Half of Me:The Story of Fat Girl Slim

After spending the weekend trying to be somewhat honest with myself I think I may have figured out some problems that have led to my current predicament...

1 - I stopped taking vitamins three weeks ago...no reason other than pure laziness

2 - I got sick (see #1, above), still am sick with this stinking cold and it is effecting me. I don't like admitting that but it is. Workouts are harder and I am really tired in the mornings.

3 - I pick. I eat a lot of small things during the day, partly b/c I haven't eaten proper meals like I should have and partly b/c it is a rotten habit and I need to figure out how to ditch it. If I had the cojones to actually write down what I put in my mouth, I suspect that would be part of the root of my problem.

4 - Personal issues made it so I really didn't eat well, or much, for the better part of a week. Part of the increase may be that the low was a false low (as much as I don't want to admit it) and that I am back to where I should be which is just oh so depressing.

5 - Laziness - just overall, I am not weighing my food or taking the time to cook meals or pack a lunch.

6 - I am mid-cycle and that leads to a slow-down in my weight loss every month like clockwork. I need to work harder to stick with it to overcome that.

All of these things need to be fixed and I am more than a little overwhelmed by the prospect of it all. I am sick of this body and want more than anything to get rid of it.

That takes work and everything I have been doing lately is working against that goal. It is hard but I think I need to get back to doing what worked. I haven't killed myself for the last year + to quit now. I need to see this through.
 
After spending the weekend trying to be somewhat honest with myself I think I may have figured out some problems that have led to my current predicament...

You worked hard trying to figure out where you stumbled. That is not easy and it is not easy to admit it, either. Write down your food. Write it here for extra accountability. If you have to come in here and tell us that you ate *insert evil food* then you may be less likely to put it in your mouth because you know we will jump all over it.

You're right - you have worked too hard to give up now. See it through. No one ever said it was easy - but it will be worth it.
 
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