Finding Cerella

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Hey cin; Do you think the elliptical is helping with your weight loss or do you think it's more of a toning thing? yup I'm looking for an excuse to get off of mine for good....... I really hate that thing lol.......
 
Im off to work - yippee _ I so wanna be done - I already gave my notice I was asked to hang around for the summer nad i said yes but I am done...ya know...Im gonna tell her today I dont wanna hang around anymore - I wanna be done for August - I need to re group and such as the ball has started rollign with the new job...plus ive made my decision an di am miserable now and I want us to part as friends and such...

 
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hillbillylee said:
Hey cin; Do you think the elliptical is helping with your weight loss or do you think it's more of a toning thing? yup I'm looking for an excuse to get off of mine for good....... I really hate that thing lol.......
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I honestly think it is more toning than anyhting else:)Remeber back in Jan when I purchased my first one - my body shaped changed drastically from jan and on...Ive really toned up and shifted my body alot since even just using it daily for tha past 3 weks or so but as far as the weight loss I dunno - Ive been at a stand still now for a week or two and I havnet changed anyhitng...and I use that elliptical for like 7 miles on a lazy day to like 10 or 11 = miles on a good day:) I think since Ive been using it reagularly like daily over that 3 weeks Ive lost abt 5 lbs or so...
 
Good morning Cerella :)

good luck at work today. Lots of good things are happening for you, i'm so proud of you!! you've worked hard and you seem so happy lately :)

I could really use your support/advice, could you stop by my diary when you get a chance?? thank you!!
 
Hang in there with work. Working out a notice is the hardest thing in the world & a lot of places prefer you not to as soon as they hire someone else. Any idea if they have found your replacement yet? If so I would mention your desire to leave. They may appreciate not having to pay two people.. you & the replacement.. at the same time just to fulfill your two weeks.

Just remember its going to be helpful to have that reference in the future so burning bridges is rarely a good thing.... even if you do want to just torch that sucker!
 
Howdy Cerella,,
Like hilly said that elliptical is a pain I have trouble doing it I dunno if it is the boredism or the spaghetti legg feeling lol.I know when I stick to my diet plan that I post here and walk 3+ miles a day for say 5 days you can lose 2-4 lbs a week depending on how much you need to lose but I love to walk when I have a walking buddy to talk to I can walk the dog a few times a week but having I person to talk to I would do it 7 days.
You are doing gr8 and by looking at your pics you can see it.Hope you have a nice day and love the siggy,Tammy
 
My siggy line is totally how ive been feeling lately...Today I am off...I dunno man - I jsut got alot of life in my face right now...My body is changing and that scares the crap outta me it is noticable...im gettin more attention and Im getting smaller - I can totally see it - My boobs are like so in my face rihgt now!!!

WOrk situation sucks - I dunno what to do man - maybe i will work only part tiem as I need some income till the other jobs starts - ie - I need to get interveiwed - go through training and obtain my class 4 license not to mention I need to go to a one day work shop that is 100 bucks before i cna even start working and all this adds up to money which I dont have in the first place and wont have at all if I stop working - Im so stressed it sucks...

Im also feelign lately liekI really just wanna meet someone and such which scares me as well...

Im vulnorable and weak and scared and run down...

And there is some other shit but im not gonna post it...*SIGH*

I also wanted to add tha twhen I feel this way it makes me wanna run back to the x...a friend of mine set me straight and told me that at least Im smart enough to not do that and know better - HA HA HA
 
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My body is changing and that scares the crap outta me it is noticable...im gettin more attention and Im getting smaller - I can totally see it - My boobs are like so in my face rihgt now!!!
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This part should make you sort of happy.....

The other things I hate to see anyone going through that. I'm going after interview after interview and it just feels like a rut.

As far as the x........I have found that most of the time X's should stay X's..... I hope tomorrow or.... today rather is a better day for you.....
 
ok cerella you're getting to a point in your weight where you before sabotaged yourself. i bet the circumstances are bad but just look what you've been doing past few month. reread your diary :)

as for ex...you definitely know better. you can definitely do better :) just start saying to yourself: "i'm worth it"

and believe me my friend you are worth that everything good and wonderful happen to you :)
 
That's true what Lena said, you're worth a good man and you're worth being a healthy slim weight and looking great and getting lots of looks. NO SABOTAGING!

Do mind if I ask what's the class 4 license for? All I can say is normally jobs that require some sort of license or training course (even a one dayer) pay more than jobs without any sort of particular qualifications like that. I used to live check to check before I went to law school at age 28, though I didn't have 2 kids so I can only imagine the stress you're under. I have many friends working with what you're working with LOL. They do have to hustle to make it and its hard. I have one friend who I buy all her daughter's clothes, whenever I go buy my baby something I go look in the big kids section for her. H is thinking about getting a CDL license (for driving trucks) for when he goes back to work (yup he stays home and takes care of the baby..what a life). I have another friend who received public assistance while she got her college degree. It did help that she lived with a guy (a creep) who paid many of the bills, but she also has 3 teenagers to support with an ex-husband who was homeless for a period and living on the school bus he drives (and I'm not kidding here). Hope things go better for you. If there's any way you can take that time off would be good as you sure deserve it and need it.
 
Hoping your day is wonderful today & that you remember the X is an X for a reason. There are way too many potentials out there to dwell on crap that aint working. You deserve better & will get it, if you keep yourself open to it.
 
Hey Cerella, we all go through those periods where we're vulnerable and weak, but inner strength shines through and you have that in spades. what you're going through right now is a strengthening process. You're figuring out who you are and what you want and it has you a bit vulnerable, but the end result is strength, contentedness, and hapiness. Embrace it.
 
I wont go back to my x - I never will agian - I am just sayign that these are the past triggers that made me do so - I have and am learning what my triggers are and such - and yes x's are x's...and in fact I always tell my friends that x's are x;'s fora reason...mine especially - Ive been through fuckin hell wiht him and dont plan on going there agian...Im happy and confident in general now - Im just going through some shit i need to deal with...Most of it is just scary...I hate change good or bad...Im more confident na dhappy than Ive been ina loing time pregnancey included so we are talkin like 4 fours...my friend Karen was commenting on it last night - she can see my changes and is happy that for once I am happy and honestly happy it shows in my face and actions nad words...Ive obtained happiness without my x and plan on keeping it that way...

My boss is cool with my descision so I think what i might do is take my week or so off and then return part tiem under the table for cash in hand...

The job is to work within this society as developementaly disabled care aid - assisting them in an independant environment and indepent living...this is what i want to do but I wanted to do it with seniors...so this is a step towards that it is my footint he door and it is an opportunity I couldnt give up or not try...I need class four as a requirement because all the houses take everyone out and all staff need to be able to drive the vans to assist in outings and such...and first aid course is directly for the work i will be doing...and I cannot work until I get my first aid...

This is the job I wanted to go back to school for and as it turns out I can get hired and trianed under the schooling i already have which is great...
 
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yep, x's are x's for a reason! yours put you through too much s***...I know there are better things for you on the horizon!

WTG on the workout Elliptical Queen, wear your crown proudly :)
 
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