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jasper1

jasper1

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Hello everyone...again...
This is another attempt to try loose the weight...i have put on every single kilo i had lost in the first place....i am so ashamed i didn't want to start i diary just cause i didn't want to tell everyone the ugly truth that i weigh 95 kilos again...how embarrassed i feel.
i managed last year to get down to 76 kilos and then from the day i stopped smoking i started to run.i loved it but my weight just went up .it was very difficult for me to stop smoking and eating right it all went real bad.I struggled to keep my weigh under 80 but i just didn't manage at all.None of my clothes fit me again.all my lovely summer dresses from last year all all too tight to wear in public.i feel horrible.fat.ugly etc...feelings i promised myself i would never let myself feel again.but here i am with all my weight on feeling like a looser.I must do something now.Today is my 2nd day of real good eating.i want to eat steamed veggies for two days only and some low fat yoghurt .Maybe I'll do 3 days.After that i know what i must and must do as food is concerned.i am not going to exercise until i drop 10 kilos.Thing is i really do not know how to maintain and also i am scared of loosing my motivation that is really low right now.:piggy::piggy::piggy:
Would love some encouragement and readers sharing their feeling and thoughts
 
I know how you feel, summer wear just display every lump of fat on the body!
You stopped smoking and now you have started working on your diet again. Well done!
Hang in there, in a few weeks your summer dresses will a little better and that's a motivational boost too.
 
A week has gone by and i have lost ZERO....i think i must do some kind of exercise to get things moving a bit....just the idea makes me feel tired and bored..aw im not doing this the right way am i ?feeling like this.I want my motivation and my energy back...
 
Well i turned on my 20 minute julliane workout....it called 30 day shred.I couldnt manage the 20 minutes.I felt sick...ok how bad is this????i used to do all kinds of workouts and now i cant even finish my 20 minutes.So i did about 15 minutes of it then just did 100 crunches and felt like passing out~
I thought i should do at least 30 minutes every day exercise .So i really dont want to go out running yet..after im under 90 kg iwill but really not now.Maybe i'll brike my st.bike down again.
Thing is and i feel so ashamed of this my back is hurting again.And this is from my weight gain....i take a pill every day to manage.well most of the days..
I was trying ti understand why am i so down this time on getting thinner and its because i feel like a failiure since i lost 20 kg a year ago and put it all on again.That my problem.That i failed and all my hard work went down the drain.
I will try fight this....
 
Thanks Trusylver!

Today went like this

BR 2 coffees
2 nectarines
120 calories of corn crackers


LUNCH Salad (cabbage/carrot/1 can tuna/corn)
2 grilled fish sticks

SNACK half a melon

DINNER Rest of the salad


Workout 20 minutes
100 crunches included

To be proud of
Turned down ice cream
////left over pizza (it could go down real fast and easy and nobody would know!)
Grilled cheese toasties

manage to try do the Jillian 30DAY SHRED
Even though i didn't finish it
Finally started my crunches


pic was taken may 25th...this is a real good one of me...i have a bad one but too shy to post my awful pic


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today's salad at lunch time

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my calorie intake should be 1280 per day to loose a kilo each week.
my bmi is 336......

see you tomorrow

goodnight!
 
WAS 86,5 waist NOW 110

WAS 106 hips NOW 120

OH DEAR GOODMORNING....TAKING MY LITTLE ONE TO SCHOOL NOW
BE BACK LATER!
 
BR 2 coffees
160 cal of corn crackers

Brunch Melon and nectarine

Lunch fresh green peas in pot w/carrots and potatoes
38 gr of feta cheese

Snack nectarine

i tried out some yoga stretching exercises.i know its not calorie burners but i felt like stretching soooo much..i just felt so inflexible and my muscles all tight.i think i am going to make it a regular.i just don't know yet how long and the right movements for a person like me that is just starting out.I also got the p90x but regretted it right away cause it says its for people that are already fit.......so maybe i just have to start out with some thing easier since its EXTREME workout.i felt scared actually!!!!

another good food day

things to be proud of

didn't eat all these little biscuits hanging around the house
didn't buy that smelly fresh baked bread in the store today...
felt my tummy moaning for food but just had some corn crackers


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jasper i wanted to tell you to keep posting! keep putting yourself out there! this helps with all of us to be able to encourage each other! THERE IS NO SHAME HERE!!! keep going! keep pushing through!!! you can do this! we all need the support so i am glad you had the courage to post! much love and happiness to you! if you have a bad day throw it away is what i always say! and start fresh! we are human love! love and peace to you i know you can do this!
 
Hi everyone that might be reading!Another day gone...could of done a little better.

BR 2 coffees ..3 slices cheese...2 slices of bread..4 slices of salami/
Lunch Cabbage /carrot / tuna salad 1 plate
Snack 1 nectarine 5 strawberries
Dinner 1 slice of cheese(the thin slices you get over the counter) 1 plate salad as lunch 1 small slice bread
3 teaspoons of ice cream

Things to be proud of
At my MIL's house i turned down these deep fried dough things filled with feta cheese.....didn't even taste.
Turned down having anything to eat there cause as i said i have eaten for today
Told everyone i know i am on a diet again
While giving my husband the tub of ice cream i fetched 2 spoons so we could eat together.Hiding behind the fact that it is not BAD cause its not chocolate ice-cream just cream and fruits!!!!How stupid!!!i had 3 teaspoons and just said NO.

No exercise at all

I am feeling thinner in a way.I am not but my brain is.This happens after the first few days of not eating crap
I am still stunned by my measurements......well anyway as Ruth said we xant change the past....its now what matters.I find myself feeling a little bit more motivated as day are going by.I am starting to want a better body more.Not just because i have to start a diet cause im going to be 100 kilos but more because i want to go on a diet cause i want to feel strong and more confident in my body!
 
Wow Jess, you are kicking serious diet arse :D Well done! If anything you are doing a bit too well, you must be under 1000 calories for the past few days… But then, its good to start your diet strong, and show your stomach that your brain is in control.

It’s weird… I don’t judge you for regaining, but I judge myself :/ Just think how big we would be now if we hadn’t of lost that weight last year, and kept on gaining.

I feel a bit slimmer already too, it’s probably because we aren’t bloated from junk food.

What have you been up too? x
 
HI!!!!Still hanging on here!Managing well i can say!

BR 2 coffees 1 koulouri with 1 slice of cold turkey in
Snack 1 nectarine
Lunch 2 homemade beef burgers some roasted potato/carrot tomato and cucumber salad
Snack 1 glass of yummy pineapple juice (not fresh its boxed but still so tasty!)
Dinner 200 gr of 2% fat greek yoghurt with a slice of melon and a few strawberries

Exercise 1 hour cleaning non stop

Things to be proud of~
Didnt EAT my FAVOURITE waffers! i bought TWO packs for home (my husband and Mario like them) I didnt have not 1!The calories in one little stick is 38 calories.I eat the whole pack so that makes 532 calories from plain crappy stuff...
This morning at the bakers to get my husband a pie i didnt get anything naughty i bought the koulouri only
Luch time i could have gone way over on the potatoes but i only had what was in my plate.
No bread today again

its my time of the month so im thinking that is the reasson i still havent lost anything at all.

Ruth!i feel the same way.judging myself for regaining but for you i feel different like its ok you made a mistke but what matters is that you are here again.For me its really another story!
I laughed when i read "just think how big we would be now if we hadnt lost that weight last year "i can imagine us eating eating eating to eternity!!!!
Maios got a fever today......suddenly..strange..Everything is really nearlyy the same.Just my personal stuff has improved a lot.I /we came to thepoint that we agreed to seperate but that lasted 3 days and we had this huge disscussion and things have been really good.its hard work and i just hope we can make it at the end
I have this idea about a buisness but im not sure yet maybe its just silly...i'll tell about it later on!

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That is serious willpower, you shouldn't have bought those yummies tho. I refused to buy my daughter sweets today, got her some of those fruit things that wrap around themselves in coils.

I'm glad the three day break made your relationship stronger :) Sometimes, something drastic needs to happen to make a big change happen.

Can't wait to see what your business idea is!
 
just a quick one ...had nearly nothing to eat all day then went all wrong tonight/had 3 slices of pizza i made.
will be back tomorrow............................
 
ok Monday is here!Staring really powerful!!!
after a kind of bad weekend too lazy to actually cook i find myself feeling hungry this morning.a feeling that was controllable till now and not so intense./seems like fatty foods make me hungry and craving stuff.i'll be good today and till Friday!don't want to weigh today.im sure still nothing has been lost though -maybe its my idea-i think i see my waist trying to form under the fat
 
Hi sweetie! Waking up hungry is good. That's your opportunity to put something healthy & nutritious into your body to get your metabolism going & to set yourself up for a good day. Yoghurt & some fruit is a good start. You can do this, my friend. You know you can. Remember how good you felt last year? I do! No beating yourself up. Take every day one day at a time & look after yourself! Don't obsess, don't look back, keep making good choices every time you can. Lots of love xoxo Cate
 
Breakfast 1 coffee 1 slice melon 3 mini crispies 1 nectarine
Late lunch small portion peas in pot with 1 slice bread 1 slice feta cheese
Snack 1 coffee
Dinner half cucumber half carrot 1 piece feta cheese 2 mini crispies

What a day!When the school bus left MArio i noticed on his hands he was full of tiny blisters...i got a note also saying that they have had cases of scarlet fever in the school..i had no idea so i went completely crazy...i drove to my doctor and it turns out my boy has the hand foot and mouth disease... in Greek its called koksaki ..its contagious and he has it on his feel as well.not in his mouth yet....i am a complete anxious freak.i really am i cannot deal with any health issues of his in a calm way.i really freak out i nearly cry my heart goes all over the place i sweat and i cant calm down until i know what is wrong...i try to not make it obvious to him but im sure he picks up...oh well...im not taking him back to school ..anyway they have 2 weeks left for summer holidays so im starting our a bit earlier~~~~
as food goes i have been ok.im getting a bit hungry but i will have a carrot probably later on.I sooo need to get to 88 kilos....AH...need to get out of the mental FAT BLOB place i am
Loves to all
 
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