Hangs head in shame....back again***Diary of Kaplooie***

The good news is that you can have your cake and eat it, too! There are TONS of recipe books out there that will enable you to make healthy AND delicious food without the negative consequence on your waistline.

You don't need to go to a gym for hours a day either to work out and lose weight. If you have some floorspace in your home and 20-30 minutes, that's all you need!

Losing weight isn't impossible, and yo-yoing doesn't have to happen. There are ways to live happily and be fit :)

- The Weight Loss Professor
 
*Peeping in your WLF window like a stalker.* :D :p

Hope everything turned out how you wanted/needed it to!

:hug2: Hang in there!
 
kaplooie said:
Cate: I was born in Seattle actually, but moved here when I was 8. My family is here, and from here, indigenous to the area.
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I looked up Indigenous Alaskans & am interested to know a little about your family's culture, if you are happy to share that with me. What a harsh environment it must be , but now I understand much more about why you would be back living there. I will tell you soon(privately) about something that has happened involving G's family. Australia has a shameful history of mis-treating it's native poulation & while I know that I personally am not guilty of that, it is still a blot on our nation & therefore on each & everyone of us.

kaplooie said:
Right now I'm trying to figure out how to get out of going out to the bar with a very forceful friend. She is texting me every few minutes and being really demanding and I'm going to turn my phone off. But She has to drive right by my house to go to the bar so I know she's going to stop by and try and drag me out. So I have the lights off and curtains drawn but the damn dog keeps pushing them open with her nose. And I can't lock the door because the kiddo is out with friends and will be heading home sometime between now and curfew. The reason I really don't want to go out is because my ex boyfriend Eric is in town and has been texting me all day and saying he is also going out and wants to see me. And I don't want to see him. He left me abruptly a few years ago when I was madly in love with him and totally broke me. And according to facebook he's engaged to someone who looks like she doesn't deserve for him to back peddle and try and hook up with an old flame. Not interested.
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How did you go? Eric sounds like a bloody tosser. I'm glad you're not with him any more.
 
Hi Ho! And thanks for popping in to my diary. Yes, its lovely to be back I have missed you all these past few weeks. There's no 2 ways about it, I shall be glad to see the back of this year.
Eric sounds an absolute prize wart. Thank goodness you are over him. So wise to keep out of his way too. Tell your friend why you are keeping your head down if she still pushes you to go out, tell her to come round with a bottle... preferably several but that is as far as you will go
 
I typed a huge long ol' post yesterday and didn't post it because it would have had to come with a warning label. I'm better today. Except that the scale keeps going up no matter what I do. I worked out yesterday, was under my calorie limit by a lot woke up this AM and was 3 lbs heavier and its not TOM. I nearly had an aneurysm. Today I did not work out, no time really as I was busy with work stuff and kid stuff and then got home to a disaster that I wanted to just get cleaned up already. So I cleaned. I'm under my cals by a lot for the day, made an absolutely disgusting dinner and even though I ate 20 minutes ago I'm hungry again but I tihnk I'm just going to make a big cup of herbal tea and go to bed without eating anymore. I'm at 825 calories for the day. I can deal with that. I know someone will act like thats the end of the world that I'm below 1200 but IDGAF right now. I'm just over today.

But I love you all. And that's what matters.

B: 9oz half and half (353) espresso (2) sf hazelnut syrup (0)
L: English Cuke (44) Miso (35) mustard (15)
D: Bell pepper, onion, garlic, mushrooms fried up in 1 tsp of coconut oil and spiced with a bunch of spices *toooo spicy* and wrapped up and eaten inside a cabbage leaf with 1 oz of brie (348)
Snack: 2 saltine crackers
Water: 2 24 oz bottles of water, 2 12 oz cans of seltzer, 16 oz of herb tea (coming up here soon)
Booze: NONE, probably why I'm so cranky. I decided to just quit drinking until after the Ball and I swear its happy juice and without it I'm just miserable.
 
& we love you too KP! "Life is way too long to stop drinking wine" ~ my dentist.
I kept putting on weight, no matter what I did, until I switched to 5:2. Maybe it's worth thinking about. Sending you gazillions of love, xoxoxo Cate
 
Cate: Believe me I have considered it. I suck at fasting though. I can do IF if I sleep for 50% of it, but 500 cals a day...I'd literally cry on those days I'm such a piggy.

So I ventured out on the interwebz to other sites I have not visited in a long time and read up on other dieters who I used to correspond with when I was successful at losing and I realized something. We are all fat again. I do not want to do this yoyo thing for the rest of my life! I do not want to turn 37 in April (take note...I expect gifts) and still be over 200 lbs. I'd like to at least be down to 180 by then. So I really need to just suck it up and be very ridiculously strict with myself.
I've already contacted my work out buddy and we are scheduled to go work out tonight at 6pm at the good cardio room (not the neglected pool cardio room with the old machines). The kiddo will babysit her kiddos and get dinner in their faces. I want to put a good solid 30 minutes into cardio and then do some abs and arms in the weight room.
I am also trying to automate my meals. I cooked a big batch of frejoles over the weekend so I'm going to be doing that with cheese and jalapenos for dinner the rest of the week. Here is today food:
B: Coffee (drip) and SF hazelnut coffeemate (100)
L: English cuke (44) miso (35) mustard (15)
D: Frejoles 100g (150), cheese (111), jalapeno (5) and then something else like chicken breast or browned hamburger (TBD)
Pre work out snack: peanut butter 1 tbsp (100)
Late night snack: TBD
Other: WATERWATERWATER, 2 cans seltzer, 16 oz tea
I'll update all that later when I have actually consumed it all. So far I've got lunch in the stomach bag. Lol!
 
Sweetie, you pm me your address & I will send you a present. That's a promise. It will only be a little present, but it will be a present from me. Enjoy the gym! Good on the kiddo! xoxo Cate
 
I was so tired last night after the gym. Mainly because I got busy in the afternoon and didn't get my spoonful of peanut butter before I went so I worked out and burned ~300 calories after only eating ~200 so far that day. When I got home I was SO TEMPTED to binge on bad food because I bought the kiddo Pizza pockets. I stayed on plan though, maybe ate a bit too much frijoles compared to my plan but not eating the peanut butter made up for it. And then I had a yogurt cup, and a diet soda. And before bed I was hell bent on eating leftover halloween candy from the kiddos stash but he was sleeping and I discovered the clever boy HID IT FROM ME!! LOL!!
Today I am barking up the work out buddy's tree to go with me again tonight. I will go regardless of if she goes but I like the company because we challenge each other with reminders of how hideous we will look in our too revealing dresses if we don't bust some ass. She got us tickets to a beer tasting next weekend (not this weekend thankfully!), and they are serving 8 beers plus food pairings. So we have arranged to work out the day and promised to slap food out of each others hands at the event. Some of our other friends are going to, and the local police association is offering free rides home because...ya...you have an event and stuff 8 beers in each attendee you're going to need to give them rides, LOL!!
Todays plan:
B: Coffee (drip) and SF coffemate (100)
L: Cuke (50), miso (35) Mustard (15) Cheese stick (50)
D: Frijoles (150), cheese (111), Jalapeno (5), Coke Zero (5), Chicken Thigh (160)
S: Cottage cheese w/ pickled beats (150) *for pre-workout*

Last night I did 30 minutes on the elliptical and 20 minutes on the recumbent bike then did a "total abs" routine that I downloaded. Today my abs are killing me. I need to work on arms tonight big time...don't want these flabby bat wings to take anyone out when I flail my arms about, talking and gesturing wildly. HA!!!
 
Where would I be without your diary KP. I just said to G that I LOVE your diary. I can picture you or your friend slapping food away! You really make me laugh. Thank you very much for being you & for letting us share your life, xoxo Cate
 
Cate: that was the nicest thing ever. I started my day today pretty low because even though I've been working my butt off and being very careful with food I'm still up in weight and then I come here and read that and I feel so much better.

So ya, I was up again today. Which is really frustrating. This year I've been as low as 217 I think, according to my MFP account. And I'm up at 231.4 today. Yesterday I was 230.4. I worked my ass off at cardio last night, took a hot sauna ate around 1000 calories and I'm up a lbs this morning. I just can't win. I feel like I look like shit too. I keep catching my own reflection in my computer monitor reflection and I have more chins then a Chinese phone book. Pardon the joke, but its something my late brother used to say to me all the time as a kid and it stuck.

I'm working out today at 1pm with the work out buddy. She has about an hour to do it, but I'm going to stay for longer and try and sweat out some water weight. I may even go visit the sauna room. We are working out at the part of the facility with the good cardio and weight room and the crappy cardio room and pool are across the street. Then we are going with our other friend to a beer tasting event with a pairing menu so food is kind of out of my control tonight. I hope its sample size beers and small portions of food. I really can't deal with any more gains this week.

Thanksgiving next week is giving me massive anxiety. I have no coping skills when it comes to family sanctioned binge fests. And my Mom is the worst food pusher, she literally acts so offended if you don't eat until you hurt. She will put MORE food on your plate if she thinks you didn't take enough. Mounds of food. And they gym will be closed that day. BOOOOO!!!!
 
You are very welcome KP. I meant it. Once again you actually made me laugh out loud. "More chins than a Chinese phone book". I have so many silly old-fashioned & non PC sayings in my head & that was one I had not heard before. It may be non PC but that doesn't stop it being bloody funny!
It may be worthwhile for you to try 5:2 because it sounds like what is happening with you is what was happening with me before I tried it. It didn't seem to matter what I did, my weight kept creeping up & now it has gone right back down to where I was a couple of years ago. I really don't feel like I am on a diet, except for those 2 days a week. I now enjoy them, because I like the feeling of not feeling full & fat. Until you are used to it it would probably be best to have the 'fast' days when you can stay at home or at least do not have a crazily physical day. I switch my days around, depending on what we have to do, but usually do Mondays & Thursdays. I don't think doing consecutive FD's is a good idea. If I really think I would LOVE to eat something in particular then I think "I can have that tomorrow if I want" & usually the next day I don't feel like it anyway. I have got to the stage now where I rarely crave anything & I don't over-indulge on non-fast days so it works well for me. PMme if you have any questions about it. I'm no expert on it & there is a good forum with lots of info on the 5:2 website. I have only posted a few times in it as my commitment is here, but the info/FAQ sections are good.
I'm glad I made you feel better KP. We have a mutual friendship & I am only returning the favour. I do LOVE your diary, xoxo Cate
 
:p now I want "pickled beats" to be a thing in music...

Food pushers are hard to deal with! Especially if they've been at it for decades. The only thing which works for me is to allow them to be offended and leave anything they add to my plate after I say no uneaten. The thing is: most of the time they aren't half as offended as you'd think and even if they do remember about it an hour later and complain about my "rudeness" the person they're talking to will be trying not to snicker because they know the person and their habits.
 
LaMa: like a band name?

229.8 this morning. But I'm probably super dehydrated. Drank so much last night. Made it through 5 beer samples then gave the rest of my beer tickets away. I ended up eating a piece of candied bacon, three cod balls, a grilled cheese sandwich quarter, a serving of macaroni and cheese, and a piece of apple pie. Then I drank three double whiskey's on the rocks and a glass of wine. AND THEN I walked all the way home, about 2 miles on pure ICE. It rained all day and then got really really cold and everything froze. I fell down twice. Once on a stretch of rocky beach when I was crossing the dry dock tracks, I tripped on the track and whacked my head on a rock. Thankfully I didn't die. Or I did and I'm posting from the spirit realm. Yet to be decided. Then I fell again going down a hill just all out flailing all the way down. I have bruises on my legs, butt, arms and my ankle is a bit swollen with a nice scratch on it. And my head hurts but that's a minor bump compared to the hangover I'm sporting. If I am dead it sucks that I can still feel pain, and that's the #1 reason I think I'm probably still alive and worse for wear.

Anyways, I'm waiting for a friend to give me a ride to my car since I left it at her house last night before we went to the beer tasting for obvious reasons. And then I am going to go work out and take a sauna.
 
Feeling much better today, Thank you, lol! Still sore on the bum though were I fell hard.

B: Coffee (100)
L: Two cabbage leaves (10), sriracha roast chicken breast (130), Mustard (15), Frigo Cheese head lite string cheese stick (50) coke zero (5)
D: Two chicken thighs boneless skinless (260), steamed veggies (60)
S: brie (100), yoplait (90) jello (5) cool whip lite (20) coke zero (5) String cheese (50)

I went to the gym again with my work out buddy, did 40 minutes walking on the treadmill at a 3.5 incline and between 2.8 and 3.0 speed, and then 20 minutes on the recumbent bike doing a hill program. Then we sat in the sauna for a bit, took a break, and sat in the sauna a bit more. It was a pretty good day. Hoping to see some dang losses and the scale!!
 
Hi KP, hope your bum is a bit better today :D you crazy gal! Be kind to KP, scales! :smash:
xoxo Cate
 
Super long day today. So glad I have a bonus day off tomorrow. Had a bad meeting with co-workers who got called out on NOT doing their jobs and tried to blame me (the manager) apparently I need to crack the whip harder and force them to do the jobs they are getting paid to do...they will regret today. Not taking that crap.

But, the silver lining to my day was it's my puppies 2nd birthday today and I made her a ribeye steak and bought her new toys and lots of treats. Tomorrow is Thanksbingeing and I've been tasked with making the candied yams. Which I will do. Reluctantly. No work out today, was too worked up after work and decided to come home and have a glass of wine for dinner and spend time with the Birthday girl.

B: Coffee (100)
L: 4 Laughing Cow lite cheese wedges (140), 4 cabbage leaves (30)
D: Bottle of wine (640), 3 oz Ribeye steak (240)
Water: Not nearly enough.

I fear tomorrows calorie count, and the gym is closed tomorrow. o_0
 
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