Saturday, March 17, 2007
Weight: 243.4 - down 0.6 from yesterday, but still Day #30 of Plateau #2
BP: 117/74 Pulse: 50 Still Great
Energy balance for yesterday: 2,530 calories in, but 3,365 calories out, for a deficit of 835 calories.
Quality of food yesterday was 4 out of 5, but balance was slightly high on the carb side: 56% carb; 19% fat; 14% protein, and 4% alcohol. Well that's what happens when you have Chinese Food for dinner! The fat was mostly the good kind, though, and the carbs came primarily from fruit and a little whole grain spaghetti.
Strangely, I'm not in a panic about this plateau. For one thing, I can't really figure out anything to change. So far in March, I've eaten more healthy than any month so far. I'm hardly starving myself - 2,500 calories a day is actually over my RMR -- I have a deficit every day because of exercise, which is averaging around 500-600 caloires a day. I'm not losing strength, either in cardio or weights; in fact, the opposite is happening, though not in leaps and bounds. I'm drinking enough water. Yes, I know a glass of wine my impede my progress just a little bit, but geez, yesterday I even passed up my ritual Friday double scotch.
So I think I'm just going to be patient a little bit more before I go running to Steve for help. My goal for this month is to get to 242.5, and I'm actually not that far away from it. I still have faith I'll make it for March, though just barely. In the first week of this month, I was telling myself, "gee, maybe I'll even lose 5 lbs. this month!" But now I see the wisdom of setting a long term goal that takes it VERY slow.
I think I may be the oldest person on WLF. The other forum I frequent, bodybuilding.com, has a small handful of people older than I. I wonder why that is. After all, it's not as if there aren't a ton of obese 50 and 60 year olds, even though a lot of them have died off by now.
My theory is that it's just too damned hard for most of them. I think the vast majority of weight-loss science is based on people from 20 to 40 years old. Their bodies are still somewhat pliable -- I know mine was back then. Most importantly, it's easier to change bad habits. Each decade you live with a bad habit, it becomes slightly more ingrained -- psychologically, of course, but also physiologically -- and the two of them make a potent combination. That's why at the gym I don't see many people my age who are working really hard to get healthy. Most of the older people at the gym are already healthy; the ones who aren't, tend to stay out.
I know that's a pretty grim assessment, but it's what I see, day in and day out.
I don't want to be one of those people who have given up, though. Because I know the next step all too well. Your body begins to break down. You start by accepting the pain and frustration of limbs and joints and organs that don't work right. And then you accept death.
Dylan Thomas's words ring in my ears -- "Rage, rage against the dying of the light."