Hey all, I'm not exactly new here, but just cant find my old account. New username, new beginnings I suppose! 
My story is pretty frustrating to me, as I've had ups and downs with my weight, going all the way from a pant size 8 to a 4, back up to a 10, and now at 10-12 at 5'3" and 169 lbs. WHAT THE F!
I find myself here again because over the past few months, I dropped from 160 lbs (size 8) to 152 (size 4-6) in 3 months, decided I look good now - let the winter take over and now since this past fall, I've gained it ALL BACK! I am now at the heaviest I've been, wearing size 10-12 and weighing 169-171 lbs
This ridiculousness is all because I lost my motivation and became LAZY - I need to get back control and motivation and this is me starting yet another journal after a couple of years have come and gone so all of you can kick me in the butt and not let me get lazy!
I think my last "diet" restricted so much, I limited myself to 1500 cals a day, went to the gym 5-7 days a week and frankly I think I burnt myself out. I lost less than 10 lbs over 3 months, which isnt crazy, but my problem is that when I see progress... I cut myself a little slack, rather than push forward.. then before you know it, I eat more and stop working out and now I'm at the heaviest I've ever been in my life and as I'm reaching 33 years old, this needs to stop. Immediately.
My plan of attack: As I've also lost my fitness as I'm SO out of shape now, I'm going to gradually incorporate very small doses of exercise back into my life until it becomes a part of it naturally.. and I'm going to stick to 1300-1500 cals for now, until I start exercising more. My foods will be "loose" in the beginning as long as they remain under calories, and then slowly tighten up. If I ever feel like I'm restricting too much I'll allow myself to eat a little more, but make wiser food choices.
My goal: to get back to a size 4-6 in 5 months or less, size small tops. My body doesnt go by weight - after all, my skinniest in my adult life was a size 4 at 149 lbs. I can probably go down in clothing sizes quickly, probably in 2-3 months. But in five months, I'd like very much to at least TRY to get down to 130 lbs. I havent been 130 since I was 17 years old (size 3-4) so we'll see. I just want to fit into my old jeans again.
And stay there. I need your help.
Ok - this is a serious venting entry, so sorry... I'm very surprised if any of you take the time to read this, but if you do, please know I appreciate it and I expect all of you to yell at me on a daily basis whenever I seem like I'm losing motivation again. I need to take control and change my life and every time laziness comes in, I need to ask myself "Fit, sexy and healthy! HOW MUCH DO I WANT IT?!"
My story is pretty frustrating to me, as I've had ups and downs with my weight, going all the way from a pant size 8 to a 4, back up to a 10, and now at 10-12 at 5'3" and 169 lbs. WHAT THE F!
I find myself here again because over the past few months, I dropped from 160 lbs (size 8) to 152 (size 4-6) in 3 months, decided I look good now - let the winter take over and now since this past fall, I've gained it ALL BACK! I am now at the heaviest I've been, wearing size 10-12 and weighing 169-171 lbs
This ridiculousness is all because I lost my motivation and became LAZY - I need to get back control and motivation and this is me starting yet another journal after a couple of years have come and gone so all of you can kick me in the butt and not let me get lazy!
I think my last "diet" restricted so much, I limited myself to 1500 cals a day, went to the gym 5-7 days a week and frankly I think I burnt myself out. I lost less than 10 lbs over 3 months, which isnt crazy, but my problem is that when I see progress... I cut myself a little slack, rather than push forward.. then before you know it, I eat more and stop working out and now I'm at the heaviest I've ever been in my life and as I'm reaching 33 years old, this needs to stop. Immediately.
My plan of attack: As I've also lost my fitness as I'm SO out of shape now, I'm going to gradually incorporate very small doses of exercise back into my life until it becomes a part of it naturally.. and I'm going to stick to 1300-1500 cals for now, until I start exercising more. My foods will be "loose" in the beginning as long as they remain under calories, and then slowly tighten up. If I ever feel like I'm restricting too much I'll allow myself to eat a little more, but make wiser food choices.
My goal: to get back to a size 4-6 in 5 months or less, size small tops. My body doesnt go by weight - after all, my skinniest in my adult life was a size 4 at 149 lbs. I can probably go down in clothing sizes quickly, probably in 2-3 months. But in five months, I'd like very much to at least TRY to get down to 130 lbs. I havent been 130 since I was 17 years old (size 3-4) so we'll see. I just want to fit into my old jeans again.
And stay there. I need your help.
Ok - this is a serious venting entry, so sorry... I'm very surprised if any of you take the time to read this, but if you do, please know I appreciate it and I expect all of you to yell at me on a daily basis whenever I seem like I'm losing motivation again. I need to take control and change my life and every time laziness comes in, I need to ask myself "Fit, sexy and healthy! HOW MUCH DO I WANT IT?!"
keeping it off? I have no clue...
and in turn, my boyfriend and I ate so much of it since then. Not smart. I dont even really like baked goods. grrrr girl problems!
