Frogged's Lily Pad

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That's what you should try and focus on right now.. your success! You have done AMAZINGLY; you're a huge inspiration to many, many people. You're sweet, kind, good looking and just generally an all-around good guy with a heart of gold. I'm sorry to hear you're struggling with emotions right now, but remember you do have a network of people who're more than willing to stand beside you and be there for you!


It truly breaks my heart to hear you're feeling sad despite the goals you've smashed to pieces. I know it may be hard right now, but you WILL get rid of the extra skin eventually, one way or another. Even if it's a mixture of strength training and surgery - both will take time anyway. You've already put years into this - and you're almost there! Stay positive!
 
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Well done to be in the 180's wow, thats amazing..........frogged, i am so sorry you are down at the moment..... i know i cant say anything to cheer you up, but you have to remind yourself that you have come such a long way from the person you were a few years ago. I mean, at the moment you are over 40 pounds less than me:( haha.......like you totally rock dude:):) Is there any surgery you could have to remove the excess skin? will it cost a fortune? i hope you cheer up frogged, i love your positive attitude and you are a inspiration to us all!!:):) hugs
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hehe, thanks, Princess :)


Just having you stop by cheers me up!


I do look back on my chart, pics, and videos sometimes when I'm feeling not-so-successful at certain areas in life. I'm so thankful I decided to film and capture those moments (as awkward and difficult as it was in the beginning). It's pretty invaluable and I always recommend anyone serious about losing weight to do it.


At the moment, maybe, but you're gonna surpass and put my numbers to shame in time, Princess! I know it, and I can't wait to see you reach those goals :) I'll be here to help in anyway I can!


Oh, and the surgery is going to be pricey. I have benefits (federal - woohoo!) now, so we'll see if it'll cover cosmetic. I have coverage with basically everything else.


My uncle is a nurse at John Hopkins, so I'll be going there with some family for consultations once I reach the 177 mark :) Then, we'll see what my options are, the exact price, and how much my insurance will benefit me.


Thanks again for being so lovely :)



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That's what you should try and focus on right now.. your success! You have done AMAZINGLY; you're a huge inspiration to many, many people. You're sweet, kind, good looking and just generally an all-around good guy with a heart of gold. I'm sorry to hear you're struggling with emotions right now, but remember you do have a network of people who're more than willing to stand beside you and be there for you!



It truly breaks my heart to hear you're feeling sad despite the goals you've smashed to pieces. I know it may be hard right now, but you WILL get rid of the extra skin eventually, one way or another. Even if it's a mixture of strength training and surgery - both will take time anyway. You've already put years into this - and you're almost there! Stay positive!
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You're right, Sarah :)


Such amazing people on this forum! I wish I could find people just as amazing in the area.


That's not to say I haven't come across a few, but again, it's the issues in my head that are causing problems with those relationships. It's almost like an involuntary reaction. I don't want to think about the skin damage, but the more I try not to think about it, the more I think about it!


Anyway.. yeah. Just gonna push through it and continue on.


Oh, so to move this post to a more uplifting aspect, I'm participating in a Heart Walk this coming September. I didn't know prior, but apparently a family member submitted my story (with pics) to the event organizer. It's been accepted into some kind of drawing to receive an award in recognition of efforts to get healthy :) Which is cool! It's going to be presented at a nearby middle school and, if I win, I'll probably get a plaque and have to make a speech or something. I'm not sure of the details, but I'll be getting them tomorrow, so I'll post it then :)


I'm also attending a 'Light The Night' walk in November of this year with some family and friends. It's for blood cancer awareness, which my mother had (lymphoma). You get to carry balloons and can register teams for donations :)


There's more info here: http://www.lightthenight.org/what/


I'll have to think up a team name! Something to do with frogs probably :)


Alright, so there are good things going on, and I always do my best to stay positive :)


Even though feelings of anger fuel my routine, the end result has always been to be happier.


Thanks again, Sarah and Irish! You're both so awesome :)
 
AGlad to hear you're back in the 180's.. Awesome! Not so glad to hear about all the emotional stuff though. :( Focus on the good things, Greg! You're an inspiration to all of us here! :)

I've always wanted to do one of the Light the Night walks. Good luck picking the team name! And yes, it must include frogs..lol!
 
Thanks Jen :)


Emotional issues are all part of this journey. The degrees vary from person to person obviously, but we all go through some form or another.. especially when it comes to weight loss. That's probably why a lot of us have grown close to each other and feel comfortable opening up :)


Haha, well we'll see! I may be joining a friend's team with an already chosen name, but I'm not sure yet :) It's not until November, so there's a good amount of time still :)


I'm thinking something like 'The Hoppy Frogs' :p lol, or 'Pondwater Paddlers'.


I dunno. My friend did a Relay For Life the other week and her team name was 'Pain In The Neck', hehe


Yep, so my weight is going very well! I did a little over 5 miles today as I had been mucking about in the humidity all day at work, then continued that trend when I got home by vacuuming and cleaning out my old Jeep (so much dirt and crap in it!). I was sweating bullets for a good 45min from that, so I figured a quick 5 miles would be suitable exercise for today.


I still plan on belting out a few miles tomorrow morning just to keep myself in a good momentum for next week's weigh-in!


I'm also planning on going to see The Dark Knight Rises in IMAX with my Dad tomorrow, so that will be an excellent :))


Thanks for stopping by, Jen :)
 
Just stopping to say hi!! I don't think I know you...but we need to get to know each other!! Ah man, Batman in Imax, that would be crazy!
 
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Just stopping to say hi!! I don't think I know you...but we need to get to know each other!! Ah man, Batman in Imax, that would be crazy!
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Hi Korrie :)


I've been around for years, even before I made an account. I just remember you giving me a slight wrist slap back when I decided to make an account (it was for linking my blog in my signature)
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I promise I've been good ever since! hehe


Yeah, so thanks for stopping by
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I have a list of several journals I do my best to keep up with, so I'll be checking in on yours as well! Good luck to ya!


Oh, and I love Batman! Can't wait to see it later today! :biggrin:
 
Ah, and a side note: 4.6lb gone this week
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Total of 12.4lb in 3 weeks. Keeping up with this momentum, I should be at my goal (177) by the end of the month! :biggrin:
 
Thank ya, Princess! :biggrin:


Well, a lot of it is still that annoying retention. It's just been sticking to me like glue these last few months, then with the cheat days and the occasional outing, it just kept adding on and solidifying it even more.


I just don't have distraction right now and I've eliminated my cheat days, plus I'm putting my body through the ringer a bit on the treadmill! haha


My legs feel a bit like jello this morning :p


Oh, and I also have that event in the beginning of September, and I really want to hit my goal by then! So, it's a combination of a couple different things that are really driving me right now
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Thanks for stopping by, my dear!
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A[quote name="Frogged" url="/t/51538/froggeds-lily-pad/500#post_834414"]Ah, and a side note: 4.6lb gone this week :)

Total of 12.4lb in 3 weeks. Keeping up with this momentum, I should be at my goal (177) by the end of the month! :D
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Holy heck batman!! you are a super hero!! I am so happy for you!! WELL DONE!!! :) :hurray: :)

Sometimes those mini goals/events are the kick in the but we all need! You are so motivating me...thanks so much!!!
 
Hehe! Thanks, Tete :biggrin:


Speaking of Batman - it rocked!! Wow. Bane was badass! I don't want to spoil anything, but poor Bats.. damn. There was one fight that left me a bit devastated afterward (you'll know when you see it).. :)


Oh, and the IMAX experience was amazing! Soooo cool! I gotta do it again sometime soon - even though my neck was slightly hurting afterward


So anyway, it was a good day for the most part. I did a quick 5 miles this morning just to fire up my body. Then, ate my usual cereal, had a lean cuisine with a bit of italian green beans (which is pretty yummy!). I then met up with my Dad and had a protein bar before the movie. The movie is long btw (164min), so I was pretty famished afterward. We stopped by a subway and I got a 6'' turkey sub with just lettuce and a bit of mozzarella cheese (the info said it had about 280 calories).


I said my goodbyes then and headed home. I got hit with a bit of sadness then as coming home to an empty house is kind of depressing, considering the recent emotional trifles I've been dealing with :( Eh..


I mean, I have my pup here, and she's great.. but not quite the same.


So, I figured I'd try my hand again at another timed mile. Even though I had already exercised earlier, I was feeling up to it and had nothing else to do.


My last best time was 7:17, and it was on my old treadmill. I posted a pic too :)


I did a quick 5min warm-up at a walk of 3.5, then powered it off/on and began. I managed to beat that score by 6 seconds this time on the new treadmill with a 3 incline! :biggrin:





Not a huge improvement, but I feel satisfied with that number


I started off at a 9mph for about 2min, then dropped to 8mph for the majority, followed by increasing it to about 10mph for the last minute.


So yep, hoping to just keep improving as time goes on!
 
Heya, Frogged! Thanks for stopping by my journal! I just read through your's and I gotta say, you are truly an inspiration. You've been through so much and I really admire your strength of spirit and your perseverance. You've come so so far and you absolutely deserve the Heart Walk award you were submitted for. I hope you win because I think it would be not only super awesome, but also really important for others to hear your story and see your progress and be inspired by it. I certainly am!
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I agree about Batman being awesome! I also saw it in IMAX and the only seats were right up at the front of the screen. My neck was killin' me for a while, too! But it was worth it. Bane was really terrifying with his crazy voice and not being able to see his face except for his eyes... it was great. And the fight scenes were pretty good too! They used a style of martial arts called KFM which one of my stunt buddies just got certified to teach in and will hopefully spread some knowledge about it to our little stunt group here. It really is a cool form of martial arts and works well for movie fight choreography (AND in real life, if you need it!) Oh, to get hired to do stunts in a movie like Batman... a girl can dream! ;)


Sheez dude you are a BEAST on that treadmill! I couldn't get much past 7mph last I tried and that was only for less than a minute! Keep it up!!! That's incredible!
 
Very cool, Squish!
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Yeah, I loved it! I actually have a few videos from the movie already incorporated into my collection (yeah, they're bootleg and not great quality, but it'll do for now until I can obtain the BR).
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As sad as it is to watch Bats get his butt kicked by Bane, I have that fight in my videos - it's just so powerful and filled with emotion.


That's so cool that you have a buddy that can instruct you in the same kind of fighting style used in these films!!
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I don't think I've ever been in an actual fight my entire life. At most, I pushed my cousin to the point of him falling when we were kids, but that was about it.. lol. I'm very non-confrontational. I avoid conflict whenever possible.


When I went to see TDKR, afterward, one of the people I went with thought for sure there was going to be a sequel. There's definitely a good setup for one, but I'm pretty sure this is the end of Nolan's trilogy. However, if they do decide to proceed with the ending they setup, that would be quite awesome and might even pave the way for a Batgirl introduction! Who knows!
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Maybe you'll get your wish and could even stunt for one of the main characters then! :biggrin:


Thanks again for the lovely words, Squish! I do my best
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So, on another positive note, I (hopefully) might have convinced an old friend to re-join the forum in pursuit of a happier lifestyle in regards to weight management. I hope she proceeds and creates a new diary (she had one the other year, but had to disable her account because of personal issues)! I'd be so thrilled if she came back!
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Oh, and my diet today was good. Didn't go above my limit and exercised a hard 5 miles earlier tonight. I've noticed I'm so thirsty lately. I'm guzzling water like crazy, which is fine I suppose. After I hopped off the treadmill, I stepped on the scale and saw my number. Then, I was so thirsty that I chugged enough water to put me up like 2lb a minute later, lol


Ah well. Water weight
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Today was pretty good for the most part!
 
..and a bit of a 180 today :\


Still arm wrestling with certain emotions. I feel so drained from all the things going through my head.. erg. It doesn't help that I spent the majority of my free time (and work time) alone. Oy.


Diet is going great tho! Did about an hour and a half for 7.7 miles. I haven't been in a good rhythm like this since last year.. I just wish I didn't have the burden of depression hounding me heavier than usual along with this success :(


Actually, while exercising today, I feel I was consumed with a feeling that overshadowed my usual ones. It wasn't anger, sadness, or happiness.. it was more like a constant feeling of disappointment. For the first few minutes, I briefly felt like just stopping actually. I felt sooo drained physically and mentally. But, I just kept putting one foot in front of the other. Then, after a while, I found I was pushing myself harder than I had previously during my running points - and my usual speeds felt a bit too easy at that point! It was quite something. Felt better after running, as I always do. If I didn't have my routine, I'd be so lost right now :( It's one of the few things that's always kept me grounded, with my family and this forum being the others :)


So, last night around midnight, I felt it was a good idea to send off a few drunken texts to a friend of mine I hadn't seen in a while.. haha. Need I say more? Yeah, I'm sure a few of us have been there. You wake up in the morning and it just hits you like a basketball to the face. You almost don't even want to touch your phone afterward because you know whatever you read is just going to make you want to find the nearest window to throw yourself out of.. lol


Nothing bad was said of course, but looking back, I think it made me look a bit.. clingy? or pushy? I dunno. She always said she appreciated the fact that I was just there when she needed, and not a pester. Hum.. I just miss seeing my friend :(


Anyway, having some alcohol in ya while you're emotional, along with the ability to text, rarely ever ends well.


Live and learn :(


On a more positive note, I received the packet of information for the Heart Walk I'm attending in September. I already mentioned it to a few friends and family who are interested in coming :)


It should go well. It's too late for me to start a team, plus there's quite a bit of documentation, so maybe I'll do that next time. I'm still a newbie with it, and the rep I spoke to over the phone says it can be a lot to take in. They only sent me roughly 1/3 of the info, but they hold meetings like 2 months prior to the event just to go over it all. I missed that, so myself and others are just going to attend as individuals. Fund raising is optional as well.


So, it should be a good time. It's going to be 3 miles :)
 
Mmm.. I'm really sorry you're still struggling a bit. :( This is one of those times I wish they would create a way to give someone a proper hug through the internet!


As for the drunken texts.. haha, we've all done it! I'm sure she didn't think too much of it! And I'm sure she understands why you feel that way.. even a friendship is a two way street - she should be there for you to learn on too!


What is this Heart Walk? Sorry for bieng so ignorant.. I don't know anything about it, and I've seen it mentioned a few times on the board. I'm guessing it's a charity walk for those with heart problems? Or can you choose your charity? Or am I totally off? It sucks you're too late for your own team, but eh, you can still go along! Will be a fun, nice way out to meet like-minded people, at least!


Muchos <3
 
I wouldn't mind a hug :) The drunken text thing.. yeah. It is what it is and that's all it is (as a co-worker always says).


So, Heart Walk is a 3 mile event organized by the American Heart Association. Here's a bit more info about the one I'm going to: http://heartwalk.kintera.org/faf/home/default.asp?ievent=997053&lis=1&kntae997053=18FBCAEE3DF149EA8CB895270709D43B


I'll be going as an individual, along with a few other friends.


Yeah, it'll be a fun time, I'm sure :)


I'm off today, and good thing too since now my other jeep is in the shop (front right wheel bearing was annihilated.. ugh). So, I'm without either of my jeeps as my other one needed to have the head gasket and radiator replaced (still no idea of how much the repair bill will be on that one!).


Ohhhh my.. so, in the interest of not losing my head to all those issues, along with other recent events, I've been taking up working on some things in my yard. Specifically, the fire pit my ex-roommate and I designed months ago. I'm revamping it and added some more decor around it. I'm having company over at the end of August, and we're gonna BBQ and drink, so gotta get it ready!


It's such a friggin' pain though, as the terrain in my yard slopes, so it's not level and I'm trying to create this perimeter of these giant concrete slabs around the pit. I'm gonna fill in the area in between with stones then, but I need to make it level and.. oy, what a workout - especially in this heat! Using a hoe and shovel to get up the dirt and misc grass bits that I then carry over to the wooded area by my house and dump. I'm soaked with sweat in like 15min.


It's good tho! I'm still fixing to do my 5 miles later tonight, and my calorie intake is the usual, so I expect another great number added to my chart tomorrow! I'm shooting for 183 :)


Ah, and my co-worker is having his annual Pool Party tomorrow as well. Most of the people at work are coming, and I've always been welcome. I haven't been to the last couple, so I said sure, why not! A few people then asked what size speedo I wore, and I said the size wasn't as important as the print design (green zebra striped - makes my eyes pop! haha) ;p


Another event that should be fun!


Thanks for the lovely
 
Oh greg thank god you didnt trow yourself out of the window, but i know what you mean...when your drunk and in an emotional state before drinking, its a depressing sight. When ever im sad and have been drinking on a night out, i always put my phone at the end of my bag.........safer that way;) like you said... you have learnt your lesson:):)
 
Yeah, painful lessons are just part of the whole journey, Princess :)


I'm getting there! I'm closing in on being a fully-functional member of society soon ;P bahaha


Just gotta stay headstrong and carry on :)


On another note, I was browsing around on Youtube and something caught my eye. Not sure if anyone knows about David Smith (aka the 650lb Virgin), but his was a story that really inspired me a long time ago. I hadn't really heard much of him since, but today I found this video, and it was pretty heart-breaking :(


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Though the good news is that he's re-committing himself to losing the weight again, plus it looks like he has an amazing woman by his side there as well :) I sent him a message on Youtube earlier, and I don't know if he'll get it or respond, but I just wanted to send some good vibes to him.


I hope he does well.


Oh, and today was pretty good - did a ton of yard work. Sweated like craaaaaaazy. I fixed up my fire pit a bit, ate well, and did my 5 miles on the treadmill. I feel wiped..


Expecting another good number tomorrow morning! :)
 
AThat is so heart breaking, and so, so true. You can lose 400lb but it won't make a lick of a difference if you don't see the beauty inside. That's my problem. People tell me every day, literally, that I look good, but I still see in my mind that 250lb girl.

Drinking can be utterly awful, I learned that last weekend. I'm glad that you didn't do anything worse than that. Texts can be embarrassing, but they can be laughed at later down the road.

I also wanna do a walk, it's for mental health and drug abuse awareness. I want to do the 10k route but it says it's the 10k "run" and I don't think I could run. I can definitely walk that far though lol. I just think it's great to do something active to help raise awareness and give to the community.

Glad you're keeping active outside, enjoy summer while it's still here lol.
 
AAweee..that poor guy....my heart breaks for him...this food addiction we all have is hell..and it shows its self time and time again. :(

As far as you young man....hahaha...glad you are doing your thing and getting your mojo on..enjoy that party!! And sending you awesome vibes for a great weigh in!! :hurray:
 
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