I want to love myself again

Week 3

Monday suxxxx I hate it.
Back to work, had a good day today, the only bad part i feel like i just might catch the cold :/ sucky! I have breakfast everyday, usually my new love, special k vanilla almond cereal with a banana :) and for work I had a grilled chicken garden salad with light italian dressing, it was yum. I pre-perade my lunch for work tonight, it's rice with some awesome seasoning, chicken breast cubes, and steamed veggies and then fatfree vanilla yogurt with fresh raw blueberries and blackberries that I picked up at the market.

I had a co-worker tell me today that they are able to see that I lost a little bit of weight, that just made my world.

*proud moment of the day = I was grocery shopping about 1hr ago, I found myself reading the nutrition labels of EVERYTHING...I didnt notice it until I held that frozen yogurt in my hand for so long reading the label, and then my hand turned to ice so I was like ??? . It's so much more easier to walk away from bad things if you actually read how many calories just half of something contains, or sugar and sodium..it's crazy.
And then you think to yourself "hmm...running/walking for 20min on the treadmill will burn me i dono im guessing anywhere from 150-250 calories, and so eating probably of just half of some junk we like is probably around 100-200 calories.
im not about to run for 20min just to burn off ice cream.

PFFFT
 
Great Job, Girlfriend!! :cheers2:!! 9lbs down in 2 weeks! Wow!!

I'm really glad you came to this forum, because now you will find how wonderful it can be to connect with people who truly love to inspire and be inspired! :D! Again, so happy for you!!! Now that you get your workouts in, ...Man...THERE IS NO STOPPING YOU!! :gnorsi:

Keep it up!! You look very pretty in your avi! :) I'll be rooting for you!
 
my dinner today was no dinner, i was in a rush to go somwhere, had two slices of black whole wheat bread with some chicken pate on it...and now its 12am and i am starving, my stomach is gurgeling like a truck.

I was wondering, i know late eating is not good, but in cases where your dinner wasnt much of a dinner would it be ok to get some, lets say Subway or something..healthy choices of course when pickin sub?
I feel guilty even thinking about that being a option...i really dont want to be eating late.

sucky
 
Hello!
I don't think there is anything wrong with eating when your hungry - whatever time of day it is. I think night time eating is only bad if you aren't really hungry and your just eating because your bored. But if you didn't eat enough dinner than for sure stop and get some Subway. Your body needs the nutrition and energy to keep going. If you cut back your food too much you won't have any energy to exercise or just function properly.
For someone new to living healthy it might be a good idea to try calorie counting so you have an idea how much you are eating in a day and if it's under 1200 calories then you need to eat more for sure, even that amount is really too low for you. Protein is important too for keeping you full longer and so you don't lose as much muscle while in a calorie deficit.
Keep it up though - your off to a great start!!!
 
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So it's almost the end of the month and I am so proud of myself because i've sticked with this for this long. I am confident in myself, my strenght and my willpower.
My biggest fear was my emotional attachement to food and although I'm still working at it and it's a fight daily to overcome a habit that has been going on for years, so I am happy to say so far so good.

I had my first workout today, well it was a mini workout, I did mostly cardio and then some weights and squats,etc and i am so sore now but it feels good. It's that feeling
( I did something good today and I know it because I can feel the pain) no pain no gain :)
or loss in this case I should say lol.

Tomorrow is my 3rd weigh-in and even tho I am very VERY excited, I am also not depending on the scale to make me happy but rather I am getting happy off of how I feel at the moment, how eating less and eating healthier is making me feel and that is bouncier in the morning, happy that I am actually doing something against my problem than just keep going my old way and probably die early because I didnt take care of myself.

I'm not going to lie..it's still hard work ,there are days when I feel like just saying "Fu** this" excuse my language, but it's all about how much we really want it, right?
It's all about how hard we are willing to fight for this and I have come to the point where I am willing to finally kick ass.
 
You are a real fighter. You can still lose even though you might need a little bit to eat late at night if you are crazy hungry. Congrats on losing 9 pounds in two weeks, that is awesome. Keep posting and keep water with you at all times!!!
 
Thank you very much Happychubette :) I do try not to eat on evenings, but when I am really hungry I dont deny myself a little something something, I try to pick healthy things to subside my hunger of course.

WEEK 3 WEIGH-IN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOST- 5LBS
TOTAL SO FAR - 14LBS :):):):)
I weigh now 266lbs :D, im out of the 270's YAY


I am so happy :) results results are always nice to see but I like even better how I feel.
The control that I have over myself is nice to have back once again:)
We dont realize sometimes, that we are our own poison, we need to really fight ourselves most of our times inorder to make changes, it's all available to us, the gym the healthy eating..but all we really need is just self-control to make it all work.

I have started to officially work out so I hope that my progress will be better with the workouts. Today instead of hitting the gym, I went with a few friends sledding, on a huge hill which is called suicide hill (so imagine the size of it lol) and we were there for a good hour and a half...walking up it was so hard that by the time I was up I couldnt breathe, i was actually sweating in the freezing cold, so I did that many many times dragging my big butt up that hill and now my thighs and butt are killing me.

Back to work tomorrow and we are supposed to have a huge snowstorm, 8-12" they said so with that happening I will have to work out at home on my own gym equipment.

CHeers to a good weekend :) hope you all had a good one as well :)
 
What I like about this process is just rising to the occasion,finding ever more things to change and improve. Good job with the fresh air and exercise climbing that hill. You've got a great, winning mindset. Enjoy your success as you are doing.
 
Happychubette said:
What I like about this process is just rising to the occasion,finding ever more things to change and improve. Good job with the fresh air and exercise climbing that hill. You've got a great, winning mindset. Enjoy your success as you are doing.
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THank you very very much :)
And indeed so, changing things up keeps things interesting.
And thank you for your constant support and encouragment :)
 
Today was a good day :)
Had my 3rd work out, I am aching everywhere.
I did 30min on the treadmill, 20 fast paced walking and 10min running and I also did some weights just for the arms and then some sit ups and some other work outs for other parts that need major repairment.
It was tough I'm not gonna lie, it was as if I felt every lb being dragged by my bones which in realty every lb over your ideal weight is infact extra pressure on your bones
(?DUH?). I burnt about 350cals and was a little under my calorie goal for today and that is why I am finding myself a little hungry at the moment, my stomach is just not happy about what's going on and I just had a banana, ugh this sucks!

Yay for humpday tomorrow :) My this week is just flyin on by.
 
Feb 2/2011

Had my Special K cereal with 2% milk and a banana for breakfast.
Lunch - Grilled chicken garden salad with light italian dressing(1tbs) and an apple
Dinner- Whole wheat tortilla (small) with a smidge of mayo and chicken breast (made two small fajitas but they were filling odd enough).
Snack- I had a whole wheat bun earlier in the day between breakfast and lunch and i packed it on with tamatos ,real chedar cheese not the processed crap, light amound of condiments like a squirt of mayo,ketchup and mustard, lettuce, onions and cucumbers lol talk about a real veggie burger :) then I also had a iced cappuchino (small) with some friends when we went to a coffee shop (tim hortons).
And since I have to take my medication with food I decided to go for a warm cup of milk instead of food which at this point is still very tempting for me.
After all I am trying to break 4 years of habit here so one step at a time :)


Work out for today:
The best work out EVER! Toboganning :D:D:D
LOL sliding down the hill is not work out but the part where you walk up the HUGE hill btw, for almost 2 hours, up and down...now thats a work out.
We were all sweating and out of breath every single time, Im sure i burnt a good amount of calories and what better way to take advantage of all this canadian snow than go outside and have a blast all while working it out ;)

Cant wait for sunday!
 
Hey girl!

Congrats on the 14lb loss!!! Your eating seems super clean and you're getting the exercise in. You are definitely on the right track!

I have PCOS too. I experienced pretty much all of the symptoms when I was at my highest (195lbs). I dropped down to 155lbs and pretty much a lot of the symptoms went away. Weight loss really is the best medicine for PCOS. I can't stress that enough. So keep on the amazing path you're on and you're going to be totally fine =)

I'm jealous of your best work-out ever. I wish I could do that! Please send me some snow!!!

I'll see ya around. :)

PS - Love your journal name and your username!
 
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gohomejes - Thank you for ur kind words :) PCOS sucks, doesnt it? It's so unfair to have :S I know weightloss is harder with it but I think like u said once the weight is under control so is PCOS so I cant wait to just have that part of my life gone.
And Ill ship that snow for ya ;) lol
 
tomorrow (well today since im typing this at 2am lol), tomorrow is my 4th weigh-in and I am hoping for good results. This week was generally good, I didnt suffer so much:D it's getting easier and easier daily to overcome the cravings and urges, the night eating is still a fight..I never gave in so far but im not gonna lie here to anyone and expecially to myself, there were times where I wanted to just eat something really late...but I held back took control of myself , slapped myself to reality and then I was fine.

TOnight I did not go out instead I went to see good friends of mine, I had about 1cup of coffee and my friend put out on the table some pretzel sticks and I had a few not a lot...and he did offer us chocolate macaroons but I said "are u krazy, dont even think about putting that out here" lol so it was a proud moment.
I am currently sipping on a cup of warm milk because im supposed to take metformin with food and i really dont want to be eating ANYTHING at 2am so I took a glass of milk and my medication so im good to go.

Ill be updating tomorrow on my weighin :) GOOD NIGHT!
 
WEIGH-IN 4

THIS WEEK I LOST - 3lbs

TOTAL LOST SO FAR - 17lbs

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Ok so I was hoping for a little more but it's not about the number it's about keeping up with it and realize that it takes time and patience and that weightloss doesnt happen over night, it takes a long time and the longer it takes the easier it is to keep the weight off and the healthier it is.
I think I need to excercise more, I did it once this week on the treadmill and twice just going out being silly with friends sledding, going up the hill, etc so my goal for this week is to get up and actually workout everyday this week and the weekend will be my break. I am eating right still but I will admit I think I need to eat more veggies (not my favourite).

So I wont put myself down for the 3lb lost, Im gonna be proud because it could have been PLUS 3lb...but instead I worked hard this week and made it MINUS so *taps self on shoulder*.

Heres to a good week to us all <3
 
DUDE, congrats on the 3lb loss!!! That's awesome!!! I'm so envious but so happy for you!

I'm glad you're focusing on the positives instead of the negatives.

You're going to have another 3lb loss this week. I can already tell! GET IT!
 
Thanks girll (gohomejes) :):):) We can do thiisss:)

Today is monday and oh how I hate mondays, from the minute I woke up to the minute I left work I was yawning and I kept thiking of how tired I was and if I was gonna make it to the gym today because last sunday seeing the 3lb loss made me want to make it a goal to go to the gym mon-fri this week to see if my results will improve by excercising much more. I am happy to say I went :) I went for a hour only.

I did 15min to the elliptical machine then I did about 8min on the treadmill and let me clarify first that I usually do 30min on the treadmill, running a good amount of time but this time I had a gf go with me who was more interested into weights than cardio so I was nagged into quting my calorie burning inorder to go do some crunches and weights.
I know suckssssssssss.....
So I am def hitting the gym tomorrow tho and I am aiming for a good sweat on the treadmill...a good sweat in the sauna and a nice tan afterwards ;)

Off to bed now GOOD NIGHT :D
 
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