General hysterical diet related rambling: From Flab to Fab.

AAlright, lady, time to give you a taste of your own medicine.

RAINBOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHERE ARE YOU?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

You said to me that if you fail it;s MY FAULT - remember that!!!! Do you know how bad you would make me feel if you just disappeared? POOOOO!!!!

[COLOR=FF00AA][COLOR=FF00AA][COLOR=FF00AA][COLOR=FF00AA]Get your butt back on here NOW!!!![/COLOR][/COLOR][/COLOR][/COLOR]
 
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I keep seeing that you have a comment on your diary and i keep thinking oooohhh, she's back. But no, someone else is thinking the same as me.

Hurry up and just tell us you are ok, really worrying now hun.

Sending you lots of love and hugs Xxx
 
AAwwww thank you all xxxxxx Sorry!!!!

I have been barely been able top get out of bed for the past week, I don't know whats wrong ith me. Usually when I have felt this bad its passed in a couple of days. I have been sleeping for about 15 hours a day and being sick and dizzy for the resrt, just staring at the wall with a completely blank mind. I knew I should have come on here to let you allknow I am not dead, but its just like I have turned into a sick person shaped void. The good news is that I have lost another half a stone.

Personally I blame going to the gym. I started to get ill srraight after. All them bodily fluids and germs cannot be healthy, I don't care what anyone says :)

Got so much uni work to do. The house is a pig sty and my poor kids are being neglected. Feeling slighty better, hope I'm back to normal soon.
 
Welcome back, Ruthie!

I'm so sorry that you've been so unwell.

But It's great that you're feeling better and are now on the road to recovery.


And congrats on the weight loss. I guess that's the upside to being so sick!!
 
Sorry to hear you're not feeling good rainbow. Hopefully it passes soon. Great job on the weight loss! It's hard to still lose when you don't feel good, you just feel blah and either don't want to eat much at all or you want to eat waaaaay too much.


Get better soon!:grouphug:
 
AHeya

So glad you are ok, kinda, you know what i mean :)
Hope you feel better soon hun, sending you lots of hugs. Xxx
 
A:D

I did a really unhealthy weekly shop yesterday, but I came on here then I thought I had better change it, so all the icecreamsa nd cakes and deserts came off! I thought to myself that if I muck up, at least it will be a spontaneous mucking up rather than pre-meditated.

While I was ill nick was not good to me. When I was at my lowest and needed him he just wasn't there, and it all came out that he has been doing drugs again. Yep, what you all said was right. I was so sure that it really was a one off all those weeks ago. You all warned me, but I believed in him. Its strange how people on the outside can see things so much clearer. Anyway, he has been storming off out all night all time, and letting me down for looking after the kids and stuff, and that is why. He is moving to Essex (about 30 miles away) officially tomorrow. I just feel so relieved. I have just been so upset recently, and my mind can't take any more stress. It will be hard. But its for the best.

I am thinking I might change the computer room into a gym. Need to finish paying for my cheeks first, but it would be nice to go for a run every morning so I can do that half marathon with Kate one day :)

ONWARDS AND UPWARDS!
 
sorry to hear that you having problems with nick.u say u feel relieved,so that is good,it may be hard at first but if u know in your heart its 4 the best u wilk be better of.only you lnow in you,if its best to be with him or not.


good thing getting rid of the junk u ordered!hope u didnt leave lots more on the list!


wishing u luck and strengh in your battle with smoking!its a difficult time in general,hope we make it through it all the best we can!
 
Hey sweetie!


I'm SO sorry that your Nick is such a rotten jerk. It's good that there's going to be some distance between you now. You really don't need some like that dragging you down. You have too much going for you!!


Good job getting rid of the bad food!


Thanks again for coming over to my diary. You're such a good audience for my semi-pornographic confessions! lol!


Good luck quitting smoking. You're such a strong woman, I know you'll do great! (BTW- My Nick is quitting right now, too)


Bye for now!
 
AAwww sweetheart
Sorry to hear you are going thru crap at the moment, on top of giving up smoking! Well done on that by the way :)

Well done on the healthy shop hun :hurray:

Just wanted to send love and hugs your way :grouphug:

Oh and i can't wait to do a half marathon with you :)
 
AThank you all xxx

I ran 5k today Kate :) Really proud of myself! I ran quite a lot on 14 km/ph :D With no trainers on on lol as they were pinching my toes :) I paused my workout to go and get some water and they told me to put my trainers back on for health and safety :eek: Think that next Tuesday I am going to do 8k.

So the first day on my own. I haven't really eaten properly. Porridge, then a Cornish pasty, then a big bar of chocolate, then some cereal, then some hot chocolate. I thought a lasagne would be okay for me and the kids but it was quite skinny so I only had a bite. I am just constantly aware that I'm on my own. I'm feeling quite sad, but I'm okay. Just worried about when the hell I am going to get the chance to do any uni work as a single mum. I have got SO MUCH TO DO!!!!!!!

I have been going out of my mind for a fag today. I must have smoked about half a cigarette, but in four instalments. Chuffing away on my inhaler now. I am determined I am not going to buy any fags no matter what! Random puffs of other peoples is allowed though.

The shopping is coming tomorrow.

Sorry this isn't more lively or vivacious, I have been writing rather boringly of late.

Time for bed I am shattered from the gym.
 
ANicks coming over to get the computer and telly and the rest of his stuff now :( I won't be able to afford a laptop for a couple of months which is rather shite. The one I bought a few months ago never came and I got a refund. I shouldn't really be coming on the computer much anyway considering the amount of uni work I've gotta do. I will still come on here a couple of times a week, but it'll have to be on my uni computer. Nick has a new place and a job in Essex.

I have eaten shit today. I have a lot on my plate (pun intended).

I have smoked 5 roll ups as well. Ohdearohdearohdear.

My legs aren't aching too badly today considering the amount of running I did yesterday.

Bollocks bollocks bloody shittity fuckity wank a roony. At least I have christmas and my new cheeks to look forwards too.

Edit... Well Nick didn't come and get the computer tonight :) He said he was going to be here soon but it was a lie, so the kids got all excited to see him for nothing. I am hugely surprised about how happy the kids are so far in general tho :) Charlie usually comes straight from school and plays his game in the computer room, but he came and snuggled with me in the front room tonight, and they have both already fallen asleep without any problems and bedtime is almost always a nightmare. Maybe the stress vibes from me and nick was rubbing off on them a lot more than I thought. Still waiting for my sadness to kick in as well, if you had told me that I would be fine when we broke up with not one single crying fit I wouldn't have believed it. It feels so lovely knowing that me and nick aren't going to bicker any more.
 
Hey rainbow,


I just read up on your diary. Sorry your going through a tough time. :( But I think things are definitely going to pick up for you. Your gonna tackle school, being a single mom, and defeat that evil nicotine addiction! :)
 
i am so pleased that your lovely kids are fine and happy asleep withput any problems.they have their mommy everyday,they are safe and loved and they DO pick up so much more than we think.they might not understand everything but they sure get the feelings/

i am so happy that u are staying stong and u will get through this and be a stronger woman because of it.

i will miss your everyday postings,try to write down your food though.dont get carried away cause of not coming on everyday.hope u manage to get a laptop or even better hope he gives it 2 u let u keep it

thinking of you and sending possitive lovely wishes:grouphug:
 
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you are a strong and beautiful mom and women!! you are handling this so well because its what you really want!! you should be so proud of yourself!! because we are and I am sure your kids will benefit much more from two happy separate parents than two miserable together parents!! Sending some extra hugs and luv!! :) :)
 
AHeya girly :)

So sorry i haven't commented for days. Been proper busy with run up to christmas.....I should be wrapping pressents at the moment but can't be bothered!!

:hurray: :hurray: :hurray: :hurray: Wow 5K!!!!! That's awesome!!!! So so so so proud of you sweetie!! :hurray: :hurray: :hurray: :hurray:

I'm also really proud of how well you are coping with a new strange life. You will be great and so will the kids. You are all obviously finding life a lot less stressfuland tense and more relaxed.

Sending you lots of love and great big squishy hugs Xxx
 
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