Fresh Start

Hey! I'm so sorry to hear that you're feeling a little down - I'll definitely keep your friends in my prayers. :) Hope everything works out.

I think the 3lb+ is probably just a lot of water or maybeee 3 pounds of muscle - since you've been working so hard! ;)

good job on the eating! i think the hardest part for me in weight loss is my portion control and just eating in general. i dont mind goign to the gym but it's so hard for me to not diverge and eat bad foods. i need to get on that wagon you're on. ;)

anyyywayy have a good rest of the day!
 
Wow, there seems like some stress mixed in there back a few posts...

Good thathe 7 year old is doing well...

And Lissen hun... BREATHE....

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Olux-after having my daughter I developed my workout routine in the morning out of necessity and now LOVE the gym, its the food part I have been battling ever since having little time definately does a # on my planning and I was on a bad track even ebfore that but I digress. We CAN do this!!!!

Karl-yes a bad attitude in deed my life is great there is nothing really bad in it just a lot little things were piling up on me that would nromally be dealt with but between hormone roller coaster and steroids OMG sooooo no coping skills LOL. Better today, thank you!

Scale is back to begrudgingly saying 155.0 today but I still feel really bloated and full, today is first day of no steroids and absolutely last day I would be due for TOM so here is to hoping to see 152 by monday!!

Ok so I have to do a training class in front of a number of folks today, powerpoint, demo the whole deal wish me luck! And I have to be there when they are working (darn) so have to be there EARLY!!

on a side note my gym is cutting back services, raising prices, and overall folks are just ticked, I found out about a new 24 hr gym in town I thought it was just a powerlifter gym but evidentially I was wrong and I hear they are 24 hours so I woudl like to stop and check them out this week, they are even closer to my house---like maybe a mile and there are some days I would like to get there before 5:30 so thsi might be a good option. They dont have a pool or track but I dont care so much about that. I am not sure they ahve classes but with more hours, lower prices, and closer to my house I might be able to deal.
 
On a side note as I near my '10lbs to go' mark I know things will get more difficult. If I accomplish 152.5 by monday then in order for me to reach my goal by the end of March I would have to loose an average of 1.8lbs/week, I think that is a bit steep.

I would think we would start trying to get pregnant in April/May and the best I can hope for then would be to maintain so I have to try and stay focused!!!
 
mom2 said:
Ok so I have to do a training class in front of a number of folks today, powerpoint, demo the whole deal wish me luck! And I have to be there when they are working (darn) so have to be there EARLY!!
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Luck!!! I have been working on one too and have to give the presentation to my boss as well, he's part of the training class...
 
good luck with your training class :)

a closer gym would probably be a good idea and being only a mile away you could get a good warmup by walking to the gym :) but check it out and see what the atmosphere is like there before deciding.
 
Today was a good day, I was sooo busy at work but in a good way. I did not get in any walking, though the day did include alot none for point excercise. My calories are really low, I am debating on what ot have for snack but I am sitting at just under 1400. I am still feeling a bit bloated today but not as bad, I have added some prunes in the mix thinking perhaps its that LOL.


Thanks Tru, I will definately hang around a bit, I worry about the security of a 24hr gym--maybe I will even have both for a month before really considering leaving. I would not miss the track, basketball, pool but I would miss the classes and the occasional opportunity to take DD to pool (but they raised the prices on that too).
 
Definitely weigh out the pros and cons of both gyms. I think having access 24 hours is so great though - especially if you have a crazy schedule. PLUSSS if it's close to home, you won't ever have a reason not to go! :)

And I am teh same way - food is my hardest part.

Anyway hope you make a decision soon! :) GOODDD LUCK! <333
 
Hey sorry, a few more things - Thanks for posting on my journal! I'm aiming to lose like 16ish pounds by the end of our competition. I'm hoping it's doable! :) Hopefully our team can drop some more lbs so we can get some points at the end of the competition to make up for our losses these past 2 weeks! :(

ANDD lastly -- I was reading your profile and it said you're a chemist! Were you a chemistry major in college? the reason i ask is because i'm a bio sci major and O CHEM kickedddd my butt soo hard!
 
bleck, well I am up and I got up without too much trouble BUT I am tired, not wanting to go to the gym and my shin is killing me. I think I am going to force myself to go but definately elliptical instead treadmill. I just want to crawl back into my nice warm matress pad heated bed and snooze but I dont htink that would do it I need a hookey day---too bad I'm too busy for one!

The scale is not loving on me anymore I saw 155 like almost two weeks ago but I still cant see it consistently hmmmm I keep varying up to +3lbs; today is +1.5lbs. I am not seeing any amazing differences in how clothes fit but there is definately a difference so I am happy with that (I have to remind myself its only been a month and I HAVE lost 9lbs --when scale is sitting @155 LOL).

I missed my workout tue/thur due to outside factors but now one day I want to miss and I cant that is just too few days!

on + side I have breakfast planned, tea made, and I made dinner last night so I could relax when I got home today. Some healthy venison soup (only 1lb ground beef in a HUGE pot) with tomato sauce/beef broth baste and nothing but lots of beans and cabbage---should be a smelly house tonight!!
 
Once you get to the gym and start your workout hopefully your energy levels will improve for the day. Good Luck :)
 
the gym did not happen this morning after doing my breathing treatments (for my lung disease) I just didnt ahve the energy so I went back to bed. Mind you I have done this like 3-4 times EVER and I can never fall back asleep and I feel guilty and then sometiems go anyway or just get up but today I fell back asleep HARD, I think I really needed it. I was sooo tired at work all day today as well.

Someone brought in home made rice krispie treats (probably my #2/3 fav thing) and I started with good intentions sparking it and fitting it in to my plan but about 6 treats and some twizzlers and chocolate later UGH I was an idiot. Anyway. Another hard lesson on moderation reinforced (thogh I wont claim it was learned). Of course having blood sugar control issues anyway and being tired I got soo tired after first I just kept eating more over about a 4 hour period. Of course I felt sick and tired. So I skipped my dinner ate a meat and cheese roll to keep my blood sugar from plummeting and went to the gym to try and redeem myself. I will try to fit in a good workout tomorrow as well.

Today zero for food 80 excercise including 3.5mi elliptical and 20 minutes core work. My knee popped loudly the other day and that knee is hurting sooo not good.

tomorrow IS a fresh start. I might not be breaking a bad habit all at once but if I can learn to regroup and learn from it then this process is working!
 
mom2 said:
The scale is not loving on me anymore I saw 155 like almost two weeks ago but I still cant see it consistently
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Both our bodies are being stubborn. We need to kick it hard to get it moving again! :willy_nilly:


It's ok you had rice krispies treats. I know sometimes my friends will have things that I just REALLY REALLYYYY want and I try to only eat one but then it gets a little out of hand. We're human and the best we can do is try. Tomorrow is a new day! :) Just don't consistently eat those yummmmy treats! ;)

Also! I don't know if we've ever talked about this before but I'm actually in the Pharmacy program at a university here in CA. I just have to keep a certain math/science gpa in order to get accepted into my university's pharmacy school. How do you like working in pharmaceuticals? I just don't know if I can be a pharmacist and sit behind a counter all day. I've done some field work and I know they do more than just check for drug reactions - but i just feel that it's more of low key job and the only people I will talk to if i work in a retail pharmacy are my pharmacy techs and a few patients who have questions regarding their prescriptions. Is it fulfilling?

OH BUT UHH G CHEM was a pain in the ass too! I remember in my lab writeups, I'd always get points taken off for sig figs! IM LIKE UH OK! does it reallyyyyy matter? I mean, yeah it doess matter, but COME ON!! and oxidation reactions? yuckk. I'm glad you can feel my pain! my non science major friends were always nagging on me about studying too much this past semester.

ANYWAY, i hope you have a great weekend! :) :hurray: and AMAZINGGG job on the elliptical! 3.5 miles!! i only do liek 1.5 usually. PSH!
 
I was really ashamed after thinking about what I had done eysterday, not because I lost poitns or I might have offset my weigh loss but because I realized I had binged. I dont know if I have ever realized that I binge before. I never used to do this.

It seems to me to be related to when I am tired/stressed and I eat sugar then I get tired and just keep going, its like it makes me feel pepped up and better for all of about 5 minutes then I leave my desk and go get more. Like DH and I have pigged out on a batch of no-back cookies or soemthing before or had pie with ice cream andw ay too much but I think the only time I truly binge is when I am at work, will have to keep an eye on that.

Part problem is that we have a candy jar that is located ina central location that everyone wants to keep and someone supplies iwth all teh BEST candy every day, its literally 4 feet from my office and I pass by it 100 times a day. The otehr is that we have a HUGE snack drawer full of whatever people bring in--junk. I have tried to offest this by allowing myself 1-2 pieces candy in the afternoon for less than 100 calories and filling my desk drawer with carrots/celery, apples but then sometimes --like yesterday it doesnt work.

I guess the only way to figure out what to do about it and why I am doing it is to document it so ok so yesterday (from memory) I had:
~6 rice krispie treats that were drizzled wtih chocolate
2 chocolate riesens
4 dove hearts
4-5 pull n peel twizzlers
3 chocolate mint patties

sooo not good
 
Olux-thanks, yeah I am trying to learn my lesson, thinking about how much I ate yesterday made me ashamed, actually I will probably documetn it so I can reflect the next time I get into that pattern. I answered in your diary regarding careers etc. Oh and the freaking history majors NEVER have to study, the science majors have to do the real work!!

Well today is a new day, woke up not feeling best, tried not eating, that didnt help so then made DD and I breakfast, a large one spark said 300 but I am counting 350 as it just feels heavier so maybe I was off on something. Hope to get to the gym later while DD is sleeping and on + it is sunny out today so I will take her for a walk if its not too icey.
 
Hey! Thanks so much for your suggestion regarding pharmacy. I shadowed at a retail pharmacy (Like a walgreens) and hated it. I'm hoping I can do some work inside a hospital to see if there is enough of a difference for me to like it. If it doesn't work out, I'm just worried I'm in a little too deep into my major to change. Maybe I can do something like what you do since you seem to like it! :)

ANYYYWAYYY school talk stresses me. HAHA. SO I just wanted to say that by weigh in on Tuesday we need to break this weight bouncing business that's been going on. Let's get down a pound or two by Tuesday and make it stick! I'm tired of seeing 157/158 and I'm sure you're tired of seeing yours move as well! GRR. GAME FACE TIME. GAMEE FACEEEEE. UUUUghhhh

I think it's a great idea you wrote down all the food when you had your mini binge. I do the same and I think it helps me. I know we're both smart and logical people. Sometimes when I'm throwing the bad stuff into my mouth, I think, "UGH this is so bad for me!" However, I can't stop! I just keep eating and eating. I eventually finish and then I feel horrible. We know it's bad yet we do it anyway. That's just our human trait I guess - I've really found though that letting myself eat a piece of candy or a bag of chips every once in a while helps me not go crazy when I see lots of yummy food. At home, my mom is so great because she doesn't have any junk food. I'll walk into the kitchen to look for something bad but there's nothing there. At that point, I'll either walk back to my room because I don't want to chew on celery, or do something active. I think if you don't give your body the CHOICE to eat bad stuff, you won't. Just get rid of it! :) Or hide a few bad things just in 1 cupboard for when you want to treat yourself a little. Anyway, sorry it was so long.

Hope your weekend goes well!! :waving:
 
food right on, I am having more substantial meals but no real snacks so far. For lunch I was happy to have a peanut butter and jelly sandwich which is VERY atypical for me but what I had planned didnt look good so I figured a smaller portion of a more calorie laden food would be ok if I stopped it at that and I did so I am happy with that. I am at 1100 so far today with a substantial turkey pasta planned for dinner coming in at almost 500 cals but still within good reason.

Did excellent on activity today, took Lillian to the gym and followed her around track, played basketball, ran, swam etc it was fun she really liked it. She is just getting to where I think she is old enough to do that, ebfore posponing nap (only time they have kid hours is around nap helllloooo) was a recipe for disaster. We did that for 1.5 hours then I was in sauna for about 20 then I did elliptical for 30 followed by 10 weights and 5 stretch, I had planned for more but I was tired and wanted to get home.
 
Hey you, i thought i dropped in a cpl days ago but it appears my post never made it?Anyway Im so sorry I havent been around, I do think of you often, I just need to make it here to post...Will come back later and catch up.
 
Despite an EXTREMELY stressful event last night I did not binge or do anything dumb, I had a portioned 120 cal sorbet while watching a movie after the event and stopped at that WAHOO. I am also seeing -2lbs today on scale though not positive it will stay that way it IS a downward trend :party: I havent seen in close to two weeks!

so my sister who is in middle of a divorce and mother of two young kids 14mo apart was in a bad spot, with no support from deadbeat, no job, and a van being repo'd so we decided to help her out to make it possible to leave the :piggy: boy for good and bought a car for her to use, nothing fancy or nice but my husband did all the work on it to bring it up to speed, we left it as our car and insured it with the understanding that she could choose to save and buy it from us, clean our house once a week for a year to earn it, buy her own different car and return it to us, or just 'use it' for as long as she wished years whatever until she figured something else out. I found out last night she was DRINKING AND DRIVING IN OUR CAR ON OUR INSURANCE. I had thought she was and she absolutely 100% lied to me and then last nigth my mom called to tell me the truth :banghead: when she discovered it. Of course this caused a rift between my mom and sister and all sorts of other garbage and in the mean time my other sibling was arrested because they were underage adn were drinking WITH her and since my mom took the keys they decided to walk down town and the cops decided to check them out and found a minor intoxicated :banghead:. My sibs and I couldnt possible be more different if we were different species :toetap05: I try to do a good thing and it totally bites me :svengo:. I of course now have to take the car back because I cant have her doing this on our insurance and well, she lied to me outright and broke my trust. I know somehow I am going to end up the bad guy in all of this :blush5: mess. Why does my family have to be sooo screwed up *expletive* maybe we should move across country so we only know the nice things about our families and arent involved in teh drama (whcih I try so hard to stay out of!!). Glad this site is anon and maybe now I have gotten it off my hcest I can put it behind me for the day. UGH
 
CONGRATULATIONS ON THE WEIGHT LOSS! So nice to see the number drop! I'm hoping it sticks for you! :hurray:

I'm so sorry to hear about your sister's situation - but even more sorry for what happened to you. I can't imagine how hard it must be to do a genuinely good deed for someone you care about, just to have them take advantage of it. I hope you don't feel bad for what you decided to do. You and your husband did what you could to help her but her actions are her own fault and she shouldn't be mad at you or your mom for what happened. Anyway, I hope the situation gets resolved.

Happy thoughts! :) -2LBS! :)
 
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