Heather's Journal - It's Time for Tough Love

Jello - Thanks so much for the well wishes!! I'm about back to 100% today. I'm still a little iffy when it comes to eating but for the most part, I'm ok. I lost 5lbs in a day!!! Then again I'm sure it was water weight, so I'm not hoping for that much come tomorrow. The Beck Solution is really great. It feels really awkward at first, but when you realize it's simply getting your mind to put dieting in the forefront, it makes a lot of sense and I have found it to be REALLY helpful! You don't need to get both the workbook and the book, by the way. Just one or the other will do fine - I got both but loaned the workbook out to my friend as they kinda mirror each other. I think if I rework the program again, I'll use the workbook.

eykman - You're right! I definitely don't eat when I'm sick. At least not when I have a GI bug!! Whenever I'm really sick otherwise it's usually very small portions of salty foods (soups, crackers, etc)

Proud to report that I'm back in action and that I only missed a day of exercise! Got back on track with my youtube workout today as we had chiropractic appointments and time is short when we have those. Tomorrow and Wed I'll be at the gym, and tomorrow should be interesting when it comes to the scale. Between the stomach flu this weekend and PMS, I'm not really sure what to expect!!!

Got a call back from my personal trainer today but I deleted his message like a moron. Oops! I'll see if I can hunt him down tomorrow at the gym and schedule an update session. I'm so proud of myself - I can schedule a workout UPDATE!!! That means I've been working out long enough that I need to REVAMP MY WORKOUT!!! WOW!!!!! :hurray::hurray: I do have to also say that I just love the gym I go to. There is never a line, the machines are all well taken care of and modern, and the staff is just wonderful. Very professional and helpful. So great!!! Definitely a great help on this ever difficult journey.
 
That's pretty exciting actually about your exercise! I don't have my weight down far enough yet for doing what I WANT to but I remember how great it felt when I was accomplishing 30 min of cardio a day and weight training....so long ago, lol. I think I'm just as excited about getting the ability to be that active back as the weight loss itself. Glad you are proud of yourself because you should be! You're doing great. And good job not beating yourself up over little things and seeing the big picture :) ~Lisa
 
glad to see your progression has gotten to the point that you needed to revamp your workout. that sounds exciting. always fun to mix it up a bit. also im glad your feeling better. good luck with your new routine:seeya:
 
Lisa - Everyone has to start somewhere!! It's all about the fact that we ARE starting and continuing on this adventure!

Korrie - Thanks!! Glad to be back!

Size32 - Thanks! I'm excited to start the new routine.

Speaking of the new routine, I have my appointment with the trainer tomorrow!! Definitely excited. I really like the guy I got paired with. He's just really nice and very professional. I get the vibe from him that he truly wants to help people succeed with their exercise and fitness. Always important because I generally get nervous around personal trainers - even though it's their JOB to help flabby out of shape people like me!!!! :rotflmao:

Another note - I have officially hit the 10 LB LOSS MARK!!! YES! My Beck book tells me I should celebrate every 5lb loss so I need to figure out what I'm going to do. Maybe I'll put some money away every time I lose 5lbs to buy me a new ipod. Mine is OK, but is technically my husband's, and I . . . just like the fancy new ones that can hold a ton of music. :) Haha.

That is all for today! Gotta head to bed somewhat early, I'm zonked!!
 
Congrats on the 10lb loss :)
Its always nice to find trainers that really want to help people not just in it for the money.
Good luck with the new routine!
 
Super quick update because I'm zonked and want to go to bed!

Saw the trainer today - got a kick ass new workout! Also lost 1.3% body fat and a total of 4 1/2 inches in body measurements!! YES! Lost OVER an inch on my waist!

I'm so excited :)
 
So I got my new workout from the personal trainer and it KICKS my BUTT! I also was adding up my time on the treadmill every week and it is at least 6 miles per week. How awesome! I've been feeling the benefits of working out as well with increased energy and endurance. Even something as simple as walking up the stairs is now no longer something that will get me out of breath. I'm seeing real results in how long I'm able to work out as well as the weights that I'm working with.

Not sure if I have noted this in my diary yet, but I wanted to share my primary motivator - my husband and I want to try to become pregnant in the next year. Once we decided this, I realized that not only had I had my "aha" moment by seeing a picture of myself, but I also have someone else in mind when thinking of becoming healthier. I can't think about becoming a mom in my current state. I don't need to necessarily be thinner - although it would be nice - I just need to be healthier. I not only have the 9 months of pregnancy to contend with as well as the birth process, but also then needing to have the energy to keep up with a child! It is now not only for me, but for a little someone not yet created. Great motivator!!

Continuing to feel good about my progress, and keeping things slow and steady. I didn't do my calories for the past few days, so I think I'll do them for today and see where we stand.
 
That's the greatest motivator in the world :)
I have looked after 2 little girls for a couple of hours in the afternoon for 3 years now. Last year I just used to sit and read them stories and watch them play, this year I am up playing and dancing with them. They have so much more fun with me now. So yes it makes a huge difference to a child if you are fit enough to play with them and then the weight is more likely to stay off if you are more active with them.
 
Just a quick update as my workout today plus not sleeping well last night has me exhausted and ready for early bed!!

Down 11lbs total. YAY! Now losing consistently about 1lb a week which is excellent. I'm wondering if I should look at my calories more intently or not - I'm recording my food most days and right now I'm usually between 1500 and 1750. According to calculations, to lose weight I need less than like 1760 calories. So it seems that I'm doing the right thing. Just don't want to get too impatient with myself. Gotta remind myself that I lost 6-7lbs this month - if that keeps up, I can lose over 60lbs in a year. What an awesome thing that would be!!!

Have to say that I'm loving my gym time now. I look forward to it at the end of the day - my body almost gears up for it now and I start looking forward to moving and sweating. Great feeling!!

And with that, I'm heading to bed at a measley 9:30 at night. I'm so lame! :rotflmao:
 
Haven't posted for a while but just got caught up on your thread.

Congrats on the 11 pounds! Smokin!!!!

And well done at the gym! I started about the same time you did and just love it now.

I think your 1 pound a week is perfect....very doable and very manageable when you achieve your goal. Wont be too much of a change to go into a maintenance diet but enough to reward you for getting there.

Keepup the great work!!
 
I agree with Flumes, your weight loss rate is perfect. I think that you will be much more likely to see it through to the end if you don't rush it.
 
So I'm happy to say that my exercising is continuing to be spot-on. In fact, I'm getting better and better at it. Gave my workout a shot in the arm about a week and a half ago, and it was definitely hard at first, but now I'm getting through it with a little less difficulty. It's a great feeling to be coming into a level of fitness - ANY LEVEL - other than "couch potato". Haha!

I have been feeling my motivation wane a little bit as far as food goes, though. I haven't been eating complete crap like I used to, but I definitely haven't been quite as spot on. I haven't been reading the book lately either. So this weekend I ramped the book part back up and I'm doing the activities in it. The food stuff is OK, but I think I need to get back in the habit of logging my calories. I did it for most of last week, but I think I should do it on the weekends as well - that's when I am prone to eat the worst. The most recent activity in the Beck Diet Solution is to plan your eating the night before. Definitely hard on the weekends as sometimes I'm not sure what I'm going to be doing the next day! But I'm trying, and I'm going to try to plan as much as possible. Tomorrow I may have a meal out so I'm planning to have a soup and salad at that meal - whichever one it is. Then I have back ups for both lunch and dinner.

We'll see. Hard to keep the motivation up! Luckily I'm still loving the workouts so that's fantastic.

Was going to make this entry longer, but my kitten decided that my lap was better suited for him instead of my laptop. Silly little guy.
 
So I just had to share that today was crap. Complete and utter crap. I'm cranky, I'm hormonal, I want to eat everything that has a whiff of salt in it. Everyone at work was annoying and the phone never stopped ringing. I almost had to yell at one of the people I supervise - and I NEVER YELL AT ANYONE. Came home, unloaded groceries and ate dinner, then while going upstairs I knocked over a triple glass frame which had my wedding bouquet in it that my grandmother painstakingly pressed and dried for me. Lost about 1/3 of the flowers. At that point, I simply lost it and cried like a little girl.

Today. Was. Crap.

At the very least, it's almost over and I'm going to go upstairs and hide. I also ate just about according to plan today. Luckily, since my motivation was waning as far as eating went, the Beck Diet Solution came through for me again. It gave me a new way of recording my food and planning for each day. I didn't weigh myself today but suppose I ought tomorrow. I almost feel like not doing it this week - I feel so bloated (TOM - can't you tell with the ridiculous amount of irritability and tears in the above paragraph?) and my weekend eating was less than great. I suppose I just should do it anyway.

I missed the gym on Monday too, although I did a lot of work around the house and outside. Have everything ready to go back tomorrow. I've been exercising 5-6 days a week so I still feel OK about that.

OK time to give it up and go to bed. Oi.
 
Sorry that you had such a bad day yesterday. My advice is not to weigh yourself until you feel that you might have a good result. It's so easy to give up if you feel that you aren't getting anywhere so why put yourself in that position. I find that it really helps to keep a food journal every day as it makes me think twice befor e eating anything that I know I will regret later. Great going on the exercise.
 
Hey Eyckmans, thanks for stopping by again! yeah Tuesday was awful, but luckily Wednesday my car broke down. Hah! I only say luckily because I was able to work from home and it was a quiet, wonderful break. It cost me $300 to have that break, but I'll take the good where I can get it!

Weighed myself this week, and just as I expected, I'm up three lbs. Not surprised - that's what I usually see with TOM historically. I'm not going to put it on my ticker yet unless it stays through next week, as then I'll count it as actual gain. I've been planning each day's food the night before and it significantly cuts down on unplanned eating. Then as I eat everything, I check it off the list. So far so good. I made a tuna salad of sorts this morning using my new food processor the hubby got me for our anniversary. It was AWESOME. I put celery, olives, rosemary and some other spices in the processor then added the tuna and a few tablespoons of olive oil. Spectacular! Even planned a quick and easy dinner for tomorrow night which is a night we usually give up and order food.

Got to the gym yesterday and it felt grand to sweat again. It's starting to feel almost like my body is getting into a rhythm. I almost think of it as my body wanting to be athletic. I really do just get this feeling when I exercise that my body wants to be active and to move. It wants to flex its muscles and feel the wonderful feeling of leaving behind all of the things I spend my time thinking about and just get into a groove of something that is purely physical. It wants to sweat and move and breathe. And that's a cool feeling.
 
Got to admire the sort of person that finds something positive in their car breaking down :)
I so feel the same about the gym. It's like my body is telling me that just for once in my life it wants to see what it feels like to be fit. :)
 
Just checking in quickly; it's been a good few days! I've been tracking my food daily using the technique from the Beck Diet Solution every day which has been really helpful in curbing my cravings. I'm 99% sure that my weigh-in tomorrow will yield good results.

I've been kicking butt and taking names in my workout routine as well which has been greatly empowering. For the first time since starting back at the gym full force, I was able to jog for five minutes straight!! I've been walking quickly on an incline; slowly increasing my incline and speed until my body almost craved to jog. My heart rate did jump a little bit, however, it was 10 points over what I'm supposed to keep it in range of. (I'm not supposed to go over 164 and it went up to 174) So I'm thinking I'll keep it in my routine and just slowly work up to doing it for longer periods of time. I CAN'T WAIT until the day comes where I can just do a slow jog for my entire workout. WHAT A CONCEPT!!!! :willy_nilly:

That's about all for now. I took over for the lazy days of summer contest; hopefully people will come back to it!! I really loved that idea and hope we can keep it going.
 
Had a weird craving today - beer! One of the things I decided when I started this was that I was going to absolutely not drink during the week. My husband and I had a habit of drinking quite frequently. Nothing over the top, but just a glass or so of wine with dinner. I discovered that by taking those out of my diet, I saved a TON of calories!! Then I allow myself to "splurge" during the weekend, but still keep within reason. But driving home from the chiropractor today, I just craved a beer for some reason. I used all of my BDS techniques and pulled through - if nothing else, the biggest thing I have been able to take away by using this book has been the ability to work through a craving. That and the "hunger is not an emergency" lesson. HUGE!!!

I'm starting to discover that I need less for my morning snack which is pretty interesting. The snack that used to barely last me until lunchtime now lasts until almost 1PM. I might cut back on it tomorrow. I've been eating fruit and yogurt for snack - might just cut back to fruit and save the yogurt for afternoon snack. Not sure, we'll see how it goes!
 
You must log in or register to reply here.
Back
Top