ali2
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Exactly.
Compared to my brother I am skinny.
And a saint.
I am the household fatty...I win the prize in that race...but as far as behaving, well...he is good now but for a while he was let's just say, interesting
Half of Me:The Story of Fat Girl Slim
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I am the household fatty...I win the prize in that race...but as far as behaving, well...he is good now but for a while he was let's just say, interesting
pink clouds
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Did someone say evil?
You summoned and I came
You summoned and I came
ali2
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You summoned and I came
Welcome aboard
Lots o' evil here (hehehe) I am glad to have you!
bikinibound
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I'm picturing you all in Catholic school girl uniforms--Mal included. It's getting very naughty in here. *spank, spank*
I'm glad that like Ali, I did not have to endure the torture of the nuns.
My parents were too poor to send me to private school of any kind--well, I went to a private university..lol.
It's getting very naughty in here. *spank, spank*I'm glad that like Ali, I did not have to endure the torture of the nuns.
My parents were too poor to send me to private school of any kind--well, I went to a private university..lol.
bikinibound
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Some of the guys here would be very into that
hehe - I love boys, they make life so enjoyable...
I was picturing Bigguy in a Catholic school girl uniform, too. I'm kinky like that.
ali2
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I was picturing Bigguy in a Catholic school girl uniform, too. I'm kinky like that.
oooooooo - what a good picture that makes
kinky is a good thing you know...while we are at it, I think I want to see Keith in one of those as well 
Bigguy
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I was picturing Bigguy in a Catholic school girl uniform, too. I'm kinky like that.
I never did nor will I ever have the legs to pull the skirt off.
The little see-through blouse I wear on special occasions though.
Bigguy
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I'm glad that like Ali, I did not have to endure the torture of the nuns.
My parents figured that the price of Catholic school was less than the price of sending me to Chicago Public schools-hospital and psychological bills i guess.
They were right initially but way wrong in the long run. Although i will always have the memories........
Not that the memories are any good mind you.
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ali2
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My morning so far...
4:45 am - alarm goes off
5:48 am - I wake up thinking, HOLY SHIT - I should be at the gym by now!!!!!
I get up, get dressed and leave my house in literlly two minutes...only to get there and see my partner finishing up his first set of the second to last exercise we do on a lifting day.
Damnit....................
So I start doing bicep curls and since he did his first set he watches me do mine. Next thing I know he is telling me that my form is all off and correcting it. Now I know that in the long run this is a good thing, but today? Nope. I was like, are you KIDDING ME??? To accomodate the correct form I have to lower the weight, which feels like a regression, even though, as he pointed out to me, it isn't b/c the higher weight wasn't helping me if my form was all wrong. So after that lovely experience, he gets to go home (b/c he is done, remember?) and I have to finish up myself, cranky and still half-asleep.
Good morning to me.
It was just an aggravating way to start the morning, you know? So now instead of getting a shower and getting ready for work, I am complaining to you guys
I have court this morning, hopefully that will go at least how I expect it to go...then back to the office where I will attempt to stay awake until I get to go home.
I have to stop working until midnight and get some more sleep. Oh, wait, that would imply I am caught up with my work. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
I wish.
4:45 am - alarm goes off
5:48 am - I wake up thinking, HOLY SHIT - I should be at the gym by now!!!!!
I get up, get dressed and leave my house in literlly two minutes...only to get there and see my partner finishing up his first set of the second to last exercise we do on a lifting day.
Damnit....................
So I start doing bicep curls and since he did his first set he watches me do mine. Next thing I know he is telling me that my form is all off and correcting it. Now I know that in the long run this is a good thing, but today? Nope. I was like, are you KIDDING ME??? To accomodate the correct form I have to lower the weight, which feels like a regression, even though, as he pointed out to me, it isn't b/c the higher weight wasn't helping me if my form was all wrong. So after that lovely experience, he gets to go home (b/c he is done, remember?) and I have to finish up myself, cranky and still half-asleep.
Good morning to me.
It was just an aggravating way to start the morning, you know? So now instead of getting a shower and getting ready for work, I am complaining to you guys
I have court this morning, hopefully that will go at least how I expect it to go...then back to the office where I will attempt to stay awake until I get to go home.
I have to stop working until midnight and get some more sleep. Oh, wait, that would imply I am caught up with my work. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
I wish.
ali2
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I usually don't agree with statements like that but this time, I am going to agree w/you.
I WORK TOO HARD DAMNIT.
Unfortunately, there is nothing I can do about it - the judicial systems keeps moving forward whether I am getting enough sleep or not.
Thanks for the sympathy...it is going ok today, no crisis so far, yesterday was another story. Thank goodness it is over.
I wanted to do measurements today and I can't find the freaking measurment tape. I have no one else to blame for this as I am the last person to touch it...I tried saying a St. Anthony and everything - no joy.
So I will buy one and that will ensure that I will find it.
I have managed to eat some grapes and a yougurt today (oh yeah and a cookie) no coffee and I forgot to pack a lunch...
Grrrrrrrrrr...I need to get my act together...or at least get a nap. Tomorrow the IT guy is coming to work on our computer system and the boss says we are having wine and cheese since we can't do work ~ wahoo!! That should be good at least...
ali2
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sammyboy24
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Wine and cheese at your office! That would be so fun. I guess I could only dream that would ever happen at my job, lol.
Sorry to hear about your crazy work/workout days this week. You do work too hard. Are you getting enough sleep? I feel like I am dying if I don't at least average 7-8 hours per night. It's easy for me to get that though, because I don't have kids or a demanding career like you. I do feel for ya though. At least it is towards the end of the workweek today, for most. I gotta work today, then off tomorrow, then back on again overnight Sat. night. I don't mind the schedule so much, it is just hard to flip my body that fast from working overnight one night to working during the day a day later... Plus, I heard working overnite is a carcinogen, and I don't like the sound of that....
hang in there
-Sam
Sorry to hear about your crazy work/workout days this week. You do work too hard. Are you getting enough sleep? I feel like I am dying if I don't at least average 7-8 hours per night. It's easy for me to get that though, because I don't have kids or a demanding career like you. I do feel for ya though. At least it is towards the end of the workweek today, for most. I gotta work today, then off tomorrow, then back on again overnight Sat. night. I don't mind the schedule so much, it is just hard to flip my body that fast from working overnight one night to working during the day a day later... Plus, I heard working overnite is a carcinogen, and I don't like the sound of that....
hang in there
-Sam
ali2
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I am looking forward to the wine and cheese, it is a rare treat
Ok, enough of the niceities, I need to get something off of my chest and if I can get it out here, maybe it will be out for good.
I ordered two new bathing suits last week; I am going down the shore in June and my suit from last year is a 22 - I am not.
So based on the measurements I order a size 18 b/c these seem to run small. I get two tankinis, one in blue/green and one in black/white and black bottom. The blue one is w/a skirt, the black one has shorts as the bottom.
I get them in the mail today and am totally excited b/c they are super-cute and I haven't been able to wear anything like that in years.
Then I made the mistake of trying them on. The top looked good up to the point where my chest ended and the rest of me began.
In short: I hate what has become of my stomach. To say that the skirt didn't fit is the understatment of the century. I can't even begin to describe how my butt pushed up the back and my stomach distended the front. The shors were no better, my stomach is just out there for everyone to see.
Totally humiliating. I know that I have come a long way and have lost a TON of weight, but I hate what I am left with and the fact that my weight is still affecting me pisses me off.
My stomach is like its own unit, if I lift it up, I swear I am probably closer to a 10 under there. It is loose and flabby and makes me look like hell.
I can feel so good sometimes about how I look and then something like this kicks my ass.
It isn't a set-back but I just want to be able to wear nice things and look good doing it. I hate that I love how I look from the chest up and hate everything below it.
I have 60 days to return them so I will keep them for now and see if they look better closer to my vacation but in the meantime I will have to look around to see if I can find something else.
I need an underwire b/c of the wreckage my chest has become, so it is that much harder to find something that works.
I don't like feeling like this - I want to look at myself and like what I see - I don't want to only like it when I am wearing clothes that cover up this mess.
I guess the only thing that will take care of that is time.
Let's hope so.
Ok, enough of the niceities, I need to get something off of my chest and if I can get it out here, maybe it will be out for good.
I ordered two new bathing suits last week; I am going down the shore in June and my suit from last year is a 22 - I am not.
So based on the measurements I order a size 18 b/c these seem to run small. I get two tankinis, one in blue/green and one in black/white and black bottom. The blue one is w/a skirt, the black one has shorts as the bottom.
I get them in the mail today and am totally excited b/c they are super-cute and I haven't been able to wear anything like that in years.
Then I made the mistake of trying them on. The top looked good up to the point where my chest ended and the rest of me began.
In short: I hate what has become of my stomach. To say that the skirt didn't fit is the understatment of the century. I can't even begin to describe how my butt pushed up the back and my stomach distended the front. The shors were no better, my stomach is just out there for everyone to see.
Totally humiliating. I know that I have come a long way and have lost a TON of weight, but I hate what I am left with and the fact that my weight is still affecting me pisses me off.
My stomach is like its own unit, if I lift it up, I swear I am probably closer to a 10 under there. It is loose and flabby and makes me look like hell.
I can feel so good sometimes about how I look and then something like this kicks my ass.
It isn't a set-back but I just want to be able to wear nice things and look good doing it. I hate that I love how I look from the chest up and hate everything below it.
I have 60 days to return them so I will keep them for now and see if they look better closer to my vacation but in the meantime I will have to look around to see if I can find something else.
I need an underwire b/c of the wreckage my chest has become, so it is that much harder to find something that works.
I don't like feeling like this - I want to look at myself and like what I see - I don't want to only like it when I am wearing clothes that cover up this mess.
I guess the only thing that will take care of that is time.
Let's hope so.
Bigguy
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Ali,
I wish I could think of something to say to make you feel better about the situation. The only thing i can think of is that you know you look better than you did a year ago.
I do know this is not a great answer and I am sorry this is all I have.
Wearing a bathing suit is worse then going naked. At least naked it is all out there to see, A suit squeezes things together.
Wait the 60 days and see how they look on you then. You owe it to yourself to see.
Sorry I cannot think of anything else.
Chin up Ali
I wish I could think of something to say to make you feel better about the situation. The only thing i can think of is that you know you look better than you did a year ago.
I do know this is not a great answer and I am sorry this is all I have.
Wearing a bathing suit is worse then going naked. At least naked it is all out there to see, A suit squeezes things together.
Wait the 60 days and see how they look on you then. You owe it to yourself to see.
Sorry I cannot think of anything else.
Chin up Ali
ali2
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Ali,
I wish I could think of something to say to make you feel better about the situation. The only thing i can think of is that you know you look better than you did a year ago.
I do know this is not a great answer and I am sorry this is all I have.
Wearing a bathing suit is worse then going naked. At least naked it is all out there to see, A suit squeezes things together.
Wait the 60 days and see how they look on you then. You owe it to yourself to see.
Sorry I cannot think of anything else.
Chin up Ali
Thanks Brian - I know that there isn't a whole lot that can be said about it and I feel like a whiner even complaining but I guess at this stage in the game, I see how good I look and then when I tried on the suit I felt like everything I believed was just a big fat lie, even though I know that isn't the case.
I just want to look normal and have normal experiences like buying a bathing suit and have it fit. It will pass I suppose, it usually does.
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So last night my husband decides he wants dinner out and we end up going round and round for twenty minutes b/c I could care less where we eat. I used to care a great deal but that was when I would eat all of the shit those places had to offer. Now that I won't eat that stuff anymore, my interest in those things has waned somewhat.
We settle on Chilis and I get fajitas, the calories are reasonable, I don't eat the sour cream and only eat two of the tortillas. Veggies and meat basically, my safe food.
Well, I don't know if I am really losing my tolerance for all things even remotely bad or something but that meal hit me like a ton of bricks. I still feel full and bloated today...something to remember for next time I guess.
Just because a swimsuit doesn't fit you the way it does the airbrushed model in the catalog doesn't mean you don't look normal... It's the clothes not you... (this was a conversation that the what not to wear folks had with a person on the show recently) it's NOT you... you just haven't gotten the right suit...
The GAP has some cute looking swimsuuts that you can buy as seperates - try on a few different ones and you might find what you're looking for...
The GAP has some cute looking swimsuuts that you can buy as seperates - try on a few different ones and you might find what you're looking for...