Good eats... at least, they once were.

[Lilyofthevalley]

Blahhhhh...

Did pretty well today. The trick now is not eating voluminous amounts of junk food before my parents come home... and then, trying not to eat everything when they DO come home. They'll probably come home with leftovers...


Wow. I amaze myself. FOOD?! You JUST ate. Goodness gracious.

Treadmill? I have fleeting hope... must... not... touch remote.... must... not... fall asleep on couch....

Well, wish me luck. Here's to trying to kick my ass in gear...

Must... not... visit other people's threads.... too... much... DISTRACTION...


This is gaining a bizarre sort of hilarity...

Almost delusionally so...


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[douknowjello]

Lol Annie, you're so funny. You're doin great though girl and don't let this week get to ya. I have the hardest time before my TOM too so just do your best to get through it when your sanity intact Wish they had appetite suppressants just for that once a month, lol. I'd try some but they're all so damn expensive and I don't want to waste money unless I find out somebody else can tell me what works. Anyway I'll be on IM the next few days on and off if you're around *hugz* ~Lisa

 

[nmartinez0531]

Hello...

So i'm back from the big old burg... LOL! I saw that you left me a message, thank you for the warm welcome back, I'm very glad to be back also... You're too funny!!! Crack me up!!! You're doing great, so don't sweat the small stuff chickity and you'll be fine. Well, talk to ya later, just wanted to say hi...
Natasha

 

[Lilyofthevalley]

Lol Annie, you're so funny. You're doin great though girl and don't let this week get to ya. I have the hardest time before my TOM too so just do your best to get through it when your sanity intact Wish they had appetite suppressants just for that once a month, lol. I'd try some but they're all so damn expensive and I don't want to waste money unless I find out somebody else can tell me what works. Anyway I'll be on IM the next few days on and off if you're around *hugz* ~Lisa

ha, they should include appetite suppressants in the formula for Pamprin or Motrin.

Actually, I'd be afraid to use any appetite suppressants because I think I have a somewhat addictive personality. I could very likely get addicted to the weight loss that they would cause. That's why I'm never going to use any type of enhancer or mind altering thing and I will NEVER gamble. (I've tried on some games on the internet... I can't walk away.)

I'm proud of myself so far today... 1696 so far (hopefully that's all-- It's only 9:47... might have to go to bed early to avoid eating any more cookies and crap!)

Rawr. Maybe if I keep typing I won't get the munchies... That's right Annie... Keep your eyes on the screen... Keep your fingers moving... Mouth empty, enjoy that pride... Re-watch American Idol, laugh at the innuendo... notice how short Ryan Seacrest is... laugh at how he's shorter than me (and I'm pretty damn short. At least, compared to my family I am. ) listen to mom snore (haha it's more of a whine), and dad cough(he's caught a cold, and blames it on me )... wish I had a kitty to pet.... annnnnnnnnddddd.... now there's golf... oh boy...

hm. That did keep me from munching.

uh... bed now, can't resist much longer.

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So i'm back from the big old burg... LOL! I saw that you left me a message, thank you for the warm welcome back, I'm very glad to be back also... You're too funny!!! Crack me up!!! You're doing great, so don't sweat the small stuff chickity and you'll be fine. Well, talk to ya later, just wanted to say hi...
Natasha

Ha. I forgot I quoted you too.
Thanks for stopping by.
wait... burg... ICE burg? when the hell did you go to the arctic circle?
ha, I don't try to be funny, mostly it's just the thoughts running through my head that happen to be mildly amusing...

Blah.

Bed!
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[Lilyofthevalley]

Good day and bad day...
I got to spend time with a friend (YAY!) but I binged pretty bad

I had: 4 donuts, a footlong hotdog (plain), small order of fries (really greasy!), 4 bowls of chips, and 8 shortbread cookies.

Wow.

damn... It makes me feel pretty shitty when I eat like this, and I don't know why I'm doing it...

I wish my period would just fucking come already... it's pissing me off. gah.

My mom's in Charlestown WV with her friends,celebrating one of their birthdays.

Dad's really sick. He has a sinus infection and the antibiotics he took made him very physically ill...

Overall, good day for everything but eating. I pretty much feel crappy about the choices I've made today....

damn. now I'm all down in the dumps.

I took Sally (my kitty) to the vet friday, and they gave her some medicine because she keeps peeing in the middle of the floor. Some kind of antidepressant that has anti-inflammatory properties for the bladder... so I have to now shove a pill down her throat every morning along with giving her her eyedrops.

Blahhh.

Sam (brother) is home for the week (spring break)... he brought his bulldog, Beasley. Weirdest dog ever. He eats anything and everything on the floor. Dog food, cat food, scraps of food, cat poop... ANYTHING.

He IS adorable though.

blahhhhhhhh... watching america's funniest home videos... laughing, but still not actually cheerful.

Well... that's it.

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[Mad4Chillas]

Good day and bad day...
I got to spend time with a friend (YAY!) but I binged pretty bad

I had: 4 donuts, a footlong hotdog (plain), small order of fries (really greasy!), 4 bowls of chips, and 8 shortbread cookies.

Wow.

damn... It makes me feel pretty shitty when I eat like this, and I don't know why I'm doing it...

I wish my period would just fucking come already... it's pissing me off. gah.

My mom's in Charlestown WV with her friends,celebrating one of their birthdays.

Dad's really sick. He has a sinus infection and the antibiotics he took made him very physically ill...

Overall, good day for everything but eating. I pretty much feel crappy about the choices I've made today....

damn. now I'm all down in the dumps.

I took Sally (my kitty) to the vet friday, and they gave her some medicine because she keeps peeing in the middle of the floor. Some kind of antidepressant that has anti-inflammatory properties for the bladder... so I have to now shove a pill down her throat every morning along with giving her her eyedrops.

Blahhh.

Sam (brother) is home for the week (spring break)... he brought his bulldog, Beasley. Weirdest dog ever. He eats anything and everything on the floor. Dog food, cat food, scraps of food, cat poop... ANYTHING.

He IS adorable though.

blahhhhhhhh... watching america's funniest home videos... laughing, but still not actually cheerful.

Well... that's it.

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Ohh Annie, I think everyone has those days, dont worry about it. I defintely know abotu emotional eating--definetely sucks. But tommorows another day. So relax take a deep breath and think about how much fun you had with your friend and look as the day not as a failure but as something fun that won't happen anytime soon again. 1 slip up like that won't make everything go in reverse, so hang in there and be strong! Cheer up!

Hope things get better <3

 

[Lilyofthevalley]

Ohh Annie, I think everyone has those days, dont worry about it. I defintely know abotu emotional eating--definetely sucks. But tommorows another day. So relax take a deep breath and think about how much fun you had with your friend and look as the day not as a failure but as something fun that won't happen anytime soon again. 1 slip up like that won't make everything go in reverse, so hang in there and be strong! Cheer up!

Hope things get better <3

You know what? I love you.

I feel much much better now... I just got off the treadmill for an hour at a 7.5% incline. I'm so happy I just DID it, and didn't feel bad for myself that I didn't feel like it.

Thanks for the pep talk

Phew... maybe I should sleep the junk food off? haha... if only it worked like that, right?



I always love how I feel after I do the treadmill... I don't really know why I avoid it like the plague...

Welllll... now I have a brighter outlook on the day. I'm HAPPY!!

Time for bed. I'll catch up on you guys' journals tomorrow... Now that I know I'll wake up in a better mood.


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[Mad4Chillas]

You know what? I love you.

I feel much much better now... I just got off the treadmill for an hour at a 7.5% incline. I'm so happy I just DID it, and didn't feel bad for myself that I didn't feel like it.

Thanks for the pep talk

Phew... maybe I should sleep the junk food off? haha... if only it worked like that, right?



I always love how I feel after I do the treadmill... I don't really know why I avoid it like the plague...

Welllll... now I have a brighter outlook on the day. I'm HAPPY!!

Time for bed. I'll catch up on you guys' journals tomorrow... Now that I know I'll wake up in a better mood.


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Im sure tommorow you'll have a better day! Thanks for stopping by my Journal, and I completely agree with the whole avoiding exercise lol! I defintely have a love hate relatioship with the gym. But once im doing it I love it, but getting the motivation to do it is defintely my downfall. I pretty much need a carrot on a string to get me to the gym lol! More like a snickers bar! Hahaha!

Catch you later <3

 

[Lilyofthevalley]

Im sure tommorow you'll have a better day! Thanks for stopping by my Journal, and I completely agree with the whole avoiding exercise lol! I defintely have a love hate relatioship with the gym. But once im doing it I love it, but getting the motivation to do it is defintely my downfall. I pretty much need a carrot on a string to get me to the gym lol! More like a snickers bar! Hahaha!

Catch you later <3

God I know! It's like, put a candy bar on a string and hang it just out of arm's reach. Then MAYBE I'll THINK about it.

Haha...

I went to the grocery store with my sister today, and I'm getting McD's for dinner.

I'm very proud today... I haven't snacked on anything (god I hope I don't jinx myself!)... I woke up at what I thought was 10:30... it was 11:30... I HATE DAYLIGHT SAVINGS TIME!!! grr... but that meant I ate lunch, no breakfast, but I had a salmon cup (80 cal), sugar free jello (10 cal), and a serving of mini sour cream and onion rice cakes (70 cal). I'm pretty damn pleased with myself.

Now if I can just make it til dinner...



Thanks for visiting, Mariah, I really appreciate your positive attitude. It makes me feel good to know that someone other than my family cares about how I feel.



Now I wonder where everyone else went...

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[Mad4Chillas]

God I know! It's like, put a candy bar on a string and hang it just out of arm's reach. Then MAYBE I'll THINK about it.

Haha...

I went to the grocery store with my sister today, and I'm getting McD's for dinner.

I'm very proud today... I haven't snacked on anything (god I hope I don't jinx myself!)... I woke up at what I thought was 10:30... it was 11:30... I HATE DAYLIGHT SAVINGS TIME!!! grr... but that meant I ate lunch, no breakfast, but I had a salmon cup (80 cal), sugar free jello (10 cal), and a serving of mini sour cream and onion rice cakes (70 cal). I'm pretty damn pleased with myself.

Now if I can just make it til dinner...



Thanks for visiting, Mariah, I really appreciate your positive attitude. It makes me feel good to know that someone other than my family cares about how I feel.



Now I wonder where everyone else went...

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Haha oh Annie- you always make me smile! Way to go girl, see don't let one blip in your day mess up the rest! Your doing fabulous, and McD's sounds fabulous--I was going to get BK or Subway afte my class but decided to bypass both and just go home and make lunch.I swear Im the only future dietitian who has vice for chocolate and fast food-curses! Lol!

Hope you have a grand night!

 

[Lilyofthevalley]

Haha oh Annie- you always make me smile! Way to go girl, see don't let one blip in your day mess up the rest! Your doing fabulous, and McD's sounds fabulous--I was going to get BK or Subway afte my class but decided to bypass both and just go home and make lunch.I swear Im the only future dietitian who has vice for chocolate and fast food-curses! Lol!

Hope you have a grand night!

ha, I seriously doubt that you're the only future dietitian with a fast food and chocolate vices. I think many more people than you know have such vices.

HA! I did the treadmill. 1 hour!! 410 Cal!!

yayyyy!

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[Mad4Chillas]

Yayy Annie! You kick that treadmills butt!!

 

[Ankebuzz]

Wow, you're sticking to the treadmill thing!!!

If I didn't have an appointment to run 3x a week, I would not have stuck to it like I have... write it on your calendar or diary which days, what time and for how long you'll go... If you like planning and tracking.... WHICH I LOOOOOOVE!!

Emailed you the exercise plan

 

[Lilyofthevalley]

Oh... haha... I was awfully naughty yesterday.
3005 calories. I know, WHAT?!
man... 2 milky ways, 5 dove chocolates, a small bag of Fritos corn chips, 5 lemon iced shortbread cookies, 10 slices of deli ham, 1 string cheese, 2 sugar free jellos, an ice cream sandwich, 50 goldfish crackers, 6 pieces of cinnamon hard candy,2 peanut butter and jelly sandwiches, 6 Burger King chicken tenders, and a small french fry... not to mention several drinks of green hawaiian punch (not the sugarfree stuff. )

Jeeze... I was seriously unstoppable yesterday. It was pretty ridiculous.

Well, Today's another day.
I started out kind of binging (8 dove chocolates and an ice cream sandwich along with my breakfast/lunch of 4 slices of ham and a string cheese) but I CAN BEAT THIS!

god... I'm actually pretty embarrassed about that whole deal yesterday. It was ludicrous...
Well... I'm working on it. I'm checking in so I can kind of keep myself accountable. I'm going to eat at mcD's instead of subway and getting a big kid's nugget meal (6 pieces and a small fry) instead of a foot long ham and cheese sub (I know my mom will make me get a foot long because it's the "Any foot long for $5" sale and the 6 inch costs just as much... and I don't have the self restraint right now to NOT eat the whole thing!)

and I'm NOT going to bring money to class so I can't get a snack. (hey, that's actually a good idea... I just thought of that!) *sigh*
I'm going to keep my pockets free of money Monday-Wednesday (those are my class days), just so I have no excuse to stop at the gas station on the way home or wander into the student lounge looking for a vending machine that they recently added my favorite candy bar to. CURSE THEM, AND MY LOVE FOR NOUGAT-Y, CARAMEL-Y, CHOCOLATE-Y DELICIOUSNESS!!!!!!

My lump of a brother is still asleep on the couch... at 2 in the afternoon.
He's home on spring break from his senior year at Virginia Tech (which he got a full scholarship to)... so I guess he's entitled.

Blah! Time to stop being lazy and get my shower. Nope, no treadmill. Maybe if I get out from class early enough, but I'm so tired, I'm not really counting on it.

Ha... thanks in advance for not making fun of me

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[nmartinez0531]

Hey there chickity... Sounds like you had a lil rough patch. Doin't sweat the small stuff, it was just one day and you can and will move on from this. Just pick yourself up and keep trucking. You are truly an amazing girl and you are doing so awesome!!! Keep up the good work K Look how far you've already come... Not much further for you girl... well until next time...
Natasha

 

[txsqlchick]

We all have bad days but it's tougher when you live at home with your family. I'm OLD (33) but young enough to remember what living at home was like, it's tough!

You're doing FINE!

 

[Lilyofthevalley]

HA! I EFFING DID IT! 1462 cal for the day!

Of course, it helps that I wasn't home for most of the evening. First, I had class, then, on the way home, I realized I left my laptop at school... I got home, because my ride wouldn't turn around (I understand though, we were almost home and she was so tired! ) so my brother (yes, the lump. He was SOOOO nice. ) took me back to the college and picked it up. I called and had my computer picked up and brought to the security desk, so I could just run in (and not embarrass myself by walking back into a class that wasn't actually over... he lets people out who understand the material he goes over.)

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And I forgot to post this last night.
I have something to add this morning.
Honestly, I'm terrified of growing up. I don't want the responsibilities, I don't want to have to find a spouse or life partner. I don't want to get hurt. I woke up this morning thinking of that book Twilight... I think everyone would love it if they found someone like Edward... Always there, never wants to hurt you, completely devoted, loving, not to mention quite handsome. I wish it was a perfect world where I could find someone like that... but I'm terrified I won't. I don't want to have to go through breakups. I don't want to cry, and feel like the world has been yanked out from underneath me. I don't want to put myself in a position to be vulnerable, and be hurt by being cheated on, or dumped because some other person was more attractive... I'm petrified of life beyond my home. I don't want to drive because that means I won't have to rely on someone to drive me around. I don't want to be solely responsible for anything. In a perfect world, some guy or girl would completely sweep me off my feet, be nothing but truthful, and never think of hurting me. But I know that's not going to happen. There will be many people who hurt me... and I don't want to go through that. But what can I do? Nothing. Why can't I be 17 forever?!




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[Mad4Chillas]

HA! I EFFING DID IT! 1462 cal for the day!

Of course, it helps that I wasn't home for most of the evening. First, I had class, then, on the way home, I realized I left my laptop at school... I got home, because my ride wouldn't turn around (I understand though, we were almost home and she was so tired! ) so my brother (yes, the lump. He was SOOOO nice. ) took me back to the college and picked it up. I called and had my computer picked up and brought to the security desk, so I could just run in (and not embarrass myself by walking back into a class that wasn't actually over... he lets people out who understand the material he goes over.)

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And I forgot to post this last night.
I have something to add this morning.
Honestly, I'm terrified of growing up. I don't want the responsibilities, I don't want to have to find a spouse or life partner. I don't want to get hurt. I woke up this morning thinking of that book Twilight... I think everyone would love it if they found someone like Edward... Always there, never wants to hurt you, completely devoted, loving, not to mention quite handsome. I wish it was a perfect world where I could find someone like that... but I'm terrified I won't. I don't want to have to go through breakups. I don't want to cry, and feel like the world has been yanked out from underneath me. I don't want to put myself in a position to be vulnerable, and be hurt by being cheated on, or dumped because some other person was more attractive... I'm petrified of life beyond my home. I don't want to drive because that means I won't have to rely on someone to drive me around. I don't want to be solely responsible for anything. In a perfect world, some guy or girl would completely sweep me off my feet, be nothing but truthful, and never think of hurting me. But I know that's not going to happen. There will be many people who hurt me... and I don't want to go through that. But what can I do? Nothing. Why can't I be 17 forever?!




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First off--Congrats on the awesome cal count! Its definetely mind over matter

Secondly, I think everyone has a fear of getting older, I will honestly tell you that when I turned 20 last June I was so sad because I was no longer considered a "teenager" and now that Im considered a senior credit wise for college, but Im delaying my graduation until next May--even though its going to cost me a semester more...I have a strong ambivalence about getting older-At one point I want to get older, start my career, get an apartment by myself, move away, get engaged to my boyfriend and possibly married, but the other side of me wants to stay in school as long as possible, not start an internship or career til its absoloutely necessary and try and date new people to test the waters. I seriously go through this debate in my head at least 3 times a day. Getting older is defintely harder, and putting yourself ou there can be tough *I have had social anxiety for years* but its something everything has to do and unfortunaley its completely inevitable. I wish there was a way to freeze time and go back to when we were younger. Trust me Id love to go back to when I was 7 when my biggest problem was that my dad packed me the wrong kind of sandwich in my lunch, or my mom forgot to pick me up at school...But until then, Im going to have to suck it up and stomach the fact that Im becoming/already am an adult.

Don't worry Annie, you are still young--hell, we both are. Life is scary. But trust me letting yourself be put on the line for a relationship or anything at all is going to make you a better and stronger person, and not to sound cheesy as people say "It is better to have loved and lost, then to have never loved at all" Which I can honestly feel is true.

Hang in their girl, and dont worry about your pre-mid life crisis, Everyone goes through it!

Hope that helped <3

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[nmartinez0531]

Hi Annie I just want to say AWESOME job on the calories!!! You are doing it girlie!!! I know how hard it is when you're younger to eat with a family... it sucks when you can't be the one making the food choices, but also nice sometimes, because you don't have to work as hard at it and don't have to think about it as much....
Now, as for you getting older, let me tell you... I'm 25... I know, not that old really, but lets just day I'm no newly hatched chicken neither. I have been hurt tons of times, but the way you have to look at it is that #1, it is a learning experience, #2, it 's practice and getting to know yourself for who you are and what you do and don't like about a significant other or people in general, #3, it DOES actually make you stronger and alot wiser. It is scary going out into the unknown, but it is also very very exciting. It's awesome to be able to get your own place for that first time, and when you find that first boyfriend that sweeps you off your feet and makes you feel so special. Is it sad leaving your parents? I won't lie to you, yes it is, I'm 25, haven't lived with my mom for over 7 years and live 3 hours away from her, but you never lose your closeness at heart, it actually makes your bond stronger and different, but in a good way. Is it hard when you get hurt by someone you love? Definitely. It feels like you're never going to get over it, like you'll never find anyone like them, you're never going to be happy again, but guess what, with time, you do get over it, and you will find someone way better, and hopefully the next time around you'll be alot more cautious about who you give your heart to and you'll know more about yourself and the kind of person you want to be with. It's all a part of learning, it's life, and it's beautiful in so many ways. You will be fine Annie, you just have to trust yourself and your heart to guide you through the tough spots. And know that everything happens for a reason, and every birdie must fly the nest at some time or another. I hope that helps to soothe some of your anxiety. I have been there, and you will get through it. And maybe 7 or so years down the line, you'll be telling someone else what you've learned about stepping out into the world... and might help soothe their fears.

Natasha

 

[Ankebuzz]

Hey Annie!

Don't worry, it does not all happen in one fell swoop... it's a gradual transition, and bits of it suck, but most bits rock (once you get over the fact that you are now responsible fore ALL you do )

I also wanted to be forever young and care free... til I got a taste of REAL freedom...

Don't worry about it, you're allowed to be scared, I was too. You get over it when you realise that you actually WANT to grow up (or that you already grew up, and didn't even notice until a friend reminded you about being scared of growing up on a weight-loss forum one day )