May 5 cont...
7.30pm: Dinner
1 cup aloo gobi (potato cauliflower leftovers) w 1 sorba bread, lemon juice
1 pear
I'm not very hungry tonight.
Exercise: none today. Too busy. Lots of walking around town though.
Thinking about food, clothes and make up stuff.
When i'm in town, its interesting for me to contemplate how i have to think differently about food and eating than was my habit when i wasn't on a diet. I've noticed some good changes. Instead of just giving in to eat whenever the idea of food entered my head before - usually food like icecream, strawberry milkshakes, cake etc, - I now don't have any inclination to give in and I don't have those thoughts any more.
When i think about food now, its different. And the idea "icecream" is not followed by the thought "mmm gotta get some of that ASAP!". I don't have those sort of thoughts at all anymore.
Today i had the idea "hungry" and even though i'd only had lunch about two hours before, I could think it through and didn't have any craving. Because i knew it would be hours before I would be home and gearing up for dinner, i decided it would be best to avert any potential catastrophe and eat something not too terrible straight away. Hence the tomato on toast with coffee. I even managed to ask them to leave the butter off, but i was tempted to have it, i must admit. I didn't because i've promised myself not to eat things like butter until i have reached my goal weight. I think i probably won't go back to butter on a regular basis but in a situation like today, being out, i'll probably have it.
Anyway I was a happy with the way today's episode went from a diet perspective. From a financial perspective, i'm way over budget on food this fortnight. That's what happens when i go to town. Yesterday i managed to eat lunch before I left home and took an apple with me but I couldn't do that today. Nevermind, sticking with the diet is my first priority at the moment.
Also today i had time to try on some clothes. I tried on some jeans for the first time in about 10 years. I never wear jeans anymore. Largely because they are so hot for our climate. But also they don't suit my figure, especially at the weight I've been. Jeans suit people with small arses and long and/or skinny legs. Anyway i tried some on from Jag, i think. One pair was ok. They'd look a lot better still with heels. But i am going to wait till i am goal weight.
I bought two running bras today. The sort you can wear as a top. In the dressing room, they had those angled mirrors. Its always a bit confronting to see the back view in a dressing room. Not good, let me tell you. Well at least, i know its not going to stay this way. Its just going to get better. But seeing this view today made me realise i've still got some way to go.
And now instead of having those gotta have some icecream type of thoughts, in the shopping centre, i am thinking about the clothes I want to buy when i reach my goal. I"ve been looking at bikinis especially. The thing is, this seasons clothes are awful. Except for the cardigans. I really don't want to start wearing leggings again. They are hideous items of clothing and they don't look good on many people. The shoes are also awful in my town this year. There are some nice styles but i don't have the lifestyle to wear those anymore.
Oh and I got my haircut two days ago. Just a trim but it was much needed.
Today i gave in and let a saleswoman coat my face i bronzer. I don't usually bother with make up at all. I don't like any of the foundations. But this bronzer gear was all right. I think i might get some down the track. I just need to find the right product.