Goal: To lose 20 lbs in 10 weeks

Day 5 and 6 went well. My eating is outstanding and so much better being unnatural sugar free. My exercising has been bad as I have to work more due to holiday but being very active so its ok. I will get some walking in today and hope to get back to schedule Tuesday after holiday. Im looking forward to reporting my first week weigh-in tomorrow, the news is good :).

Im very excited to say Im being featured in an article on the biggest website in my professional niche. Over a month a few thousand people in my industry will see it so its kinda a big deal. I need to submit five pictures of myself in a natural setting. This sucks because I hate having my photo taken. I have five old photos but they are not in their specs but Im going to try to submit them anyway. I carry a ton of my extra 35ish pounds in my head and last thing I want are pics of me being in this state out there. My other pics are over the past few years and even at my target 190 my melon looks big. Really self-conscious about the whole thing and dont want to take pics in the next two weeks at all.
 
Way to go with sticking to your eating plan. I wouldn't worry too much about the brats and Sprite, just keep going. When something like that happens to me, I just say to myself it's 'water under the bridge'. It's important not to see that as a huge slip-up because that may lead to eating more of the stuff you're not supposed to eat. You can only try better with the rest of the day, as one cheat meal won't make that much of a difference in the long run. As long as you just keep it to one cheat meal per week, you'll be fine. That way you won't feel like you're missing out and get stressed about it, which makes following any diet plans much harder.

Congrats on the article! I know I hate getting my pics taken too. But I guess you can look at it in a way that since you're already working on yourself, things can only get better. It doesn't really help with being self-conscious, though. Just keep going strong with your goals!
 
weightlossfish said:
Im very excited to say Im being featured in an article on the biggest website in my professional niche. Over a month a few thousand people in my industry will see it so its kinda a big deal.
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Congratulations! It's more than "kinda a big deal". It IS a big deal & you should be very proud of yourself. Be proud of yourself too for taking steps to ensure you won't be in the same situation again, photo-wise.
weightlossfish said:
My eating is outstanding
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That is wonderful to see. Well done WLF!
 
123xyz said:
Way to go with sticking to your eating plan. I wouldn't worry too much about the brats and Sprite, just keep going. When something like that happens to me, I just say to myself it's 'water under the bridge'. It's important not to see that as a huge slip-up because that may lead to eating more of the stuff you're not supposed to eat. You can only try better with the rest of the day, as one cheat meal won't make that much of a difference in the long run. As long as you just keep it to one cheat meal per week, you'll be fine. That way you won't feel like you're missing out and get stressed about it, which makes following any diet plans much harder.

Congrats on the article! I know I hate getting my pics taken too. But I guess you can look at it in a way that since you're already working on yourself, things can only get better. It doesn't really help with being self-conscious, though. Just keep going strong with your goals!
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Im pretty happy on how I moved on from the brats and soda, I did use the "water is under the bride", which is rare for me. Im looking forward to this weeks cheat meal which will probably Saturday as going out to watch Meisha Tate fight at a bar so I see a few beers and maybe a burger in my future :).

Im happy to say I found 5 pics buried in my Facebook that should work. Ive always been self-conscious of photos my whole life, even when an athlete and had a wall of hair. Now Im fluffy and total baldo but my emotional state is still like when I was in early 20s so I even hate being photographed more. I even have a live-stream part of my project, but its totally shut down as last year when I was streaming the fat shaming and trolling was brutal and I have no desire to endure that but its hard as the platform is massive and is such a benefit for what Im doing. So basically Im setting my live streaming weight at 195, which could put me into 2017, but dont care if have to wait.
 
cate said:
Congratulations! It's more than "kinda a big deal". It IS a big deal & you should be very proud of yourself. Be proud of yourself too for taking steps to ensure you won't be in the same situation again, photo-wise.

That is wonderful to see. Well done WLF!
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Thanks, I have a had time being proud even when things go well, but Im turning the corner on that as things are looking up on what Im doing, but must exercise patience as its a brutal world out there. I look forward to getting down in 190s and see how the photos look as looking at the ones I found, Im really not as horrible looking as I thought.

On the other hand Im very proud of my diet this week. Only slip was the two brats, sprite and one beer. Other than that, just water, fruit, veggies, chicken and some healthy snacks. Totally cut out junk food, red meat, milk, bread (besides brat buns), and other crappy stuff.

Exercise was a failure, but Im working double hours due to holiday on my real job, plus my personal project. I got in 6 miles of biking and 11.5 miles of walking.

One week weigh-in = 226, 3 pounds lost. I was at 225 for a bit which was exciting. I cant wait to get under 220, that will be a huge confidence boast. But understand it could take some time and will take one day at a time.

This week is a little weird with holiday. I have to work all day again and will be exhausted tomorrow on my rest day which will be great to do nothing.

Exercise goal:

16 miles walk/hike
3 hours basketball (shooting around and drills, as cant play as will get hurt)

Im not going to bike until I get a helmet and not sure if will get one this week. Im cheap so will check the thrift shop first and if not got to target or something, but may take until next week. Hanging out on the basketball court is great as Im running around after ball and getting upper body with all the shooting and drills which is something I really need cause cant lift or swim.

Happy 4th all!

:)
 
Fat shaming is disgraceful, in any setting or circumstance. REALLY disgusting!
weightlossfish said:
Im very proud of my diet this week.
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Good for you! :D
weightlossfish said:
Im really not as horrible looking as I thought.
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You must erase even the faint thought that you are horrible looking. Learn to really love yourself. I have a photo of myself when I was in my early 20's as wallpaper on my laptop. I look gorgeous. I never knew it at the time. That is sad. Instead of looking at ourselves critically we should look to see the good & focus on that & treat ourselves like we treat others.
 
LaMaria said:
Fat shaming in a professional setting? :eek: People really suck sometimes, I´m so sorry you had to experience that.
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The problem is I do a lot of marketing on forums related to gaming and another industry with horrific people and I can't avoid them. I have a Twitch channel connected to the second industry that has A LOT of filthy people, but on the good side some great people, but the trolls are more aggressive.

Fat shaming, bald shaming, age shaming (Im in 40s, but is mostly 20s/30s crowd), life-choice shaming, mental health shaming and to add to all this fun, racism and pure hate.

Couple in attacks on my own platforms and social media which has lead to serious threats to my family, friends, and to myself.

I am a very honest person and transparent which leads to massive chaos in the masses so its hard to avoid all of the above.

I will tell you the damage it has done has been beyond serious both with business development and my mental state. When I see these teenagers killing themselve over both Internet and in real life bullying it breaks my heart, but have a little bit of understanding as the effects are devastating on the soul, but Im happy to say I have learned to balance the damage, but I will never understand the hate and will struggle with the issues, but Im not going to quit because of them, I will just use as fuel for the success I feel I will eventually attain.

sorry for rant...
 
Hana- said:
Hey :) I really like your exercise goals with the basketball :) Awesome job with the article!
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Thanks, Im really excited. I have these awesome high tops and ball so all set to go. I have a woobly knee so I have to stay out of games, but just shooting that rock for an hour and chasing around is great exercise. Its always great if there is another person there to play pig with, but that is only like 10% of the time.

Thanks, Im really excited as the owner of the site is the #1 travel blogger in the world. I dont know him but I know a few people around him. Its a featured member of his forum article so its cool as there is interaction with it. Id love to do some business with this guy, but not at the point where I want to be, but could be in a few months so just getting this piece of work on his site is big as he will know me for sure and I just have to crush my current project plan.
 
cate said:
Fat shaming is disgraceful, in any setting or circumstance. REALLY disgusting!

Good for you! :D

You must erase even the faint thought that you are horrible looking. Learn to really love yourself. I have a photo of myself when I was in my early 20's as wallpaper on my laptop. I look gorgeous. I never knew it at the time. That is sad. Instead of looking at ourselves critically we should look to see the good & focus on that & treat ourselves like we treat others.
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You look gorgeous now, have a very positive glow. I bet in real life you are an incredible person to be around..

I had extremely low self-worth when growing up and when I got hit with serious depression and social anxiety at around 14 I pretty much thought I turned into a goblin.

This stunted my emotional growth and struggled with a lot of things as teenager and in 20s. I always thought I was really ugly and offered no value. Funny thing was I always dated very pretty girls. I was so blind.

While Im now way more comfortable and more secure with my looks, being 36 pounds over weight makes me feel very uncomfortable. But the good news Im not avoiding people, but having my picture taken is forbidden until Im way down in weight.
 
Never mind the rant; you're owed a bit of ranting. Cate is right: shaming people for any of those reasons in any circumstances is disgusting. The only valid reason to shame someone is when they do something shameful - like shaming someone on the internet just because you're jealous of them. I admire your perseverance.
 
LaMaria said:
Never mind the rant; you're owed a bit of ranting. Cate is right: shaming people for any of those reasons in any circumstances is disgusting. The only valid reason to shame someone is when they do something shameful - like shaming someone on the internet just because you're jealous of them. I admire your perseverance.
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Thanks, felt a lot better after writing the above posts. Has been a huge issue with me and truthfully I have to learn how to deal with it better as I get real upset and than start feeding the fire fighting these people which makes it was worse, but Im sorta combative when backed in corner.

Day 9 went well. I took it easy today as so burned from working. Got a couple of miles of walking and stocked up on food. Strangely I have a new addiction to pears, they seem so filling and taste like heaven!
 
Got to the basketball court for an hour and was a blast. Since I walk the half mile, I also get a mile of walking in :).

Ended up getting into a game of knockout (game with two balls that makes you run a lot) which is ok as there is no contact with others reducing the injury risk down, but still using muscles that I havent used in a year or so. It will be interesting how I feel tomorrow, but really happy to get outside and get some exercise doing something I love.
 
Well done WLF on getting out & doing something that made you feel better. Sometimes it's really hard, but it's worth it xo Cate
 
weightlossfish said:
You look gorgeous now, have a very positive glow. I bet in real life you are an incredible person to be around..
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Thank you very much for saying this the other day. I didn't know what to say at the time as I was feeling a bit emotional. I sometimes find it hard to accept compliments. I'm getting better at it, but I still get embarrassed. I want you to know that I was very grateful for your lovely compliment. I was having a bad day, but you made me feel special. Thank you WLF xo Cate
 
cate said:
Well done WLF on getting out & doing something that made you feel better. Sometimes it's really hard, but it's worth it xo Cate
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Thanks, it feels good to do something that you love but takes effort, cant wait to get back out there!

My body feels good, no aches or pains. have a long day of work so hope to get a few miles walk into today :).
 
cate said:
Thank you very much for saying this the other day. I didn't know what to say at the time as I was feeling a bit emotional. I sometimes find it hard to accept compliments. I'm getting better at it, but I still get embarrassed. I want you to know that I was very grateful for your lovely compliment. I was having a bad day, but you made me feel special. Thank you WLF xo Cate
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Your welcome :). I find it incredibly hard to accept compliments too. In fact yesterday I got a few great compliments for a piece of my work and for some reason I just dont enjoy them as much as I should, but when its the opposite and someone says something not nice I tend to melt down. I think I do the same and get embarrassed when people are nice, maybe its a self-worth issue and not being able to handle hearing positive stuff that we possess?

I also want you to know how grateful to hear that my compliment was helpful with your bad day. I woke up this morning in a bad mood as massive workload and just feel overwhelmed with life and to hear that I helped out a little is something that makes me feel better and will try to remember this very pleasant exchange when I have my bad moments today, which I feel like will be quite a few.
 
I do think it is a self-worth thing & I do work on it & am much better than I used to be. I hope your day is not full of bad moments. I don't cope well with feeling overwhelmed. It's nice that you will think of our exchange as a positive in your day. I love this place. Never underestimate the power of kindness. I think we are all capable of helping one another get through tough times xo Cate
 
I totally agree on all that you have said. Its really nice here and that is rare in forums. Its really helping me stay on task too as Im being pulled to the dark side due to the stress level Im at. Its mostly self-imposed but I must be hard on myself to get where I want to be. I do lighten up during the day and allow myself to relax and balance my work loads, but Im at like 80 hours a week of work and the stack that I have to process is immense and that is what gets me overwhelmed as I hate being jammed up. But I could get out of this phase in 30 or so days as once the stuff is processed its really valuable so its all good :).

I got two miles of walking in but my quads are killing me from jumping yesterday but I should be alright. I caved in and got a large BLT at Jimmy Johns with chips and a Sprite. The Sprite was like crack entering my system. I was happy I didnt refill one for road like I always do and just threw it away. Ill let it go as I needed to release stress somehow and I now feel better as I knocked a few annoying tasks off today.
 
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