Here comes the bride...6 months to go!!

[chubbygirl]

its always hard to let a couple of days go by without getting a workout in...especially when you have a solid routine going.

Thanks nightrunner! Normally I wouldn't mind but lately I have been rocking the workouts so it's just a different pace for me - I plan to continue rocking it this weekend now that my calendar is free again!

So just try to stay away from the snacks tonight
~ Sarah

Easier said then done!

There may be wine and snacks around to tempt you but your strong and your will power is definitley getting better and better each week so just try to keep that going, and if you do indulge a little those hard core workouts you do will kick those snacks to the curb. I don't think there is anything that can hold you back at this point! I hope you have fun!

Thanks Janvier! I do feel like my will power is getting stronger and I can pick out what I really want as opposed to just eating what's there. I don't feel guilty lately when I indulge like I was feeling before because I plan it in and workout harder when I know I'm going to have a higher points day. Your right that nothing can hold me back from getting to 135!! Thanks for your support!

Ok so yesterday wasn't the greatest but I anticipated that and tried to keep my calories low during the day so I could have some treats. Here's how it looked:
Exercise - cleaning - sweeping, cleaned both bathrooms, laundry
B - 1 cup fresh strawberries, ff activia yogurt & 1/3 cup all bran buds
Snack - 3 cups mint green tea
L - big veggie salad - romaine lettuce, green onions, yellow pepper, cucumber, black olives, chick peas w ff tomato oregano dressing.
Exercise - cleaning - vacuuming, moping, dishes
D - spaghetti - we ran out of the healthy stuff too so it was just plain spagettini noodles about 1 cup w homemade sauce made w lean ground turkey, crushed tomatos, onions, peppers, celery, spices, Ragu sauce about 1 cup of sauce.
Snacks - 1 glass red wine, 2 home made muffins - my mom made them and they were really small and made with healthy stuff she said - blueberries, strawberries and whole wheat flour - I put a little margarine on them too. Hunnie went out and bought chips and after everyone left but one friend I had about 1/4 of the bag of kettle chips salt and vinegar flavor - yumm! I had wished my friend left earlier because I would have had time to do the treadmill but she didn't leave until 10pm and I went straight to bed after that.
Overall it wasn't such a bad day and it could have been a lot worse! I was 145.8 on my scale this morning which I found weird considering all the salt in the chips but I really didin't drink much water last night after I got home from work so that probably has something to do with it. I've been slacking a bit on my water lately because I have been drinking so much tea but I'm hoping to up my water intake this weekend and get that back on track.
One thing I was really upset about last night was my family (cousin and aunt - same ones I had been talking about) didn't show up! No phone call, no email, no nothing and that was the whole reason I cleaned every room in the house!! My other girl friends and mom have already seen the house so we just stayed in the dining room and I did all that cleaning for nothing! Well not nothing but I usually like to clean on the weekends because I have so much free time and I could have worked out yesterday morning and after work if I wasn't so worried about giving them a tour of my house! That was really frustrating - I wonder what happened and why they didn't show - not like them at all. Anyway rant over.
I got up and did 25 min on the treadmill this morning (2.1 miles) and plan to go to the gym after work to do a 30 min core class and an hour cycle class. I think that will make up for the snacking last night!
This weekend we don't have much planned. The bank account is really low so that limits us a bit. Tonight I plan to stay within my points and get that work out in after work. Tomorrow we are taking a drive to the US border to pick up the wedding invitations and then we have a birthday bbq to go to. I plan to make that my cheat night and do really well the rest of the weekend. I don't plan to drink much again - maybe just two drinks. Sunday is all about exercise and getting healthy groceries! Oh and I plan to go to Kettle Bell tomorrow morning! I'm feeling good about the weekend ahead - I know I can do it!
Have a great weekend everyone!! Chat with you all Monday!!

 

[Janvier]

Happy Monday Lisa!

I just wanted to check in with you, see how you are and see how your weekend went- hopefully it was a bit better then mine... Talk to you soon!

 

[chubbygirl]

I have to make this real quick because my boss is working with me today. The weekend was good up until last night and then we totally binged on cookies, and chocolate! I feel gross today and the bad cravings keep coming back! I had to fight so hard not to go to Wendy's for lunch and eat the salad I brought! Friday I did the treadmill before work and after went to the gym and did 30 min eliptical & a 30 min core class. I was too tired to do the cycle class after. Saturday I went to Kettle Bell and it was so intense - they seem to be getting harder and harder! We did 10 exercises and 50 reps of each - so 50 swings, 50 burpees, 50 snatches each arm, 50 windmill pushups - you get the idea - it was really hard! My shoulders are still so sore today and I have Kettle Bell strength tonight - yikes! Saturday night I wasn't very good either but no binges. We went to a bday party and there were so many good snacks sitting out - taco dip, spinach dip, deviled eggs, guacamole, etc plus we had burgers. I only had 2 glasses of red wine so the drinks weren't out of control so that was good. Sunday I did the treadmill because it was too windy outside and I didn't feel like going to the gym. 40 min and only 3.2 miles - intervals instead of just running. Then I went for a quick bike ride in the evening but nothing major because the wind was too strong and I wasn't into it. My eating was good all day yesterday but then I was craving such bad stuff. I should have gotten up this morning to try and burn some of it off on the treadmill but I chose to sleep until the last moment and didn't even have time to shower I feel like crap today and I'm hoping these cravings go away before I cave! I've been trying to talk myself out of going to Kettle Bell but I know I will regret it if I don't. Sorry I won't get to check on anyone today but tomorrow for sure!!

 

[skkroll]

Hey Lisa - get to that class tonight and forget about the weekend! You can't always be perfect, you're only human! You still got some great workouts in, I didn't even work out Saturday or Sunday! I'm really excited about doing weight watchers points now, I bought a bunch of new food and a lot of it is really low in points, I made a list of the food in my diary so you will definitely have to check it out tomorrow! Feel better, you're doing just fine
~ Sarah

 

[shawnnam]

Hey there

I am back! It is so good to see that you have been progressing through your journey! I hope all is well with you and I look forward to seeing the rest of your diary as you post it.

 

[RachelSilvana]

You seem to be doing fantastic! I admire your stamina. What with being so busy with daily life, plus planning a wedding, to have time and energy to eat right, work out and lose the weight is admirable. The only way I'm finding time to do this is because my semester ended and my job doesn't start until July and I'm single. But hopefully I'll work it into a regular routine so I can keep it up. I'm sure you'll reach your goal weight early and then some!

 

[juni]

Sarah is right, don't beat yourself up about the weekend. We've all been there. Look forward to having a great week. We are all here to support.

RE: your cousins not showing up-- hump! I would get all annoyed too (but you have a clan house now and got to do some major cleaning which is good for the body). I hope they are ok (esp if they never do this kind of thing). This comes kinda late but have you had the chance to call and check on them?

Have a wonderful week, Lisa.

 

[mizzie]

Just catching up with diaries and wanted to say good job on resisting all the junk food and for rocking the kettle ball class! Don't worry about missing a few days of exercise, you were cleaning instead and that burns calories too. Just get back to it, like you already are. You're so close to your goal now!

 

[mrskt20]

Hey Lisa, you kicked some butt with your workouts. Don't worry about the eating. I'm sure you will work that off too. I am joining WW next Monday with my mom. I am very excited. I think I really need the extra help. Have a great Tuesday!

 

[chubbygirl]

Ok sorry I have to make this quick again as I'm just about to leave for home. I ended up going to the gym after work and taking the Kettle bell class (thanks Sarah - your message helped!) - it was tough too but only 50 min instead of the full hour - we started with 100 kettle bell swings and then did 1 min swings, 1 min push-ups and repeat and then 1 min break and repeated with different types of swings and different types of push-ups. I had salad for lunch and salad and tuna for dinner and after dinner I went for a 30 min bike ride - 10 km. I was being really good and decided to have a healthy snack after my bike ride - ff yogurt, all bran buds and fresh strawberries - it wasn't doing it so I had more fresh strawberries and sugar free chocolate pudding. It still wasn't doing it so I managed to eat 5 or 6 chocolate covered granola bars - the ones I asked my hunnie to hide and I found where he hid them!!!! SO BAD!!! I was so mad at myself going to bed and felt like crap again this morning. I really don't want to go to my weigh-in tomorrow and might hold off until Friday. I need to regroup and get my head on straight and remember all the reasons I'm doing this and changing my life. I'll have lots of time to catch up with everyone tomorrow and reply to your messages.

 

[Verobc1]

One night isn't going to ruin all of your hard work. Just do double to work out...calories in ...calories out right????

 

[skkroll]

I feel you on that one Lisa... last night after dinner I had enough points left for snacks. So I went for a sugar free Jell-O which just didn't cut it. Since that was 0 points I went for some peanut butter on a sandwich thin - 3.5 points which put me at my limit for the day. But that wasn't cutting it either. I attacked the pantry and grabbed a box of the most sugary cereal I could find and poured it into a cup (all the bowls were dirty, yeah I'm that lazy!) and filled it with milk. I finished the cup (all of this on a FULL stomach because it was literally a half hour after dinner) and went back for MORE! The whole time I was wondering WHY am I doing this, I'm FULL, I don't NEED it... but I WANTED it. I just wanted to have that sugar because I had gone all day without it and I had no control. I kept eating it and just didn't care!

But I realized I DO have control... if I didn't, I would have gone back to the pantry for more cereal, more junk food to fill my sugar void! But I stopped myself at that and went 4 hours without eating another thing. I even decided to get up early to work out harder to make up for it! Granted, the idea sort of failed as I wrote about in my diary... but I guess with all this ranting I'm trying to say - you're not alone.

This is a battle that we all have to keep fighting for the rest of our lives. We have made the decision to put an end to our old habits. But no way in hell can we completely get rid of them. Just because you're trying to lose weight and be healthier doesn't mean you can't ever indulge in something. It doesn't mean that your body isn't going to want to indulge in something. And it doesn't mean that you have to feel bad every time you do indulge in something.

It's going to happen whether you like it or not. I'd really like to know if ANYONE on this forum has ever NOT indulged or slipped up on more than one occasion.

Don't let it get to your head - just try to understand that it happens, and it will happen, but it's not going to put you over 200 pounds again if you still can still have control the rest of the time! Which you DO!!!

I know you won't give up on yourself and you'll be back in the game in no time. So GET OVER IT and bring me back that positive attitude and that inspiration that you have brought to me and so many others on this forum. You rock Lisa, don't sell yourself short, you are AMAZING!!!!

~ Sarah

 

[mizzie]

I'd really like to know if ANYONE on this forum has ever NOT indulged or slipped up on more than one occasion.

I highly doubt it! Unless it's someone who just started their journey yesterday or something. And in that case, just give them time. I highly, highly doubt that anyone has ever gotten to their goal weight without at least a few slip ups.

It's encouraging, in a way.

 

[chubbygirl]

I just wanted to check in with you, see how you are and see how your weekend went- hopefully it was a bit better then mine... Talk to you soon!

Thanks Janvier! Unfortunately it wasn't one of the best!

You can't always be perfect, you're only human!

Thanks Sarah - I do wish I could be perfect sometimes - it would be so much easier!

I am back!QUOTE]
Glad to have you back - I'll be stopping by to check on you too!

You seem to be doing fantastic! I admire your stamina. What with being so busy with daily life, plus planning a wedding, to have time and energy to eat right, work out and lose the weight is admirable. The only way I'm finding time to do this is because my semester ended and my job doesn't start until July and I'm single. But hopefully I'll work it into a regular routine so I can keep it up.QUOTE]
Thank you - it is tiring sometimes and sometimes it just gives me the extra energy I need! This site has helped me a lot along the way so I suggest sticking with your diary! Thanks for stopping by!

Sarah is right, don't beat yourself up about the weekend. We've all been there. Look forward to having a great week. We are all here to support.
RE: your cousins not showing up-- I hope they are ok (esp if they never do this kind of thing).

Thanks Juni - I really appreciate the support - it helps more than you know!
About my aunt and cousin - they are fine - said they didn't get the email but I went back and checked and they were both copied in so I don't know what happened.

I am joining WW next Monday with my mom. I am very excited. I think I really need the extra help. Have a great Tuesday!

I need to start tracking again because I got so used to knowing how many points things were that I just started assuming I was eating within my points - it starts again today!! Glad to have you on board!

One night isn't going to ruin all of your hard work. Just do double to work out...calories in ...calories out right????

Yes you are totally right but I just feel like I've gone so far past calories in that I will have to spend a whole day working out to make up for it. If only it was one night.

The whole time I was wondering WHY am I doing this, I'm FULL, I don't NEED it... but I WANTED it.
But I realized I DO have control... you're not alone.
I know you won't give up on yourself and you'll be back in the game in no time. So GET OVER IT and bring me back that positive attitude and that inspiration that you have brought to me and so many others on this forum. You rock Lisa, don't sell yourself short, you are AMAZING!!!!
~ Sarah

Thanks Sarah - I really needed that. I feel like this a lot and sometimes it's just scary because I feel like I don't care anymore even though I do. Sometimes the hard work just gets to me and I feel like giving up. Sometimes I just think I'm supposed to be big so I can eat whatever I want. And sometimes I just miss all the food I used to eat and want to get a taste of it all before I go back to eating healthy which is where I am at this week. I know I need to get back into my routine but I keep thinking about the everything bagel w cream cheese that I haven't had in a long time or my favourite meal at Wendy's I used to get once a week. I go through this sometimes where I decide to indulge in everything and then I find myself so mad and wondering how I'm going to burn off all those calories and how I just worked so hard to lose that one pound and after a couple really bad meals I easily gained it back and then have to work so hard again just to lose that same pound again and it feels defeating and that's where it's hard to just start fresh again.

I highly doubt it! Unless it's someone who just started their journey yesterday or something. And in that case, just give them time. I highly, highly doubt that anyone has ever gotten to their goal weight without at least a few slip ups.
It's encouraging, in a way.

I just get worried that the slip up will turn into a week which will turn into a month and then I'll be right back where I started. Look how fast I gained 19 pounds back!

Ok so here I am and starting fresh today - it's funny because as I say it I'm not sure I believe it. It's been far too long since I've had a chance to catch up on you all and I really think I need that today to get some motivation back. Reading your diaries really puts things into perspective and knowing there are other people struggling and getting through it really helps me move forward. Yesterday I stopped at Wendy's on my way home and it was so good but it didn't last long and then right away I got a stomach ache - was it worth it - no but will I do it again - probably. Now how confusing is that? Does it make sense? NO! When I got home I went to have a nap and slept for 4 hours! My hunnie got off work and woke me up and started asking about dinner - I still felt the Wendy's in my stomach and wasn't hungry at all. I started working on putting together the wedding invitations and got about half done - hopefully I can get the rest done tonight and I can check something else off the list. My hunnie decided to make chicken breasts on the bbq and he was going to have his in a sandwich - I wanted to be healthier so I had mine in a salad. I decided after Y&R I would go to the gym and hunnie was jamming. Just as I was getting ready to head out my friend stopped in and asked if I wanted to hang out for a bit. He ended up staying till 10pm! We watched the biggest loser together but I was so mad I didn't get a work out in. At that point when he left I hadn't snacked the whole show and should have gone straight to bed - but no I had fruit loops and then my hunnie came in and made himself a pulled pork sandwich and I had half! On my way to bed I grabbed a chocolate covered granola bar - WHY!! Ugh so as you can guess I woke up feeling crappy and just wished I could start the whole week over - it's supposed to be weigh-in day and so far all I've done is go backwards! I told myself that if I can get myself together by Friday I will go to a weigh-in but right now I feel like that won't happen and I need to get it together for next week. Even as I'm writing this I am having more faith that today will be the start to a great week - your support and reading your stories are what will get me through this!

 

[mizzie]

You are feeling bla because you are not exercising and keeping up with your plan. Once you get back into it, the Mizzie we all know and love will be back too! Don't wait for the week to be over to start - start right now! You know what to do so do it - even if you just get 20 min of exercise in it's better than nothing and the eating right is the most important so as long as your calories are in check you haven't done any damage to go backwards! Even if you want to take another day off exercise get your eating right again with the healthy snacks and water, water, water!! I'm sure once hump day is over and the thoughts of the weekend approaching will get you some mojo back! It's hard going back to work after a vacation - even just a weekend vacation! You do not want to go further up and back into the 200's for good - so think thin and push yourself even when you don't want to! I know you can do it Mizzie - hope your day gets better!

Remember that? That's what you posted in my diary last week when I was having such a bla week. So now I'm turning it around on you. You feel bad, mentally and physically, because you've blown your routine. I know how that feels, and it's awful. Stand up, give yourself a good shake for being silly and get back to it! You always rock your workouts (you're in inspiration, did you know that?) and feel so great after, so get your butt moving today and get your eating back on track! Mindful eating, think about it before you eat it. You'll be bad on track and feeling 100% better.

Come on girl, you aren't that far from your goal. You can totally do this!!!

 

[skkroll]

I'm sorry to hear you didn't have a good night again. But I'm happy that you are moving forward... TODAY is a fresh start! It's all about getting back on track NOW, not TOMORROW! And THAT is progress, strength, and dedication right there!

Have a good day Lisa, I look forward to hearing great things tomorrow!
~ Sarah

 

[mrskt20]

Lisa,
I didn't know you were having a hard time this week. Well, I came to your page to tell you I was joining WW because you inspired me to do so. You always go back to WW when you feel you can't do it yourself and I most definitely feel I can't do it myself. You inspire me. I hope your week gets better. I know it will! Stay Strong!!!

 

[Verobc1]

Hi Lisa I think both you and I need a good shake and kick in the but, let's get back on trac right now so that we can have a great end to the month!

 

[Janvier]

Hi Lisa,

Just checking up on you. I know this hasn't been the best week for you, but look at how many people you are still inspiring! Myself included. You are a huge motivation and inspiration for so many people here because you have come SO far and have kept such a great attitude and encourage so many people to do well and a few cheats in NOT going to change that! I feel like dispite the weight loss I will always be that over weight girl on the inside who wants sugar and fatty foods and salty snacks, but if we can fight that girl 3 weeks out of the month I consider that an accomplishment, because we used to settle for that over weight girl just being our way of life. Your not that girl anymore and you are going to snap out of this and get back to business. We are all here for you, finish this week strong, its not too late!

 

[juni]

I agree with everyone who has written in saying you are an inspiration. One of the reasons I came back to this forum this month is because of you. Your new journal entry is the first thing I look for at night when I come home form work because you would have posted from work a few hours before (the time difference). Sometimes I read your journal and write mine. I get food ideas, workout ideas from you and your positivity is soooooooo contagious. Look at the post you left on my page- even when you are feeling so low the post is full of positivity. How do you do that??

And you are tooo strong a person to go back to the way you were eating before. I just refuse to believe that it will EVER happen. We are here to support, listen and kick you in the butt.

There are still two more days left for the weekend and two days of the weekend. Lets be good these four days. Yes? We can do this, Lisa.

Hugs.