General hysterical diet related rambling: From Flab to Fab.
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decisionmaker
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AAH Girl I am so happy that you managed such a silky enrolment! That is so flippin' fantastic!
I think that everyone (reallllly, everyone!) is nervous in this kind of situation where they don't know anyone. Your chat with the girl in line shows that you can do it - and like you said, there was no pressure there. So what I'd do is keep your gob shut (better to not regret anything) and then before long you will be in a lot of situations where you feel no pressure, and you'll be able to just chat with people. One of the best friends I made at uni... well, I spent a few weeks just looking at her and thinking that she looks like my kind of person (just by the things she wore, the fact she was always 5 minutes late, haha, etc - though she said very very little in class). Eventually she wore a shirt with my favourite band, and I got up the guts (haha it's like dating!) togo up to her and start chatting, because now I could have a starting line - about this band. I felt like such a dork, but from then on we were inseparable for four years!
She was a lot like you - made hilarious jokes in sometimes bad situations, so she'd learnt to hut her gob in class... haha. But then when she had something really good to say, she'd get really nervous... eventually she got better at it
It makes me so grumpy that Nick is being a pain in the butt about you being able to do something exciting for yourself - something really BIG and something he should be really proud of! Grr...
I think you would be in the TOP ten percent, darlin! You think so badly of yourself! But I've seen your mood boards and your eye for detail for little things, and you are smashing! You will be splendid
I think that everyone (reallllly, everyone!) is nervous in this kind of situation where they don't know anyone. Your chat with the girl in line shows that you can do it - and like you said, there was no pressure there. So what I'd do is keep your gob shut (better to not regret anything) and then before long you will be in a lot of situations where you feel no pressure, and you'll be able to just chat with people. One of the best friends I made at uni... well, I spent a few weeks just looking at her and thinking that she looks like my kind of person (just by the things she wore, the fact she was always 5 minutes late, haha, etc - though she said very very little in class). Eventually she wore a shirt with my favourite band, and I got up the guts (haha it's like dating!) togo up to her and start chatting, because now I could have a starting line - about this band. I felt like such a dork, but from then on we were inseparable for four years!
She was a lot like you - made hilarious jokes in sometimes bad situations, so she'd learnt to hut her gob in class... haha. But then when she had something really good to say, she'd get really nervous... eventually she got better at it It makes me so grumpy that Nick is being a pain in the butt about you being able to do something exciting for yourself - something really BIG and something he should be really proud of! Grr...
I think you would be in the TOP ten percent, darlin! You think so badly of yourself! But I've seen your mood boards and your eye for detail for little things, and you are smashing! You will be splendid
overtherainbow
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A Well, I will just have to wait and see if I'm any good!
Thats exactly the right davice Joh, thanks. You've made me feel better. However, the bf stormed out the house a couple of hours ago saying he had a flat and wouldn't be coming back. I just wish he'd let me go when it all went wrong a few weeks ago... He is saying that he can't trust me to go to uni when I don't love him in the all-consuming way I used too. He said he wants to be with someone he can trust. I told him that I wouldn't cheat on him while we are together (I wouldn't), but if he doesn't treat me right I couldn't promise not to fall in love with someone else and leave him. Which is honest, but maybe I shouldn't have said it.
But tomorrow is my first day!!! I need to leave on Mondays before the kids to get there in time, I need to leave at half past 8. But if he is not here in the morning I will get there over an hour late on my first day, and I will only be able to stay for half an hour before leaving to pick Lily up from nursery. I said to him fair enough if he wants to move out, but please just stay here tonight so I can do my first day. But he stormed off slamming the door behind him. I don't want to get to my first day late, with all eyes on me... I will be so much more comfortable being one of the first people there.
He has ruined it for me. And I tell you what, I will be so incredibly fuming if he doesn't come back tonight and screws me up, that there will not be a hope in hell for our relationship no matter what he says or does.
He left me with no food in th cupboards AT ALL. No money as he knows I have lost my cashcard. I am just glad I have money in my paypal account so I could order a domino's with it otherwise I would have had to give the kids plain rice or something. No bread, butter, milk. He hasn't left me any cigerettes either. And he isn't answering his phone.
We have been semi arguing all day because of his insecurities. I went out and got 3 huge dairy milks and ate 1 1/2 of them, plus the pizza. And plus eating out for two meals including two desserts yesterday... My diets just been a disaster
Really wish this what the happy time I hoped it would be.
Well, I will just have to wait and see if I'm any good!Thats exactly the right davice Joh, thanks. You've made me feel better. However, the bf stormed out the house a couple of hours ago saying he had a flat and wouldn't be coming back. I just wish he'd let me go when it all went wrong a few weeks ago... He is saying that he can't trust me to go to uni when I don't love him in the all-consuming way I used too. He said he wants to be with someone he can trust. I told him that I wouldn't cheat on him while we are together (I wouldn't), but if he doesn't treat me right I couldn't promise not to fall in love with someone else and leave him. Which is honest, but maybe I shouldn't have said it.
But tomorrow is my first day!!! I need to leave on Mondays before the kids to get there in time, I need to leave at half past 8. But if he is not here in the morning I will get there over an hour late on my first day, and I will only be able to stay for half an hour before leaving to pick Lily up from nursery. I said to him fair enough if he wants to move out, but please just stay here tonight so I can do my first day. But he stormed off slamming the door behind him. I don't want to get to my first day late, with all eyes on me... I will be so much more comfortable being one of the first people there.
He has ruined it for me. And I tell you what, I will be so incredibly fuming if he doesn't come back tonight and screws me up, that there will not be a hope in hell for our relationship no matter what he says or does.
He left me with no food in th cupboards AT ALL. No money as he knows I have lost my cashcard. I am just glad I have money in my paypal account so I could order a domino's with it otherwise I would have had to give the kids plain rice or something. No bread, butter, milk. He hasn't left me any cigerettes either. And he isn't answering his phone.
We have been semi arguing all day because of his insecurities. I went out and got 3 huge dairy milks and ate 1 1/2 of them, plus the pizza. And plus eating out for two meals including two desserts yesterday... My diets just been a disaster
Really wish this what the happy time I hoped it would be.
jasper1
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I hoe he comes back.Its the RIGHT thing to do.If he doesnt he knows he is putting you in a very bad situation PLUs leaving you no money....
Even if he doesnt come you still willbe there even if you are late.You will still make it and if he DOESNT come home tonight you make sure there is a backup plan for the future.
I know how he feels about jealous.Nut thats because he knows it IS possible for you meeting someone you WILL like BECAUSE he hasnt treated you the way you deserve.If he had and all was really lovely between you two i dont think he would make such a big deal about this.PLUS it sounds really imature his behaviour.This is your dream something you realy want so much that came as a lovely suprise to you.He should be supportive and put his feelings aside for a while.Its silly making such a big deal about this,maybe he left and will think about stuff and calm down.
Think many of us had a bad day today!We will do good tommorow!
Even if he doesnt come you still willbe there even if you are late.You will still make it and if he DOESNT come home tonight you make sure there is a backup plan for the future.
I know how he feels about jealous.Nut thats because he knows it IS possible for you meeting someone you WILL like BECAUSE he hasnt treated you the way you deserve.If he had and all was really lovely between you two i dont think he would make such a big deal about this.PLUS it sounds really imature his behaviour.This is your dream something you realy want so much that came as a lovely suprise to you.He should be supportive and put his feelings aside for a while.Its silly making such a big deal about this,maybe he left and will think about stuff and calm down.
Think many of us had a bad day today!We will do good tommorow!
overtherainbow
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AYes, well, he has just crawled home, drunk, with his tail in between his legs. I wish more than anything he could be properly happy for me too. He really does act like an overgrown kid.
I think my plan if we break up would have to be that he has the kids on Monday night (as I have the painting class on Monday evenings as well as the full day at uni). I guess I could arrange for Charlies school to pick him up earlier, and take Lily into nursery earlier. Then Nick would have to pick Lily up from the nursery in the afternoon, and collect charlie from school which is only round the corner from his potential new flat. The only problems are Mondays as my hours are so short.
I am going to give him one more chance... If he storms off and gets drunk anytime soon I will just end it. His friends flat is empty as he has moved in with his gf, and he said Nick can stay there till he finds somewhere permanent.
I just don't want any relationship stress and roller coaster emotions.
I think my plan if we break up would have to be that he has the kids on Monday night (as I have the painting class on Monday evenings as well as the full day at uni). I guess I could arrange for Charlies school to pick him up earlier, and take Lily into nursery earlier. Then Nick would have to pick Lily up from the nursery in the afternoon, and collect charlie from school which is only round the corner from his potential new flat. The only problems are Mondays as my hours are so short.
I am going to give him one more chance... If he storms off and gets drunk anytime soon I will just end it. His friends flat is empty as he has moved in with his gf, and he said Nick can stay there till he finds somewhere permanent.
I just don't want any relationship stress and roller coaster emotions.
Don't worry about being the most popular girl in the class. It can take a year to find your feet socially in theses situations and that's PERFECTLY OK. You will find most people will be feeling just like you even though it may look different. I learnt this in my first year of university the second time i went. The first time i went to uni straight after school, i just LUCKY to fall in with a few friends straight away. The thing is, now i know it can be slow and the key to keeping an even keel is to focus on your work and just be nice. Be yourself and if you get an opportunity take an interest in other people and show your best side. Don't worry. There is absolutely no need to worry. Never forget why you are there. Don't judge yourself. Just get on with things and you will do great.
All the best Ruthy.xx
All the best Ruthy.xx
decisionmaker
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AFIRST DAY FIRST DAY FIRST DAY FIRST DAY!!!
Can't wait to hear how you went, m'dear.
Can't wait to hear how you went, m'dear.
katehunibun
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AHeya girly
So sorry i haven't replied, i just about managed to find time to scribble some ramblings on my diary. Yesterday was just one of those days where i was running just to keep up with myself and didn't get chance to do anything i wanted to. I didn't even get to watch X-Factor last night!!
Rob is 35 and he is studying education, religion, philosophy and ethics!! (pretty deep stuff huh, but he is a deep person) He is just as nervous as you. He is part of the reason i didn't get on here. I was on skype to him for over an hour last night. He was having a 'am i doing the right thing' moment. He doesn't know anyone either and he is in halls so is living with strangers too. He wants to make friends but all the 18 yr olds just wanna go out and get pissed!!! I told him that when he starts going to lecture's he will meet like minded people and i would say the same to you. So don't stress about not making friends. Just be yourself and you will be fine. You are an awesome person, you will be fine.
You worry that you are not sure whether you still want to be an interior designer and that you wouldn't be good enough. Well, you are very creative, like Joh said and you will learn what you need to at uni!!!!!! Even if you don't want to do it when you finish your course you will have a degree and the experience of going to uni. I would love to be able to go to uni.
I can't believe Nick is being such a bloody child!!!! He is being so hypicritical. He goes to college so why can't you go to uni without him being such a wanker.........Sorry to bitch but like Joh (again) i am really angry with him.
Don't worry too much about food right now. You need to get your life into some sort of routine and you will be back on track in no time. If not the slapping will commence!!!!
I am sooooooooo excited for you sweetie. I have spent all day worrying about you and my Bobby!!!! Like my son on his first day at school. Hope you had a great day and can't wait to hear about it all.
Much love
Xxx
So sorry i haven't replied, i just about managed to find time to scribble some ramblings on my diary. Yesterday was just one of those days where i was running just to keep up with myself and didn't get chance to do anything i wanted to. I didn't even get to watch X-Factor last night!!
Rob is 35 and he is studying education, religion, philosophy and ethics!! (pretty deep stuff huh, but he is a deep person) He is just as nervous as you. He is part of the reason i didn't get on here. I was on skype to him for over an hour last night. He was having a 'am i doing the right thing' moment. He doesn't know anyone either and he is in halls so is living with strangers too. He wants to make friends but all the 18 yr olds just wanna go out and get pissed!!! I told him that when he starts going to lecture's he will meet like minded people and i would say the same to you. So don't stress about not making friends. Just be yourself and you will be fine. You are an awesome person, you will be fine.
You worry that you are not sure whether you still want to be an interior designer and that you wouldn't be good enough. Well, you are very creative, like Joh said and you will learn what you need to at uni!!!!!! Even if you don't want to do it when you finish your course you will have a degree and the experience of going to uni. I would love to be able to go to uni.
I can't believe Nick is being such a bloody child!!!! He is being so hypicritical. He goes to college so why can't you go to uni without him being such a wanker.........Sorry to bitch but like Joh (again) i am really angry with him.
Don't worry too much about food right now. You need to get your life into some sort of routine and you will be back on track in no time. If not the slapping will commence!!!!
I am sooooooooo excited for you sweetie. I have spent all day worrying about you and my Bobby!!!! Like my son on his first day at school. Hope you had a great day and can't wait to hear about it all.
Much love
Xxx
overtherainbow
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AMy first day was GREAT
Everyone was really nice and I did say a couple of stupid things but I didn't make a complete idiot of myself. Which is a bonus The group is quite small, about 25 or so people. They all seem to be my kind of people really. I am a bit gutted that I won't be able to go on the boat trip with everyone on Thursday, but such is life.
After college finished me and a girl called Adisa went to find the art supplies shop, got completely lost and spent about 2 hours nattering. Her eldest son is Autistic, and she also has size 9 feet lol, so we have a lot in common. Also, another girl called Charlotte who I was chatting to for a while also has size 9 feet. So yup, 3 size 9's round a coffee table. There was also a nice Greek girl who is also a singer, and a nice Swedish girl. And someone called Yaz came in at the last minute- she had brought her non uni friend with her which I found hilarious, I like her vibe and I think I will get on well with her. I think there were only about 4 English people in the group, but I love having lots of different nationalities.
Then tonight I had my art class and I wasn't really scared there like I was last week, probably because today went so well We did a still life type charcoal drawing of different objects- Mine wasn't very good, but hopefully I will improve. Especially as a lot of people on my course have fine art type backgrounds. The course sounds almost identical to the one I did last year. Which can only be good. I also found out that by doing this foundation degree, plus the extra year on the end of it, doesn't mean that I will only get a degree, I will get a foundation degree as well. So I will have all these letters after my name... Fda BHon. Which is nice
I am so tired... Will come back on here properly in the morning and repy to everyone, I just need to crash out now. I have done over 4 hours walking, and eaten- eatnatural bar-subway roll-yoghurt coated peanuts.
Everyone was really nice and I did say a couple of stupid things but I didn't make a complete idiot of myself. Which is a bonus
The group is quite small, about 25 or so people. They all seem to be my kind of people really. I am a bit gutted that I won't be able to go on the boat trip with everyone on Thursday, but such is life. After college finished me and a girl called Adisa went to find the art supplies shop, got completely lost and spent about 2 hours nattering. Her eldest son is Autistic, and she also has size 9 feet lol, so we have a lot in common. Also, another girl called Charlotte who I was chatting to for a while also has size 9 feet. So yup, 3 size 9's round a coffee table. There was also a nice Greek girl who is also a singer, and a nice Swedish girl. And someone called Yaz came in at the last minute- she had brought her non uni friend with her which I found hilarious, I like her vibe and I think I will get on well with her. I think there were only about 4 English people in the group, but I love having lots of different nationalities.
Then tonight I had my art class and I wasn't really scared there like I was last week, probably because today went so well
We did a still life type charcoal drawing of different objects- Mine wasn't very good, but hopefully I will improve. Especially as a lot of people on my course have fine art type backgrounds. The course sounds almost identical to the one I did last year. Which can only be good. I also found out that by doing this foundation degree, plus the extra year on the end of it, doesn't mean that I will only get a degree, I will get a foundation degree as well. So I will have all these letters after my name... Fda BHon. Which is nice I am so tired... Will come back on here properly in the morning and repy to everyone, I just need to crash out now. I have done over 4 hours walking, and eaten- eatnatural bar-subway roll-yoghurt coated peanuts.
decisionmaker
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AYAY YAY YAY!!!
I've been waiting for ages to hear how it went, and I am SO happy it went so well for you! So proud of you, darlin! xxx
I've been waiting for ages to hear how it went, and I am SO happy it went so well for you! So proud of you, darlin!
xxx
katehunibun
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AYAY!!!!!!!! 
So so glad it went great and size 9 rocks!!!!!
Xxx
So so glad it went great and size 9 rocks!!!!!
Xxx
Irishprincess
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So delighted Ruth you got on so well, AAAAAAAAAAARGH. Im so excited for you!!! The people in your class sound so nice and down to earth, thats hilarious about the 3 of ye with the size 9 feet I have size 8
Cant wait to hear more updates, so happy for you darling that your first day went greatxxxxxxxxxx
The people in your class sound so nice and down to earth, thats hilarious about the 3 of ye with the size 9 feet I have size 8Cant wait to hear more updates, so happy for you darling that your first day went great
xxxxxxxxxx
katehunibun
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AI'm a size 8 too princess!!! Feet obviously.........not dress size lol I BLOODY WISH!!
Xx
Xx
overtherainbow
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AKate, I agree with you that once uni starts Rob will meet older people who aren't just into partying. I think that's the trouble with living in halls- it just attracts the party animals. Maybe he might meet some people who he can flat share with in the future. They are very profound subjects! Good luck Rob! Funnily enough on my course everyone seemed to be much more into the idea of the freshers boat trip rather than the party... So not all students are about getting pissed all the time.
Lol, maybe I just attract people with larger than average feet
My diet, mydietydietmydiet..... Hmmm. I appear to have floated off it. Well not floated, jumped off it with a big heavy crash. I have just eaten 350 calories of chocolate... But even more worrying than that are my cravings for sweet junk are back BIG TIME. Literally every hour or so a high pitched little "chocolate" noise pipes up hopefully from the back of my brain. I am going to follow the advice I have given to others, and do a healthy food shop straight away. And I really am going to behave myself for the next week. I'm going to imagine that I'm starting afresh, and start exercising in the morning and stuff again. The shopping that I did at the start of my diet was incredible- almost all fruit and veg with the odd bit of rice and new potatoes and meat thrown in.
I can't even remember the last time I cooked a proper dinner.
Food
2 large bowls of fruit and fibre
Few sweets
Chicken stir fry with noodles
Half a big bar of chocolate
6 coffees
Funnily enough on my course everyone seemed to be much more into the idea of the freshers boat trip rather than the party... So not all students are about getting pissed all the time. Lol, maybe I just attract people with larger than average feet
My diet, mydietydietmydiet..... Hmmm. I appear to have floated off it. Well not floated, jumped off it with a big heavy crash. I have just eaten 350 calories of chocolate... But even more worrying than that are my cravings for sweet junk are back BIG TIME. Literally every hour or so a high pitched little "chocolate" noise pipes up hopefully from the back of my brain. I am going to follow the advice I have given to others, and do a healthy food shop straight away. And I really am going to behave myself for the next week. I'm going to imagine that I'm starting afresh, and start exercising in the morning and stuff again. The shopping that I did at the start of my diet was incredible- almost all fruit and veg with the odd bit of rice and new potatoes and meat thrown in.
I can't even remember the last time I cooked a proper dinner.
Food
2 large bowls of fruit and fibre
Few sweets
Chicken stir fry with noodles
Half a big bar of chocolate
6 coffees
tetemcg
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AOk my RAINBOW...lets kick the muchies away...I have been good for two days!! its your turn you promised!!
So glad you are happy... university sounds wonderful... I have not a single doubt you will meet great people and learn great things..... so proud of you!!
And I guess I can 't be your forum buddy any more...these little size 4's..just can hang!! joke!! The hubby always said he doesn't know how I hold myself up...double D's ( now single D's..yea!!) and those crazy small feet of mine....its a wonder I don't tip over every time I stand or walk!! HAHAHAHA
So glad you are happy... university sounds wonderful... I have not a single doubt you will meet great people and learn great things..... so proud of you!!
And I guess I can 't be your forum buddy any more...these little size 4's..just can hang!! joke!! The hubby always said he doesn't know how I hold myself up...double D's ( now single D's..yea!!) and those crazy small feet of mine....its a wonder I don't tip over every time I stand or walk!! HAHAHAHA
jasper1
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ARainbow so happy that it went great!I love to meet people from other countries as well.It so interesting!
Now please get back on track and start to loose the last 19,5 pounds you want miss and stop eating chocolates.Its great idea to go healthy shoping and munching on veggies and maybe an apple.
NO CHOCOLATES...Im saying that ot myself to.I also just cant be bothered very much, and also want all the really bad stuff.Maybe if we see a weight GAIN we will ge back on track!
Waitting for your updates!!!
Now please get back on track and start to loose the last 19,5 pounds you want miss and stop eating chocolates.Its great idea to go healthy shoping and munching on veggies and maybe an apple.
NO CHOCOLATES...Im saying that ot myself to.I also just cant be bothered very much, and also want all the really bad stuff.Maybe if we see a weight GAIN we will ge back on track!
Waitting for your updates!!!
katehunibun
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AHeya girly
How's school sexy girl?
Oh, you can eat crap for the rest of this week but it will not be tolerated next week......We might start having to slap you back into shape!
I know this week is all over the place but no excuse next week madam
How's school sexy girl?
Oh, you can eat crap for the rest of this week but it will not be tolerated next week......We might start having to slap you back into shape!
I know this week is all over the place but no excuse next week madam
overtherainbow
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AHmm... well Tete... I did do the shopping but I was out when they tried to deliver it So another bad day for me. You are so lucky with your dainty little feet and your big boobs. I bed your shoes are made out of iron to stop you from toppling over
Thanks for the encouragement Jasper. I just really can't be bothered right now, but I am going to MAKE myself bothered again whether I like it or not!
I only have to go in this Friday Kate. Then after that its Mondays, Thursdays and Fridays. I spent well over 100 quid on stuff I need to study- a 30cm adjustable set square is £20!!!! CRAZINESS!!! And I bought some lovely stationary and notebooks and stuff as well. And textbooks.
The bf has stormed off and got drunk for the third time this week.
My new cash card still hasn't come, so I had to get pizza on my paypal again.
I have put on three pounds.
Hmmmmmm....
So another bad day for me. You are so lucky with your dainty little feet and your big boobs. I bed your shoes are made out of iron to stop you from toppling over Thanks for the encouragement Jasper. I just really can't be bothered right now, but I am going to MAKE myself bothered again whether I like it or not!
I only have to go in this Friday Kate. Then after that its Mondays, Thursdays and Fridays. I spent well over 100 quid on stuff I need to study- a 30cm adjustable set square is £20!!!! CRAZINESS!!! And I bought some lovely stationary and notebooks and stuff as well. And textbooks.
The bf has stormed off and got drunk for the third time this week.
My new cash card still hasn't come, so I had to get pizza on my paypal again.
I have put on three pounds.
Hmmmmmm....
katehunibun
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AHeya girly
Ooooh, exciting, lots of new school book and stationary. i bet you got really pretty ones. I love pretty notebooks.
I'm sorry you are having to deal with Nick being a wanker when everything is all exciting for you. That is SO unfair of him. I'm not gonna advise you to get rid, you probably know that already and you will deal with things in time. It's so shit that you have to put up with him. You deserve love and support, i just wish with all my heart that you find that soon.
Don't worry about the 3lb. You will lose it again soon enough. You know what did it.....PIZZA.....lol.....You will get back on track, i know you will. And if not we will all turn up on your doorstep and kick you butt!!!
Lots of love and hugs sweetie Xx
Ooooh, exciting, lots of new school book and stationary. i bet you got really pretty ones. I love pretty notebooks.
I'm sorry you are having to deal with Nick being a wanker when everything is all exciting for you. That is SO unfair of him. I'm not gonna advise you to get rid, you probably know that already and you will deal with things in time. It's so shit that you have to put up with him. You deserve love and support, i just wish with all my heart that you find that soon.
Don't worry about the 3lb. You will lose it again soon enough. You know what did it.....PIZZA.....lol.....You will get back on track, i know you will. And if not we will all turn up on your doorstep and kick you butt!!!
Lots of love and hugs sweetie Xx
overtherainbow
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AI must have spend about 20 hours finding the perfect stationary lol. Should have spent the time looking at health related stuff tho.
I have had a really really bad food day again. I do not see much hope. I just don't feel like I can do it right now. I might take a break for a week or so.... I don't want this to be the last ever entry in my diary... I will be back.
I just can't control myself.
I have had a really really bad food day again. I do not see much hope. I just don't feel like I can do it right now. I might take a break for a week or so.... I don't want this to be the last ever entry in my diary... I will be back.
I just can't control myself.