I have a dream - Camy's new diary

Thank you for visiting that was lovely!

I have started my new life. Not ideally because I did not eat brekfast but at least I did go vegan today which is a big deal for me. Yey to vegan! I found 1 type of soup I can have which is gluten free and vegan, I will probably eat that soup fairly frequently if it tastes good. Haven't tried yet.
I have also a friend who has been complaining about her weight for a long time, she is quite large, I mean not huge, but she has a good 40 pounds to lose I'd say. She loves eating, but is fairly active, so all she really needs is to clean out her diet. She saw my loss over time and asked me to help her (her partner is also a good 50 pounds overweight). I have decided that I will make meal plans for the week and then send them to her, so that we can do this together. i know I can do it and I would LOVE to help her achieve it too. I know she is a tad unhappy about her figure right now and she is going to try to lose 15 pounds til christmas too.
This gives me the chance to help someone I love and care for through my knowledge of weight loss and nutrition that I have acquired over the last 18 months and it gives me constancy, I am accountable to her and I need to stick to my guns fo her on top of for me. I really hope that together we can shed that weight.

I found a dance school I really like, I am still deciding what times I am going, I could go every day, 4 days a week for 1 hour and once a week for an hour and a half, but that would mean I have no evening to teach (which I want to do to pay for my dancing lessons). I will talk to the lady who wants to employ me and then decide. Otherwise I could do 4 days a week, 2 days 1 hour and 2 days 1 and a half. The amount in hours would be almost the same so it might be a good idea. Only if I did 5 days a week I could do jazz twice a week, funky twice a week and lyrical once a week, this way I will have to do funky twice a week, lyrical once a week and contemporary once a week.

Food for today:
Lunch: 1 can of white asparagus with some olive oil, 1 apple, 1 soy pudding
Dinner: potatoes with some tomato sauce, olives, 1 coke and 1 fanta lemon (each 200 ml)

Exercise: none yet!
 
I am pretty much decided on 4 times a week dance, twice lyrical/contemporary, twice funky. This way I save 10 euros a month and I get a second evening off to teach. The good thing about paying monthly is that if I fancy changing or my teaching changes etc... I can just rearrange the dancing.

I changed ticker and I really love my new one. The old one disappeared somehow (I also loved the old one) and the website from which I had it was gone too. My new one is in kgs which is why I added my weight and goal in pounds on top. I weigh myself in kgs anyhow, but I like it better in pounds (because I have lost such a high number in pounds while not so much in kgs).

Food for today:
Breakfast: 4 ricecakes woth yoghurt
Lunch: 1 plate of rice and vegetable pasta with some margarine, 1 apple
Dinner: 1 small plate of pasta with mushroom and cream sauce
Being out food: way way too much coke, some olives, some popcorn.

I was doing well until the coke and popcorn... grr!!! I will eat vegan tomorrow again, I have my soup and will have salad for lunch soup for dinner (or the other way round).

Can't wait for tuesday when I start lessons (university and dance). Woohoo! I am looking into the public bicycle share here. I am pretty sure I will do it that way, so I am not worried about my bike getting stolen, plus I have nowhere to park it here. Yey for public bikes!
Camy
 
Ok, once again too late for breakfast, plus I had nothing in the house and today is a bank holiday, so i couldn't even go buy anything. I tried to wake up at 10 (the supermarket was open til midday) but I just could not open my eyes. Physically! So I slept til 12 and waited for lunch.

Yesterday my flatmate made lunch for me (and again I did not have breakfast because I was so late up). Dinner we had out.
So sunday:
Lunch: white beans with some ham
Dinner: half a portion of rice and kebab meat, 1 big plate of salad, later half a can of coke and 1 alcohol free cocktail

Today:
Lunch: 1 big bowl of carrot soup (it was SO yummy), 1 apple
Snack: soy pudding, later another apple
Dinner: made a vegan champignon risotto (vegetable broth instead of chicken broth and no cheese), it was delish!

Today is a vegan day again so I am going to try and stick to vegan food, not sure if I will manage because if I find nothing to eat I will have to go out and buy something in like I dunno... fast food somewhere because I cannot be bothered going to a real restaurant by myself!

Camy
 
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Today was a non vegan day, it was good. Started classes which was good too, met a nice girl, she might be my friend soon, she is real lovely.

I chickened out of dancing though and it was for the most ridiculous of reasons ever! Because I had not shaved my legs. I was afraid of starting classes in a new dance school with unshaven legs. I know totally stupid, but I might make you know friends for life in there and with hairy legs I would just feel so uncomfortable that I would stand in my own way. So tomorrow I will go to dance.

Food of the day:
No breakfast (late again)
Lunch: left over risotto, smallish salad
Snack: 1 apple, 3 rice cakes with chocolate
Dinner: big salad with 1 egg and 1 can of unsalted tuna, 1 rice cake

Camy
 
Today I did go dancing and the course was full and I couldn't participate. However the damn school is really really far away from the metro station, I walked over 40 minutes to get there and another 40 to get back, then decided against the metro and took the bus instead, then jumped out of it when I thought I was home and walked another half hour... at least I did a fair amount of walking!

Today was a vegan day, though I did eat a chocolate bar which had milk in it, so I wasn't fully absolutely vegan... oh dear!
Breakfast: rice-cracker sandwich with some jam, 1 apple
Lunch: big cucumber salad, 1 glass of gazpacho (cold tomato soup), 1 glass of white asparagus with soem mustard
Snack: snickers bar
Dinner: 1 big bowl of carrot soup, 1 plate of broccoli, 3 rice cakes

Next attempt at dance schooling is friday! Camy
 
I missed a few days of writing, I ate mostly well, but I know and can see on my trousers that I am not losing any weight. I am going to weigh in on the 31st of october and I wanted to be 6 pounds down but I am pretty sure I am exactly where I was when I restarted.

I broke up with my boyfriend. It was hard and awful and I feel like a trainwreck. He makes me feel shit, which is nto totally his fault, he doesn't abuse me or anything, but he doesn't really cherish me either and I want to be cherished. We have been together for 5 years, next week is our anniversary and I kind of fell for him hard, he did not. I thought if I stick around and am the perfect girlfriend he will eventually fall for me. I took some less than nice treatment for the first few months, he wouldn't want to be together in public, all kinds of crap but that was a long time ago. He says he loves me, he cried when I left Africa, he calls every day, but he is not really making an effort to make this work. Not now and not when we lived together. He takes me for granted and I am sick of that. When he is not around I am perfectly content (not happy, not complete like I would feel if I knew I was cherished and loved by someone but content, I don't cry, I have interests, I live fine), but when he calls me more times than not I end up crying because once again he did not try. Yesterday was the day we were going to have a nice long chat, I waited by the phone like an idiot, then called him, oh he forgot. He tells me he will call back in the next hour and we can have that chat. When he did call back he was in a bar. Excuse me, I just wanted some undivided attention here, I needed to have someone to catch me emotionally, I wanted to tell him about everything and he makes time for me between pints of beer?
I cried for a while and then decided that I'd rather be at a constant 6 of happiness without him than at a sporadic 9 and a lot of 1s with him. It hurts and I am fighting the tears as I type this, but it is for the better. I can now go out and be myself, I can flirt with guys, I can sleep with guys if I want to, I can be young and carefree and not constantly feeling abandoned and unloved. It will take a few days, or week,s or even months to feel good again, right now I feel like I am a bit of a failure, that 5 years of my life went by and I kept sticking to this guy who did not love me properly and I refused to see it, but I hope that in time I will feel like I made a good choice.

To good news, I have a job interview this afternoon, they seem like nice people and it would be taking care of a newborn (8 weeks old) in the mornings monday to friday. I really want this job as it would mean that I can live without turning every penny 3 ways, and I do think I am ideal for it. We will see.

Anyhow, food for today:
Breakfast: skipped (I have been really good eating breakfast every day, having cornflakes and soygurt, but today I just don't feel hungry... maybe the sadness is filling my stomach)
Lunch: left over vegetable and pasta from last night
Dinner: beans and ham salad and a poached egg

Exercise: dancing (1.5 hours, lyrical)

Camy
 
Hey Camy,

Good to see that you got to the dancing-is this the new dancing school? hopefully there are a lot of good people there to help you through.

Sorry to hear about the breakup with your partner, but you will find others out there, and it is better to be with someone who loves you.

Thanks for stopping in at my diary :) We'll see how this weight goes! Just keep trying, your going through a hard time.

--Lozza :)
 
I am putting on weight, I am puzzled. I have been eating really well, even on the low side. I am going to spend the weekend trying to come up with a food and exercise plan that is better for november. Why is this so hard? Dang!
Camy
 
The wekend was quite depressing, I gained a bit over a kg, over 2 pounds. I was just starting my period so I may have been a bit heavier than usual, but I clearly lost nothing. I spent all weekend pondering and I know where my downfalls are.

So I made a plan for november and will then adapt it once december rolls around:
FOOD: I will change my eating around, I will have my breakfast and a carb based lunch, then just something smaller and/or lighter for dinner. I have been doing it the other way round and I starve by the afternoon, so I need to eat a ton of snacks to keep myself going. Also I need to go to bed earlier, because by the time I am in bed I am hungry again (I go to bed ridiculously late) and I eat snacks there too.
My breakfast will always be GF cereal with a soygurt and a piece of fruit (this week, kiwis), my lunch will be carbs and protein (rice, pasta, legumes), dinner will be salad or soup or something along those lines.

EXERCISE: I have finally made the inscription in the dance school, I will dance 90 minutes tuesdays and fridays and 60 minutes mondays and wednesdays. I pay a ton of money for this so I am definitely going to go, I went yesterday and it was lovely. I will try to go for a run in the park (I live right next to it) in the mornings too. Just 30 minutes of running, walking, etc... to get some fresh air and get out of the house. By december I think I will have my bike pass (still waiting for my card which will enable me to try to get my bike pass) and then I will be able to bike to work and to dance. I am excited about this.

I have my gyn appointment on december 4rth, I really want to lose weight till then, my sis just went and she weighs 95 pounds. I hate her sometimes.

OK, so that is all from me today, folks, see you later, Camy
 
Hey,

Good to see that you've made a commitment to dancing!
Weight can be silly sometimes, so just keep going! ^^
Have you got your fitday.com account? I think this is the most common phrase on the board....

See ya round and good luck :D
 
Thanks for visiting! That was so nice! I am terrible at tracking on one of those trackers like fitday, I tried but I just never eat the foods they list, because I cook everything myself and I never know if I used 7 or 8 ounces of tomatoes or whatever.

Anyhow yesterday's food was ok, nit marvellous but ok:
No breakfast, had a bit of a weird tummy, which went away (probably because I ate 5 tangerines the day before)
Lunch: 1 plate of rice pasta with a tiny bit of butter and salt
Snack: 1 apple, a handful of almonds
Dinner: grilled cuttlefish with a side salad, 1 tangerine and because I was low on cals anyhow I also ate the last of my little choc puddings.

Today's food:
Breakfast: 1 apple, 1 tangerine
Lunch: half a spanish omelette (around 300 cals), side salad
Snack: coffee with soy milk
Dinner: 2 sausages, 2 fried eggs (in no oil), 1 yogurt

I am dancing tomorrow again, nothing today, it is my rest day, I wanted to go running but couldn't fall asleep until 4 am and then woke up at midday and had stuff to do. Oh well, maybe tomorrow!
Camy
 
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I went dancing today and I am so happy I did it, it is exactly the class I have been looking for. When I dance I don't feel fat or ugly, I feel beautiful and free. I love it so much. I also feel so much more energy after dancing, not sluggish hungry, etc...

Next week I am starting on my full 4 days a week dance schedule, I am so happy I can do this. I am in love with dance again.

Food:
Breakfast: 2 tangerines
Lunch: 1/4 of the spanish omelette (the last quarter was thrown out, it tasted already on the old side), side salad, soypudding
Snack: 1 yogurt
Dinner: 1 bowl of lentils and 1 sausage, maybe later a soypudding

Exercise:
90 minutes of dancing

Camy
 
Hey,

Yeah, it can be hard keeping an exact record on the site, but as long as your feeling healthy and happy from dancing, all is good!
 
Yes that is exactly it, Lozza, happiness is what counts most!

I went out today and met a guy... I am not sure I want anything to happen, BUT it was so important for me to go out and see that people like me, that people find me attractive and I feel great. He txted me as soon as I went upstairs (he brought me home). Cute.

Food for today was a mess though cause I never managed to eat dinner...

Breakfast: cornflakes and soygurt, 1 tangerine
Lunch: half a spanish omelette, a big salad, 1 soy pudding
Drinks: 1 coke and about 1/2 of a glass of amaretto

Camy
 
Food for the day:
Breakfast: 1 soygurt with cornflakes, 1 tangerine
No lunch
Snack: 1 ice tea and 1 small coffee with milk
Dinner: 1 chicken breast, large green salad, 1 soypudding

Exercise: I walked a few hours this afternoon.

Camy
 
Not sure if I will manage to go to dancing today because I have this project I am presenting tomorrow to the class and I have to work in it after class, so if I manage then yey, but if not, well I still have my other classes.

Yesterday I went to bed really early (just past midnight) slept for like half an hour then woke up tormented by something and could not fall asleep again until 5 am, then I slept til 1 pm. I hate when that happens. So no breakfast for me!

Food of the day:
Lunch: rice pasta with bolognaise sauce (that should be around 550-600 cals)
Snack: 1 apple, 1 tangerine
Dinner: 1 bowl of lentils and a big salad

I know my cals are low today, the whole weekend has been a caloric disaster, but this week I will try harder to get a better rythm going. That should bring my cals up a bit. Fitday told me I need to consume 1300 a day to lose a couple of pounds a week, so I am going to aim between 1300 and 1500 (to lose between a pound and a half and 2 pounds per week... only really my body does not obey these kinds of maths!)

Camy
 
Hi Camy. Just want to say good luck with the dancing classes - sounds like it's amazing fun. What kind of dancing does it involve?
Your diet seems v healthy too - a steady weight loss rather than silly crash diets which then rebound...
Has given me inspiration to eat healthier :)
 
Hey charmedex, what a lovely post. I dance contemporary ballet and jazz.

Today once again a wonderful wonderful class. I just adore these classes. The 90 minutes are over so quickly... I might practice by myself tomorrow morning here when my flatmates are not in the flat.
I am still sort of dating this guy, we are going out/dinner tomorrow. I might go and buy a new sweater for the occasion. He is a real sweetheart he calls every day... I am not yet sure what I really want from this relationship (friends, more than friends...) but it is nice to have someone who is there and clearly thinks one is attractive. That is so important for me right now, I really need to feel pretty and he is totally doing that for me.
I am very happy with my food though I have been eating a lot of processed food (spanish omelettes, and pasta sauce) and I should try to stick to non processed. But I am doing fruit instead of rice cakes now which is great and I am working on eating breakfast (still really don't feel like it). And I need to work on getting enough water in.

Food of the day:
No breakfast
Lunch: large plate of pasta with bolognaise sauce, 1 tangerine
Snack: 1 yoghurt with chocolate sprinkles
Dinner: 1/2 bowl of lentils and 1/2 a spanish omelette, 2 tangerines

I am guesstimating my calories to be around 1300ish.

Exercise:
90 minutes of contemporary dance

Camy
 
Yay, sounds like you've found a nice guy, even if its turns out to just be friends. :)
And its good to see you updating the diary more :D
You should come join the 6weeks til christmas challenge! ^^
 
No dance today, did not feel like it.

Food:
No breakfast
Lunch: McD... I know bad right? Well I had the medium fries, the hamburguer patty (can't eat the bread etc...) and a coke light, still I had like the sodim of the week!
Dinner: big green salad with surimi

Camy
 
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