Here I go AGAIN....... My journey to a jiggle free life

2phat4fun

2phat4fun

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Hello again.....

I joined this forum back Jan 1, 2007. In the first 4 mths, I was successful in losing 25+ lbs. I was so happy and felt so good!

Over the summer months I had managed to gain much of the weight I had lost, and then became pregnant with my second child. Over the course of my pregnancy I gained 60lbs - similar to my first pregnancy. Both my kids were born via c-section.

My kids are now 6 and 2. Looking back at my orginial diary (which I had tried to get back to a few mths after delivery), I was 195lbs. 2 yrs later I am the same weight (if not a little more)! I feel gross and am having trouble focusing on looking after myself and watching what I eat. I am very much an emotional eater and find that I am stressed all the time.

I have decided to re-visit the forum, in hopes that I find the support that I need to lose this weight for good. I want to feel happy and healthy. I want to enjoy life and not be ashamed of how I look.

So here I go.......

-- How much weight do you want to lose? 60

-- What is the timeframe for reaching your target weight? 1 year

-- How do you want to accomplish your goal (what methods do you want to use)? Small goals (ie 15 lbs by Dec 31st, 2010). I will watch what I eat and be more active. I will not turn to food when I am stressed and emotional.

-- Who or what can support you in reaching your goal? my family, friends, co-workers and the forum

-- How realistic is your goal? Realistic

-- When will you start? NOW!

Thanks to everyone who is listening!

Till tomorrow....... :)

SW - 197
CW - 197
GW - 135
 
Hey welcome back to the forum! I know what you mean when you say "here you go again"! That's the story of my life too. It's hard work but we know how to do it so let's start today!! My goal is 135 too - how tall are you? I was 224 at my highest weight and never going back - well I can't say never because I do plan on having babies and I understand it's unevitable to gain then! Good luck on your journey!
 
I'm 5'2''

My heaviest was 200lb. This doesn't include pre/post pregnancy weight. My highest when I was pregnant was 250lb!
 
Day 2 - Hope it's better than Day 1

Oddly enough the scale went down this morning. I find that I can't trust the loss, until I'm down 5 or more. It alway seems that I fluctuate between 197 and 193 - grrrrrr!

Anyhow, I will just keep pushing forward and take the loss, build on it and make this successful.

I do know that ....

1 - I need more water! I had one glass of water yesterday. When I look back I had a black coffee, a glass of water and I think that was pretty much it for the day....... not good. I think that would really help with the loss, if I could just remember my fluids!

2 - No eating after 8pm. I wish I could say 7 or 7:30, but with my schedule and the kids it hard for me to work full-time and come home and whip up dinner. I need to start planning my meals more - choose health and even make ahead if possible.

3 - I need more activity. I do pplay volleyball once a week, but right now thats it. I use to walk everyday on my lunch - haven't done that since I came back to work. I need to make time for me......

I'll add to these I'm sure as I go along. But these are just a few basic observations so far.

SW - 197
CW - 194.4
GW - 135
 
Q&A Time.....

1. What is your current height and weight? 5'2" and as of today 194.4:hurray:
2. If you were at an ideal weight now, what would that weight be? 135
3. At what weight would you like to be at four months from now? 170
4. Why do you want to lose weight? To feel good and not be ashamed of how I look. Enjoy activites with my kids.
5. Do you want to lose weight for a specific life event such as wedding or reunion? If so, when is that event? No.
6. What obstacles could get between you and your weight loss goals? Stress
7. Why do you think that you now have a weight problem? Emotional eating and eating when I am bored.
8. What lifestyle changes do you think would help you lose weight? More water, watching what and how I eat, exercise more - RELAX.
9. Have you lost weight in the past? If so, what has worked in the past to help you lose weight? WW.
10. Why do you believe that you did not lose weight or you gained the weight back? I got pregnant and now have 2 very busy kids. I don't like my job, so I stress.
11. What, if anything, has not worked for you in the past in helping you to lose weight? Why do you think it did not work? Counting calories.
12. Would you try writing down all food and drink consumed for a given period of time? Yes.
13. Do you cook at home often? If so, what do you cook? I always cook at home, and it is generally something quick that the kids will enjoy.
14. How often do you go out to eat? Where do you go? Rarely - and if we get a chance to go out it's with the kids - thankfully they love SUBWAY.
15. What are your three favorite foods? Pasta, cheese, chocolate
16. What are your three favorite restaurants? SUBWAY, a nice steakhouse, my parent's ;)
17. What are three things you can do differently when it comes to food? Smaller portions, not eating so late, saying no to seconds.
18. If you woke up tomorrow and your body was exactly the way you want it, what would be different? I wouldn't look like a mushy pear.
19. Do you eat when you are not hungry? Yes.
20. Do you binge eat (large amounts at a time)? Yes
21. Do you hide your food or eat in secret? Kinda - I won't tell my husband if I've binged.
22. Do you eat when you are sad, nervous, or depressed? Yes.
23. Do you eat as a reward? Not really.
24. Do you eat while watching TV or using the computer? No.
25. What do you normally eat for a meal? meat and rice or pasta.
26. What type of snacks do you eat? Granola bars, coookies, cheese, chocolate.
27. In terms of exercise, what, if anything, are you currently doing? Co-ed Volleyball once a week.
28. Where do you go for exercise? A local public gym? School/work gym? Home? A local school.
29. What, if anything, are your three favorite types of exercise? Sports (downhill skiing, skating, volleyball), aerobics (step and zumba!), swimming (which I never do anymore :( ).
30. What is your daily/weekly/monthly/yearly motivation to move towards your goals? Feel better, look great, feel comfortable in my clothes.
31. Do you have rewards for certain goals? I guess new clothes as mine get too big.
 
Sabotage!

Why do I do this to myself?????

I was cooking dinner last night, getting worked up because my oldest wasn't doing his homework and my youngest was screaming for food - I gave in! I snacked on everything I could find. All while a little voice in my head is telling me I shouldn't! And to boot- I had to take my youngest to swimming lessons last night, in which I have to go in the pool with him. You'd think that would be motivation enough!

Surprisingly the scale didn't budge - today. Likely I will see the aftermath of my actions tomorrow morning!

Then today, my boss decided to be generous and bought treats from a new bakery in town. I had 1/3 of a sweet bun and 1 rum ball.

I serioulsy need help! I feel like I am overwhelmed by so much lately. Kids, work, money, food and can't seem to wrap my head around what I need to do to get myself back in order. There are so many things I put off, because of my weight. I have been saying for years that I want a family photo - myself, husband and kids. But I don;t want to look like this in the pic!

Urghhhhh!!!!
 
Reflections on my past diary

So I just finished reading my original journal, from when I first started ("Jenn's Diary") - boy was I an inspiration! To a point......

In my first month - I lost 11lbs! I started at 185 Jan 1, and was 174 Feb 1. I then proceeded to lose till I hit 165 in March. Then the battles been to take over and the weight won. May I fluctuated between 168-172, and by July 2007 I was around 175. The next time I posted was Oct 2008 (one month post c-section).

I've seen that I can do it. I just need to stay on track.......

I'm like the "Little Engine that could"..... "I think I can, I think I can".

I also saw a motto I once posted for myself...
"Exercise for the health of it, not the hell of it!" Boy was I smart back in the old days.....
 
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You can do it! It helps me to keep a list of things to inspire me to keep going. Whenever I get down I look at back at my list and I get reinvigorated. Kinda cheesy but I put in motivational quotes and things I want to do when I get to my goal weight.
 
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You can do it! It helps me to keep a list of things to inspire me to keep going. Whenever I get down I look at back at my list and I get reinvigorated. Kinda cheesy but I put in motivational quotes and things I want to do when I get to my goal weight.
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Thanks! I will definitely be reading through my last diary, to look back at my past success for inspiration.

Scale has budged again. Holding strong at 194.4. Which I can't complain, as I haven't made any attempt to do anything yet. Once we get past Halloween, I should be good to go!

My focus for this weekend is WATER! I had 2 glasses yesterday. Other drinks were: 1 black coffee, glass of milk, decaf tea w milk. I am aiming for a minimum 8 glasses per day for the weekend (Fri/Sat/Sun). Monday I will build on that. I use to drink around 112oz per day!

Have a great weekend everyone ~ HAPPY HALLOWEEN!
 
Hey again! I noticed you wrote in my old journal - I started a new one this week since I needed a fresh start - HOT for my honeymoon! so that's why I never replied and just noticed it now.
For water I find that once you start drinking more your body will demand more so it gets easier to think about. The amount that you pee will also decrease as you continue to keep the intake up - at first it's annoying as hell how often you have to go. Even still it's annoying to go every hour if your out and about but it really does make the difference for weight loss.
During the day I always have a glass around and try to fill it almost every hour. When I get home the first thing I do is pour a glass and add some lemon and when it's right in my face I don't need to think about it because it's just routine to drink it. Hope you find something that works because it will help!
Don't get discouraged so easily - it's going to be a long journey so just take it one day at a time and maybe only weigh yourself once a week if it makes you insane. My weight fluctuates 7 pounds in a day so I try not to let the reading bug me but jugde the loss on how I feel.
Keep it up and have a good weekend!
 
*waves* Welcome back! I have trouble drinking enough each day so relate on that point! Hope you stick with and good luck with your goals!
 
Hello :)

I think it's great you're increasing the water intake - CG is right, you whizz all day at the start when you're drinking heaps of water, but it does settle down as you get used to it! I've gone from wee-all-day to bladder-of-steel lol.

Volleyball is such a fun game!

Keep up the good work :)
 
Thanks everyone!

My plan to increase water intake this weekend BOMBED! I remembered Sunday night!!

Anyhow, off to a better start for Nov 1st. Up to 40oz this morning. I joined the Novemeber Challenge - hoping to keep me focused. Goal is to lose 10lbs by the end of the month. Not unrealistic for me, being as a lot right now I think will have to do with increasing my water. I am also going to try the WW again (on my own) and stick with it. I will start to post my food journal/points as well.

Here's to an awesome November!

Cheers!
 
Oh... and my weight was up this morning 196.2! Yuck! Out with the old.... in with the new! Looking forward to a lighter me tomorrow :)
 
Managed to consume 80oz of water @ work today! Hope to keep that up every day. Still can't figure how I use to drink 112oz per day @ work!
 
Mia

So a decided to pop on here tonight. We got a new computer for Christmas and I have been 'surfing' every night since. I looked at the date of my last thread - Nov 1st. Where have I been? Apparently my scales know..... in the kitchen, raiding the fridge and cupboards! I feel like crap and the scale is climbing. I totally need to get motivated and lose this weight! I am getting to the point as well that I think to myself... 'am I physically able to do .... (insert activity here)? Isn't that ridiculous? Shouldn't that been motivation enough. And considering I have 2 smalll children? I actually feel kinda embrassed to go out somewhere and have people see me like this. I even feel bad for my hubby. As embrassing as it is to say, I feel I have been 'depriving him' because I'm embrassed to have him see me naked! He says I've always looked the same to him. He's just being nice.

Motivation has gotta kick in ASAP!!! All my Christmas dinners are over now. This is the time.
I can do this.
Can't wait for Jan 1st.
Dec 27th will be day one..... My goal is to be 195 by Jan 1st. Achievable - YES. Silly kinda, as this is my hovering point right now. However, I stepped on the scales tonight while getting ready for bed - 200.2! Sad but true. So to drop 5 pounds by the end of the week is my goal - lose the Christmas weight. Baby steps.......

Now to figure out my plan of attack!
 
I know I should not have weighed myself at night, but I needed a kick in the butt - 200 is not a number I want to see!
Anyhow, weighed myself this morning - 198.2.
At least it's the right direction.......

Will post tonight to follow up on the days events. Hopefully the kids don't drive me crazy - crazy kids = binge eatting.....

Was hoping to take them tobboganning today, but pretty cold and windy (my little one is getting over an ear infection).
 
Hey! Just popping in to say good luck! I hope you stick with the diary, it helped me a ton. I like to come by and read people's threads when I feel a binge coming on. Or when I don't feel like working out but know I should!
 
Well - here's to 2011! New Year, hopefully a new me. So far I haven't made a whole lot of effort......
I did reach my goal on getting down to 195 by Dec 31 (saw 194.8) - only to indulge in New Years yummies with my hubby and mother in law..... Scale this morning read 196. No going to let it get me down. Fresh start. I knew that we would have lots of yummy food last night and had expected to be up. Thankfully it wasn't as large as I had intially thought. I did ring in the New Year playing Dance Dance Revolution 3. Lots of fun. My hips are sore today, GOOD!
Anyhow, just wanted to pop in quickly. Looking forward to a healthy slimmer New Year!

And - thanks for pooping by Laura!

January goal - 189 :waving:
 
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