Icychic's Weightloss Diary

Yeah future BIL has caused many issues with us. This is the second time he has come to live with us, after the first I said never again but Fiance's dad asked and we obliged this time again. He was paying $400/mth all in except food which is a steal if ya ask me considering he does no cleaning other than his own laundry. We have decided he needs to pay more or it isn't worth it, so $750 as of next month which is about 1/3 of the cost to run the house not including food. But that's another story...

Yes, the basement is the only TV except the one in our room. And you must go downstairs to use the laundry. There is a second bathroom down there but really only used when the main upstairs one is in use. We have another TV but it's not set up and not sure if/where the cable hook-up is for the main floor. But even if we got that hooked up I wouldn't wanna work out on the main floor and I don't think we'd move the big TV upstairs unless we made the basement an actual work-out space. But then we'd only have a little old school 32" TV and it sucks to use that for workout videos and video games. So yeah that does not help.

Quicky shower? Heh, I take nice long ones (even 10mins is hard, usually it's 20-30+ especially if shaving and/or washing hair). I think cuz as a kid I always shared a room with my sister until Grade 10 when she left for University and even then in the 4 months of summer she would be back and sharing. So really the only privacy I got and time to myself to think was shower time. Still is where I do a lot of thinking.

Good news though, lost 1 lb! Well..actually since I gained back the 1 lb I lost before I have lost 2 since I last weighed. Now at 143! :) Hopefully the next 5 days don't ruin that, 5 days of wedding stuff for my cousins wedding. Today I'm not sure there will be food but for the rest of the days there definitely will be!
 
Bummer about the FBIL. It's your place so I say just let him know that you will need the space at such and such time on such and such days. It will keep your exercise on a schedule and remind him that he is there out of charity.

Even at $750 a month he isn't responsible for a lease, taking care of the place, or paying bills. Make the inconvenience on him not you. Maybe it will encourage him to get his crap together and get out a bit sooner.

I had to make a certain and stated boundary when it came to my inlaws. They would have wrecked what my wife and I have without a second thought had we not set boundaries. We do still get pulled into mess that is unavoidable so I do feel for your circumstance. Good luck!
 
Thanks angel!

Not a good start to the day. I was getting clothes ready for my cousins wedding and then had to shower and ran late so didn't grab the usual Honey Nut Cheerios and milk for breakfast...still have pop tarts in my drawer at work so I went for them about an hour ago :( On the plus side I usually eat the 2 that come in the 1 package, and I've only eaten 1! Strawberry..my fav...but they are much too sweet for me now. YAY! I had tea and put 3 packages or sugar, and even THAT seemed sweet so gonna go down to 2 which is great from the 4-5 I used to like putting. Liking the taste of the tea more than the sugar now, always drink it black too. Sadly no lunch with me and doesn't look like I will make it out since it's 12:10 now :( But I have an apple in the fridge (next to the can of coke I will be ignoring as much as I really really really have wanted it all week) and I have some biscuit stuff that is probably not the best but can't be worse than the 200cal poptart LOL.

Sadly do not see exercise in my next few days but still going to try waking up early and going at it before starting work. BIL doesn't usually get up until right around 7:30AM and he leaves shortly after so if I'm up around 6 when my fiance leaves for work I should have time for a workout AND a shower before he even gets up. Plan? Sounds like a good one to me! Now to get the motivation to get out of bed early :) Haven't lost my drive and don't plan to let the little hiccups stop me from moving forward! Think I'm getting more determined every day reading everyone's replied and their own diaries.
 
Talk to your fiance about getting you out of bed. Maybe he can make it hard for you to crawl back in? I know it's hard to workout in the morning, though the rest of the day feels so much better!

I agree with Q, make it cleat that the FBIL is there at YOUR pleasure, not your FFIL's. If FFIL cares that much, he can house the guy.

I know it's easy to say sitting here in a different part of the continent, but the tension isn't worth it.
 
Problem is FFIL is across the country...and they HAVE taken him in. FBIL is 3-4 yrs older than us and it's kinda sad actually. The money is good, will go a LONG way to help pay off student loans and fixing the house, but if it starts affecting our relationship again he is gone. I think his parents are sick of him screwing up and mooching of them and then going on his own and doing it all over again. He makes decent money but I think he wastes it all on cigs, alcohol, and weed. But that's a whole other story.

Scale said 142.5 this morning, but probably cuz I barely ate yesterday...today isn't looking much better. Had a poptart...the one I didn't eat yesterday from the opened package LOL. And I ate a Granny Smith apple, and probably will eat a couple of the cookie/biscuit things I have from my mom. Got a wedding function tonight so not sure what kind of unhealthy food will be there, but will try to eat healthy and not over-eat.

Somehow, even though I have not starting taking my iron pills again like I should be, I think I do have a little more energy some days. Just need to keep going and moving forward.
 
So this morning I put milk into a container and Honey Nut Cheerios into another and placed it into the bag I usually take with me to work. Well...my fiance is not well this morning and I HAD to come into work because of conference calls and urgent orders and the fact that I'm the only one here and expecting our pay cheques (yes ACTUAL cheques) and the other lady that used to work here got fired but still has a key which she will return today when she picks up her cheque...GAH!!! Anyways...on my way out the door I figured I would be leaving by noon to take fiance to the doctor/hospital and that I don't need the bag...until I got to work and was getting out of the car and realized the cereal and milk were in the effing bag.

So I'm at work on the call and drinking tea and eating a poptart :( I'd even put an apple in the bag and have nothing here but poptarts. This is the last pack I have so hopefully will only eat 1 and leave the other for another day but I'm starving and will probably eat both :(
 
Throw that poptart out! Just do it! Or put it out for the Seagulls (aka - coworkers looking for free food).

I ate nothing all day yesterday, I think you can wait a couple more hours! You can do it!
 
I have no co-workers as of Wednesday LOL. And I was REALLY hungry...but so far only had 1 even though I'm still really hungry...drinking the 1 cup of tea I made and will drink water and more tea if I can instead of eating the other poptart. I thought I had some lipton cup-a-soup packages but can't find them :( REALLY need chqs to come so I can tell old co-worker to get here or not get her cheque until later. Or she can meet me at the hospital LOL. And if she says she will be but isn't here by noon I am leaving cuz I have to.
 
Hang in there! I had to restart many times before i finally gained a little momentum and started to see some steady loss. That's what this battle is all about. Try again, try again! You'll find your groove eventually as long as u don't give up :) Your current weight is less than my goal lol. But I am 5'10 :D
 
I am proud to say I did NOT eat the 2nd poptart from the package. HURRAY!

Thanks for the support and encouragement slickzchik :) I don't plan on giving up this time. I noticed some progress which helps and do not plan to stop trying even if I end up backsliding a bit (which I do not plan to of course, but who ever does right).
 
So with my cousins wedding this weekend's eating was not so great, neither was Friday night. Also on Saturday for the reception...I was really bad and got tempted by the Candy bar. I took some home too and ate it yesterday with a couple bits left for tonight. BUT I don't think I fully over did it. It was a wedding, there was cake and pop and I did eat some of both, but not as much as I would have before so I think that is progress. Same with the Candy, I didn't take a ton and figured everything was OK in moderation so I allowed myself to eat some and not feel bad about it.

However, because of the eating and lack of exercise I have not weighed myself. Meant to this morning but forgot and took a shower and washed my hair. No time to dry it and the wet hair would skew the scale so I will do my weekly weigh in tomorrow. I did check the other day though and it was at 142.5 (I could that as 143) so not terrible, not good but at least I haven't gained anything.

The dress I wore last night is the same one I plan to wear on Saturday, and if I could lose about 5 lbs it would probably fit, look, and feel MUCH better. So let's see if I can get some motivation this week to NOT play games online like I really want to, and instead get up and move and do some workouts. I don't know that I have a yoga mat or something at home but going to look, and if not will go buy one today or tomorrow and bring it to work along with a change of clothes. If I don't manage a workout in the morning I will take some time at lunch (even just 10 mins) and look up some quick Youtube videos for a quick workout. OR if I don't want to do it at that time, I will just lock the doors early and do it before leaving, or lock them on time but leave a little late after doing a quick workout so I don't go home and get lazy and not do it.

That's the plan at least, let's see if it works!

As for food, while the weekend was a bit bad at the functions, I didn't really each much outside of that so I'm thinking quantity was too little but calories couldn't have been TOO bad, right? I brought my Honey Nut cheerios to work (the whole box) and I bought some 1% milk and have left it in the fridge here (instead of the 2% we have at home...160 cals for 1 cup! damn!) I figure for cereal it shouldn't be too bad and it's really not. Not sure about skim but I may try a 1L (or possibly just a 250mL) once this jug is done and see if I can just use it for cereal if nothing else. I am starting to eat more fruit again (used to almost every day when I was in grade school come home and eat an apple while watching a brief bit of TV before homework and dinner). Trying to eat more veggies too but it's a work in progress. I think I ate too much cereal this morning though, the bowl holds more than one the containers I used to use hold. Might just bring a container to work and leave it here to help my portion control issues.

I'm not off to a good start at all, but I'm still optimistic and think I can still reach my goal. Just keep picturing myself thin and toned and looking great and I want that. I want that now but must be patient and work hard so I keep it going. Didn't bring a lunch with me and no idea what I'm making for dinner but will figure that out. 1 hr until I will be ensuring I leave for lunch. Have to get to the bank and possibly home for food, though there is nothing ready at home so may need to go buy a salad or sandwich from somewhere instead.

Really wishing I was home right now. Want to do a workout and reward myself by playing WoW :( So not wanting to be at work.
 
Good job no going too crazy at the wedding! I find I often think well I cheated anyways and just go nuts and its a huge stall to my weight loss.

It seems like you have a good attitude for getting long lasting results :) its amazing how much of a difference it makes looking at calories and weighing or measuring your food. People tend to underestimate the amount of calories they eat... Even healthy eating when I put everything into livestrong I was consuming more calories than I thought.... I don't find I have time to log my calories everyday but I do with the things I eat alot and then just weigh and measure to make sure I'm on track.
 
I have not been really counting calories, or weighing food. I know I eat more than I should and am trying to eat on a small plate rather than the large dinner plates. Trying to drink more water if I still feel hungry and generally I find when I do that I wasn't really hungry for food. I think it's too much work to actually weight and count all calories, but I am looking at packages more and find myself thinking "that has HOW many calories..." and thinking if I really need it or how to make sure I don't eat as much of it. Like the milk, I did not realize how many calories were in milk, or bread. Come to think of it I should check on the cheese label. I know cheese is fatty so I try not to eat too much of it, but I also know it has good calcium and all so yeah...

But you are right, just because you are eating good, healthy food, does not mean you can eat as much as you want. It's better than eating crappy food, but still needs to be done in moderation. No idea what I am making for dinner tonight but I guess will see what we have available in the fridge/freezer when I get home.
 
Skickz is right, you'd be surprised how many calories you're eating when you're not paying attention. We had some yogurt-covered pretzels in the house last night, and I grabbed a handful unthinkingly, and looked at the calories... 25 calories each. Not bad when you have 3, but it adds up mighty quick when you're not paying attention! My binge of them yesterday wound up being 600 calories!
 
Ouch! That is not good at all!

I had a banana this morning but fell back to sleep after A left for work this morning so again no workout and no lunch. I found an unopened pack of Glosette's and sadly have been snacking on those all morning...the full box total 210 cals so not great but that's ok. Planning on perhaps a bowl of cereal for lunch soon since I have no lunch lol. Not sure about dinner tonight but will figure something out, perhaps check online for some quick easy recipes. Or perhaps I will make a veggie stir fry for myself and perogies for A since there are a bunch in the freezer that need to be used up. Will check the label on the ones I have in there and see what the cals and nutrition are but I'm betting very very bad.
 
Hey Icychick.....I just finished reading your diary....I know how you feel ....back in 2005 - 2006 I lost 22lb without it being hard at all...then even if my weightloss wasn'T anywhere near over (I was tring to go from 184lb to 130lb for my wedding) I got pregnant. Once the baby arrived I found it harder to lose weight and it took longer but by june 2008 I was almost back to my pre pregnancy low and found out I was once again expecting a baby....4 1/2 years later I am at my heaviest weight ever....I want to work out and eat healthy but my head isn't in the game anymore I am just so stressed with everyting I just want food to be easy now if I was on my own I would just buy fruits veggies and protein shake a live off smoothys but that ain't feasable or a good example for my kids!!! You are not alone, you are making great changes to your lifestyle and is what counts, when you look at food don't just look at calories....if your food is low cal but all it brings you is a boatload of surgar it really isn't worth it! Eat whole foods real foods that where not processed or man made.....I know someone who lost 100lb with out exercise that way with out exercise....just keep up the good work you have done so far and you will see results!!!
 
Thanks for the words of encouragement :)

So far I have missed 1 goal and on track to miss the other as well. I had my cousins wedding last weekend and had not lost any of the weight I wanted to lose. I have another wedding this weekend (my fiance is the best man and my grandparents still need a picture of the 2 of us after 5.5 years and I plan to get one this weekend!) and having lost a whole 2 lbs since the start, there really is no difference.

But again, not exercising I can't expect change, right? So I just need to find my motivation and stop crawling back into bed every morning. I need to get to bed earlier and then when 5AM hits and the dog is whining to be let out and A gets up soon after, I will have had enough sleep and can get my day started. Taking a 1-2 hour nap does NOTHING for me except make me not want to get up, and then get upset at myself for not working out YET AGAIN. But then it's easy to say all of this at 1:30PM sitting at my desk at work when I'm not able to make these changes. I'm not going to allow this negative to push me to quit though, that is just not an option. I must keep trying and keep pushing and if all I can say at the end of the day is I didn't eat too badly, then it is still a victory and that is how I must keep looking at this. I can't be satisfied with those little victories, but it will hopefully help me keep going and eventually push me to do better.
 
How about instead of trying to change your whole routine, you just get up early tomorrow and work out? And see how you feel all tomorrow? Don't worry about Friday, it will happen, and you can decide tomorrow night if you want to wake up early then?
 
I have been trying the "one day at a time" thing. Almost every day at work I say, I will go home tonight and workout. I get there and do other stuff instead and then eat dinner and say I will eat dinner and then workout but then I don't. So in bed I say OK, I will wake up and work out in the morning, I will NOT go back to sleep after waking up. And the whole process continues :( Very upsetting and frustrating but I have only myself to blame. But I am not giving up!

Again I am saying I will be going home tonight and working out. Even just for 10 minutes and see how I feel. If good, keep going, if not, that is OK. Sticking to it this time! I must do SOMETHING tonight that can be considered exercise. :hurray:
 
I was were you are a couple of months ago. I tried to deprive myself with food and avoiding workout, but that was wrong. I want to see results... and my goal is to be fit, so had to start working out. It will be hard at the beginning, but then you get kinda of addicted to it! :) You notice you can do some exercises better, you feel pulling the muscles and have more controll on your movements.
So, enough with the excuses and get ready for next week challenge! ;)
 
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