Half of Me:The Story of Fat Girl Slim

Bigguy said:
I told you last week- your arms and shoulders look great...
Not eveyone else's fault if you cannot see it.:D
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*sigh* I know, I know, I am working on it! I see big changes and know that I look a million times better - I am just highly critical of myself.

Here, does this make you happy? I AM THE HOTTEST WOMAN ON THIS FORUM DAMNIT AND EVERY MAN HERE WANTS ME!!!

*shaking my head, cracking myself up*

I think you look great Ali! Congrats on the loss (I do pay attention to people's tickers sometimes
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Thanks Sam :) Thanks for noticing - how are you feeling dear?
 
My Friday Night and other Mind Droppings

So I went to Philly with a girlfriend of mine for my first real night out in the better part of a year. I got all dolled up and we went to Olde City which has a large selection of bars to choose from.

First stop was a place called the Continental. It appears to be a converted diner, what it was was a really swanky maritini bar. I decided to have two drinks, something called a purple orchid martini and a prickly pear berry mojjito martini. They were both delish. For dinner I had orange-spice calamari. It had just the right amount of heat.

Onto what turned out to be our final stop of the night, a bar called Plough, which turned out to be in an old bank building. My friend and I drank and danced and had a wonderful time. I overdid it but couldn't have cared less, since it is such a rare occurrance.

The interesting thing to me that night was that I blended in with everyone else. For once, I was not the fat girl trying to fit in. I wasn't the biggest person in the room. I was a moderately attractive woman in my early 30s like countless other women there.

I felt like I had really accomplished something there - when I danced, people didn't stare at me like I was a force in motion and some skeevy dude actually tried to dance with me :D It was so funny.

All in all a great night. I stayed out crazy late and enjoyed myself to the max.

Sunday for mother's day I decided to abuse myself at the gym. 45 mins of cardio and 1h 20 min of weights :) what a way to spend the day!

I am feeling pretty good...
 
ali.smedley said:
purple orchid martini and a prickly pear berry mojjito martini. They were both delish. For dinner I had orange-spice calamari.
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Mmmm, that sounds tasty!!

ali.smedley said:
The interesting thing to me that night was that I blended in with everyone else. For once, I was not the fat girl trying to fit in. I wasn't the biggest person in the room.
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Sweetie, the difference is you felt normal. You are looking at yourself in a different light than you have before and so your perception of acceptance is different. There have been times I've gone out - feeling like a cow - and I'll see another woman on the dance floor who happens to be way larger than me. I don't think - wow, she looks awful. I always always think, "Damn, she looks confident. I wish I were more like her." I am so happy that you felt that good about you. There is no other feeling like it.

ali.smedley said:
I was a moderately attractive woman in my early 30s like countless other women there.
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Moderately my ass. You're very pretty. Give yourself more credit, willya?

Did you get pics?? I wanna see, I wanna see!!
 
Glad you enjoyed your rare night out in the city. Where's my invite? I love Olde City!

It's awesome that you felt 'comfortable in your skin' too! That's great.
 
Awesome - just don't freeze your tail off :) That is going to be an amazing experience for sure.
 
The interesting thing to me that night was that I blended in with everyone else. For once, I was not the fat girl trying to fit in. I wasn't the biggest person in the room. I was a moderately attractive woman in my early 30s like countless other women there.
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That is one of the biggest steps! Great job Ali. And you are very beautiful! Stop with the whole downing yourself and accept it already! :)
 
Steve said:
Glad you enjoyed your rare night out in the city. Where's my invite? I love Olde City!

It's awesome that you felt 'comfortable in your skin' too! That's great.
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You can come anytime!!!

The comfortable in my skin this was very weird - I haven't felt like that in a long time, if ever...I am enjoying it.
 
I'm so glad you had fun Ali. You deserve it a hundred fold. And it's only going to get better and better! Your new, confident life begins now...

Hugs!
 
The difference between this time out and the other times is only partly because of your weight loss. It's mostly because of your confidence. You have been working so hard on this new life style and it's working. You are doing everything right and it shows. With that behind you, why shouldn't you be confident. (and confidence is very attractive, as are you.)
 
Trops said:
The difference between this time out and the other times is only partly because of your weight loss. It's mostly because of your confidence. You have been working so hard on this new life style and it's working. You are doing everything right and it shows. With that behind you, why shouldn't you be confident. (and confidence is very attractive, as are you.)
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Thanks :) I am working on the confidence a little at a time...
 
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