Girl on a Mission: Miss Muffet's Ramblings and Such

thanks so much for the support!! makes me feel really proud and motivated :)

ETA: i have that quote in your sig up on my door. i totally believe it.
 
things have been going well :) i've decided to break up my cardio into a 40 min session and a 20 min session, before and after my personal training session. that way i can work in my internship with my exercise.

i'm wearing pants from before college :) :) :) and they fit perfectly! it's weird, because the scale isn't saying that i've lost more than 5 pounds... but i feel like i'm so much smaller than i was before. oh well, i'll take it!
 
Yay for fitting into old clothes!! You are absolutely gorgeous- I was just reading through your past entries. That's got to be really rough without support from your parents. Just know that we all think you are beautiful!

Something else that struck me was that at the moment the only way I can keep up with my "THE boy" is facebook because he graduated last year from my college. haha...it sucks doesnt it? And you will have that moment of victory, just keep up with your plan. I've been cycling my calories and it's really been helping. Have you ever tried that with your eating plan?

Can't wait to hear more- feel free to drop by my diary too:)
 
thanks callie :) my parents DO support me, don't get me wrong! they're really really supportive... they just don't always know how to say the right thing. which can get me a bit miffed from time to time. but they do want to see me succeed. as for the boy... i haven't talked to him in almost three months now. bah. and what's this about cycling calories? i'll take a peek at your journal to see if i can find out...

i want to write about the boy. i miss him so much. crazy to think that we used to talk every day, a day without talking to him was like a day without breathing... it just didn't happen. and now, well, i guess things have changed. i know that he's just waiting for the right timing, but when is that going to be? i have a feeling he's a believer in fate, but i believe that we have to make our own fate. we can't just sit around and expect everything to happen for us (kinda the same with losing weight, i guess). i know we are going to end up together. don't ask me how, cause i don't know. we just are. he knows it too. it's just a matter of WHEN.

bah. three months is too long to go without hearing from him. that's 1/4 of a year. i wonder if i should give him a call...
 
Thanks for coming by:)

Well, the cycling calories thing is a way to keep your metabolism high even while dropping fat. The program I'm doing cycles like this:

1900 cals. 2100cals 2300 cals 2500 cals. 1900 cals 2100 cals 2500 cals.

That would be a week's worth. But of course, the only reason I'm eating that much is because I'm using the Personal Food analyst which is a tracking software that leads you into a conditioing phase to raise your metabolism, then a fat burning phase. I know that sounds like a lot of food but now that I've done conditioing, my metabolism is really high. There are actually women who blog there at the site who are eating more than I am. It's really fun actually.

But the point is, the low day shocks your body once its been used to eating more, then you add more cals the next day so your metabolism doesnt permanently drop. It's like a fire, the more fuel you add the hotter it burns. What's really crazy is that I've discovered that if you are eating clean fuel, your body ends up using it instead of gaining. I at almost 2700 cals daily in conditioning of rice, sweet potatoes, chicken fish eggs veggies etc some fruits. but I didn't get any bigger. I think I gained a lot of muscle though.

Anyway, I'm blabbing...I have so much enthusiasm for this way of life...hope that gives you some ideas, definitely check out the website too.


When you talk about that guy I feel like you are basically writing my thoughts out...it's so weird because I am in the exact same situation...I told my mom when I met him...I've met someone I could actually marry (which has never happened to me before). I believe in destiny, but I also believe that destiny has a lot to do with us making choices...if no one ever acts, nothing happens. Would it be weird if you called your guy? Do you think he would find is strange, or would ya'll be able to talk like friends?

If it wouldn't be uber awkward, I think you should try to get a hold of him:)

Have a great day!
 
i'm really frustrated. i've been eating really well, exercising religiously, and drinking liters upon liters of water. the scale won't go down at all. i feel better... my muscles feel firmer and i look a bit more toned. but the weight just isn't dropping. all the little things are great: i have more energy, i'm happier, i can lift more than i could when i started, i'm able to do an hour on the elliptical now... but it's hard for me to appreciate the little things when they don't add up to weight loss. what am i going to do about this??

anyway, i didn't call HIM. i'm too chicken. maybe it's fine that we've lost contact. when i (finally manage to) lose weight, i'll call him up and surprise him.
 
Not seeing the scale move is very frustrating. Have you taken measurements to track your progress that way? It might motivate you to see those numbers going down, even when the scale won't budge.

Keep at it!
 
thanks for the encouragement :) i really need it now as i'm not feeling very motivated... my trainer took measurements a couple of months ago when i started working out. in a couple of weeks he'll take measurements again since i'll be leaving to go back to school. i think that's a great idea, i'll start taking measurements myself to maybe see a bit of progress.

so i thought for a while about why the weight isn't coming off. i think i did a lot of damage to my body my first year at college. i would go a week surviving on apples and coffee, too busy to eat or get enough sleep. then, when i had time, i'd stuff myself with greasy chinese food and horrible pastries. now, i'm eating a steady 1500-1600 kcals a day, spacing it out in 5 meals and eating protein and complex carbs with each one. perhaps this has something to do with me not losing. bah. why did i have to be so stupid last year? i'm certainly paying for it now.

in other news, my calves are so sore i can barely walk. i can't straighten my legs all the way. it's a suckfest right now, i want to go to the gym and do some cardio, but there's no way my legs will let me. oh well. i suppose we all have our good and bad days.
 
so this no exericising thing due to my sore calves is a load of crap. i'm going to do floor exercises at home, ones that won't put any more strain on my calves. c'mon miss muffet, stop being a lazy slob! you CAN get this weight off!!!! everybody else is doing it, and you're just as good as everybody else.

i guess all i needed was a little pep talk courtesy of myself :p
 
i bought a new fancy shmancy scale today, cause i felt like i needed some motivation. my old spring scale SUCKS. i'll step on it once, it'll show me one number. i'll step on it again, moments later, and i'll have magically gained 7 pounds. enough of that depressing scale! this one measures body fat and water percentages, and seems much more accurate. so i am happy. it also shows weight in .2 pound increments, so i can better track my gains and losses. yay :)

my calves are still really, really sore. i can't climb the stairs unless i'm on all fours ("animal style", as i called it when i was a wee lass). hopefully it'll be better tomorrow, cause i have to hit the gym in the morning. we shall see...
 
I am sorry your calves hurt so bad!

If pep talking to your body doesn't work, you can use the new methods of threat and coercion that Jenna and I are trying!
 
haha, i'm scared to threaten my body... it tends to hold a grudge for a very, very long time :p

so according to my brand new scale, i am down NINE percentage points of body fat :) from 39.1% to 30.4%. YAAAYYYYYYYYY!!!! 4% more and i'll be in the healthy range for my age/gender :)
 
i've decided i'm going to only weigh myself once a month. i get terribly discouraged when i don't see the scale moving, so why let it get to me? i FEEL so much better. out with that stupid scale. i'm not going to take any measurements or measure body fat or ANYTHING. i'm just going to do what i have to do, and feel good while doing it. it's not about numbers, it's about my life.

i'm going to up my cardio and see how i feel. i'm going to start going to the gym after work and doing an extra hour of cardio. i'm tired of having big arms and a spare tire.

so what brought all of this on? the trainer weighed me and took my measurements today. zero progress, say the scales at the gym. i cried for an hour after getting home.
 
SO. after intense deliberation, i've decided i'm upping my calories to a somewhat strict 1800 per day. i think i'm not losing because i'm eating too little (which i found surprising! it's amazing how much of the good stuff you can eat and still be within limit!). it's hard for me to eat a lot. it always has been. i'm just not a hungry person. eating too much was never a problem for me... so upping calories will be difficult, as weird as that sounds.

oh, and the whole "no more scales" thing? hah... yeah right. weighed myself this morning! i cannot resist temptation.

off to the gym! i'm feeling a lot better today. what's past is past, and what matters is how i act today in order to make tomorrow a little brighter :)
 
oof, i'm so tired. work exhausts me, and i'm only there for a few hours. perhaps i'll go to bed early tonight...

i've started jumping rope during commercials. makes me feel a little better about being a lazy bum and watching tv :) and i've been doing very well at getting more calories.

for the past couple of days, the scale has been holding steady to give me an overall weight loss of four pounds. i dunno what's up with the scale at the gym, but i'm gonna go with the scale i use at home and just say that i've lost four pounds so far :p so yay for that!

tonight i'm gonna watch miss congeniality. i've yet to see that one, and i am quite in the mood for some feel-good sandra bullock. woah! i just realized that her last name is bullock. as in "castrated bull." weeeeeeird.
 
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