If you want the rainbow, you've got to put up with the rain

This is a pic of when I was about 135. I was very thin, and it makes me sad to look at it because I was so unhappy with myself.

But anyways, this is just an example of why I am not sure if I really want to get that low as my main goal even though it's so far away. Right now my goal is 60 lbs and then I will go from there.
 
You really need to stop focusing on where you were... you are where you are right now... and you're working on improving yourself - looking backwards just shows where you've been - the future is much better...

Take one change at a time... it's much less overwhelming and easier to keep a handle on...
 
Well I am not really focusing on where I was so much right now. I am actually thinking about where I want to be ultimately because I want to set clear guidelines for myself. I don't want to be the girl who just wants to keep losing more, like I was before. So looking at these to help me distinguish how healthy I am at each weight is actually helpful. I am in no way thinking about the past- except for the part where I just can't believe how fat I felt.
So anyways, I think this thing is a little off in terms of goal weight and BMI- I may live in barbie-ville, but I don't want to be one!
 
Ok, so if I can follow my plan for today, I will have:

1428 calories
118g carbs
72.5g fat
131g protein

The fat is going to be a little bit high because I used olive oil to cook, and I am sure there will be olive oil used tonight at dinner so I was sure to include that.
But otherwise, it's not too bad.
Of course, I have to go for a walk, otherwise I will have 1654 calories, which still isn't so bad, but walking is great, and it will do me some good! :)
 
do you think it's really low? I will be eating 1654 but this program I am using subtracts calories I burn during exercise so that will make it 1428, if this program is correct.
 
I think under 1500 calories a day is difficult for anyone to sustain over any period of time...

Do you know how many calories you've been eating per day?

I'd probably aim for 2000 a day - and record/weigh/measure everything just to keep yourself honest..
 
I doubt I have been eating anywhere near 2000 calories. I am basing this off of what I was doing before because it worked very well for me, and I was not hungry at all at the end of the day.
Of course, I am just starting out so I will readjust my strategy as time goes on based on how I feel, etc.
 
I've said this so often lately, I feel like a broke record... :D

Start off by building consistency.. and good habits... one at a time... this isn't a race to the finish and it's going to take some time to get youu where you want to be :)

Pace yourself and do one thing at a time and reward yourself after xx number of days...
 
Thanks Mal! :)


Wow, I stubbed my toe this morning, and I feel like it's broken or something :( Its probably not broken but it really hurts when I walk :( I hope it doesn't stop me from going on my walk in a little bit! Or from wearing cute shoes to work!! lol
 
I've broken my toes frequently - the joys of being a shoe hating klutz...

not a lot can really be done with them - you can spint it againsnt another toe with tape... but other than that -it'll heal -but it might just be sore... don't push it too hard if it really hurts but don't let it slow yo down either :)
 
My Quote for today!! :)

Opportunity is missed by most people because it is dressed in overalls and looks like work.-Thomas Alva Edison
 
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Ok Everyone!
Crazy day at work!!! The credit union has like no money. I mean, our branch is very low. It makes it sooo hard because our brinks shipment isn't coming until tuesday and I only have $448.48 total!!! And the dispensing machings dont have anything higher than 10's!!! I don't know why management lets this happen....grrrrr

Anyways, I did ok today. I am over in my fat grams but have used about 1689 calories total today.
People keep delivering all sorts of junk food to the branch. We have two GIGANTIC tubs of flavored popcorn, and like 4 huge tubs of shortbread cookies. For the most part I stayed away except for a few peices of popcorn and those cookies that are in little cigar shapes and filled with chocolate. What are those called? I had two which is a serving. I usually pig out on the crap we have but since I started with breakfast today and ate well with my lunch and snacks, I didn't eat too much of the crap.

Anyways, I also walked 30 minutes. A good portion was slightly uphill, but not a huge strain so I kept the pace brisk. I really like walking around because I live down town and there are so many directions to go, so I can't get bored and there are so many cool unique houses to look at and lots of different plants and stuff.

Gotta go make dinner!!! We are going to see I Am Legend in a little bit :) yay!!!
 
I thought I already posted this, but I can't see it here!

I love the energy in your post - the attention to food and the walk! It's great to have interesting places to walk!! Then if you can just make the effort to get as far as the door walking can just take over!! :D
 
Hey, Britta. Your bunny is adorable! I had a bunny when I lived in China, but I had to leave her with a friend when I came back to Canada. :-( I miss that fluffy little thing! lol

Keep up the good work!
 
OK lady you are AWFUL quiet. Miss your view points on life. Hope they aren't working you too hard at the bank & that you found a great place to live.

Good luck with any 2008 goal you set for yourself.
 
Britta I just read all your posts. And you're SO CUTE! Its fun to read your journal. I hope you start again!


Britta Bear said:
People keep delivering all sorts of junk food to the branch. We have two GIGANTIC tubs of flavored popcorn, and like 4 huge tubs of shortbread cookies. For the most part I stayed away except for a few peices of popcorn and those cookies that are in little cigar shapes and filled with chocolate. What are those called? I had two which is a serving. I usually pig out on the crap we have but since I started with breakfast today and ate well with my lunch and snacks, I didn't eat too much of the crap.
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I can totally relate! I work at a doctors office and its a never ending parade of food around the holidays!!
 
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i dont know where to turn... it feels like i have reached out to everyone and been shut down. so i came to the only place i had continuous support...but i dont think i am ready to start dieting again... i just dont know where to go.

i'm not the same person you knew me as anymore. i dont know where she went.

it's hard for me to write about how much being depressed has taken over, but im scared and i need to tell someone.
there are days i can't go outside.
There are days i dont eat.
Days i can't get out of bed.

there are times i am so scared that i force myself to clean to take my mind off of things... so my house is spotless but it still feels empty.
i know everyone goes through things i know there are tough points in life...but i just want it to be over.
i feel like i am too small to be of importance in the world. i feel like i am being smushed down down down.
and... i guess people stop caring at some point. they want me to be happy.

there are things i keep secret and im sure they would take me away if they knew.

and today is one of those days. forgive me for sounding so bleak... but thanks for listening.
 
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