General hysterical diet related rambling: From Flab to Fab.

AOoooohhhhhh SO EXCITED for you!!! OMG girly that is soooooooo awesome!! :hurray: :hurray: :hurray: :hurray:

You will manage to get everything sorted. I am so so chuffed for you sweetie. You deserve some good things in your life. It has been a bit shit for you recently. :grouphug:

Totally loving the picture, you look hot as!!!!!!

Well done you!!!
 
AThanks :D !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Enrolment is supposed to be on Friday! For that I need proof of student finance and a passport. I lost my passport, and it will take one week from when I get money to process a new one, so that's out of the question for Friday, also I need to send mine and the kids birth certificates to student loans in the morning before they can process my application. I have no idea how long it'll take them to process it. Plus I need to some how arrange childcare for Lily (she started her nursery today, I will have to ask them tomorrow about the possibility of her going full time three days a week maximum (as Nick can look after her Mondays and Tuesdays). If not I will have to get a childminder :( And after all that I still won't be able to leave uni any later than twenty to four to be back home in time for Charlie.

So, what it comes down to, is will they let me enrol for and start the course a couple of weeks late? I'm sure they will. I hope they will. Or else I am buggered.

I can't believe that I didn't open the acceptance letter. I just don't like opening letters! They are always bad news, never good news. Still... at least I found out now instead of in a few months time, that would have been bad.

I went to my drawing and painting evening class tonight, tripped over four times, lost a button and broke my necklace :) There were 6 people including me, three ladies around my age who seem a bit geeky and dopey like me :) And an old woman and a Hungarian guy. I was quite uncomfortable but I think that was mainly because of the bright overhead lighting, it made me eyebag paranoid. We just did rubbings of random things then had to copy our rubbings and make them into something else. Mine was quite shit otherwise I would put a picture up.
 
I hope they will let you enroll a vouple of weeks later,if you go there and explain yourself.Dont say you didnt want to open the letter.Say something else , like your child had taken it and you just found it , or your old neighbour thought it wa hers...!!!

Drawing class?it must be fun.I used to go to a writing club once a week.it was my dream to be a writer!You Do meat all sorts of interesting people,its a lovely way to practice your hobby!

Are you doing this for long or just started?


Also where is your food????????
 
A:hurray::hurray::hurray::hurray: Congrats!! What a great moment!! you must feel like you can take on the world!! Because I think you can!!! You will kick ass in what ever you decide to do!! Good luck with all the school stuff! How exciting!!! :hurray::hurray::hurray::hurray:
 
AI just said to them that I was depressed and decided not to do the course then changed my mind at the last minute.

It looks semi-hopeful. I am going to get my passport declaration form signed now (they haven't got an appointment till tuesday which is a shame), and I also need a birth certificate declaration signed for student finance which Nicks step dad is also going to do now, then I'll send it off this evening. The lady I spoke too said it could all be processed within two weeks- so in three weeks max I will have both the passport to join, and the funding in place. Apparantlt they can still let you go to lessons at their discretion before funding is in place. Lily's nursery has said that they can extend her hours, although it depends on the day, fingers crossed it'll be alright, I get my time table on Monday. I need to go and enrol on friday. I talked to someone on the phone and they said I have to email them back, but I got an automated rely saying it'll be 3 or 4 days for a proper reply :( So I'll go down there on Friday anyway and see what they say!

Need to fill in a big eff off childcare grant form as well.

STRESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why oh why can I not organise myself. WHY???!!!!!!!!!
 
Its okay Ruth, ive my fingers crossed that everything is going to work out for ya!!! Fair play for trying to get all the documents sorted. I say you are wreaked from it all!! I hope it al works out for you:):) Best luck dear:):) xoxox
 
AMe too! Thanks!

Well I am now arguing with the bf to add to the stress. He just shouted at me "what, staying at home and being a mum isn't good enough for you"?

I had prepared myself to be mainly at home with the kids for the next two years, with part time work 12 or so hours a week, with the idea I was going to do, and still will do hopefully. I bought a posh new hoover, and everything, I was that serious about being a proper little housewife :). However, it would be incredibly stupid of me to turn down this opportunity. Tuition fees are going up to £12,000 a year next year, this is the last year I could do it and only pay £3500ish a year. I must admit that I do feel completely disorientated about this because it was so unexpected, but also really happy. He keeps using the kids as an excuse that we can't both study, but I will only be doing 12-15 hours a week at uni (if it is sorted in time), and he will only be doing 16 hours. Which makes a lot of hours left in the week for kids! Charlie doesn't get back until 20 past four on his school bus, so I might have to leave uni an hour or so early, but they let a couple of people do that for their kids on my access course last year and it was fine.

He is saying to me "Oh but you won't be able to afford a tummy tuck" and "we won't be able to go on holiday". But as much as I want those things, I think my future, and his future is more important.

This should be a really happy day, but instead we are at each others throats.

Well.... if I do go to uni I will melt off the weight. I have always eaten better when I am doing something. I would have an eat natural bar and fruit for brekkie, salad or ready made sushi for lunch, and whateverthehell for dinner, which'll probably only be about 1200 calories altogether.

Done very badly with my food today, I hope I don't retain water to make the scales go up tomorrow (weigh day). I don't at all feel like "I've had a bad day so fuck it all", I will be back on track tomorrow. I briefly came home and ate sushi rice which was cooked in the fridge, then I came home late tonight and we have no food in, so it made sence to get a takeaway.

Food
White chocolate maltesers
about 200g sushi rice
5 slices of pizza

Exercise
About 2 hours walking
3 goes on the dance machine
 
Originally Posted by overtherainbow

OHMYGODJUSTHAVETOSHARETHISWITHYOU!!!!!!

I dropped out of college last year a few months before the end of the course. I got high grades while I was there...... But I dropped out. I didn't even bother going to pick up my results because I thought I failed.... But I PASSED overall!!!!! I passed and I got accepted on an interior design degree starting NOW! My head is a tiswas. How am I going to apply for funding so late? What on earth will I do about childcare? Being an interior designer is my dream job. I'm going to try my best to sort it out, arrrgggggghhhhhhhh.
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Hi Ruth. This is fantastic news. I"ve read all the following posts. Sounds like you just gotta do what you got do and HAVE FAITH that all those little obstacles will be solved because looks what's been solved so far. And look what torment you put yourself through by not opening your results last year. Silly Billy.


It seems you and the man are still together then. Well i hope you can sort all things out and become a wonderful interior designer.


PS. I've written some replies to your post on my diary re buddhism.
 
AI know! I've done all I can, so I just need to wait and see now....

Lost 2.5 pounds this week :)



30 day challenge
Day 09 - Did people ever make comments about your weight in a negative way? No, not really come to think of it :) Only myself. I don't know why I had the need to point out and mention my weight all the time, but I did. Must be my own worst enemy in that respect.

Day 10 - What was the hardest thing you gave up during your weight loss journey? My night-time cakes/biscuits, undoubtedly.

Food
2 slices of multigrain toast with butter and honey
Apple, pear and 2 yoghurts
Ginger chicken with sweet potato mash and peas (again lol)
Pear
2 coffees (more, but ran out of milk so they dont count :))

Exercise
Over an hours walking
5 goes on the dance machine.
 
A:) I've lost two thirds of my extra weight now! I just want to be there already. I know its gonna be harder to shift the last 15 or so pounds. I don't know whether to do a big crash diet for a couple of weeks to get it over and done with, or just be sensible.

I am so stressed right now. My head is dizzy with it all. Was supposed to be going to the circus tonight but I have lost the tickets. Booooo! And I have also lost my cash card again. And of course my will-i-or-will-i-not-be-going-to-university stress, and bf stress. I will be so upset if it doesn't work out. I don't know why you have to wait till the beginning of the course to get your timetable. They should disclose it a few weeks in advance so that people can sort out childcare or work shifts. I'm sure I will just about scrape getting in and enrolling in time, but that's no good if all the hours and days are wrong for childcare.

I am seriously tired anyway. Just think I'll get an early night. And sulk. I feel awful letting Lily down, she was so excited to go. I rang them up to ask if it would be okay to go there without tickets, but they were just a booking office and didn't know. I don't know.... I might try my luck.... For Lily more than me though.

I really need to adjust to getting up early again.

I'm glad I had no money last week and couldn't join the gym, because if it all works out I wouldn't be able to go. "Enrolling" tomorrow.... Not that I'll be able to do it properly. But at least I will be there in person, and will be able to to someone who knows what they are talking about. Hopefully.
 
AHeya girly
:hurray: :hurray: :hurray: :hurray: :hurray: :hurray: :hurray: :hurray:
Yay 2.5lbs!!!!! Congrats hun.

And...........BREATH...........Just think, in a few weeks you will know what you are doing and it will all be easier. I am so excited for you :)
 
ACongrats on the 2.5 pounds!!! Well done!!


and I say be sensible!!! if you go on a crash diet...you may end up gaining weight in the long run!!! You have done this for your health, not just the vanity!! Ok I am off my "soap box" ...lol. :)


I am sure you will find balance in life!! You are a strong...beautiful and happy women....you can do whatever you put your mind too!!! :grouphug:
 
congrads on the loos and all the success on your diet!!!!\DOnt do crash diets you know you shouldnt.It will get off the last punds for sure just be calm and steady and it Will go so what if it take a little longer??you are nearly there and you can feel fab about that no matter what!So just eat nice and do your exercise and dont go starving yourself!
 
AEeee Enrolment Day! :D Hope it all was smooooth and they were really helpful and understanding of your situation. :)

NOW - Crash Diet versus Continuing Being Healthy

Crash Diet - you will lose the weight quickly, then you will hit your goal and... then what? You'll stop your crash diet and you'll put it back on! You KNOW that is true. You will probably put it back on and be a lot more than what you are now... in just a few months time! Plus it's not healthy. Your body will freak out and you will probably get sick and... yeah.

OR

Continuing Being Healthy - in those couple of months, you will continue losing weight gradually and your body will be healthy. Your body will love you for it! And then you will be your goal weight and will be able to stay there. And you will be really proud of yourself!

Rant over. Be a good girl. You are doing SO WELL - just keep doing what you are doing! You will be there by the end of the year for SURE! Probably WAY earlier!
 
AThank you so much people!

Joh, it went smother than smooth..... It was positively SILKY! I'm in, iminiminimin!!!!

They actually enrolled me! They said you can't enrol till you have photographic ID. They said you can't enrol till your funding is in place. I had neither!!!! But they let me!!!!!! I have my ID card, and everything! I am properly enrolled! Plus, I have seen a preliminary timetable, which is subject to change, but, Its a long day on Monday (when nicks off college so can be at home for the kids), a lecture on Thursday lunchtime (only 2 hours extra for Lily at nursery) and Friday mornings (again only 2 hours extra). And the nursery have a space on both days to take her! I will ask charlies school if they could change his pick up time to ten minutes earlier... as one day I will be 10 minutes late

So I am going to university! I really hope my loan stuff is processed in time... It should be. That's only a teeny problem now in the scheme of things. Will meet my classmates on Monday. There are a couple of freshers events before the course starts- Boat trip on Thursday, and a night out on Friday. Think I'll go along to the night out.

Its just been a perfect day! Busses glided up a second before I reached the bus stops, Ditto for trains, the bank let me take money out with no cashcard without even peeping at my ID. Sat outside a cafe on my own on a busy street without being paranoid people were repulsed by my looks. I just felt like the world was a lovely place. I was so worried that the day had gone smoothly- I thought my luck must be about to change. But my luck carried on being lucky :party:

This is so unexpected, and I am completely thrown. Most people going to uni actually know they are going to uni after all. I think the universe must be looking out for me :) I have had half a bottle of wine to celebrate, and I am rather drunk.

I know... you are all right about the crash dieting! It took a long time to put the weight on, and it should take a long time to take it off again. Humph. I'll get there in the end.

My bestie is getting induced on Monday, and she is going to have a gorgeous little boy! I'm going to see her tomorrow for lunch.

Yesterday
Cereal for breakfast, cereal for lunch, cereal for dinner (!)

Today
Porridge
A danish fairy cake shaped almond pastry aka the yummiest yummy I have had in ages.
2 mouses
half a bottle of rose
Bangers and mash
4 coffees

Have no food in. Will do on Sunday. Then I'm sure I'll be a good girl.
 
A :hurray: :hurray: :hurray:I am so so please for you girly!!! You so deserve some good luck for once! :hurray: :hurray: :hurray:

It really couldn't happen to a nicer person. I can't wait to follow your uni journey as well as your food journey. My Friend who just came back from Thailand has been at uni this week and it is lovely listening to his excitement. He is aprehensive too but you will both have an awesome time and at the end you get to do what you really wanted to do. I can't put into words how totally excited and chuffed i am for you. I am all squeally for you. I told Mark and even he was really chuffed for you. I have told him about you, Joh, Jess and Lucy. I talk about you guys all the time. He was like 'That's the hotty in London isn't it' :)

Is Nick being more suportive now?

How cool that everythiing has fallen into place so easily........IT WAS MENT TO BE!!! A new chapter in your life.
Sat not worrying about people being repulsed by your looks.........Ruthie..Am i gonna have to slap you?!?!?! I am glad that you felt more confident today but hunny, you really shouldn't think that anyway!! You are bloody stunning! OK!!! Don't make me give you my cross face. :cuss: Love you :)

I am so pleased that 'The world felt like a lovely place' today.....And hell yeah, you deserve to be drunk...I'll rais a glass to that.
 
CONGRATS!!!:hurray::hurray:


I knew you would get it Ruth my love! So so happy for you:):) You are going to love your course i can just feel it:) I know you will excel in it also because you are such a creative person. I agree with everything Kate has said above me, it couldnt have happened to a nicer person:):)


Cant wait to hear all the goss from college:):)
 
A:D Awww thanks! :grouphug:

How old is your friend Kate? And what course is he doing? I am a bit nervous about starting with loads of 18 year olds :) In fact I would be nervous whatever age people are. I fear I have become a social leper. I'm so out of practice. Even at the painting class I started last Monday... I do have a tendency to make jokes that aren't funny without thinking about it when I'm nervous. At the course, I thought of a few things to say, but I told myself that I would actually think before I spoke... But thinking before I speak means I don't end up saying much at all! So shall I not think what I am going to say and say things that stupid? Or do I think and say nothing? I think the first impression I give to people isn't good. I calm down when I am not nervous and I think I'm fine then.... Its like there is a blank conversationless hole and I rush to fill it with whatever comes out of my mouth. Although saying that I did chat to a girl in the enrolement queue for about half an hour yesterday without seeming too weird I think... But there was no pressure there.

The thing is my strengths don't actually lie in creative stuff, although that's what I'm drawn (drawn-geddit [example of non-funny joke]) to the most. I'm not even sure I want to be an interior designer any more if I am being completely honest! I think that I would be in the bottom 10% of them and not do very well. But it is a fun job. I have an idea which is both altruistic and selfish(!) to get some hands on experience designing real life rooms. Practice makes perfect, and all that.

Nick is in a huge sulk because he thinks I will meet someone new at uni and have a great love affair. :rollseyes: Its bloody interior design, it will be all girls and gay guys!

I have eaten so much crap today that I am not going to write it. My gut, oh my gut, is rotting. I feel awful. Really awful. And I have just remembered my shopping won't be here tomorrow cos I've cancelled my cashcard.

Was beginning to think dieting was getting a bit boring... But feeling horrible like this is not very interesting. So I think I will stick with boring healthiness for the next week or so. I need some vegetables inside me.
 
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