just the salad and half a steak sandwich and I am impressed how the stomach can't take anymore because it has shrunk so much in size, YAY for small stomach :D:D:D

I bought multivitamins with green tea the other day, took my first pill last night. I felt like I might need a little extra kick in vitamins and a boost to my metabolism so incase I'm skipping on a few vitamins I got those. I used to take multivitamins before and they seemed to help me a lot, kept me energized and I just felt better in general knowing that I having the amount of vitamins I am supposed to have daily, even if I might not be getting it all thru food.

So far for breakfast I've had nothing, just my beautiful coffee. I'm thinking about toasting a slice of whole grain bread and spread some sour scream on top and call it a morning :) I would have the oatmeal but I had it yesterday and I'm getting bored of it quiet frankly. Need to think of new breakfast ideas :S:S:S

Going to weigh myself FINALLY this sunday, it better have gone down at least 3lbs, that would be 3lbs in two weeks. If it's below that I'm going to go nutssssss........
 
Hey nice one: flowers to you office - :) you must have felt really special!
Adding some vitamins to your diet not a bad idea at all- i m doing the same...i have bought it - just need to remember to take it :D

Hope your weigh in goes well!
 
Ty Justina...yeah I have to remeber to take them too lol...ugh.


So I haven't been here in a few days now and since friday I've been kinda lazy about things, specially keeping track of my calories. Even though I never went CRAZY and just ate everything like I used to, I didn't really keep watch on things closely. Friday all day I was doing great, then later that evening we had a view close friends over and we snacked on some party mix. Saturday all day went good but again later that evening we had friends over again for a visit and snacked on things and I had lots of coffee that day too and dinner could have been healthier. Sunday we had to drive for 10 hours in total to get a package from the airport customs and so I had my coffee and worst of all I ate like 5 timbits from timhortons....then around lunch time I had bought myself a snack size back of these Kellogs cheddar cheese chips which were the "healthy" kind, 120 calories for the baggie. Again about 2.5 hours later we stopped at tim hortons and I had about 3/4 of a cheese crossant and a iced cappuchino small with white milk. For dinner around 7pm we were all starving, we stopped at a chinese buffet and let me tell you....I consumed probably around 1500 calories just there. Sunday was a calorie infested day, I didn't keep track but if I had to guess in total I probably consumed around 2500 all while feeling so guilty about it. Monday came around and I had a healthy breakfast chicken bacon with some whole wheat toast, then me and the hubby had to go curtain rod hunting for our new curtains and we were shopping for a good 2.5 hours....we came home hungry and tired but all I had was some V8 blackberry cranberry juice and then my mother had called and asked me to come over and pick up food so I didn't have to cook (so nice of her :) She had made stuffed peppers and a european dish, a cheese pie (not sweet) and a spinach pie. Now those are really not the best to eat because they are mainly all dough with cottage cheese inside and spinach. I had 2 rolls with 1 stuffed pepper. Went over my calories on Monday probably by a 800. Today I am so determined to just pick up my game and keep strong. I am past a month of this and have lost a nice amount, I can tell and have been told by others that they see the difference and I refuse to let 5 days of me being stupid erase the 30 days of me being so good and in self control. I had my breakfast (late breakfast), I made whole wheat spiral pasta and as sauce I made grilled chicken cubes in vegeta seasoning sour cream and paprika to taste. I had 1 cup calculated my calories and used up 383 and have 1317 to go. For a snack I am having a apple and for lunch I'm gonna have something small...not really feeling all that hungry must be all the guilt keeping me full.

Haven't weighed myself ...I need to go buy myself a digital scale this is just so inconvenient having to go all the way to my mothers just to use a scale.

Hopefully this week gets better.
:)
 
Let me just point out that I love my weekends but only for sleeping in, other than that I hate them. They completely throw me of and I have a hard time keeping on task. At least when I work I know my lunch break, my breakfast my snacks and my dinner. On the weekend it's all scattered and I have a hard time eating properly, I usually under eat ALWAYS during the day leaving me starving like a monster at night where I want to eat ANYTHING and EVERYTHING! I need to plan my weekends better ughhh.
 
Lost 12lbs in total so far, 18 to go :)

Kay here is the deal, since friday I've been feeling down and just not that into it anymore, anyone else ever get this feeling? It's not that I don't want it, that feeling is there, but I got this feeling of just tiredness and wanting to just let everything go but I can't because I see the change and it's the only thing from keeping me from returning to my old life where I didn't care about what I ate, when and why, I just did. That pull is fading and it's so scary. The wedding is on March 30th, we got the invite in the mail last week which leaves me with a month to drop those remaining 18lbs which I know with hard work can be easily done. I think a lot of my motivation also has to do with some personal stress me and the family are going through and I feel like I can't focus on myself, I feel like I don't matter right now and that I have to give other things attention and that I can wait until things pass over with the problems we're having. I just don't know....as soon as I do something for myself a big block just gets thrown in front me by life and doesn't want me to improve and be better, there's always something stopping me ALWAYS!

I see the change, I see I lost weight...but I look at myself and I think "so?"..."woohoo big deal it's not gonna fix anything". I don't know I guess this is my downfall in this stage..I need to just pick myself back up and go.

:/ Easier said than done :(
 
hey im sarah do u wanna be diet buddies?? i really need someone to help me :/


Hi Sarah, of course we can be diet buddies, if I can help motivate someone that is a extra bonus for me and my journey. I know it's not easy and we all need that someone to push us and cheer us on.


Eating my breakfast.
-Oatmeal
-2 strips of chicken bacon * random but I love my meat* lol

Lunch plan
-Garden salad with oregano dressing
-danone yogurt drink

Snack plan
-Apple

Dinner plan
-Bbq steak with salad as a side

Snack plan
-Apple

So i've had a bad week but last night I decided that it was completely in my control how this month would play out. I have until march 30th to lose 18lbs, and if I dont and end up gaining the 12 I've lost, I'll be super depressed and I'll feel horrible so I decided that I REFUSE to let myself get to that point.

Of course it's easier to just eat whatever, it's so much more convenient but is the easy way the better way? Anything worth having is not easy to get. I want to be healthy, lean and i want to feel good about myself and this does come at a price especially in the world we live today. Today it's all about FAST....how to do things without enjoying them. Even dinners have become fast food dinners, it's so sad.

Back to the grind once again :)
 
Hey sweetie....18 lbs in a month - that's pushing it a bit. I know it's the wedding and all that. Even if you lose half of that it's still a great achievement. & don't even think about gaining back what you have lost!!! You might have had a bad week...but it's just that: a bad week! Pick yourself up and carry on..time will pass either way.

Fast food does not have to be junk - I do almost everything from scratch - and I promise I barely spend more time on cooking than 20 mins - 30 tops.

:grouphug:
 
Justine - Well I will try to get to that 18LBS as close as I can even if I read 15 I'd be estatic, it is just a ultimate goal for now for the wedding, afterwards I have until june to reach my goal of 200lbs and then slowly down to 180. I am not the type that thinks that it's possible OR healthy to lose too much weight in a little amount of time, I'm thankfully very realistic.
I didn't initally drop 80lbs by starving, it was all by eating healthier and working out and the weight dropped.

It's harder this time around because then i was single, now I have many many duties to fulfill as a mother a wife and a full time worker, so things have changed but I am working around it as best as I can.

I am calling my gym today to renew that membership, I can't wait for my gym here in my condo to finally reopen it's taking forever and I need to change my routine I need to get my FIT back :)

Hopefully I can start today for once :)
 
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